Damn, it's time for an update:
Well, I have to say lots of things happened...
The main is...Rok...what else could it be, lol...
Anyway...nothin happened between us...so I was feelin down and stuff...and yesterday I sent him a message (sms)...I asked him what he thinks about us and stuff...but he didn't reply...
Today...he started a convo at msn about an hour and a half ago!! He said he got my sms but not in the whole piece...so...we talked at msn about the whole thing...
Ummm...he said that he definitely don't want to be in a relationship cuz he has too much shit around him right now...plus he's not in love with me...but okay...I asked him what now...and he doesn't know! Urgh, how typical... The guy is just too confused...he's the most confused person I've ever met...even more than me...so you know it's bad...lol...
Anyway...I guess I'll just leave him alone...let him start talkin to me or whatever when/if he feels like it...even though it's a bit hard for me but...I'll cope with it...
I told him that I like him...and that he's torturing me with his confusion and stuff...he said he doesn't wanna torture me...Idk... I guess I can't expect a lot of him but...I'm strange when it comes to this kinda things...I'll just persist in it and won't really let go till it's really finished... Yeah, I guess I like to suffer, lol...
However, I'm goin out tonight...gonna get drunk...can't wait...I really need that...just to let go a bit...
Oh, today I went shopping...I was lookin for prom dress but couldn't find anything that I would like...lol...so yeah, I'm thinkin about wearing pants and possibly a corset...I think it would look good also...plus I think I would be the only girl not wearing a dress...
What do you think?
