Something That Really Fucked You Up

KK. Just Like it says. Name "Something That Really Fucked You Up"

Me. Well, When I was in sixth grade this new girl came to our school. She was one of thoes girls you see walk in slow motion on TV to me. She wasn't super hot to most people, but everytime I saw her my heart would start racing. She was an awsome artist and had good humor. She was a quiet person. I decided I wanted to date her. So I grew some balls and tried hanging out with her. I left my friends during lunch and sat with her. After school I'd stay after with her outside and wait for her mom to come. Then I'd walk home. We got to be preety good friends. People thought we dated becuase I always hung with her. So one day I decided to ask her out. I was preety sure I knew the answer. We were such good friends. I waited in anticipation. The answer I got was no.

hmm...for me it was prolly my sophmore year... 10th grade

my great grandmother died in october

my greatgrandfather a month or 2 after

my kitty got hit by a car

and my grandfother (otherside of family) passedaway...

i got realy depressed and pessamistic... and developed a bit of a death fixation....

yah that year realy fucked me up...

Things that have really fucked me up? Hmmmm....

When I was four, I threw up almost all my blood in the hospital after a surgery complication. Now I have a phobia of hospitals, needles, and blood.

When I was in fifth grade, I was laughed out of class for a shirt I wore. A damn shirt. Became socially paraniod and manic depressive for the next four to five years.

Last year, I tore my hamstring and screwed my leg and knee up really bad. And also last year, my best friend attacked me and sent me to the hospital with a concussion.

And, above all else....finding this site! (Just Kidding, lol!)

Well.. moving to a new school. It was bigger than my old one so it made me more shyer and got me really stressed which also brought down my grades too. Then rumors at my old school started and it all was pissing me off.

Its not that bad but it still messed me up

weed... hahaha.. that fucked me up BIG time.. if you know what i mean:)

ok ok. on a more serious note.. parents. they're really, really strict. not to the point where they wont let me do anything with my friends.. cause they do. a lot. but if they don't know the person really well, i wont even be able to talk to them. and if they're not a christian, they're not becoming MY friend. which makes me want to be.... even more of a "problem child." ya know? if they don't stay out of my life and let me tell them on my own time, then i'll never want to tell them anything about it. so yeah. it makes me angry. and i'm to the point now days that if they tell me to "stop giving them attitude" i tell them straight up to piss off... which i get in trouble for but i could really care less.

weed... hahaha.. that fucked me up BIG time.. if you know what i mean:)

Haha, best response yet.

Well, for me, relationship-wise, I guess in the 6th or 7th grade, I asked out a girl. Well, she didn't like me the way I liked her, so her and her friends made fun of me about it and didn't stop. It was hell. I guess that's why I have problems asking out girls I like.

Another thing that fucked me up is when I got a concussion. I think I'm much dumber because of it.

I think alot of sh*t f*cked me up like....

1-My parents,when i was really small my parents got into fights

every day.Wich didn't get any better because of the fact my dad

use to be a really bad alcoholic,i mean he was drunk every day and

my mom was always at work,so eventually i learned i had to watch

after my own self.

2-In 1995 i found out i had diabeties,so now i have to live for the rest

of my life takeing 5 shots a day.

3-When my brother was born i noticed something just didn't seem right.

And after about a week since we brought him home from the hospital they told us he had a heart problem and if we had skiped the appointmet he

would have died in only a matter of days.

4-In 6th grade i was sitting at my desk when i felt my blood sugar level drop

i kept on calling for the teacher but she didn't hear-so long story short

i ended up passing out in the clasroom and my friend had to pretty much

carry me to the nurse...and there is many more storys unfortunatly

aww.. dam poor all of u, well mines not as bad, but it still kinda fucked me up, all thought year 8, everyday i was called a mole, molerat, loser, freak, fat, tripping me, some made a rumor up that i as pregnet(sp?) or just very fat, and i mean i wasnt that fat, my tummy just stuck out, cuz of my sway back, all this by a few ppl, naming a few: richard, willim, justin, jake and kate, rebecca, many others.. and now i so self consorus(sp?) of my self its not funny, i think im fat(which i am, well that what i think), ugly that why NO-ONE has ever asked me out, meaning i've never had a bf(im 15 but yea what ever), stupid. and last year i got 4 sandwich(at different times) throw at by richard and jake and calling a retard if i drop my drink bottle or something on the bus...

i hate fucking bullys so much..

aww.. dam poor all of u, well mines not as bad, but it still kinda fucked me up, all thought year 8, everyday i was called a mole, molerat, loser, freak, fat, tripping me, some made a rumor up that i as pregnet(sp?) or just very fat, and i mean i wasnt that fat, my tummy just stuck out, cuz of my sway back, all this by a few ppl, naming a few: richard, willim, justin, jake and kate, rebecca, many others.. and now i so self consorus(sp?) of my self its not funny, i think im fat(which i am, well that what i think), ugly that why NO-ONE has ever asked me out, meaning i've never had a bf(im 15 but yea what ever), stupid. and last year i got 4 sandwich(at different times) throw at by richard and jake and calling a retard if i drop my drink bottle or something on the bus...

i hate fucking bullys so much..

