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Leaving Islam: When truth comes in, Mullahs jump out the window
By Emir Reza
Monday, January 14, 2008
I was born in the early years of Islamic Revolution in Iran
and just before the start of Iran-Iraq war. It is safe to
say that the first music I heard must have been a
revolutionary music, and the first face I saw on our black
and white TV was that of Ayatollah Khomeini. I'm what they
call "child of Revolution."
My Father was a simple clerk and my mother a house wife,
both practicing Muslims and firm believers in Allah and
Muhammad. No blasphemy was allowed in our house and we were
perfectly convinced Khomeini was a holy man and a "favorite
of Allah and His prophet." It sounds funny to me now but
among my first childish drawings was the face of that old
man, turban, beard and all.
When I was growing up in the capital city, Tehran we had
two TV channels broadcasting for a few hours every day.
Recitation of Quran, call to prayer, religious sermons,
America- and Jew-bashing and more subtle forms of
propaganda were the usual themes of our "entertainment." We
got our first lessons in history of Islam from children's
programs. While providing entertainment our Mullahs never
neglected our "cultural education" either. Every week there
was a single episode of a heavily censored foreign TV
series, with dialogues completely reworked to show the
wretchedness and boredom of life in the West. Or we had our
locally made TV dramas aiming at depicting the true Islamic
lifestyle and highlighting its values. These values
consisted of eating less, giving more, being content with
the "will of Allah" (which in practice translated into the
will of Mullahs) and be ready to die for the cause of
Islam. At that time owning any sort of video player was a
crime. There was no satellite TV we had no other option but
to accept the Mullahs' version of the world evens. We were
ignorant beyond imagination.
At school from the day one we had a special teacher
appointed by the Mullahs to teach us Quran and Islamic
ideology. There were so many of these teachers and they
looked so much like our parents. They couldn't all be
wrong, we understood unconsciously. I remember quite
clearly that when I was just 12 years old our teacher told
us that it is permitted to kill a Jew. When we brought up
the practical difficulties of killing a Jew he hinted that
we may like to kill him first and leave the body in some
inconspicuous place like our school lavatories. I had two
Jewish friends at school. Fortunately I wasn't of a mind to
put the instructions into action. We were still too young
to take action by ourselves.
I used to carry a photo of Khomeini and Khamenei in my
wallet when I was a teen. I prayed five times a day, fasted
during Ramadan, attended our local mosque and listened to
the preaching of our local Imam. I was well on my way
toward fundamentalist. The efforts of Mullahs were
beginning to pay off. But in my case it didn't work out so
well, for the Mullahs.
My first doubts began to form when I was attending the
preaching sessions at our local mosque. I found the
language they used in speaking to "ordinary" people quite
harsh. The Mullahs were arrogant, proud and haughty. At
first I put this down as their reserve or one of the side
effects and manifestations of holiness. But in transactions
with ordinary mortals they treated us with disdain. What's
more, I expected great comradeship among those ordinary
young fundamentalist Muslims. What I discovered however was
something bordering on homosexuality. At the time not
having the remotest idea what homosexuality is and how a
homosexual behaves, I mistook these overtures for a very
special friendship in which you are supposed to stand very
close to your friends all the time and stare at them in a
very intense sort of way. This was doubtless the true
spirit of Islamic brotherhood. Later however I found out
that homosexuality is widely practiced in Islamic
Madrasahs.
As I grew up I began to get interested in the details of
Islam. I thought that I had to have good arguments ready at
hand for the conversion of infidels. For this I referred
first to Islamic books. Finding these texts enigmatic and
beyond comprehension of laymen, I referred this time to
Mullahs for guidance. Now to my great surprise and
confusion our Mullahs were capable of a wonderful
transformation of disposition. When they were preaching
they were generally content and calm and moderately
gracious toward their audience. However when in their
presence anyone showed the slightest iota of "doubt" about
any aspect of established Sharia law or Islamic practices
and doctrines, he would let him understand in no uncertain
terms and with sufficient signs of anger and a lot of
finger shaking, that questioning in Islam is allowed only
if it is intended to increase your conviction. Again I was
encouraged to view this as the true spirit of Islam and
following the example of Muhammad. I was told that Muhammad
himself and our Imams were capable of falling into
murderous fits of rage and displaying "outward signs of
furious anger." At such times heads rolled, literally.
