angelwithburntwings Posted February 23, 2005 Posted February 23, 2005 best of luck, i'm praying for you man, and i'm not even that religious Quote I remember your other account being banned OOPS!!!
lpunderground Posted February 23, 2005 Posted February 23, 2005 try no to get all down about it. Just think that theres someone better for you. Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/d0830d4dd48c55ec25f67b95c7e15695.jpg Is this what you want president Bush? Thanks lpp for the sig. its the shiznet!
DarkShadow Posted February 23, 2005 Author Posted February 23, 2005 Ugh she's in the shower...her dad is gonna have her call me back....*gulp* I'm really nervous. Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
DarkShadow Posted February 23, 2005 Author Posted February 23, 2005 Ok....we talked. I read her the poem, first off. She said it was really well written. Then I told her that me and my friends (you all) decided that it's best that her and I just stop being friends, or at least take a break from it for awhile. Then she started crying. She said the only reason she doesn't want to date me is that she doesn't want to hurt our relationship....I kinda think that she does like me back...she just doesn't want to admit it. But I don't know. I might call her back and ask her about that. I told her that I would do anything for her...I mean...I really love Abby. It's just that I think she's scared of commitment or something....I have no clue. I'm gonna call her back and talk some more...I feel like there's more to talk about. *sigh* I don't think this is going to work out....I think me and her are going to stay friends....she told me to tell you all "Up yours"...so I kinda get the impression that she wants to stay friends. ugh this is so confusing...um...I'll call her in 20 minutes and tell her EXACTLY how I feel about her. Maybe things will turn out the way I want...but probably not. She says she was thinking about breaking up with her boyfriend (finally)...so maybe things will turn out good... Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
angelwithburntwings Posted February 23, 2005 Posted February 23, 2005 "up yours" straight back!!!! lol kidding, thats not too bad, i spose, it could have gone much worse, call her back, tell her you love her, you never know, things might work out... Quote I remember your other account being banned OOPS!!!
DarkShadow Posted February 23, 2005 Author Posted February 23, 2005 "up yours" straight back!!!! lol kidding' date=' thats not too bad, i spose, it could have gone much worse, call her back, tell her you love her, you never know, things might work out...[/quote'] One can only hope... I'm gettin ready to call her back...I'll come back downstairs to update you all on the situation here then I'm off to bed.... Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
DarkShadow Posted February 23, 2005 Author Posted February 23, 2005 ok i talked to her...i asked her if she said "I just don't want to go out with you because I dont want to hurt us" if that means that she does like me that way....she said not necessarily....then I asked her if she would ever go out with me....she said she didn't know...so I asked if she would in the near future and she said no...so I got the impression that she only loves me as a best friend or brother. Which is a good thing but not what I was hoping for...I just love her so much and I would die for her...ugh this is so confusing... Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
lpp Posted February 23, 2005 Posted February 23, 2005 ok i talked to her...i asked her if she said "I just don't want to go out with you because I dont want to hurt us" if that means that she does like me that way....she said not necessarily....then I asked her if she would ever go out with me....she said she didn't know...so I asked if she would in the near future and she said no...so I got the impression that she only loves me as a best friend or brother. Which is a good thing but not what I was hoping for...I just love her so much and I would die for her...ugh this is so confusing... i hope things go smoothly *hugsdarkshadow* Quote
LPGotLinkinPark Posted February 23, 2005 Posted February 23, 2005 Since you two still want to stay friends, go ahead. You just need to find a way for you to think of her as only a friend and not someone that love. I'm not exactly sure how to do that though. But there's gotta be something. *mroe hugs* Quote rep me!! | xanga | add me on myspace
stupidsoul1 Posted February 23, 2005 Posted February 23, 2005 wow ds is so brave Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/25cb22d29f0c2f027cf1acc5b7bf6cf4.png http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/459bb3c6fed65d05781dbdae0319d254.png http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/0dcf45273040e11bc56a99d4601a58d5.png http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/bfdf068f8fa963062b979cec565ff7f7.png Fiona is teh Fionizzle... and we all love her ^^
DarkShadow Posted February 23, 2005 Author Posted February 23, 2005 I cried myself to sleep last night....I got maybe 2 hours of sleep. And of course I dreamed about Abby. I decided this isn't going to work out. I'm going to walk up to Abby and say, "Fuck what I said last night....I can't live like this....I need you." I know that she and I will most likely never go out...but honestly, I want to marry her...spend my whole life with her. I want to hold her and comfort her when she needs it. I want to protect her. I want her...*sigh* I wish there was a way to make these dreams come true....*cries* Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
