My life

i want to die and it isn't just a phase or something because i have felt like this sice october 2004. I hate my life and everything in it, I hate myself because i feel that i have let myself down in some way. My mum moved to another country and i really miss her. all of my friends have deserted me. i got a terrible school report and i don't seem to be going anywhere fast.

another thing is that my dad is really mean to me. he used to hit me untill social service got involved and everyday he makes fun of me. I just want to kill all this pain that i'm feeling right now.

It's called depression. I'm going through it too, and have been since Dec. 2003. It's hard but you just need to try and make good friends that have gone though the same/ almost the same things as you are. PM me if you want and we can talk. Okay?

i want to die and it isn't just a phase or something because i have felt like this sice october 2004. I hate my life and everything in it, I hate myself because i feel that i have let myself down in some way. My mum moved to another country and i really miss her. all of my friends have deserted me. i got a terrible school report and i don't seem to be going anywhere fast.

another thing is that my dad is really mean to me. he used to hit me untill social service got involved and everyday he makes fun of me. I just want to kill all this pain that i'm feeling right now.

 

 

please just try to look at the brighter side of things, i know its hard almost impossiable. Try talking to your friends again, talk to someone who really understands, im sure more people care about you even if they dont show it.

Pyro's right ya know.

you'll get over it

There is help you know:

 

The London Clinic

Suite 105b

920 Saratoga Ave

San Jose, CA 95129

(408) 247-1140

(408) 247-1144 (fax)

 

Don't feel alone in this and don't listen to advice given on this board. Contact the # I posted above. They really can help and if anything it might help you get a few things off your chest that you would NEVER be able to talk about with someone that knows you.

 

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you do realise this is a feeling everyone feels atleast once right?, some people just cant take it and just become a number in some teen suicide statistic

 

its a permanent solution to a temporary problem

 

killing yourself isnt going to do anything

 

i can see in ur sig that you are a member of a band- so maybe use that as a distraction from all that crap going on until it gets better.

go somewhere quiet but is really beautiful, like we have some land so whenever I"m feeling bad i just go to this tree that i like and listen to the birds, maybe eating some tasty ice cream. i know it sounds kind of silly, but it'll help you realize that this really is a beautiful world, and there is always a way to get help.

you'll get over it

 

Excuse me, but I can't help but find that disrespectful. If you didn't have advice for Sygy, you didn't have to post.

 

Sygy, I'm sorry you feel this way. I have felt the way you feel before but I'm still here. I don't believe that you're overreacting or anything like that. Do you have MSN? If you do have messenger you can add me if you want to, I'd like to talk further with you. This isn't always the best place to do so.

 

*hugs*

i want to die and it isn't just a phase or something because i have felt like this sice october 2004. I hate my life and everything in it, I hate myself because i feel that i have let myself down in some way. My mum moved to another country and i really miss her. all of my friends have deserted me. i got a terrible school report and i don't seem to be going anywhere fast.

another thing is that my dad is really mean to me. he used to hit me untill social service got involved and everyday he makes fun of me. I just want to kill all this pain that i'm feeling right now.

 

"What do 60 years mean , when they are compared with an eternity of happines in heaven or an eternity or boiling hell ? " Stendhal - Red and Black

 

@Sygy : Try to confront your so called dad and speak with him , I`m sure that he has a good part too , but he just can`t show it. And everytime when u feel depressed , talk with us here , WE WILL MAKE U FEEL BETTER

Excuse me, but I can't help but find that disrespectful. If you didn't have advice for Sygy, you didn't have to post.

 

Sygy, I'm sorry you feel this way. I have felt the way you feel before but I'm still here. I don't believe that you're overreacting or anything like that. Do you have MSN? If you do have messenger you can add me if you want to, I'd like to talk further with you. This isn't always the best place to do so.

 

*hugs*

 

aww thanks...

My advice: Dig deep within yourself and you'll find that happiness, you dont need anybody to make you feel alive, its inside you, you just have to search for it.

I know, to some point, how you feel. I'm not going to tell you not to do anything, cuz I can't seem to do that, but I do hope you feel better. Have you tried to call your mom and ask to stay with her? Have you at least tried to talk to your old friends. Try to make new friends even if that is hard.

i hate my dad soo much. he is an alcholic and right now he is drinking and this is meant to be a nice calm holiday. it is so fucking unfair.

i hate my dad soo much. he is an alcholic and right now he is drinking and this is meant to be a nice calm holiday. it is so fucking unfair.

 

I know how hard it can be sometimes. It sounds stupid, I know, but you have to just be yourself. You are you, and nobody else; don't allow anyone else to control you. I know you are a strong person and can get through whatever life throws at you.

wow...i feel like hanging myself right now...i feel like ive been living forever....im tired.....ive been through so much..jabbed, chokes,beaten,slapped,thrown down,..i have little support here at home.....i cry everyday.....but..i always look at the small amount of good memories i have.....they keep me alive and and bring me hope....

i am away from my dad at last. im in belgium with my mum. who is planning to confront my dad. thanks for all your help.

Good to hear mate :thumbsup:

Well atleast your with you mum now, and i guess way more happier, but heres some advice my mum told me..i dont know why though. If you ever feel like hurting your self just because some one makes fun of you or hurts you DONT. Just put your head high in the air, strive for the best and prove to that person/those people that you can make it even if they try to bring you down. I guess everyone could use this peice of advice.