This sort of treatment, now I realize, is intended to
intimidate Muslim youth into complete and blind obedience.
Suicide bombers are apparently "trained" and prepared by
this strategy. A good and pious Muslim is someone who
execute orders of Mullahs. His brain must be used to find
the best way of executing the order not for questioning its
intentions.
So I was not a good candidate for fundamentalism. I
questioned too much. I was given the cold shoulder and
retired from fundamentalism without achieving any "glories
in the eyes of Allah." Soon after I stopped my daily
prayers.
Still I was a Muslim. I was inclined to atheism but there
was always a strong "what if." After a lifetime of
indoctrination it was next to impossible to renounce Islam
completely so I decided to stick to Allah and Muhammad and
Imams without bothering to pray five times a day or fasting
during Ramadan.
This coincided with my entering university ostensibly to
study English literature. In reality it turned out we were
still on the receiving end of another volley of Islamic
indoctrination. Here however the Mullahs were at a
disadvantage. As I learned more of the language I realised
that concepts like humanity and morality have totally
different interpretations in the west. In Islam humans are
"slaves of Allah", they are allowed to use their intellect
only if it "hardens their belief in Islam." In the west
freedom is cherished. In Islam morality is handed down from
primitive Arabs. In the west you refer to your own
conscience and use logical deduction in order to
differentiate between morality and immorality. In Islam
love does not exist. It's all lust. In the west love can be
carried by a letter to someone thousands of miles away.
Victims of trauma and rape are beaten and killed in Islam.
These same people are offered therapy and support in the
West, their tormentors prosecuted. No one pretends that
every thing is perfect in the west. In Islam the iron rule
works without a hitch, it's perfect.
By the time I was in my senior year I knew all these things
but there was that prohibiting "what if" still there. From
time to time, following my old habits, I would read some
articles in the Internet about Islam. These articles, most
of them good for a less scrupulous reader, were always
insufficient in convincing me beyond any doubt that Islam
is a fake religion. Last week it chanced that I was
directed by a search engine to this website. The section
titled "stories not told before" immediately caught my
attention. I stayed up till 5 in the morning and read about
half of it. I went to bed and woke up next afternoon
convinced that I'm a Muslim no longer.
Here I must emphasize the importance of works like this in
dissipating the remaining doubts of other would-be ex-
Muslims. Cut off as we are from reliable information and
scholarly works on Islam, and at the same time being
aggressively indoctrinated from an early age, the need for
similar material tailored for half-hearted Muslims and also
ordinary westerners cannot be overestimated. True history
of Islam is an effective tool that deals the final blow to
Islamism by laying naked its thread bare foundations.
Tell the true story of Islam, save civilization!
More at:
http://www.islam-watch.org/Emir/Leaving-Islam-When-truth-comes-in-Mullahs-jump-out-the-window.htm
Jai Maharaj
http://tinyurl.com/24fq83
http://www.mantra.com/jai
http://www.mantra.com/jyotish
Om Shanti
Hindu Holocaust Museum
http://www.mantra.com/holocaust
Hindu life, principles, spirituality and philosophy
http://www.hindu.org
http://www.hindunet.org
The truth about Islam and Muslims
http://www.flex.com/~jai/satyamevajayate
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By Emir Reza
Monday, January 14, 2008
I was born in the early years of Islamic Revolution in Iran
and just before the start of Iran-Iraq war. It is safe to
say that the first music I heard must have been a
revolutionary music, and the first face I saw on our black
and white TV was that of Ayatollah Khomeini. I'm what they
call "child of Revolution."
My Father was a simple clerk and my mother a house wife,
both practicing Muslims and firm believers in Allah and
Muhammad. No blasphemy was allowed in our house and we were
perfectly convinced Khomeini was a holy man and a "favorite
of Allah and His prophet." It sounds funny to me now but
among my first childish drawings was the face of that old
man, turban, beard and all.
