JammerG
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These are poems I wrote in the first two hours after I had found out he had died. Russell rang last night, telling me I had to pack a bag and come and stay. As soon as he said the words ‘Deadly Serious.’ I knew my Dad had died.
With my culture we listen to the animals and we have our messengers. Yesterday morning as I was hanging up the washing a Magpie sat on top of the clothesline singing to me, even when I shook out clothes he wouldn’t move. I never thought until speaking with an old aunty that the magpie for my people is the bringer of bad news (usually death). So I knew yesterday morning.
All I can say people is that always, always before you leave to go to work, school, partying, what ever. Please tell your family you love them. You never know when your loved ones could be taken away.
Memories
“Get back on, c’mon.” – Learning to ride a bike.
“You did O K.” – End of year school concert.
“Into Second.” – Learning to Drive
“Hey, work on it.” – Learning to swing a golf club.
“Tighten those wheel nuts.” – Teaching me to change a tyre.
“Hold him, hold him.” Working with the horses.
“Yeah, love you too.” – Last time I saw him.
The Freedom to Fly
So much heartache and pain.
So much love to give
You always seemed the same
Giving strength to those to live.
Chained to the life you’d chosen
Halted in your journey
To some, what you did wasn’t right
But you were always right to me.
I cherished each moment with you
But I never seeked to ask you why
Dad, I know you loved us all
But now you have the freedom to fly.
My Dad
Your eyes, deepest brown almost black
Your build, athletic, muscular frame
I can remember the fun we had
When we wrestled, what a game.
And your smile, a ray of sunshine
Your laughter could clear the darkest day
Your honour, your love, your morals solid
Cemented. Your views would never sway.
Your hands so big, once packed a punch
But joined to your arms they were shelter
They would keep me safe from harm
My Faith in you would never falter.
Your hair so, so black yet struck with grey
You always kept it clipped and short
You always dressed so presentable
Like a gentleman of the Queen’s Court.
You always were a welcoming man
You’re the best I ever had
Now gone from sight, but ever in heart and mind
Have been, always will be my Dad.
How D You Say Good Bye To Someone Who’s Already Gone
How do you say goodbye to someone who’s already gone
You can’t wave and say see you later
You can’t call them on the phone
You can’t send an email
And say you feel so all alone.
How do you say goodbye to someone who’s already gone
You don’t have the means to fly to them
Whether in heaven or on the moon
You aren’t going to drive to them
Or take a boat or train so soon
So how do you say goodbye to someone who’s already gone?
You keep true to their memories
In regard you hold them high
You grieve your loss and loneliness
Let out all the pain with each tear you cry.
The Greatest Man In The World
You were always the strong and quiet man
Your being there for me
Whether teaching me how to drive
Or helping me climb a tree.
You would give anyone help
You gave freely to those in need
Even when in danger
Helping always was your creed.
Not only was golf your sport
Your style was never bad
Be it darts or Aussie Rules
Even fishing with you was rad
Your laughter ringing out
Peeling like a bell
Your sadness always secret
Your heart would never tell
But who am I to talk about you
I am but a girl
Who will worship her dad forever
As the Greatest Man in the world.
Forever Is Too Long
What is it like where you are
Are there balmy breezes
Are you working flat out
Or doing whatever pleases
You had to go and leave me here
Why did you go away
Was it something I did or didn’t do
Could it be what I would or wouldn’t say
How could you leave me like you did
What a bull **** crappy stunt you pulled
It isn’t funny, it isn’t fair
But I s’pose you felt fulfilled
I could say I hate you for doing this to me
I could build grudges and regrets
But as a man of numbers and science
You’ve put money on your bets
So I will love you and keep you close
And listen to a Charlie Pride song
I will keep my memories of you dear to me
But Forever is too long.
What I would give
What I would give to have you here
I would tell you things you wouldn’t want to hear
But would hope that with your loving heart
You would learn to forgive
What I would give for your sheltering arms
Your inner strength and heart
I would hope that we could begin again
Be closer to your hear
What I would give to be able to hold your hand
To know where I am, where I stand
Do you love me? Or was I a disaster
I don’t think I will know, I will never understand
I wish you were here Dad,
I miss you so much
The warm strength within you
Protecting in your touch
You will never know the shame or pain
Because now you’ve died
How much I kept locked away
And how hard I tried to hide
But what would I give
To have heard your voice say
“You’ll be all right.”
