lpunderground
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Hi People this is my first journal ever and i thought why not just make me a journal on here with out having to keep using Xanga so yup this is my journal yay.......for me ..
Lpunderground
Lpunderground
Lpunderground's Journal
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stupidsoul1
New member
lol good idea to make a journal, i write in mine about everything.
lpunderground
New member
ok so welcome to the wonderful life of me -_-. i was all fine a hour of two ago, then i made something to eat and i lost my appitite. i am hungry but i dont see the need to eat. At the same time i feel like crying and puking. I am cold and clamy. i just had a huge scratching attack on my leg and now i suprised its not bleeding. Now i feel a headache comming on. I think actully i dont know what i think. i feel so hollow , no emotion in me. ill b happy one minute then i will cry the next. why is life so effin messed up. i guess i should talk to my friends but i hate to talk about me , i hate telling them how i feel i just have a hard time opening up to people. even people i trust.
The grey fog chokes me
(and no one cares)
I hurt myself
(and no one sees)
I cry
(and no one feels my pain)
My fear consumes me
(a death grip to rip me)
My shadow once friendly
(is now my enemy)
My death is
(nothing more then a cycle)
The joker that sits in the corner
(with a manic smile palstered on its lips)
Laughs so generously at me
(Pushing me into my shadow)
Clowns at the door
(are in my face)
I now realize it is
(my fear staring back at me)
No one cares
(what happenes to me)
No one can be happy
(with me around)
Everyone just
(doesnt hear my shallow voice)
Dani
The grey fog chokes me
(and no one cares)
I hurt myself
(and no one sees)
I cry
(and no one feels my pain)
My fear consumes me
(a death grip to rip me)
My shadow once friendly
(is now my enemy)
My death is
(nothing more then a cycle)
The joker that sits in the corner
(with a manic smile palstered on its lips)
Laughs so generously at me
(Pushing me into my shadow)
Clowns at the door
(are in my face)
I now realize it is
(my fear staring back at me)
No one cares
(what happenes to me)
No one can be happy
(with me around)
Everyone just
(doesnt hear my shallow voice)
Dani
ForgottenKid
New member
Your poem is pretty good. Try "opening up" a little bit more... and it could make you less shy.
lpunderground
New member
how many times in one day can i be ******? this is a convo between me and my friend. i am truthful taunts.
truthful taunts: did u c what i typed before
Mysteryskatr2121: ?
Mysteryskatr2121: ya
Mysteryskatr2121: im sry too
Mysteryskatr2121: its just
truthful taunts: k
Mysteryskatr2121: ur not the only one out there
truthful taunts: yea i understand
truthful taunts: no i kow
Mysteryskatr2121: we all have our deal of problems
truthful taunts: i am selfish
truthful taunts: i know im not 2
truthful taunts: but u have to understand i dont talk to anyone i bottle everything up its just my defense my protection
truthful taunts: i just will back off ok
Mysteryskatr2121: dont back off
Mysteryskatr2121: u bottle it inside u
Mysteryskatr2121: thats the problem
truthful taunts: ive done it for 15 years im not gonna stop now
Mysteryskatr2121: ur not gonna stop bein depressed
Mysteryskatr2121: but u should see a friggen shrink
truthful taunts: fine then ill deal with it
truthful taunts: no
truthful taunts: i refuse to
truthful taunts: ill find a way around it
Mysteryskatr2121: like wat?
Mysteryskatr2121: cutting
truthful taunts: i dont need ******* help from someone who is payed to analyze me like an object
Mysteryskatr2121: burning
truthful taunts: i dont cut or burn
Mysteryskatr2121: they dont
Mysteryskatr2121: they slowly get ur trust
truthful taunts: u know how long it take me to trust someone
truthful taunts: a very long time
truthful taunts: anything is say to me that is harmful the trust is completely gone
truthful taunts: and it wont ever b bulit up again
truthful taunts: its the way i work
truthful taunts: what did u want to say?
Mysteryskatr2121: o
Mysteryskatr2121: sry
Mysteryskatr2121: i was talkin to my dad for a sec
Mysteryskatr2121: but
Mysteryskatr2121: once u get the persons trust u can tell them anything
Mysteryskatr2121: i never told my shrink anything
Mysteryskatr2121: but
Mysteryskatr2121: he helped my parents
truthful taunts: i dont need my parents involved
truthful taunts: my mom is just as messed up if not worse
truthful taunts: my dad has his own **** to worry about
truthful taunts: i guess i really need to stop depending on my friends
truthful taunts: ok? ill stop talking about me
Mysteryskatr2121: no
truthful taunts: and i can pretend to b happy and cheerful ok
Mysteryskatr2121: please do
truthful taunts: cause that will work for me
Mysteryskatr2121: dont do that
truthful taunts: i do it enough
Mysteryskatr2121: but dont act all sad either
truthful taunts: fine
truthful taunts: smiles it is
Mysteryskatr2121: but dont cover ur sad
truthful taunts: dont worry ive become really good at masking my feelings so happy and cheerful
Mysteryskatr2121: just like cutting
Mysteryskatr2121: u set ur problems aside
Mysteryskatr2121: and there masked
truthful taunts: thats fine
Mysteryskatr2121: no
truthful taunts: ill deal with everyting later
Mysteryskatr2121: cause thats wat u do wen u cut burn ect.
truthful taunts: fine
truthful taunts: i could care less right now
Mysteryskatr2121: i kno somethin that will cheer u up
Mysteryskatr2121: i can read braile with my *******
truthful taunts: great
truthful taunts: it didnt work
truthful taunts: im already down in a whole im not gonna b out for a while
truthful taunts: o wiat happy thoguht
truthful taunts: IM HAPPY
Mysteryskatr2121: wats ur happy thought
Mysteryskatr2121: SHARE IT WITH ME!
