Xblackwidow20X
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Beyond the Outside
The emptiness is growing within me.
It's making my life harder to be.
There's a spacefull gap on the center of my soul.
It influences the loneliness as a whole.
The middle of my world is full of damnation.
It changes my peaceful intuition.
I Hate these hurtful feelings cluttering my mind.
Always having the smiles being left behind.
Dark clouds now cover my sight through my eyes.
So my my ears will never hear my sad and painfull cries.
Wanting to banish all those who hurt me and you.
But can't for fear of what I further would do.
I hide my hate and pain beyond a suspicious smile.
Then hope no one will see my torment for a while.
Always lost in my world that continues everyday.
Feeling as if I am living it the harder way.
I try to climb out of this bleak pit.
only to find a way out in which I do not fit.
My head bulges with thoughts that make no sense.
The words spoken inside are always past tense.
The language is one that is ancient and old.
My heart is frozen from betral and becomes so dreadfully cold.
I never expose my inside emotions to anyone.
They are always hiding from the pain that will never be done.
Agony is always being followed with grief.
From this painful suffering there is no relief.
There are no thoughts of happy love or peace.
These transparent feelings are to blame for pain and from me they never let go or release.
No one shows honesty to me or even tries to care.
My life consists of these phony people and it's never fair.
Inside I am always crying and I am never getting rid of those tears.
Always dreading and doubting my true authentic fears.
Living like this day after day.
wishing and praying it soon will all go away.
My life lives on today with all this darkness inside of me.
One day I hope I will open up and from this distress I finally will be free.
terry O
The emptiness is growing within me.
It's making my life harder to be.
There's a spacefull gap on the center of my soul.
It influences the loneliness as a whole.
The middle of my world is full of damnation.
It changes my peaceful intuition.
I Hate these hurtful feelings cluttering my mind.
Always having the smiles being left behind.
Dark clouds now cover my sight through my eyes.
So my my ears will never hear my sad and painfull cries.
Wanting to banish all those who hurt me and you.
But can't for fear of what I further would do.
I hide my hate and pain beyond a suspicious smile.
Then hope no one will see my torment for a while.
Always lost in my world that continues everyday.
Feeling as if I am living it the harder way.
I try to climb out of this bleak pit.
only to find a way out in which I do not fit.
My head bulges with thoughts that make no sense.
The words spoken inside are always past tense.
The language is one that is ancient and old.
My heart is frozen from betral and becomes so dreadfully cold.
I never expose my inside emotions to anyone.
They are always hiding from the pain that will never be done.
Agony is always being followed with grief.
From this painful suffering there is no relief.
There are no thoughts of happy love or peace.
These transparent feelings are to blame for pain and from me they never let go or release.
No one shows honesty to me or even tries to care.
My life consists of these phony people and it's never fair.
Inside I am always crying and I am never getting rid of those tears.
Always dreading and doubting my true authentic fears.
Living like this day after day.
wishing and praying it soon will all go away.
My life lives on today with all this darkness inside of me.
One day I hope I will open up and from this distress I finally will be free.
terry O
