diana

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Allie is just this special kid ( )...she's so awesome and yes, like Jojo said, we all missed her around here! Her abscence made a big whole here at LPF...

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Jeez...actually, your new sig is pretty cool...I don't really know how you did that background and it looks pretty interesting...Chaz is maybe a bit too...hmmm...he should be more clearer, if you know what I mean...but, in general...looks good! :thumbsup: Jojo...yes, I do appreciate your advices...always...I actually need them! Thank you for that! *squeeze hugs* Well...I think I should start to have some fun...I have to start with something new cuz I'm always avoiding new and to me unknown stuff, you know...this sucks, believe me... Often I'm just wondering why I'm like that and I don't like this shit! Idk...However, maybe I don't want to lose him but...I know he won't push me into something I wouldn't want to do...And I think some experiences won't harm me, right? And...I know that I shouldn't rush with sex...and he is not rushing either since he knows I'm a virgin...but there are other things too...you know what I mean...and...yeah...Emmm...in my head is something like this...I don't want the guy to please me if I can't please him, you know...and if I won't do something so he enjoys...I'll feel strange...Idk...like I said, we'll see where things are gonna go... But I too know that everybody is like overreacting with that first sex thing...I don't want to expect much cuz there's a good posibility that I'll be disappointed...and cuz I don't want to be...I don't really care about first sex...Look, Idk...I'm just strange...my head is all filled with bunch of crap and...I know I'm thinking about everything way toooo much...I'm always complicating...eeerrrrr, do I really have to be like that?!? Damn...

...-2270... I don't know yet how I am...lol...but fine in general...thanks... It's nice to hear that you had some awesome vacations... :thumbsup:

...-2266... Yeah, I'm just listening to qwerty...pretty good quality, yes... :thumbsup: And thanks for that link! Allie...hey!

Yes, that's right...we're gonna be lovers...at least for now...no, it's not bad but...I just hope I'll be able to handle that good... And I completely understand him...

I don't know yet...*shrugs*

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Thanks you guys! Mattie...*hugs back* Update: Okay...sooo...I went to Miha's place and been there till now practically...that's like more than 8 hours!! Yeah, it was pretty interesting...first, there was nothing special going on...we just tried to chat or something and then this ex school-mate came to show Miha her driving licence she just got...I was like okay, I don't have to bother much...so we were chatting a bit when Miha ( I think) came up with the idea of smoking pot...Teja was really into it and so we went outside to smoke some...it was my first time and we all together smoked 3 "scrools" of it...but it really didn't have any effect on me...or on anyone else...lol... However, she then left and we were left alone...emmm...it's hard to explain what happened next but later we somehow had this conversation...He is not capable of any kind of relationship right now cuz he has enough of it for now...he said that it's just not worth it...(he have some bad experiances...) And he even don't want to fall in love at this moment...that means that he can't really have any deep feelings for me or anything...so we somehow agreed that we'll be just something like lovers, you know...just to keep it easy, to have fun...Of course I was a bit disappointed but I guess I kinda expected that to happen...Then we were just lying on his bed for like...uh...more than 2 hours, I think...and it was really nice...we were often just looking in eachother eyes...and I must say, he has this beautiful green eyes...so sweet...and from his look I'd easily say that he has some feeling for me but...I know that he doesn't have them or he doesn't want them to have...And I don't want to bother him too much cuz I don't want him to get hurt again...Idk... Oh, and he said that it won't always be like that...he'll change his mind eventually, there's no doubt...so I guess there's still some hope...but we'll see what's gonna happen...I think that I too couldn't be in some serious relationship right now so...I guess it's all good...the only problem is that I think that I fell in love with him and it's a little hard...but I have to not love him...it's for my best, I think... And another thing...well, since he had this gf for a year and a half, he has had sex before...for many times...but I'm a virgin...and it's a bit strange for me, you know...we talked about it and he said that he doesn't want to have sex with me right away, you know...even if I wasn't a virgin...but, since we're gonna be lovers...there's of course much more then just kissing...and I have to get used to that...I mean...cuz my head is all filled with some strange thoughts that are stopping me at doing something more, you know what I mean...I guess he'll help me with that...he knows almost everything...he wanted to know and I just had to tell him what's going on... Well, what else could I told you...maybe I'll find later anything...or you can ask... :thumbsup:

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...-2229... Good morning? He he..my good morning time was at 7.30 am... Anyway, I'm just leaving now...see ya later...Bye!

Song To Say Goodbye - Placebo

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Waaa, this really looks awesome! Damn, I love your work!

Thanks you guys! I really appreciate your support...*hugs* Jojo and Willie...yeah, I know you 2 love blue...I though you'd like it... acdc...yeah, it turned out pretty cool...thanks!

Oh, hey, Cristina! (now I know your name, lol...) I'm just hopping by to see how you're doin...hope you're having some great time... :thumbsup: *huggles*

I'm glad it all went good... Go go, girl! *hugs* Update: A quick one...well, right now I'll go and wash my hair cuz I'm gonna met Miha in about an hour... Yeah...I hope all is gonna go well... Oh, and one more thing...last night I didn't sleep very well...I went to bed at 11 pm...It took me about 2 hours to really fall asleep... Then I woke up at about 7 am...crazy...meh...whatever...more update later...Bye!

I'm fine but I couldn't sleep well this night...it took me at least 2 hours to really fall asleep...

Fiddler On The Green - Jon Schaffer (Iced Earth) & Hansi Kürsch (Blind Guardian) Sad voices they're calling Our precious girl she can't be gone How bitter this morning When daddy's darling Went out and started her day Wasn't there a dream last night Like a spring never ending Still the water runs clear Through my mind On the field I can see a fiddler The fiddler on the green and the sad boy I took him too early Would you mind Would you mind Would you mind If I take you To be with you To be with you To be with you To be with you The sun seemed bright The air was clear The air was clear A trick of light Turned red into green She saw the light Her face was pale Her body smashed Her beauty's gone Isn't it a shame The reaper said He is quite alone here And still waiting for you Oh I really did fail for the first time Spoke the fiddler, poor old fiddler The fiddler on the green The fiddler on the green It would be nice… Take my hand Just hold my hand I'll take you there Your pain will go away

Fiddler On the Green - Jon Schaffer (Iced Earth) & Hansi Kürsch (Blind Guardian)

Hey, welcome to the LPF! I'm diana or Di...hope to see ya around often... Just make sure to have some awesome time! :thumbsup:

Funny...nicely made... :thumbsup: 9/10

Get It Faster - Jimmy Eat World

Ha ha, Mattie, this is hillarious...you again made me laugh like shit! (and yes, I know shit is not laughing, I guess...lol... :o ) However, glad you got your chicken and that you're happy... *huggles*