When I was growing up in the capital city, Tehran we had
two TV channels broadcasting for a few hours every day.
Recitation of Quran, call to prayer, religious sermons,
America- and Jew-bashing and more subtle forms of
propaganda were the usual themes of our "entertainment." We
got our first lessons in history of Islam from children's
programs. While providing entertainment our Mullahs never
neglected our "cultural education" either. Every week there
was a single episode of a heavily censored foreign TV
series, with dialogues completely reworked to show the
wretchedness and boredom of life in the West. Or we had our
locally made TV dramas aiming at depicting the true Islamic
lifestyle and highlighting its values. These values
consisted of eating less, giving more, being content with
the "will of Allah" (which in practice translated into the
will of Mullahs) and be ready to die for the cause of
Islam. At that time owning any sort of video player was a
crime. There was no satellite TV we had no other option but
to accept the Mullahs' version of the world evens. We were
ignorant beyond imagination.
At school from the day one we had a special teacher
appointed by the Mullahs to teach us Quran and Islamic
ideology. There were so many of these teachers and they
looked so much like our parents. They couldn't all be
wrong, we understood unconsciously. I remember quite
clearly that when I was just 12 years old our teacher told
us that it is permitted to kill a Jew. When we brought up
the practical difficulties of killing a Jew he hinted that
we may like to kill him first and leave the body in some
inconspicuous place like our school lavatories. I had two
Jewish friends at school. Fortunately I wasn't of a mind to
put the instructions into action. We were still too young
to take action by ourselves.
I used to carry a photo of Khomeini and Khamenei in my
wallet when I was a teen. I prayed five times a day, fasted
during Ramadan, attended our local mosque and listened to
the preaching of our local Imam. I was well on my way
toward fundamentalist. The efforts of Mullahs were
beginning to pay off. But in my case it didn't work out so
well, for the Mullahs.
My first doubts began to form when I was attending the
preaching sessions at our local mosque. I found the
language they used in speaking to "ordinary" people quite
harsh. The Mullahs were arrogant, proud and haughty. At
first I put this down as their reserve or one of the side
effects and manifestations of holiness. But in transactions
with ordinary mortals they treated us with disdain. What's
more, I expected great comradeship among those ordinary
young fundamentalist Muslims. What I discovered however was
something bordering on homosexuality. At the time not
having the remotest idea what homosexuality is and how a
homosexual behaves, I mistook these overtures for a very
special friendship in which you are supposed to stand very
close to your friends all the time and stare at them in a
very intense sort of way. This was doubtless the true
spirit of Islamic brotherhood. Later however I found out
that homosexuality is widely practiced in Islamic
Madrasahs.
As I grew up I began to get interested in the details of
Islam. I thought that I had to have good arguments ready at
hand for the conversion of infidels. For this I referred
first to Islamic books. Finding these texts enigmatic and
beyond comprehension of laymen, I referred this time to
Mullahs for guidance. Now to my great surprise and
confusion our Mullahs were capable of a wonderful
transformation of disposition. When they were preaching
they were generally content and calm and moderately
gracious toward their audience. However when in their
presence anyone showed the slightest iota of "doubt" about
any aspect of established Sharia law or Islamic practices
and doctrines, he would let him understand in no uncertain
terms and with sufficient signs of anger and a lot of
finger shaking, that questioning in Islam is allowed only
if it is intended to increase your conviction. Again I was
encouraged to view this as the true spirit of Islam and
following the example of Muhammad. I was told that Muhammad
himself and our Imams were capable of falling into
murderous fits of rage and displaying "outward signs of
furious anger." At such times heads rolled, literally.
This sort of treatment, now I realize, is intended to
intimidate Muslim youth into complete and blind obedience.
Suicide bombers are apparently "trained" and prepared by
this strategy. A good and pious Muslim is someone who
execute orders of Mullahs. His brain must be used to find
the best way of executing the order not for questioning its
intentions.
So I was not a good candidate for fundamentalism. I
questioned too much. I was given the cold shoulder and
retired from fundamentalism without achieving any "glories
in the eyes of Allah." Soon after I stopped my daily
prayers.
