You want a long update? No? Well here you go lol
(its actually my myspace blog entry)
It's sunday and my holidays are over <.< gaaaay
I had a dream last night about failing a chemistry test again we wrote (I actually got chemistry tomorrow - 1st class <.<) and bout failing something else... and then when I got home I saw some kids of my fams friends sleepin in my bed (and I a. cant stand those kids and b. my room is MY room and NO ONE is allowed to be in there or even sleep if Im not ok with it lol) so yeah that pissed me off so much that I packed some stuff together and ran away - my fam and those friends who were staying here didnt really notice bc they were all sleepin, but as soon as they woke up and noticed Im gone there went lookin for me. uhm... the dream lasted pretty long... I remember running away from them and hiding with a friend and I'm not really sure if they found me in the end... it was just a dream tho for now... meh...
my past days were fine... I was studying shitloads for my DL...
Some days ago I've been at Carinas and we had some kinda chilling-night haha was fun... she mixed us some cocktails and stuff (we were 4 girls haha)
For some reason one of them (won't tell any names in case that you read that biatch xD) wanted to grab my brests from behind LOL freaky people lol
well I got some pics up if you havent see it... btw we had a 'shisha' (dunno if its also called like that in english) and yeh that's where the smoke comes from... it's not really smokin tho :s
Yesterday night I've been out with 2 of my girls... one of them, Tanja, is someone I've actually never thought to be friends again lol but she changed into the positive and we like each other now so its all good... so we've been first to the bar Castell where my met some of my 'old friends'. I love to be all fake and do like I care about them it's just fun (stupid people <.<) well anyways we had a drink there and then left again to the bar we actually wanted to go to: Mythos. I love this bar haha although it remembers me of a lot of stuff that have happend like a year ago it's still nice to go there, this bar just rocks! Angie and me just had a beer and Tanja another cocktail. We were talkin about random stuff school, what to do after school, life in general and of course guys haha
After that we kinda got hungry so we went to get some pizza
at 11pm we were forced to leave the restaurant because they were closing it so we went on the streets and acted stupid a bit haha Angie had to leave in half an hour so we thought it would be gay to go to another bar.
I got home at like 11.30-11.45pm and was pretty tired but still got on here.
For some reason I had an urge to cam so I chose my victim and camed with my kiwi haha was nice ^^ his cat is so cute haha aaww
I wasn't drunk... maybe sliiiightly but not even that... I thought I'd be drunk as hell because the first cocktail I had, had a bunch of tequila in it... oh well... lol
The past days Im also havin the thought in my mind to like really get drunk but then just when I start to drink some alcohol I think of the last time (I wasnt even drunk) I felt so sick that I had to... yeh you get what I mean, so that pretty much kills the urge of gettin drunk... meh... and just fyi I don't wanna get drunk randomly and I wouldn't even say it's for a reason but dunno... maybe it is for a reason... gosh whatever!!
Today I'm going to this dancing show from the B&G Dance Company were I used to dance myself for bout 6 years but stopped a few years ago... It's the first time I'm going to see any of their shows again after my "famous leaving" (long story) I'm pretty excited kinda...
Besides of that I'll try to study something for school and my DL... I'm kinda fearing of failing something... <.<
oh and just a side note... as everyone knows I'm not a smoker but for some reason I kinda tend to have a smoke when I go out (just one and only if it's one with either menthol taste or like not as strong as the normal ones) and yesterday i was tempted to have a normal one but I gave a promise that I will never ever smoke again so heck I'm not doing it... that's just a side note dunno if it actually means anything to....
anyways
school is starting tomorrow and I'm already now tired of its rutine that actually keeps me goin in some way and I freakin can't wait untill the xmas holidays!!!! Although that's still a fair while to go and I got a lot of tests in the meantime <.<
btw I just had a question up in my mind... how can you love someone although you can't be true to him/her and would pretty much brake every promise you gave him/her only to have your pride up and not feel bad if you dont talk/see that person??
cheers!
- Jos