ConfusingWhatIsReal's Journal

Well ppl this is my new journal my old user is Mikelover but i don't even remember what email i had it under so i had to make a new user. Yea i missed the forums but im bac! anyways my life so far is both good and bad, my parents are assholes! yea they are, i dont even kno who to call me friends anymore except Cristina! (ImTheOneThatFalls) and my friend Keyla from skool, i love my bf! To thoughs who don't know me I'm a mix of a magg0t and some wat emo but hey im a cool person to get to know. I go to a skool where it's full of posers! except Cristina. if you want to know more bout me just IM me on diam0ndeyemagg0t.

 

my life today

 

it all started out well i went to my bf's house in the morning hung out there for a few then we walked to skool then from the other day one of my friend's jovan had saw me and gave me my earrings that he was holding from the other day since i had took them out for gym, knowing my bf he got all jealous or w.e nd then he told me why would i give it to a guy to hold that i should have had a gurl hold them or the gym teacher, but w.e he got over that and he's obviously talkin to me, Cristina and I were in art today yay you rock dude! well we were just joking around as usual always bothering a poser who is obssesed with MCR, and listening to muzik , of course we had to listen to my songs no life and eyeless. then after skool i went to my bf's house we hung out had fun joking around with his lil sister, and the funnest thing was after we joked around with her she fell to sleep so we decided to blast underoath and scare her it was the funniest thing ever i couldnt stop laughing then my mom called me bitching so i had to go home and herrei am writing almost the hugest essay of my life today lol. well my sig is dedicated to Cristina aKa Fang cuz woman you and me we'll get away with murder <3

 

 

Ashley

well hi, welcome back. Mikelover.... don't recognize the username... oh well.

lol, so you have a bunch of posers too at your school then as well, huh? Somehow I ended up in 2 classes with some. Idiots...

Cool, you have a bf. There's no one here that's interesting except for a few and they probably don't even notice me...

Nice sig by the way. Reminds me of Papa Roach.

I'm Erica by the way. See you around the boards!

Stupid mofo bitch! HAHAHA! You know I love you to death!

lol your back to a Noob. welcome back Mikelover...i remember you...

Today my days way okay

 

i woke up then went to my bf's house again lol, then we walked to skool, then do the same shyt everyone does in skool "learn" well in my case sleep, day dream, and fuck around lol, then came study hall, in our skool study hall isn't like alot of other study halls, we sit in a autoruim (however you spell it) and scream throw papers at eachother's heads and yea. then lunch, blah blah blah italian then art with my love! cristina! yay! we are so talented lmao more like Cristina is :thumbsup: um we made a lil something for you and i'll post it on at the end when im done and then Cristina and my "slogen" lol. and right now im eating mcdonalds , im such a fat ass ROTF. well imma bout to do my h.w so i'll write some more later. see ya. stay (sic)

 

Ashley

 

 

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hope we have a snow day tomo!!

hehe yay

glad you had a fun day

 

nice drawings =)

todayii's day was both great :thumbsup: and pissed me off

 

well i woke up todaii @ 6:10am to check to see if there was skool, i looked out the window and said to myself "yes snow!, i doubt there's skool" but to just be safe i turn the TV on i was waiting for one of the county's to finish but it was like 5 pages of skool closings for them but, once it was by the thrid page for skool closings, the alarm for the town went off and that meant no skool! woot! i turned the TV off right awaii and fell back to sleep. then my bf calls me like @ 11am and asks me wat i was going to do and i told him nothing, so i got up took a shower got dressed, and left the house to go hang out with him <3, then after hanging out with him for like 3 hours, he was wearing a hat and i didnt know why but i didn't ask he told me "baby i have a surprise for you." so he took the hat off and he showed me his other ear, he had got the other one pierced. omg he looks so flippin hot lol! i was so happy, then we saw our friends, Alison, Dee Dee, and Cristina so we went to go eat pizza, and after that our friends had to go, but after that me and my bf and his brother went to the movies, and then we came baq, once i came in through the door all hell broke loose (this is where my daii was ruined) my dad with his pissed off face and he looks at me and say to me in spanish "where were you?" and i tld him at the movies and that i got dropped off in a car. then he was like with who were you with so i told him and he was like going to have a pms guy version or something, then he was like go to bed already and i told him no cuz im not tired, and then he was like well since your not tired guess wat im not gunna get tired tomorrow saying no to you when you ask if you could go out, which is bullshyt and either waii ill just ask my mom, but he starting yellin so i just rolled my eyes and slammed my room door cuz i dont give a shyt lol, newaiis now im kinda tired so ill ttyl.

