chester_Crazy Posted January 9, 2005 Posted January 9, 2005 if anyone looks at you' date=' just just laugh at that for being all stupid and stuff. cause the only people who would look at you are preps, and they dont mean anything to this world, so just ignore them. or while your running, run right up to them and tell them to shove it up their ass. and they're stupid and they wont know what you're talking about and then you'll keep on running remembering the whole time that you're soooo much smarter than they are. and remember the whole time that everyone here loves you *huggles*[/quote'] haha lol...thats great. Quote I am the enemy who is honest and the friend who has betrayed but it's not my fault you've left your mind in my hands to invade Remember to return the needle once I'm done with your vein And I'll remember to give a push when your mind can't complain
Roxy Posted January 9, 2005 Posted January 9, 2005 I used to cut. Recentally i have started going to see a psychotherapist... My family doesnt know i would cut because id make tiny cuts in unnoticiable places.. like thighs or shoulders etc ... cuz i never wear shorts and anything shorter then short sleeves.... Since i quit cutiing they have healed up, i always took care of them so you cant really tell... I would cut for many reason.. depression being one of the biggest ones... also all the family problems (my mom mainley) sickness deaths and just bad things happeneing this past year it all gets to me.. add stress and i blow up. Literally. I turn red and all. It a pretty amazing site, watching me blow up. I should be an actress. Ya anyways back to the topic... cutting... I would cut alot and recentally i stopped... when i started getting into LP I started to stop.. it took the place of the cutting and the adrenline that i get such a rush out of when i listen to them its just amazing. anywho My family thinks i see a therapist cuz im overweight and sad cuz i gained weight - BULL I see one for the feelings i've been having .. the feelings i cant talk to anyone close to me about. the suicidal thoughts... the crying ... locking myself in my room... sleeping alot .. not eating... I even got the point of physically focing myself to get sick ... just to lose weight... and when that didnt work i would get sick when i was upset... Point: Family doesnt know i have issues.. but i have no problem letting everyone on the World wide web know - so long as my family doesnt. this is why i have a journal online i can write anything in. I used to think people who cut were psycho... until my friends started cutting... and then we would all cut ... I even carved my name into my leg... It became a habbit .. an addiction ... the rush of pain, the release, the adrenline rush, it was just enough to cure whatever had gone wrong in my day... I decided to get help when i cut my arm i had 4 straight lines with a big bandaide over it for like 2 weeks... it healed and scarred up ... I told my mom i ran into a stucko wall at school. Shes so naieve she believed me. 4 deep perfectley straight lines... come on now. I did it cuz i found out my Gpa is even sicker... he is dying... and he lives in texas.. i live in california.. so like i cant see him... anyways i found out he was getting worse and they had to put him in a rest home... i couldnt take the pain... it was just too much. When i had to hide it from my mom... always hiding my arm to avoid questions.. i decided to start getting help... I since am doing better.. way better... i havent cut since then (September) ... NOrmally .. with the recent bad news i've gotten (my mom has a life threatening diease cause by drugs) and having to deal with pain.. my mom crying my grandparents (on both sides) crying... aunties cousins sister brother etc ... and worse.. talking to my mom about her death and how she doesnt wanna be put on a respirator... Watching her cry, trying to do things to help her out.. its scary and hard .. i cry when im alone cuz im scared of losing my mom... ya it might be awhile.. but who knows it could be tomorrow you know. Normally with all of this i would of cut.. who knows by now i would of sliced my arms entirley... But im getting help and im changing... its for the best. Instead of cutting i listen to loud loud loud music ... (LP Nirvana GNR etc) I take a walk (no more eating my feelings = lose weight) and write ... like this, vent somewhere like in my journal on a forum or even write a poem... . Or even sometimes cry... crying is good. For males and females. I just try to find something better and more productive to do then cut I know its hard I know its hard for everyone and if anyone needs to talk about anything im here My aim is Cheesy LP Fan, MSN, and yahoo are on my profile ... if anyone ever needs to talk instead of cutting let me know k ill be here. i know its hard and i dont know what else to say to people but i hope your lives get better and you can overcome this. everyone here seems so strong. Quote [broken External Image]:http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v192/DemonessEntity/HugePic.jpg
