cyrillezhane ~journal

cyrillezhane

cyrillezhane

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Uhm this is my first time posting a journal here but I really don't care whether or not somebody would care read it.

Since I don't like writting twice I think I'm going to just link you to my very own Journal site. ^__^ I hope this is allowed but I already PM one of the mods here cocerning about this and I'm still waiting for their reply. :eek:

Anyway, so every update I make I'll just post links leading my Journal site and you can go back and comment here if you want to or comment there either way.

Actually, I'm really happy about this Forums cause I'm able to get in touch with a lot of people with the same interest as mine. On my Journal I only have few Linkin Park friends there and majority of them aren't that into Linkin Park or any other rock band whatsoever.

So when I update I don't get a lot of comments or sometimes I end recieving none since I post everything only about LP and such.

Well, it really doesn't matter to me if you will comment or not on my updates. What I want is somebody could read them in a way. hehehe...

Here's my Jounal btw: http://cyrillezhane.livejournal.com

Thank you and *** bless!!! :)

 
waiting4thesun

waiting4thesun

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hey, you win points for your sig :p i don't usually read people's journals that much, but you seem pretty cool, i hope to see you around :thumbsup:
 
waiting4thesun

waiting4thesun

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*whimpers and hides* i'm sorry!!! i'm not a stalker!!! i'm just a wee little bit bored :D and feeling rather kind and welcoming
 
waiting4thesun

waiting4thesun

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*whimpers just a little more*

ok i'm all right now :D

but yeah... wow off topic. lol. uhm, yeah hope to see you around, and yeah we are pretty nice here. a little crazy, but nice.

 
J

Jeezy

Active Members
Nice you started a journal...

just to tell you...your sig is nice....but it's a little bit too big...

have a nice time around here

 
cyrillezhane

cyrillezhane

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Thanks! Yeah I know its too big for a sig... Actually it's not suppose to be a sig but since my account demands it I decided to just put that up there until I manage to make one. That will be soon though. Guess so... hahaha... Take care! ^__^
 
cyrillezhane

cyrillezhane

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Thank you! I'll make another sig next time that will be much smaller to fit in. Its size is too big for a sig but that will be just for the time being until I manage to make another one.

Thank you for supporting my journal! And yes the video is hilarious. hahaha...

Take care!

 
cyrillezhane

cyrillezhane

New member
Update: Pushing me Away

Pushing me Away

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Whoa, what a day! I've never felt so relieved in my whole entire life! Now I really believe time heals. Thanks to our advanced, semestral break, me, my friends, and the other people involve had a chance to cool off and water down the tension. We had some missunderstandings and disagreements and I could tell we all responded to the situation very imaturely and selfishly.

At first I thought I was in the right track and I quickly became judgeful, pointing all the blame at my friends who seem to be half innocent and half guilty at the same time. I was hurt cause I thought I deserve to be. The way my sensei approached and consulted the issure to me was like as if I was the only one at fault yet in fact I was just a victim as well. I was accused unjustly not even given a chance to speak for myself in defense. This provoked me to confront my friends who were somewhat involve in the situation that I later found out guilty with their actions against me. I called them traitors in front of the whole cafeteria. I made them feel ashamed from what they did to me. I was crying so hard in the public not really caring about how I raised my voice at them while catching a lot of the people's attention there. At the height of my great disappointment where I thought nobody cares anymore, I found some of my friends remained at my side and continued to comfort me until the end. Sometimes the ones you thought who will leave you, suprisingly appears to be the ones who will stay by at ur side no matter what happens. And what's really touching about it is that they weren't siding at me or to anybody else. They were with me cause they know I was standing by the truth. They witnessed everything that happened and I'm somehow touched that they choose to stay on my side cause they believe me.

Yeah, I do regret everything. It's such a waste to end our relationship as friends with just that. I mean at the end we all found out that everything was all about missunderstanding each other and we were just carried away by the sudden events. Everyone of us accepted our mistakes and regretted everything that was said that day when we were all at stake and confused with what to do.

I planned to ask forgiveness first since I knew my friends pretty well that they won't take the first step to apologize. I knew that they are to proud to kiss the ground and accept their mistakes but surpirsingly they both said sorry to me before I had a chance to do it first. I prayed all night to the Lord to help me aplogize and say sorry but it seems that *** has already planned it all out in the first place. I guess the Lord knows that I am too ashamed to say an apology so he made my friends to do it instead. Really amazing.

If there is someone who really is so much affected in the issue I guess that would be me. We are all okay now. Me and my beloved friends but it seems like after that incident I realize I've paid a price after all. Right now I'm suffering from the avoidace of my bestfriend. We haven't been talking since then and I keep lying to her sometimes just to avoid talking to her. Now its all coming back to me. And what made it worse is that she went away for a convention meet so that's two weeks of no communcation. Well, she just came back together with my other classmates who attended the said convention meet a week ago and while we were chatting along our way home... she sounded very far. Even though we're just an inch away I felt she was so far away from me. She seem to be really different now than she was before. I felt like I was a stranger in front of her. I don't know what to do really. Now I feel like wanting her back than I did before. I admit that I've taken her forgranted and I can't believe she's doing back the favor to me. o_O Now I am trying to be what she wanted me to be, faking my smile, trying to be the best I can to please her, but now I see she's testing me and pushes me away.

I can't believe this. And what makes it more emo is that Linkin Park's P5hng me aw*y song seem to fit in my situation now. Man I feel so depressed. Though I'm happy cause my friends are there to help me (even those whom I fought with then) and adviced me still the pain never goes away. I'm so depressed... I feel rejected.



 
cyrillezhane

cyrillezhane

New member
Update: No Subject

Nothing much to update really but I just feel like typing something here for the sake of flooding this journal Lol. Anyway, I'm so happy today cause I was able to take a test on my science subject and recite my scripture memory verse (that was due last october) on time. Yehey!!! ^__^ It's a huge relief for me cause I don't need to worry about getting incomplete grades since I passed all of my subjects this quarter. Therefore I'm slowly getting to be a junior high next year!!! yay!!! I just wish I'll be able to maintain the momentum until school year ends. I don't want to be out of track again like I used to be....

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Anyway, I just realized that ever since I started searching pictures of Mike Shinoda on Yahoo, I began collecting a LOT of GIFs of him at the same time. There are a a lot more but I'm afraid to flood this entry so here's a few: Enjoy!

http://www.offtopic.forum/data/MetaMirrorCache/8aa9e270a0d67deffbb9056b94bb8068.gif
( more animated GIFs here: )

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cyrillezhane

cyrillezhane

New member
Update: Orange anyone??

What a rough day. I've been really busy in my studies (well I'm trying XD) since I'm supposed to be. No PACE test taken today but at least I was able to make one test for this week. I'm so proud of myself cause I was able to produce more stars compared last quarter and I'm really hoping to improve this and get a lot more better next time. Currently, I have 3 stars in math same as with my english and science. Two stars in Asian History and 2 more paces to go on that subject. Two stars as well with my Filipino and a 3 more then I'm done. With my Bible, I only need to finish 4 paces (according to my academic projection) and just a few weeks ago I was able to do that so it's set currently as a HOLD subject...

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Okay say goodbye to my previous sig:

http://www.offtopic.forum/data/MetaMirrorCache/759678b6c8ad4f0bff813582e874557d.gif

I really love this GIF which I personally made but it just didn't fit LPF's standards. Oh well at least I have something to replace it. Something I did just quick so expect I'll make another one. Something that's more creative and artistic. :eek:

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