 

Ashley

sounded like hell fun until the end =(

sorry to hear that

my day today was horrible

 

well today my mom told me i have to move with her htis wekk to butler, nj, this sux for me bcuz i have toleave all my friends behind and my bf, i can't believe this is even happening, i just wish i t was up to me to stay but i cant. but i have to go think. guys if you can help me think of wat to do hw to keep me mind straight.

 

Ashley

oh man that sucks! Are you moving far away from where you are or just maybe an hour or 2 away? You might be able to continue to see them every now and then if you don't move too far. If you do, call every week or so. That's what I do because I can't see my best friend every week. (I moved 2 years ago about 1 hour away from my hometown). Well, if you need to talk, PM if you want to, OK? You'll make it through it and everything will work out well enough for you. Just hang in there.

HELLO AGAiN LPF WELL i HAVEN'T BEEN AROUND iN A WHiLE AGAiN CUZ OF MY RETARD COMP AS USUAL, WELL LATELY SOME OF THE CRAZiEST THiNGS HAS HAPPENED ME TO, WELL i HAD MOVED TO BUTLER, NJ LiKE i WAS SUPPOSE TO BUT i GOT LUCKY THAT i WAS ABLE TO COME BAQ TO MY HOMW TOWN!!! && THEN MY BOY FRiEND HAD MOVED TO FLORiDA BUT HE GOT LUCKY AND WAS ABLE TO COME BAQ! i WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE HiM THE OTHER DAY LiKE iT'S BEEN LiKE THREE WEEKS THAT HE HAS BEEN GONE BUT iT SEEMED LiKE FOREVER,BUT THANK GOD HE'S BAQ. WELL DURiNG THO'S THREE WEEKS OF HELL CRAZii THiNGS HAPPENED, SUCH AS ME GETTiN DRUNK iN MY FRiENDS HOUSE, SNEEKiNG OUT MY HOUSE WiTH MY CUZiN @ 2 iN THE MORNiNG AND COMiNG BAQ HOME AND NO GETTiN CAUGHT CUZ MY BROTHER WAS DRUNK SO HE DiDNT RELiEZE i CAME iN SO LATE, AND SO ON. WELL THE DAY i GOT DRUNK WAS ON THE 26TH OF DECEMBER && DONT GET ME WRONG HEY WE ALL HAVE OUR FUN ONCE iN A BLUE MOON LOL, THEN THE 27TH MY CUZiNS GOT DRUNK AND ME i JUST WAS SOBER LOL 24TH OF DECEMBER i SNOOK OUT WiTH ME CUZiN ELi SO WE COULD SEE HER BEST FRiEND THAT CAME TO ViSiTCROM NC, SO THEN WE STOOD HANGiNG OUT TiL 5 iN THE MORNiNG AND WE COULD HAVE STOOD OVER HER BEST FRiENDS CUZiNS HOUSE ANOTHE RONE OF OUR FRiENDS BUT SHE WAS BEiNG TO HARD HEAD AND DiDNT UNDERSTAND THAT WE COULD HAVE LiED SAYiN WE WENT TO CHRUCH iN THE MORNiNG SiNCE iT WAS CHRiSTMAS CUZ LiKE SOMETiMES OUR PARENTS ARE STUPiD AND WOULD HAVE BELiEVED US. SO NOW MYLiFE iS FiNE AND ALL i NEED TO DO iS PiCK UP MY GRADES iN SCHOOL SO i CAN PASS TO HiGH SKOOL. YES BECUZ NEXT YEAR i DONT WANT TO BE 15 iN THE EiGHT GRADE, iLL KiNDA FEEL LiKE AN iDOiT NO OFFENSE TO ANYONE THAT HAS BEEN LEFT BAQ MORE THEN A FEW TiMES BUT THAT'S iN MY OPiNiON. WELL NEWHO iM GUNNA GET SOME REST FOR SKOOL TOMO SO TALK TO YOU GUYS LATER

