Xblackwidow20X
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Disgracefull Smile
I cut myself to see how much i bleed,
to take away this feeling of need.
I laugh at this pain,
even though I know there's nothing to gain.
If i would die tommorrow would there be anyone to care?
Do I take my own life, should i dare?
Everything is supposidly my fault and I don't see how.
This feeling of death is upon me now.
I cut deeper with every passing stroke.
on this anger all I can do is choke.
I can't breath anymore.
All this sadness has broken down my safety door.
this pain has now got a hold of me.
It's holding on tightly, it wont let me free.
Another lie brings another cut.
Why can't I crawl out of this rut?
Again the knife digs deeper yet.
All these people and there dishonesty I seem to always get.
The pain feels good upon my skin.
Its making the grief numb within.
Now i take this knife to my heart.
dig it in until it falls apart.
Now I will live without this pain you gave me long ago.
It went away with the blood that would flow.
I am numb to you and your hate.
I am within our deaths fate.
I am nothing now but a disgrace.
I hide these scars with a smile on my face.
-Terry O-
I cut myself to see how much i bleed,
to take away this feeling of need.
I laugh at this pain,
even though I know there's nothing to gain.
If i would die tommorrow would there be anyone to care?
Do I take my own life, should i dare?
Everything is supposidly my fault and I don't see how.
This feeling of death is upon me now.
I cut deeper with every passing stroke.
on this anger all I can do is choke.
I can't breath anymore.
All this sadness has broken down my safety door.
this pain has now got a hold of me.
It's holding on tightly, it wont let me free.
Another lie brings another cut.
Why can't I crawl out of this rut?
Again the knife digs deeper yet.
All these people and there dishonesty I seem to always get.
The pain feels good upon my skin.
Its making the grief numb within.
Now i take this knife to my heart.
dig it in until it falls apart.
Now I will live without this pain you gave me long ago.
It went away with the blood that would flow.
I am numb to you and your hate.
I am within our deaths fate.
I am nothing now but a disgrace.
I hide these scars with a smile on my face.
-Terry O-