Awww,poor you....**runs off to kick there asses**

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aww thanky, srry about all ur probs too =(, y is life so screwed?

Oh my gosh >.< From reading all your responces, I'm sorry you all had to go through that shit =(

Nothing has fucked me up really. I probably fuck myself up academically by being a lazy smo0. Which I do regret but hopefully I can gain some of it back in college. Pretty lame compared to what you've all been through...

well lets see for me # 1 thing is

1- 2/06/2002, my mom finnaly died of cancer. after watching her die slowly for a year. that really fcked me up and changed my whoel personality.

2- the guy i loved who i thought i could trust with my whoel life.... cheated and reaptly lied to me. and used me for sexual stuff. and then said it was my fault cuz i changed cuz of my mom dieing.

3- i think i was molested as a kid. dont want to get into it.

4- my parents. both were alcohlics. and ever since my mom died my dad has got worse. and he yells at me all the time and puts me down. and stupid crack whore gf has moved in and she trys to act like my mom.

so yeah i just fcked up. but hey i just think somone out there always has it worse. so im ok.

Something that fucked me up real badly was finding out about the problems my best friend had. When I met her we became pretty good friend quickly, but still I was not one to poke around at other people's lives and I didn't know much of what was up with her. I knew she had had problems with depression, but that was basicly it. And to me, she seemed just fine, so I just thought that those were past waters. Well, as time went by, she started acting kinda strange and it got me really worried. I found out she had eating disorders and also self-harming behavior. I was 15 or 16 years old and I had no idea how to deal with that because none of my friends, ever, had had those problems or anything even close. Things got worse and worse until she actually tried suicide, and that day I could swear a part of me died. I never cried so much in my whole life. I could not see her because she went to the hospital and she'd have to stay there for a long, long time. I became depressed, I nearly didn't get aproved in that school year because my grades dropped so much. Me and my other best friends were lost and didn't know what to do. This situation repeated itself for something like a year, a year and a half. She'd get out of the hospital, but she'd have breakdowns and it would happen again. Those were by far the worst moments of my life. I just wanted to die. It killed me that I couldn't help her feel better. I felt useless and helpless. She's been doing better since then, and everyday I feel blessed that she's still here and doing better. But I'm always afraid and worried for her. I don't know what would happen to me if I lost her.

That's why anything that deals with suicide makes me shiver. I hate to see anything remotly suicidal in movies, and I hate hospitals (well, I hated them before, but I visited her there whenever they would allow me there, and it's such a depressing environment). And that's why I feel so much for you guys that deal with stuff like that too. It's terrible

The thing that fucked me up the most were my 2 ex boyfriends. The first one was the brother of my then best friend, we had this I thought serious relationship for about 1 year untill I found out he was cheating on me with this other girl. It broke my heart seriously because it was the first guy I had serious feelings for and even made the decission of sleeping with him. The second guy was this Irish bloke I really liked, he said he liked me as well but because of my previous relationship I was carefull with the guy. It turned out that he was telling stories to his friends of our sexuel activities that weren't true. So I ended it with this guy as well. And what bothers me as well is the fact that I had this really good friendship with a very lovely, nice and sexy Irish man ( yeah I'm a sucker for Irish blokes ) and I never ever noticed he had this crush on me. I seriously liked him but I thought he wasn't attracted to me in that way. Untill years later and I lost contact with him my best friend who knew him as well asked me if I never had any regrets of not going for him. It turned out he had mentioned to her that he saw himself being with me, happily married and having kids and stuff. Till today I hace serious regrets with not being more outgoing towards him. If I would have been I would now be married and having kids, instead of being single living on my own .

So that's what fucked me up the most.

xxxx The Tester

Wow, I feel like such an ass for posting mine here, since you guys have been through far more than I have.

cmlp, yea, divorces can be hell, at least from what I've heard from my friend. His parents divorced and was pretty rattled by it. So I'm sorry to hear about that.

aww.. dam poor all of u' date=' well mines not as bad, but it still kinda fucked me up, all thought year 8, everyday i was called a mole, molerat, loser, freak, fat, tripping me, some made a rumor up that i as pregnet(sp?) or just very fat, and i mean i wasnt that fat, my tummy just stuck out, cuz of my sway back, all this by a few ppl, naming a few: richard, willim, justin, jake and kate, rebecca, many others.. and now i so self consorus(sp?) of my self its not funny, i think im fat(which i am, well that what i think), ugly that why [b']NO-ONE has ever asked me out, meaning i've never had a bf(im 15 but yea what ever)[/b],stupid. and last year i got 4 sandwich(at different times) throw at by richard and jake and calling a retard if i drop my drink bottle or something on the bus...

i hate fucking bullys so much..

honey, i'm almost 16 (in 6 days to be exact ) and i've never had a boyfriend either. not that i haven't been asked, but i know that i don't need some boy to complete me. being single is GREAT.. and having good-guy friends is just.. whoa.. a trip! oh, and don't worry about people like that. i think we've all been "hated" at some point. if you're not popular, then you're picked on and called a loser. and if you are, then you're hated for supposedly thinking you're better than all the "non-popular" people. life's a bitch.