Suicide

[twilightcrimson7]

I didn'y know that till recently, but I still couldn't fall asleep last night.. Maybe it was an omen... man, she has a knack for worriing people... *bites fingernails*

I need a sign...

edit:

 

"help me if you can adjust to

this is not the way I'm wired so could you please,

help me understand why you've given in to all these

reckless dark desires you're

lying to yourself again

suicidal imbecile

think about it,

put it on the faultline

what'll it take to get it through to

you precious I'm over this,

why do you wanna throw it away like this

such a mess, why would i wanna watch

you disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time

what's your rush now,

everyone will have his day to die medicated,

drama queen,

picture perfect,

numb beligerance

narcisistic,

drama queen,

craving fame and all this decadence

lying through your teeth again

suicidal imbecile

think about it,

put it on the fautline what'll it take

to get it through to you precious

I'm over this,

why do you wanna throw it away

like this such a mess,

why would i wanna watch you

disconnect and self destruct

one bullet at a time

what's your rush now,

everyone will have his day to die

they were right about you

they were right about you

lying to my face again

suicidal imbecile

think about it,

put it on the fautline

what'll it take to get it through

to you precious I'm over this ,

why do you wanna throw it away like this

such a mess, over this,

over this disconnect and self destruct,

one bullet at a time what's your hurry,

everyone will have his day to die

if you choose to pull the trigger,

should your drama prove sincere,

do it somewhere far away from here"

 

Lryics by APC, "The Outsider"

[uwantme2b]

OMG I really hope she's okay

[Chestersbabi7]

*Crosses Fingers* ME TOO

[FanSince1999]

guys..i dont know what's wrong with me...but i've been experimenting strange feelings...

 

when i have to pass through difficult situations i think about comminting suicide right away....it's like a natural thought...i dont know if you are getting what i am saying...but the fact is that i cannot control this feelings...

 

i dont know how long i will resist.

[Marizka]

has anyone heard from lpp?? I think the last time i heard from her was wednesday or thurseday...im worried sick..

 

ow..for fansince1999 i wrote this on PMA, maybe it'll help or inspire or I dunno

what's the right word

http://s4.invisionfree.com/Pushmeaway_dot_com/index.php?showtopic=336

[LPpinkfreak821]

has anyone heard from lpp?? I think the last time i heard from her was wednesday or thurseday...im worried sick..

 

ow..for fansince1999 i wrote this on PMA, maybe it'll help or inspire or I dunno

what's the right word

http://s4.invisionfree.com/Pushmeaway_dot_com/index.php?showtopic=336

i was just thinkin about LPP... i havent been on much in the last 3 or 4 days.. but i got on one of those days and she IMed.. i didn't have time to respond cuz i had to get off.. and that was the last time i well.. didn't talk to her.. but you know heard from her... i hope she is ok..

[twilightcrimson7]

me too... man.... this isn't like her... I hope she wasn't serious.

FS1999: I can't control any of my emotions except happiness. I can fake that anytime I want. I'm pretty good at mamging my anger too. but everything else is hopeless. I know how you feel

[Heart_LP]

Idk know why but my insticts are just telling me that lpp is fine..like she has´nt done anything..you know..

I hope that is true!

 

I can´t control my feeling either..I get mad so quickly and I just cant control it..all I think of is to harm myself then cause I can´t do anything else and I feel helpless..

twi is right,I can fake happiness too..I do it most of the time when I meet other ppl at my school or something otherwise they just kkep on asking and staring and I hate that!...staring thing!

[twilightcrimson7]

ugh...me too... I hate when people stare...i feel so self concious.

I fake happiness when i'm around friends, mostly, becuase I don't want them to worry over me. I do it around parents alot too. I don't do it here, often, becuase I know you won't judge me or anything

[Heart_LP]

yeah me too!

when I read that you faked happiness around your freinds too I was about to say that you did´nt need to fake happiness here around your LPF freinds

it´s good that you dont..

when someone stares at me..I feel so insecure..I hate it.I just wanna go over to the person and punch ´em in the face but as I get so insecure, I can´t do it! otherwise I would truly love to!