Advice

[Scorpion]

my life at home sucks bad, my parents are alchhoholics and my dad is quick to anger. their marrage sucks, they argue every night. my mom doesnt remember half the stuff from the night befor and my dads still pissed off about it. im 17 years old and i have a wounderfull g/f named brittany. i move out in 5 months to ohio with her. but until then i gotta deal with my family. i dont want to run away, it would creat more probloms. also 2 of my best freinds (brothers) died on christmas break. it hasnt hit me yet, its still kinda hard to believe. but im afraid when it does i might not stop crying. im lost right now. i sit in class and stay quiet. i guess im just scared cause i get the feeling one day my dads gunna get so angry and do somthing stupid. the bad part is he collects wepons. so he has guns and knives and stuff like that all over in his room. it scares teh shit outa me somtimes. im trying to do better in school but with all these destractions at home its getting kinda hard, but im still doing good. i need to get a job, but im not having the best of luck. i pray at night but for some reason......i get the feeling that......no one is there to hear me. to be honest it feels good just to get this stuff out. i have had a hard life when i was little. my parents broke up when i was 2 and my mom tryed to keep me away from my dad. we eventualy moveds to new mexico. my mom could afford to feed me and my 2 little brothers. she got into prostitution. i had to feed my brothers, clean the house, take them to school and help them with homework. i never got to go out and play with anyone. so in a way i kinda lost my childhood. one day the cops came and took em and my brothers away, my brothers to a foster home, and me to a boys ranch. i got in a fight and got stabbed, i stabbed the guy back and got 1 year in Juvinial detention center. i didnt have any freinds so all i did most the time was read. i got out after a year and went straight to a boys ranch again. then i went to a foster family. after about a year with the foster family they finaly told my that they found my dad. i moved to arizona with my dad. and now thats were i am. and i mentioned in the beggining how things are here. i havent seen my brothers in 2 years, and my real mom in about 7 years. the worst part was...the whole time i was going threw this, i thought it was normal. i dont ask for pity, but i ask for advice. im not a fucked up child. ive never hit a girl, i have manners, and a girlfreind who loves me. i dont wanna kill myself or anything like that. but im in desperate need of advice. thx guys for taking the time to read some other persons life story, most dont care, but the ones telling it do.

[Enigma]

sounds like brittany is a bit of a life saver for you... i wish all the best for you's and i hope it all comes together for you lad...

[shirakawa_otori]

Hey corpion, I see life's been pretty hard on you. It's when I read or hear stories like yours that make me think twice before complaining about my life. I'm sorry you had to go through all that, but you seem like such a strong person. You overcame your difficulties in the past, so now I hope you can do the same. I'm really sorry to hear about your friends I don't know what I'd do if that happened to me. maybe if you cry about it you'll feel better. letting things out of our chest always helps. The only advice I can give you is to hang in there, it's only 5 more months till you move in with your gf and hopefully everything will be better then. if you run away or do anything that may seem as trouble to your father, you may ruin your chances of going. I know how hard it is to concentrate at school when everything around us seems to fall apart. But be strong and things will look up soon. I'm sorry I can't give you much advice, but I read your whole story and if you ever need to let anything else out, feel free to PM or something. I'll try to help anyway I can. Take care and all the best to you

[Minzara]

Well I am not good at advice, I myself went though alot, i dont know if its as servere as your, but its close. What happen to me made me smarter, and i also missed most of my childhood, this doesn't make me angry though, cause it stopped me from doing stupid things when i was younger, and made me alot smarter. Best thing i can tell you is to you, if i was in your shoes. Would be to ignore it, and just remember 80% of the world is stupid as hell, and only care about themselves. As for you drunk angry father, i punched my dad once, when you did that. We got into a fist fight, my brother had to pull us off eachother. I now relized why he hit my mom though she stold everything he had and was a druggie, whore, pill popper. We live and learn.

and also remember no matter HOW hard life gets someone got it worse then you. Hope that helps

[stupidsoul1]

i dont have anything to say that could affect you....but just hold on for 5 more months and we r all here for u if u ever need to talk

[Enigma]

i dont have anything to say that could affect you....but just hold on for 5 more months and we r all here for u if u ever need to talk

 

i would have to agree. and we are all here i'm sure if you PM'ed anyone they would be glad to listen......

[stupidsoul1]

indeed ^^

 

we r all like one big happy happy family in a way

[Scorpion]

thx enigma. i hope it works out to

[Scorpion]

thx shirakawa im trying to hang in.

[Scorpion]

wow minzara, im sorry about your father thing. i think its the realization that somone has it worse that still amkes me feel lucky to be alive

[Scorpion]

thanks guys. im gunna try to hang in there. ive been thinking. it seems wierd that not even 2 weeks ago i was hanging with ym freinds befor they died, like i said befor i can barly belive tehre gone. i keep making myself think its a hoax and they moved to mexico or somthing. lol. but ive had this pit in my stomach all morning. im gunna miss them, but im happy they are in a better place now.

[stupidsoul1]

*hugs* dont worry its gonna be oki

[LPGirl]

aww... now i feel sad:(, thas rite only 5 more months, i hope u can hang in and im not good at advice, but im a good listener, u can pm me, or email me, if u like just to get stuff off ya chest and im glad u dont resort to stupid things lik trying to kill ur self, cuz come-on killing ya self would help any would it, no..

