Is she worth all this pain?

[DarkShadow]

I still love Abby. I always will. But now it's getting worse than it was before...She has a new boyfriend and they both eat lunch with me at school. They hold hands and lean on eachother during lunch. It makes me so jealous. Not to mention, this kid is a freak. He even picks on me and Abby doesn't even stand up for me anymore! I'm starting to think she's just faking our friendship. Oh ****, I've thought that ever since this **** started last summer. I've loved her since the beginning of sixth grade (2.5 years ago) but I never told her until last summer, although I gave her a bunch of hints during seventh grade. she's the most beautiful girl I have ever laid eyes on. She is really funny, cares about people besides herself, listens to what I have to say, helps me through hard times (mostly), and other than that, she's undescribable...she's just so perfect in every way...I would do anything for her. I would die, or kill for her...once I told her that if I ever shot myself, I would carve her name into the bullet so the world would know that she was the last thing to go through my head. I know that sounds scary, but I mean it with love...she'll always have a place in my heart....no matter what happens. I'm not obsessed, I'm just in love. But everyone tells me that I AM obsessed and it ****** me off. Even my psychologist tells me I'm obsessed with Abby. I feel like everyone is out to get me and it really ****** me off. I'm lonely throughout most of my life...I hardly have any friends anymore, and most of the friends that I have are just backstabbers. I just don't understand why Abby just doesn't love me...I don't understand why she just won't go out with me. My "friend" Tiffany says that it's because girls don't want to go out with someone who's obsessed with them...I'm starting to think that the fact that everyone at my school knows that I'm "obsessed" with Abby as they call it, is making all the girls not want to go out with me. I don't know what to do...I just feel like dying, but I really don't want to die...at all. I just hate my life so much and it sucks. Not to mention that Abby gets mad at me because I told her that my parents think that it's her fault that I got expelled for attempted suicide and having a hitlist. I don't really think it's her fault but it might be...is it her fault? What should I do? Is there any way to get her to love me? Is there anything at all that I can do? I need your help badly guys. I know you can help, I love you guys and you're like a family to me. So please help.

 

[stupidsoul1]

um...i dont want to offend you or anything but it does sound kinda like her fault.....

you are "crazy in love"

please dont hurt abbys bf...because i know sooner or later you will act on how you feel because thats what humans do

if u hurt him u hurt abby then you will lose her forever....

my friend liked my other friend and when she got a bf he got so jealous he said he was going to kill my friends bf with a electric fence...

please dont end up like that it wont be pretty...

 

[SNiPeRViRuS]

I found what you are fearfull of.

Anyways, bro, I wont say you are obssessed as that wont do anything helpful. You are just a little too concerned about this girl Abbagail. She is not worth it. She is scared that if your relationship doesnt workout, and she wants to break from you, you would go physco. You cannot force someone to love you. You have to move on. Move from the school or something. She is not someone you want to stay around. It sounds like you are too much of a friend. When something is like that, you cant have romance until you are much later. She wants to enjoy life and not stay with one person which is the opposite of you. You really do love her. She just likes the guys she dates and she wants to try out new guys every once in a while. Girls are like that. So are guys. Its just the age you are in. You cant help it. Nothing this age will last forever.

 

[DarkShadow]

I almost killed one of Abby's boyfriends from last year. Not just because he made me jealous that he was going out with her, but because he was a real *******. I'm not going to kill ANYBODY, though. Right now I just want to beat the **** out of Abby's boyfriend. Why? Because he makes me jealous by going out with her, He picks on my to show off in front of abby, and he's just a freakin loser.

 

[DarkShadow]

I found what you are fearfull of.
Anyways, bro, I wont say you are obssessed as that wont do anything helpful. You are just a little too concerned about this girl Abbagail. She is not worth it. She is scared that if your relationship doesnt workout, and she wants to break from you, you would go physco. You cannot force someone to love you. You have to move on. Move from the school or something. She is not someone you want to stay around. It sounds like you are too much of a friend. When something is like that, you cant have romance until you are much later. She wants to enjoy life and not stay with one person which is the opposite of you. You really do love her. She just likes the guys she dates and she wants to try out new guys every once in a while. Girls are like that. So are guys. Its just the age you are in. You cant help it. Nothing this age will last forever.

You have a point, but what am I fearful of?

 

[stupidsoul1]

you are fearful of losing abby i think that was what he was tryin to say

 

[darklinkinpark]

i think u should move on too. if he picks on u and shes not stickin up 4 u then shes not worth it. if shes like that as a friend then she'll be a lousy gf.

 

[DarkShadow]

Yeah, I am afraid of losing her, which is going to happen anyway...since we're going to different high schools next year... I'm going to miss her so much...I'm scared that I'll end up killing myself because of missing her so much...*sits in corner and cries*

 

[SNiPeRViRuS]

Dont. Bro, look at other girls, and try and forget. Sometimes ppl arent meant to be.