 

ASHLEY

current time is shit town jersey

5:44pm

 

Well I just came out the hospital good I was there since 10am

yeah really effin boring. I'm just here bored listening to Blood Pigs by Otep.

Yeah Cristina I'm listening to Otep, weird? Maybe.Well I look like a freaking

poke-a-dotted thing. I have red spots all over my face. Why? because I was

having this thingy thing that's kind of close to a seizure idk. And like I fainted

and like I couldn't breathe so that explains the spots. Yeah so I'm just bored so comment this if you'd like :thumbsup:

 

Ashley!!

 

P.S.- haha I love my avatar

I do too...lol. Hey just poped in to say my hi's. Hope your feeling better.

may 3,2006

 

well I'm just here listening to muzik. bored, as usual. OMG can't wait for summer. although im going to miss my bf very much he has to go tot florida to see his lil sisters. i have so much planned out. go to the mall walk around, get revenge on some bitches lmao, have sleep overs, ugh everything! ugh idk but today i've gotten very pissed off. cristina & i were talkin about how there are so many posers in our skool. the # 1 is this gurl name Maria Peña (biggest poser ot set foot on the face of earth.) she writes ont he bathrooms walls like "the nameless" has the slipknot converse and on top of that she has the slipknot messagner bag i was going to get for cristna, and like wtf she copied cristina's har style well after cristina got the hair style almost all the posers wanted the same thing so then did asses. I like her hair style but it doesnt mean im going to copy it.

the # 2 is Laura ik her last name. Ugh she swears she is a rocker but she isn't and she tried to be like a punk but she tries to hard and it makes her look stupid . poser! ugh and like se sees that me and my friend deedee have the dickies checker board purse so then she decides to get one and try to show it off like wtf? god get ur own shit. like hoesntly i would respect you if like ur not up anyone's ass tryint ot be like them just be urself dont copy other ppl cuz like it makes you look bad and shit.

the #3 is Sasha Antiquera, ugh i hate this gurl with a passion! really i do, she's going out wit my best friend Jose and i really want them to just break up already cuz she treat him like shit. Any ways she is so gangster and shit ans she swears she's a rocker, like she listens to slipknot and like i bet she cant even name all of the memebers besides corey and i bet she can't name the ex memebers. And like now she's listenignot AFI and everything like she doesnt deserve a guy like Jose he's my best friend and me and him always look out for eachother and If he were to be reading thsi like I think it's time for him just to let go of that gurl.

the # 4 poser is Alexis last name idk she tries to be all rocker and what not and she wears phat farm and like ew wtf i was the first person to have an eye brow piercing and then laura decides to pierce Alexis's eye brow and like I was like the unique one wit it and then like she comes wit it and kills everything and then some little seventh grader ends up gettin on i want to rip them off their faces. so yeah she's a poser and she's freakin annoying.

 

newhosers here I am again bored. Cristina I know if you read this you're probably like

sdfbsgjsdgb jhgfb i want ot kill Maria Peña!!!! neways I got to go comment on this if you'd like =]

 

Ashley

omg a a short quicky omg like another poser is some gurl name Carolina she's a just a rocker cuz she like some kid so she just became one to impress him haha loser

yes...

 

 

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