starr

30 seconds to mars is a WONDERFUL band and both cds are amazing. they are my favorite band ever and yes jared leto is an awesome vocalist. i havent been a fan for a super long time but it has been a while and i get to go to my first to shows for them in 11 days! im quite excited.

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i gots one too http://www.myspace.com/stitches_suicide

hello joel....my name starr and i LOVE your icon its really funny hahahahaha...ok...yes..well hello *hugs*

well...i am at school...and i have nothing to do..so i'm gonna make some stuff up i think....it doesnt have a title...and it sucks....and its melodramatic "Just do it already!" a voice screams at me. It is my voice. I stare at myself in the mirror. Tears streaming down my face, my brown eyes red and glossy. My mouth quivering and gasping for breath. My pale hand holds a sharp kitchen knife. My right side reflecting in the silver. Underneath my black sad machine shirt, my heart is sick, yet beating rapidly. It is more anger than anything else. My sobs echo in the bathroom. I couldn't believe myself. Lost and confused amongst a group of fakers. I want out and I only know one way. The knife is lifeted to my neck, the jagged edges resting there. I swallow hard and take one last look at myself. My left hand picks up the black wireless phone and my fingers dial the 10 digit number i know too well. "Hello?" a deep voice came. Between sobs and gasps, i manage these words, "I love you very much, never forget that ok?" and with that i hang up. I am back to blankly staring. My eyes shut...My sense of touch opens up stronger...and I felt a small sting............ yes....melodramatic....something stupid....but....i dunno....how should i fix it?

i'm not allowed to be on the interent because my sister THINKS i froze the computer but I DIDN'T...dont ask...she thinks its my fault that it did that and when i explained how it wasn't, she realized that i was right so she added, "oh ya..i forgot..nothing is EVER your fault" so it pissed me off... and the GDA.....greendayauthority.com forum......www.greendaycommunity.org....ya..that's it...and one of the mods on there is named joey...and he doesn't like anyone....he wants people to kill him with a rusty pencil sharpener..o.O.... and my friend alan wants a sandwich.....i think someone should make him one cause i'm not....

guys are super difficult and really confusing...they play with ones emotions and it drives me insane..but i can't say that girls dont do that cause we do.....its sort of an equal emotional sharing type thing...we both do it...girls just voice about it more often cause we whine a lot..hehe

now i am banned from the internet at home...so i am at school..updating..cause i have nothing else to do....and someone on the GDA is being evil to me...and locking out my threads....not nice...

well..at the moment..i am in school..and umm...in web mastering? yesh..i think it's evil that they wont let us go to the library during lunch..and eric is reading over my shoulder....anyway..i thought i'd put this here for a luffly update....

im having the weirdest worst relationship right now......i thought i'd say something....i need to vent

ive felt the worst pain i could feel...grant is done with me....scott..this kid...drove from louisana to see me...me and grant were still frozen...and i told grant about that today...and well..amy summed it up for me... "he froze yall you know damn well that means that you were on a break and what you did was okay. you did nothing wrong, so stop feeling shitty when grant is the one being the asshole and is the one that wont talk to you." i dont know what to do..but this is the worse ive ever felt since my grandma was killed.....

AMY IS HERE..her mommy wont let her stay another night but too bad for her mommy cause im keeping her hostage here wheather they like it or not....so HA....yesterday was interesting.....i dont want to type it all now but i will later....and grant has been at some girls house all day.....drinking coffee....i want coffee...but with him that worries me somehow.....

....old green day doesnt suck!! neither does new green day..but still..ya'll are so harsh on them.....at least they succeeded

yess yes yes ....i went to the mall today with scotty and mikael and peter and it was fun. scott bought me some stuffs.....which was luffly...it was fun today..and i severely miss grant....we had the best conversation yesterday..i cried a little....ughhhh i miss him so badly......*screams* I LOVE BILLIE

probably cause my parents wouldnt let me on the computer...at all...after i signed up on here....and now that i dont live with them....im always on ...lol