 

[DarkShadow]

I feel that me and Abby are meant to be....

 

[SNiPeRViRuS]

Well, if she doesnt feel that way, doesnt it seem kinda akward?

 

[DarkShadow]

Ok...this ****** me off....I saw this in Abby's profile.

I wish I could Find a guy who calls me ((beautiful)) instead of ((hott)). Who calls me back when I hang up on him. Who will lie under the stars & listen to my heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch me sleep. Wait for the boy who pursues me, who kisses my forehead, who wants to show me off to the world when I am in sweats. Who holds my hand in front of his friends. Who thinks I am the prettiest when I have no make-up on & insists on holding me around the waist. The one who is constantly reminding me of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have me . The one who turns to his friends and says "That's Her."

That's exactly what I do. I tell her she's beautiful, even if she looks like **** (like that's even possible)!!! Ugh why won't she just love me????!!??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???

 

[linkinpark-1]

I think what you have to do is act like you dont like her like that anymore. Then she will realise all the stuff that you did before, and start to miss it. It'll make her think about you more and probally in a different light. That's my advice, and I'm 99% sure it'll bring you closer.

 

[DarkShadow]

My sister said to do that...i don't know if it'll work though...I might give it a try...

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

I still love Abby. I always will. But now it's getting worse than it was before...She has a new boyfriend and they both eat lunch with me at school. They hold hands and lean on eachother during lunch. It makes me so jealous. Not to mention' date=' this kid is a freak. He even picks on me and Abby doesn't even stand up for me anymore! I'm starting to think she's just faking our friendship. Oh ****, I've thought that ever since this **** started last summer. I've loved her since the beginning of sixth grade (2.5 years ago) but I never told her until last summer, although I gave her a bunch of hints during seventh grade. she's the most beautiful girl I have ever laid eyes on. She is really funny, cares about people besides herself, listens to what I have to say, helps me through hard times (mostly), and other than that, she's undescribable...she's just so perfect in every way...I would do anything for her. I would die, or kill for her...once I told her that if I ever shot myself, I would carve her name into the bullet so the world would know that she was the last thing to go through my head. I know that sounds scary, but I mean it with love...she'll always have a place in my heart....no matter what happens. I'm not obsessed, I'm just in love. But everyone tells me that I AM obsessed and it ****** me off. Even my psychologist tells me I'm obsessed with Abby. I feel like everyone is out to get me and it really ****** me off. I'm lonely throughout most of my life...I hardly have any friends anymore, and most of the friends that I have are just backstabbers. I just don't understand why Abby just doesn't love me...I don't understand why she just won't go out with me. My "friend" Tiffany says that it's because girls don't want to go out with someone who's obsessed with them...I'm starting to think that the fact that everyone at my school knows that I'm "obsessed" with Abby as they call it, is making all the girls not want to go out with me. I don't know what to do...I just feel like dying, but I really don't want to die...at all. I just hate my life so much and it sucks. Not to mention that Abby gets mad at me because I told her that my parents think that it's her fault that I got expelled for attempted suicide and having a hitlist. I don't really think it's her fault but it might be...is it her fault? What should I do? Is there any way to get her to love me? Is there anything at all that I can do? I need your help badly guys. I know you can help, I love you guys and you're like a family to me. So please help. [/quote']

okay, this must be the wisest piece of advice, well one of them, i've givin to someone in my lifespan.

this chicks playin` ! ! ! she's play her bf to get to u! ! ! she sounds lyk a player no offense or anything.

I've had this happen to me, when I was in yr 8....shes playin` u....u must realise that...shes not worth all this pain....move on and find another girl if u can...

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

I feel that me and Abby are meant to be....

thats what i thought about my ex bf drew....it doesn't always work out the way u want it....lifes a game, u lose, get over it and play it again..

 

[DarkShadow]

I can't give up on Abby...I can't move on...I've tried with so many other girls, and they either ended up dumping me, or I dumped them because we knew I still loved Abby....My life is in shambles and it has been since 3 years ago...

 

[woodyloveslinkin]

just keep on trying......it worked the same way with me and drew...and my other ex-boyfriends.....I know how you feel..

You feel lyk u r romeo and juilet, but its the harsh reality, you have no other choice to move on after "Abby" had a boyfriend...

I know you not one to let Abby cheat on you, I don't mean to be harsh or anything, but its true.

I know it hurts, i know how deeply the knife cuts into your heart. I've been there and back several times, with Drew....

Be strong....

 

[DarkShadow]

you may be confused so I'll clear this up...me and abby never went out...we've only been friends...