FanSince1999 Posted January 9, 2005 Posted January 9, 2005 I used to cut. Recentally i have started going to see a psychotherapist... My family doesnt know i would cut because id make tiny cuts in unnoticiable places.. like thighs or shoulders etc ... cuz i never wear shorts and anything shorter then short sleeves.... Since i quit cutiing they have healed up, i always took care of them so you cant really tell... I would cut for many reason.. depression being one of the biggest ones... also all the family problems (my mom mainley) sickness deaths and just bad things happeneing this past year it all gets to me.. add stress and i blow up. Literally. I turn red and all. It a pretty amazing site, watching me blow up. I should be an actress. Ya anyways back to the topic... cutting... I would cut alot and recentally i stopped... when i started getting into LP I started to stop.. it took the place of the cutting and the adrenline that i get such a rush out of when i listen to them its just amazing. anywho My family thinks i see a therapist cuz im overweight and sad cuz i gained weight - BULL I see one for the feelings i've been having .. the feelings i cant talk to anyone close to me about. the suicidal thoughts... the crying ... locking myself in my room... sleeping alot .. not eating... I even got the point of physically focing myself to get sick ... just to lose weight... and when that didnt work i would get sick when i was upset... Point: Family doesnt know i have issues.. but i have no problem letting everyone on the World wide web know - so long as my family doesnt. this is why i have a journal online i can write anything in. I used to think people who cut were psycho... until my friends started cutting... and then we would all cut ... I even carved my name into my leg... It became a habbit .. an addiction ... the rush of pain, the release, the adrenline rush, it was just enough to cure whatever had gone wrong in my day... I decided to get help when i cut my arm i had 4 straight lines with a big bandaide over it for like 2 weeks... it healed and scarred up ... I told my mom i ran into a stucko wall at school. Shes so naieve she believed me. 4 deep perfectley straight lines... come on now. I did it cuz i found out my Gpa is even sicker... he is dying... and he lives in texas.. i live in california.. so like i cant see him... anyways i found out he was getting worse and they had to put him in a rest home... i couldnt take the pain... it was just too much. When i had to hide it from my mom... always hiding my arm to avoid questions.. i decided to start getting help... I since am doing better.. way better... i havent cut since then (September) ... NOrmally .. with the recent bad news i've gotten (my mom has a life threatening diease cause by drugs) and having to deal with pain.. my mom crying my grandparents (on both sides) crying... aunties cousins sister brother etc ... and worse.. talking to my mom about her death and how she doesnt wanna be put on a respirator... Watching her cry, trying to do things to help her out.. its scary and hard .. i cry when im alone cuz im scared of losing my mom... ya it might be awhile.. but who knows it could be tomorrow you know. Normally with all of this i would of cut.. who knows by now i would of sliced my arms entirley... But im getting help and im changing... its for the best. Instead of cutting i listen to loud loud loud music ... (LP Nirvana GNR etc) I take a walk (no more eating my feelings = lose weight) and write ... like this, vent somewhere like in my journal on a forum or even write a poem... . Or even sometimes cry... crying is good. For males and females. I just try to find something better and more productive to do then cut I know its hard I know its hard for everyone and if anyone needs to talk about anything im here My aim is Cheesy LP Fan, MSN, and yahoo are on my profile ... if anyone ever needs to talk instead of cutting let me know k ill be here. i know its hard and i dont know what else to say to people but i hope your lives get better and you can overcome this. everyone here seems so strong. Ok I will have in mind that Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/7dc4dbe2126c7ad7bee7adc51c90545d.jpg
shirakawa_otori Posted January 9, 2005 Posted January 9, 2005 Hey Roxy, you're a good example here. When people feel as bad as that I think it's a great step to look for help, I'm glad it has helped you. My best friend, like I already said, used to cut and had a bunch of suicide attempts, and she'd also force herself to be sick just to lose weight (althoguh she was already skinny :\), and she's been in therapy for some years now. It didn't seem to help her a whole lot, but I think now, after this time, she's getting better. Well I'm glad you found strength to look for help. I hope things with your mom go fine and I hope she gets better. Congrats to you for stopping the cutting and looking for help to deal with all those things! Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/ae02029e59966e62acb48589e0ad898c.jpg My last.fm | My deviantart
chazzy_rox Posted January 10, 2005 Posted January 10, 2005 oh god, today i went to go visit my horsie, and i was just about to go get her from the paddock, when i notice her brand new halter(the head thingy) that i got from the 4h that has her name on it, was broken. its missing this huge ass piece from it, and it couldn't have been done on accident. and i was all pissed and i was literally screaming at the top of my lungs and cussing at the cats cause they were stairing at me weirdly. ya i know it doesnt have anything to do with cutting, but its like an anger issue, and i just happened to be reading this thread when it came to my mind again. Quote [broken External Image]:http://www.freewebs.com/mypersonalgraphics/chazzy_rocks%20siggy.JPG PLEASE JOIN MY FORUM, IT NEEDS GOOD MEMBERS! LLW Forums
Nienna Posted January 10, 2005 Posted January 10, 2005 Roxy, I think you're really strong... I couldn't stop cutting. You're a wonderfull girl! :thumbsup: Chazzy_rox: Just remember: everything will be allright... Quote Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown will eventually break down...