[Scorpion]

i agree killing myself wouldnt help. but ive never even thought about it. i guess ive always had this belief that it always gets better. who knows im only 17 stil got about 50 years ahead of me

[stupidsoul1]

it will get better lol if it doesnt u can kill lp186 if it doesnt ^^

[Scorpion]

lol yea true :thumbsup:

[LPGirl]

lol

[Clogz]

Hey man, It takes alot to have a character like yours with your upbringing. You, my friend, will be fine. All you have to do is perserve for the next five months. Don't ever give up. You got a great life planned after you live your current crappy surroundings. Don't ever forget that.

[stupidsoul1]

yup thats true and you will appreciate it because u know u really deserved it...

[Scorpion]

you guys are right. but i have more bad news. i jsut got kicked outa my house. im staying witha freind, but now i gotta get a job. i cant afford food at school, so i wait till i get out to eat at my freinds house. so now i have my no home, school, a ap history class(college course) and i need to get a job. im using school comp right now and i dont got any clean cloths, but im gunna try to get some washed soon. to be honest, i wounder why gods letting me go threw this, but i know deep down inside he wouldent give me anythign i cant handle. its a lot to take on in only 1 week. i just hope somone out there is praying for me.

[.hP.]

Hey dude, i just read your posts and you seem like, how should i put it, a gifted person, in that yes god has put you through all this shit, but maybe there is a reason, it might just be that he wants you to become stronger, for yourself or inorder to help someone else. I know im not good at advice but i have somethings i do when i get down, firstly i write all my feelings at that time down on a piece of paper and put it somewhere safe, when you life is on a better track, you then pull this piece of paper out read it, reflect on it and then take the pleasure of burning it, knowing that you are no longer feeling that way. I also turn up my lp music really loud and just scream my lungs out until i loose my voice and if things are really bad....i run out into a large open space (alone) and just scream random swear words as loud as i can....it seems to always help to relieve the pain. Just before xmas i lost 4 close family members, i know wat u are going through....hang in there and ill always be here for you. Just one more thing...i put up photos of my lost ones in my room so i dont forget them and it eventually sinks in that they are gone....maybe u should try carrying around photos if u have any. Is there anyone at school that can help with ur current situation of being homeless, foodless, clean clothless etc...i know over here we have a counsil person that helps in any way needed...he even gives from his own pocket. Its only 5 more months and during that we will all be here for you! So hang in there buddy!

[FanSince1999]

corpion']my life at home sucks bad' date=' my parents are alchhoholics and my dad is quick to anger. their marrage sucks, they argue every night. my mom doesnt remember half the stuff from the night befor and my dads still pissed off about it. im 17 years old and i have a wounderfull g/f named brittany. i move out in 5 months to ohio with her. but until then i gotta deal with my family. i dont want to run away, it would creat more probloms. also 2 of my best freinds (brothers) died on christmas break. it hasnt hit me yet, its still kinda hard to believe. but im afraid when it does i might not stop crying. im lost right now. i sit in class and stay quiet. i guess im just scared cause i get the feeling one day my dads gunna get so angry and do somthing stupid. the bad part is he collects wepons. so he has guns and knives and stuff like that all over in his room. it scares teh shit outa me somtimes. im trying to do better in school but with all these destractions at home its getting kinda hard, but im still doing good. i need to get a job, but im not having the best of luck. i pray at night but for some reason......i get the feeling that......no one is there to hear me. to be honest it feels good just to get this stuff out. i have had a hard life when i was little. my parents broke up when i was 2 and my mom tryed to keep me away from my dad. we eventualy moveds to new mexico. my mom could afford to feed me and my 2 little brothers. she got into prostitution. i had to feed my brothers, clean the house, take them to school and help them with homework. i never got to go out and play with anyone. so in a way i kinda lost my childhood. one day the cops came and took em and my brothers away, my brothers to a foster home, and me to a boys ranch. i got in a fight and got stabbed, i stabbed the guy back and got 1 year in Juvinial detention center. i didnt have any freinds so all i did most the time was read. i got out after a year and went straight to a boys ranch again. then i went to a foster family. after about a year with the foster family they finaly told my that they found my dad. i moved to arizona with my dad. and now thats were i am. and i mentioned in the beggining how things are here. i havent seen my brothers in 2 years, and my real mom in about 7 years. the worst part was...the whole time i was going threw this, i thought it was normal. i dont ask for pity, but i ask for advice. im not a fucked up child. ive never hit a girl, i have manners, and a girlfreind who loves me. i dont wanna kill myself or anything like that. but im in desperate need of advice. thx guys for taking the time to read some other persons life story, most dont care, but the ones telling it do.[/quote']

 

 

do t lose your faith my frie d

[Scorpion]

thanks man, im guna talk wiht the school counsler and see what can be done.i do ahve a pic of them. i carry ti around in my back pocket. thx for advice. i think i miht try yelling lol. hope it works *cross's fingers*. thanks for the advice again. i really appretiate it.

[.hP.]

no probs mate...it really clears the system...dont forget...im here

[shirakawa_otori]

I'm sorry you got kicked out of your house. Even with how bad things were there, it was still home. But maybe now, if you manage to get a job and hang on for the 5 months you have left before you move to your gf's house, you'll see it may have come for the best. At least you don't have to go through your bad home life. Can't you take your things out of there? You could go there get some clean clothes. Try to focus on your goals and have faith, remember you have a great future waiting for you! You are really gifted and strong, so believe you'll overcome all this. I'm hoping everything will be better for you really soon. Like [hp] said, we're all here for you whenever you need us. Hang in there, we're all with you!