Once more before you died.
With my culture we listen to the animals and we have our messengers. Yesterday morning as I was hanging up the washing a Magpie sat on top of the clothesline singing to me, even when I shook out clothes he wouldn’t move. I never thought until speaking with an old aunty that the magpie for my people is the bringer of bad news (usually death). So I knew yesterday morning.
All I can say people is that always, always before you leave to go to work, school, partying, what ever. Please tell your family you love them. You never know when your loved ones could be taken away.
Memories
“Get back on, c’mon.” – Learning to ride a bike.
“You did O K.” – End of year school concert.
“Into Second.” – Learning to Drive
“Hey, work on it.” – Learning to swing a golf club.
“Tighten those wheel nuts.” – Teaching me to change a tyre.
“Hold him, hold him.” Working with the horses.
“Yeah, love you too.” – Last time I saw him.
The Freedom to Fly
So much heartache and pain.
So much love to give
You always seemed the same
Giving strength to those to live.
Chained to the life you’d chosen
Halted in your journey
To some, what you did wasn’t right
But you were always right to me.
I cherished each moment with you
But I never seeked to ask you why
Dad, I know you loved us all
But now you have the freedom to fly.
My Dad
Your eyes, deepest brown almost black
Your build, athletic, muscular frame
I can remember the fun we had
When we wrestled, what a game.
And your smile, a ray of sunshine
Your laughter could clear the darkest day
Your honour, your love, your morals solid
Cemented. Your views would never sway.
Your hands so big, once packed a punch
But joined to your arms they were shelter
They would keep me safe from harm
My Faith in you would never falter.
Your hair so, so black yet struck with grey
You always kept it clipped and short
You always dressed so presentable
Like a gentleman of the Queen’s Court.
You always were a welcoming man
You’re the best I ever had
Now gone from sight, but ever in heart and mind
Have been, always will be my Dad.
How D You Say Good Bye To Someone Who’s Already Gone
How do you say goodbye to someone who’s already gone
You can’t wave and say see you later
You can’t call them on the phone
You can’t send an email
And say you feel so all alone.
How do you say goodbye to someone who’s already gone
You don’t have the means to fly to them
Whether in heaven or on the moon
You aren’t going to drive to them
Or take a boat or train so soon
So how do you say goodbye to someone who’s already gone?
You keep true to their memories
In regard you hold them high
You grieve your loss and loneliness
Let out all the pain with each tear you cry.
The Greatest Man In The World
You were always the strong and quiet man
Your being there for me
Whether teaching me how to drive
Or helping me climb a tree.
You would give anyone help
You gave freely to those in need
Even when in danger
Helping always was your creed.
Not only was golf your sport
Your style was never bad
Be it darts or Aussie Rules
Even fishing with you was rad
Your laughter ringing out
Peeling like a bell
Your sadness always secret
Your heart would never tell
But who am I to talk about you
I am but a girl
Who will worship her dad forever
As the Greatest Man in the world.
Forever Is Too Long
What is it like where you are
Are there balmy breezes
Are you working flat out
Or doing whatever pleases
You had to go and leave me here
Why did you go away
Was it something I did or didn’t do
Could it be what I would or wouldn’t say
How could you leave me like you did
What a bull **** crappy stunt you pulled
It isn’t funny, it isn’t fair
But I s’pose you felt fulfilled
I could say I hate you for doing this to me
I could build grudges and regrets
But as a man of numbers and science
You’ve put money on your bets
So I will love you and keep you close
And listen to a Charlie Pride song
I will keep my memories of you dear to me
But Forever is too long.
What I would give
What I would give to have you here
I would tell you things you wouldn’t want to hear
But would hope that with your loving heart
You would learn to forgive
What I would give for your sheltering arms
Your inner strength and heart
I would hope that we could begin again
Be closer to your hear
What I would give to be able to hold your hand
To know where I am, where I stand
Do you love me? Or was I a disaster
I don’t think I will know, I will never understand
I wish you were here Dad,
I miss you so much
The warm strength within you
Protecting in your touch
You will never know the shame or pain
Because now you’ve died
How much I kept locked away
And how hard I tried to hide
But what would I give
To have heard your voice say
“You’ll be all right.”
Once more before you died.