Sygy Posted January 10, 2005 Posted January 10, 2005 well done Quote iam mors sola fuga est [broken External Image]:http://img409.imageshack.us/img409/9977/n76430001741552817731hb2.jpg
Sygy Posted January 14, 2005 Posted January 14, 2005 i started cutting myself again Quote iam mors sola fuga est [broken External Image]:http://img409.imageshack.us/img409/9977/n76430001741552817731hb2.jpg
Roxy Posted January 14, 2005 Posted January 14, 2005 thats not good. im not going to say dont because im sure theres tons of people who've told you that and im sure it gets old. so what do i say ? Be safe, put neosporn on your cuts and dont let them get infected, try to get help if at all possible, and i know its hard but you can work through it, its hard but possible, it just matters how you handle your anger. be safe and take care. if you need someone to talk to Just e mail me ok. I hope you get through this. Quote [broken External Image]:http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v192/DemonessEntity/HugePic.jpg
Sygy Posted January 14, 2005 Posted January 14, 2005 doubt it. i'm really sad right now. Quote iam mors sola fuga est [broken External Image]:http://img409.imageshack.us/img409/9977/n76430001741552817731hb2.jpg
Roxy Posted January 14, 2005 Posted January 14, 2005 wanna talk ? Quote [broken External Image]:http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v192/DemonessEntity/HugePic.jpg
Sygy Posted January 15, 2005 Posted January 15, 2005 i'm soo depressed life is so fucking unfair. Quote iam mors sola fuga est [broken External Image]:http://img409.imageshack.us/img409/9977/n76430001741552817731hb2.jpg
Roxy Posted January 15, 2005 Posted January 15, 2005 you're telling me, i have to drop class cuz i cant afford books and i have a sick mom. while other kids live at home for free and theire parents pay for all of their college. so depressing............................. but nothing to go slicing my arms up about. Quote [broken External Image]:http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v192/DemonessEntity/HugePic.jpg
Nienna Posted January 15, 2005 Posted January 15, 2005 I know how it is to cut yourself, so you can always talk to me. I'm also not saying that you must stop, just like Roxy. I can't stop either. I hope you can all work things out! *hugs* Quote Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown will eventually break down...
darklinkinpark Posted January 16, 2005 Posted January 16, 2005 just a few days ago i started cuttin myself and its become a habit. my friends doesnt believe that i do but i dont want to show her the marks cuz then she'll prolly tell some one or my parents and nobody know but me. everyday at skool i'll take my pen and make marks where i'll cut myself and after skool i cut where i mark. i'm not eatin as much as i used to either. so now my life is all screwed up. HELP Quote
darklinkinpark Posted January 16, 2005 Posted January 16, 2005 just a few days ago i started cuttin myself and its become a habit. my friends doesnt believe that i do but i dont want to show her the marks cuz then she'll prolly tell some one or my parents and nobody knows but me. everyday at skool i'll take my pen and make marks where i'll cut myself and after skool i cut where i mark. i'm not eatin as much as i used to either. so now my life is all screwed up. HELP Quote
darklinkinpark Posted January 16, 2005 Posted January 16, 2005 sorry i posted the same thing twice Quote
About2Break27 Posted January 16, 2005 Posted January 16, 2005 I do cut, but I don't want to talk about it on here. Quote [broken External Image]:http://uploader.clausercorp.com/uploaded/t4.jpg I support our troops. I just don't support the war.
Sygy Posted January 16, 2005 Posted January 16, 2005 you have to stop because you will end up just like me. the cuts start small be then they get deeper. if you wanna talk please feel free to message me because i'm in the same situation as you. love sygy Quote iam mors sola fuga est [broken External Image]:http://img409.imageshack.us/img409/9977/n76430001741552817731hb2.jpg
Nienna Posted January 16, 2005 Posted January 16, 2005 I think it's nice to talk about it here, nobody knows me, or could tell anyone. You can also message/MSN/whatever me, if you want. Quote Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown will eventually break down...
Ocean_soul Posted January 16, 2005 Posted January 16, 2005 I have been bad I didn't cut but I scratch myself really badly *sigh* I blamed it on my rabbit that she made it and just scratch it open and stuff when some's aks about it.... Quote Never sigh for better world, it's already composed played and told
Sygy Posted January 17, 2005 Posted January 17, 2005 this morning i was having a bath and think about how i don't wanna go to school and i just got the razor and started cutting. it's really easy to cover up because i alway wear gloves. but it really hurts and it is still bleeding. Quote iam mors sola fuga est [broken External Image]:http://img409.imageshack.us/img409/9977/n76430001741552817731hb2.jpg
LPGirl Posted January 18, 2005 Posted January 18, 2005 awww.. it bad to cut:( i saw two scars on 1 of my mum wrist and i said wats tha and she said when she was a teen and a lil depress she cut, but only twices and she stop cuz she said it was point less, so in stead she start drawing and painting more Quote
Sygy Posted January 18, 2005 Posted January 18, 2005 my friend saw my cuts and took my compass and pencils away. Quote iam mors sola fuga est [broken External Image]:http://img409.imageshack.us/img409/9977/n76430001741552817731hb2.jpg
Dark Rain Posted January 19, 2005 Posted January 19, 2005 y your compase and pencils???...and y did you have a compase and pencil in the first place..?? Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/5759b415544d1549a203fbc43a45360e.jpg
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