what the hell do i do now?

okey this is the first time that i write in here in the dark room i feel i need to ask what to do or at least tell someone and let my feelings go away so they dont hurt me anymore the worste thing is that all this is my fault

 

okey it started when i saw a guy and i liked him he lives infront of my apartment he is a few years older then me i am 14 so i decided whit the help of a friend "if you call that a friend" the only friend i have by the way cuz i am a loner. i send the letter to him saying that i liked him that if he could write back to me, but i didnt put my name in the letter i told him to leave his letter somewere arund our apartments. this guy had been saying things to my friend like bye and things like that but she never answered him so i thought he liked her. she told me she didnt liked him but she likes whatever she cant have. so he did wrote back but a man saw us when my friend and i tried to get the letter from were i told him to leave it. we couldnt get the letter because that man was there but he did got it. so he told my dad but my mom who i knew about all this took the letter before my dad coulod red it then she got angry and all that stuff that happens when you do something wrong and she told me not to talk to my friend and to never call that guy cuz he gave me his phone number in his letter so i got the letter after all my mom gave it to me and i called him i told him who i was and we have a date tomorrow but i dont know what to do i asked him if he liked my friend he said no but i think he said that because she didnt talked back to him now my friend is like jealous that he wrote back to me and i think she wanted him to think it was her who wrote the letter the most stressing is that he sais he does like me but i dont know if i should believe him i dont want him to play whit me and i dont want to fall in love whit him cuz he is gonna move in two months i dont know what to do cuz i lied to him telling him that my parents knew nothing i just told him they did know and he said it was better that way another thing is that my friend called a guy who lives whit the gut i like a long time ago (before i met this guy that ilke) so she told the other guy that i liked him. so what would the other guy think of me now? should i go on that date my parents dont know i am gonna go we both would get in trouble if they know and i dont want to hurt his feelings if i send him to heck. i dont want to fall in love again. i dont know why i send the letter to him i never think before doing something. the reason why i dont want to fall in love is becaouse a year a go i falled in love whit a guy but i moved and i tried to sucide because i wanted to be whit him so is the same thing again just that now its my fault.

 

(i corrected it i hope you can understand what it says now)

just go....

its 2 months anyway

loveable guys these days r really hard to find...so it doesnt matter if u fall in love

 

you cant stop from falling in love.......

okay, edit that and use a period every once in a while.

 

then i'll get back to you.

dont stress yourself over one guy. if u really think its gona cause problems wiv u and ur family then think real hard and see wich is more important to u: ur family or him??? yeh falling in love hurts. but he's gona be gone in 2 months!!

 

really u need to consider right now who u wana hurt and who u dont wana hurt. only then will u know what is right for u.....

loveable guys these days r really hard to find...

you cant stop from falling in love.......

 

 

Hey!!! Whats that mean?????

dw u r really loveable haha

 

its just these days a guy with a life is really hard to find....you know

guys always change with what crowd they are in there isnt that many that stay the same no matter what

I dont think that one date will hurt. There you can get to know him and see if he is worth it. If you dont you'll probally just be thinking "what if..." all the time. I think that would be worse then not going ahead and doing it.

okey this is my first time that i write in here in the dark room i feel i need to ask what to do or at least tell someone and let my feelings go away so they dont hurt me anymore the worste thing is that all this is my fault

 

okey it started when i saw a guy and i liked him he lives infront of my apartment he is a few years older then me i am 14 so i decided whit the help of a friend if you can call that a friend the only friend i have by the way cuz i am a loner so i sended the letter to him telling him that i liked him that if he could write back to me but i didnt put my name in the letter i told him to leave his letter in a specific place. this guy had been saying things to my friend like bye and things like that but she never answered him so i thought he liked her she told me she didnt liked him but she likes whatever she cant have so he did wrote back but a neighbor saw us when my friend and i tried to get the letter we couldnt but he did so he told my dad but my mom who i think knew about all this took the letter then she got angry and all that stuff that happens when you do something wrong and she told me not to talk to my friend and to never called that guy cuz he gave me his phone number in his letter so i got the letter and called him i told him who i was and we have a date tomorrow but i dont know what to do i asked him if he liked my friend he said no but i think he said that because she didnt talked back to him now my friend is like jelous that he did wrote back to me and i think she wanted him to think it was her who wrote the letter the most stressing is that he sais he does like me but i dont know if i should believe him i dont want him to play whit me and i dont want to fall in love whit him cuz he is gonna move in two months i dont know what to do cuz i lied to him telling him that my parents knew nothing i just told him they did know and he said it was better that way another thing is that my friend called a guy who lives whit the other guy a long time ago before i met this guy so she told him that i liked him so what would the other guy would think of me now? should i go on that date my parent dont know i am gonna go we both would get in trouble if they know and i dont want to hurt his feelings if i send him to heck i dont want to fall in love again idont know why i sended the letter to him i never think before doing something the reason why i dont want to fall in love is becaouse a year a go i falled in love whit a guy but i moved and i tried to sucide because i wanted to be whit him so is the same thing again just that nolw its my fault

wow dat was alot to read no full-stops or anything

anyway i agree wit linkinpark-1

just have a go and see what happens

Sorry that i wrote without any periods or anything, but i was really deprssed ,mad,sad,stressed i was feeling so many things and i write like that.

 

I couldnt go out with him last saturday but i am probably going out with him tomorrow. I cant believe what happened!!!!!! okey he told me to tell my dad about us being "friends" then later we can tell him that he is my boyfriend and if he could talk to my dad. so i told my dad and he got a bit angry but said nothing my mom isnt here but i told her and she does want to talk to him when she comes back. he told me that if everything goes fine and we understand eachother he isnt moving anywere until this year ends then he can go and come back. i told him everything about the other guy who lives with him,even about the other guy who i liked the one i tried to suicide for and he understood me (well i didnt told him i tried to suicide). i m nervous about tomorrow because he does seems to be okey. i know many of you have more experince then me so thats why i m gonna ask this is question that i asked my self but i dont know if its okey. is it too fast to kiss on the first date?

YES it is too fast to kiss on the first date

on the first date u wanna get to know him as who he is

on the second date ur just enjoying each others company

and on the third date is when u have ur first kiss wit him...if u play ur cards right

 

p.s im a guy

There is this thing that we have in the English language. It is called grammar. Humour me and look into it.

^jeez, chill. This is just a forum, this is where you take a break from grammar

No this is where you learn how to type quickly and correctly. We dont want to be the stupid stereotype of teenie boppers who cant type for their life and spend all day on the net. We need to prove them wrong. Not to mention that I am not a teeniebopper, and that anyone who calls me so ends up with bruises.