Still I was a Muslim. I was inclined to atheism but there
was always a strong "what if." After a lifetime of
indoctrination it was next to impossible to renounce Islam
completely so I decided to stick to Allah and Muhammad and
Imams without bothering to pray five times a day or fasting
during Ramadan.
This coincided with my entering university ostensibly to
study English literature. In reality it turned out we were
still on the receiving end of another volley of Islamic
indoctrination. Here however the Mullahs were at a
disadvantage. As I learned more of the language I realised
that concepts like humanity and morality have totally
different interpretations in the west. In Islam humans are
"slaves of Allah", they are allowed to use their intellect
only if it "hardens their belief in Islam." In the west
freedom is cherished. In Islam morality is handed down from
primitive Arabs. In the west you refer to your own
conscience and use logical deduction in order to
differentiate between morality and immorality. In Islam
love does not exist. It's all lust. In the west love can be
carried by a letter to someone thousands of miles away.
Victims of trauma and rape are beaten and killed in Islam.
These same people are offered therapy and support in the
West, their tormentors prosecuted. No one pretends that
every thing is perfect in the west. In Islam the iron rule
works without a hitch, it's perfect.
By the time I was in my senior year I knew all these things
but there was that prohibiting "what if" still there. From
time to time, following my old habits, I would read some
articles in the Internet about Islam. These articles, most
of them good for a less scrupulous reader, were always
insufficient in convincing me beyond any doubt that Islam
is a fake religion. Last week it chanced that I was
directed by a search engine to this website. The section
titled "stories not told before" immediately caught my
attention. I stayed up till 5 in the morning and read about
half of it. I went to bed and woke up next afternoon
convinced that I'm a Muslim no longer.
Here I must emphasize the importance of works like this in
dissipating the remaining doubts of other would-be ex-
Muslims. Cut off as we are from reliable information and
scholarly works on Islam, and at the same time being
aggressively indoctrinated from an early age, the need for
similar material tailored for half-hearted Muslims and also
ordinary westerners cannot be overestimated. True history
of Islam is an effective tool that deals the final blow to
Islamism by laying naked its thread bare foundations.
Tell the true story of Islam, save civilization!
More at:
http://www.islam-watch.org/Emir/Leaving-Islam-When-truth-comes-in-Mullahs-jump-out-the-window.htm
Jai Maharaj
http://tinyurl.com/24fq83
http://www.mantra.com/jai
http://www.mantra.com/jyotish
Om Shanti
Hindu Holocaust Museum
http://www.mantra.com/holocaust
Hindu life, principles, spirituality and philosophy
http://www.hindu.org
http://www.hindunet.org
The truth about Islam and Muslims
http://www.flex.com/~jai/satyamevajayate
o Not for commercial use. Solely to be fairly used for the educational
purposes of research and open discussion. The contents of this post may not
have been authored by, and do not necessarily represent the opinion of the
poster. The contents are protected by copyright law and the exemption for
fair use of copyrighted works.
o If you send private e-mail to me, it will likely not be read,
considered or answered if it does not contain your full legal name, current
e-mail and postal addresses, and live-voice telephone number.
o Posted for information and discussion. Views expressed by others are
not necessarily those of the poster who may or may not have read the article.
FAIR USE NOTICE: This article may contain copyrighted material the use of
which may or may not have been specifically authorized by the copyright
owner. This material is being made available in efforts to advance the
understanding of environmental, political, human rights, economic,
democratic, scientific, social, and cultural, etc., issues. It is believed
that this constitutes a 'fair use' of any such copyrighted material as
provided for in section 107 of the US Copyright Law. In accordance with Title
17 U.S.C. Section 107, the material on this site is distributed without
profit to those who have expressed a prior interest in receiving the included
information for research, comment, discussion and educational purposes by
subscribing to USENET newsgroups or visiting web sites. For more information
go to: http://www.law.cornell.edu/uscode/17/107.shtml
If you wish to use copyrighted material from this article for purposes of
your own that go beyond 'fair use', you must obtain permission from the
copyright owner.