Mysteryskatr2121: it better b killing preps
truthful taunts: pink effin rabis dancing on the ceeling
Mysteryskatr2121: thats
Mysteryskatr2121: good
Mysteryskatr2121: but think of killing preps in ur school
truthful taunts: why thats not HAPPY
i wish i would die. i new my friends could care ******* less.
truthful taunts: did u c what i typed before
Mysteryskatr2121: ?
Mysteryskatr2121: ya
Mysteryskatr2121: im sry too
Mysteryskatr2121: its just
truthful taunts: k
Mysteryskatr2121: ur not the only one out there
truthful taunts: yea i understand
truthful taunts: no i kow
Mysteryskatr2121: we all have our deal of problems
truthful taunts: i am selfish
truthful taunts: i know im not 2
truthful taunts: but u have to understand i dont talk to anyone i bottle everything up its just my defense my protection
truthful taunts: i just will back off ok
Mysteryskatr2121: dont back off
Mysteryskatr2121: u bottle it inside u
Mysteryskatr2121: thats the problem
truthful taunts: ive done it for 15 years im not gonna stop now
Mysteryskatr2121: ur not gonna stop bein depressed
Mysteryskatr2121: but u should see a friggen shrink
truthful taunts: fine then ill deal with it
truthful taunts: no
truthful taunts: i refuse to
truthful taunts: ill find a way around it
Mysteryskatr2121: like wat?
Mysteryskatr2121: cutting
truthful taunts: i dont need ******* help from someone who is payed to analyze me like an object
Mysteryskatr2121: burning
truthful taunts: i dont cut or burn
Mysteryskatr2121: they dont
Mysteryskatr2121: they slowly get ur trust
truthful taunts: u know how long it take me to trust someone
truthful taunts: a very long time
truthful taunts: anything is say to me that is harmful the trust is completely gone
truthful taunts: and it wont ever b bulit up again
truthful taunts: its the way i work
truthful taunts: what did u want to say?
Mysteryskatr2121: o
Mysteryskatr2121: sry
Mysteryskatr2121: i was talkin to my dad for a sec
Mysteryskatr2121: but
Mysteryskatr2121: once u get the persons trust u can tell them anything
Mysteryskatr2121: i never told my shrink anything
Mysteryskatr2121: but
Mysteryskatr2121: he helped my parents
truthful taunts: i dont need my parents involved
truthful taunts: my mom is just as messed up if not worse
truthful taunts: my dad has his own **** to worry about
truthful taunts: i guess i really need to stop depending on my friends
truthful taunts: ok? ill stop talking about me
Mysteryskatr2121: no
truthful taunts: and i can pretend to b happy and cheerful ok
Mysteryskatr2121: please do
truthful taunts: cause that will work for me
Mysteryskatr2121: dont do that
truthful taunts: i do it enough
Mysteryskatr2121: but dont act all sad either
truthful taunts: fine
truthful taunts: smiles it is
Mysteryskatr2121: but dont cover ur sad
truthful taunts: dont worry ive become really good at masking my feelings so happy and cheerful
Mysteryskatr2121: just like cutting
Mysteryskatr2121: u set ur problems aside
Mysteryskatr2121: and there masked
truthful taunts: thats fine
Mysteryskatr2121: no
truthful taunts: ill deal with everyting later
Mysteryskatr2121: cause thats wat u do wen u cut burn ect.
truthful taunts: fine
truthful taunts: i could care less right now
Mysteryskatr2121: i kno somethin that will cheer u up
Mysteryskatr2121: i can read braile with my *******
truthful taunts: great
truthful taunts: it didnt work
truthful taunts: im already down in a whole im not gonna b out for a while
truthful taunts: o wiat happy thoguht
truthful taunts: IM HAPPY
Mysteryskatr2121: wats ur happy thought
Mysteryskatr2121: SHARE IT WITH ME!
Mysteryskatr2121: it better b killing preps
truthful taunts: pink effin rabis dancing on the ceeling
Mysteryskatr2121: thats
Mysteryskatr2121: good
Mysteryskatr2121: but think of killing preps in ur school
truthful taunts: why thats not HAPPY
i wish i would die. i new my friends could care ******* less.
lpunderground
New member
night everyone, be safe, peace
thats is for june 3,2005
thats is for june 3,2005
Frominsidegirl
New member
Right Lpunderfround here, im using my friends name cause my name is being difficult. ill proably have a new name soon either Pyro_Storm or FairPlayLp.
Are you ugly?
A liar like me?
A user, a lost soul?
Someone you don't know
Money it's no cure
A Sickness so pure
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it's far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
Turn a blind eye
Why do I deny?
Medicate me
So I die Happy
A strain of cancer
Chokes the answers
Are you like me?
A liar like me?
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it's far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
I don't care, you don't care
I'm bitter, you're angry.
You don't care, I don't care
You love you, just like me
I blame you, you blame me
I'm bitter, you're angry.
You don't care, I don't care
You love you, like me
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it's far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
i love this song, it is Ugly by the Exies
Are you ugly?
A liar like me?
A user, a lost soul?
Someone you don't know
Money it's no cure
A Sickness so pure
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it's far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
Turn a blind eye
Why do I deny?
Medicate me
So I die Happy
A strain of cancer
Chokes the answers
Are you like me?
A liar like me?
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it's far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
I don't care, you don't care
I'm bitter, you're angry.
You don't care, I don't care
You love you, just like me
I blame you, you blame me
I'm bitter, you're angry.
You don't care, I don't care
You love you, like me
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it's far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
i love this song, it is Ugly by the Exies