DarkShadow Posted February 23, 2005 Author Posted February 23, 2005 Well today was just horrible...not talking to abby was a killer....I just gave up and told her I couldn't do it...she broke up with her boyfriend...I told him that I knew she was going to do it and she got pissed at me. Why did she break up with her boyfriend? I'll tell you...it's something I kinda 'left out conveniently' last night...she says she still loves her ex-boyfriend...(the one I almost killed) and honestly, that just takes my heart and wrenches it of all its blood....my heart feels empty. It feels like its been through a blender. The last thing I said to her today was, "what the fuck?" and I feel terrible because of it...I want to call and apologize but she's not going to be at her house tonight...she'll be at her friend's house. Ugh I'm back where I was before...depressed as fuck and wanting to kill myself...the only difference now is that I'm not going to kill myself...I can't do it..I know better than that now....it's just that I feel so miserable and shit....I mean, I love Abby soooo much...I want to spend my life with her...I want to have kids with her and get married, and die together. *cries* I just wish there was a way to make her love me. I wish there was something I could do... Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
lpp Posted February 23, 2005 Posted February 23, 2005 Well today was just horrible...not talking to abby was a killer....I just gave up and told her I couldn't do it...she broke up with her boyfriend...I told him that I knew she was going to do it and she got pissed at me. Why did she break up with her boyfriend? I'll tell you...it's something I kinda 'left out conveniently' last night...she says she still loves her ex-boyfriend...(the one I almost killed) and honestly, that just takes my heart and wrenches it of all its blood....my heart feels empty. It feels like its been through a blender. The last thing I said to her today was, "what the fuck?" and I feel terrible because of it...I want to call and apologize but she's not going to be at her house tonight...she'll be at her friend's house. Ugh I'm back where I was before...depressed as fuck and wanting to kill myself...the only difference now is that I'm not going to kill myself...I can't do it..I know better than that now....it's just that I feel so miserable and shit....I mean, I love Abby soooo much...I want to spend my life with her...I want to have kids with her and get married, and die together. *cries* I just wish there was a way to make her love me. I wish there was something I could do... aww *hugs darkshadow* Quote
DarkShadow Posted February 23, 2005 Author Posted February 23, 2005 My friend Kalie told me never to give up on abby...haha trust me, I'll never give up on her...There's just no point in trying anymore...she'll never love me... So what's the point in even trying if I won't ever be happy with her? I mean, I really love her...you have no idea how much I love her. I just don't know what to do. Kalie said to just be nice to her, but that probably won't do me much good....besides her being nice back...there's seriously no hope...after this school year is over, I'll most likely never see Abby again...ever. So I'll have no choice but to forget her. I'm scared that when it comes around, I'll do something that I'll regret. I mean bad things...ugh I just don't know what to do anymore....This is all just so confusing...I wish I could just get over her...I wish it was that easy...but I can't. It's impossible. My friend Marett says that I don't love abby...she thinks that I couldn't know what love is because I haven't ever gone out with abby, kissed her, or anything...but obviously she's not noticing how much I really DO love Abby. Marett says that if I loved her I would do anything and everything for her....and that's kinda what I've said all along...I would risk my fucking life for her. I love her...I always will, even if she has hurt me this much...I'll always love her...no matter what happens. I mean...her initials are in my fucking arm...engraved. The scars are permanent. This has got me thinking though...could this be the reason that no girl wants to go out with me? because I love Abby so much? Because her initials are in my arm? Because I'm obsessed with Abby? *cries* I'd have to say, that so far this year has sucked...especially this month... Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
lpp Posted February 23, 2005 Posted February 23, 2005 i hope things go well darkshadow. *hugs you* Quote
DarkShadow Posted February 23, 2005 Author Posted February 23, 2005 Well Abby's friend sera is online, and I'm thinking Abby is with her, but theyre ignoring me...i swear to god i fucking hate this.... Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
lpp Posted February 23, 2005 Posted February 23, 2005 Well Abby's friend sera is online' date=' and I'm thinking Abby is with her, but theyre ignoring me...i swear to god i fucking hate this....[/quote'] i can tell if you want you can pm me and we can talk. if you want to Quote
DarkShadow Posted February 23, 2005 Author Posted February 23, 2005 meh....whatever Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
lpp Posted February 23, 2005 Posted February 23, 2005 meh....whatever just to let you know i'm here for you so you can pm me anytime. ds Quote
DarkShadow Posted February 23, 2005 Author Posted February 23, 2005 ok....thanks Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
DarkShadow Posted February 23, 2005 Author Posted February 23, 2005 *cries uncontrollably* I think maybe Abby doesn't care at all.... This is a convo with me and Abby's best friend: Brizzad413 (6:50:35 PM): hey way2sweet4u278 (6:50:39 PM): hey Brizzad413 (6:50:54 PM): let me guess..abby's over? way2sweet4u278 (6:51:03 PM): no way2sweet4u278 (6:51:07 PM): she left already Brizzad413 (6:51:10 PM): oh... way2sweet4u278 (6:51:14 PM): yeah Brizzad413 (6:51:52 PM): I was gonna ask to talk to her but nvm Brizzad413 (6:51:52 PM): lol Auto response from way2sweet4u278 (6:51:53 PM): ********make a wish******** :-) Brizzad413 (6:52:04 PM): did she tell you? way2sweet4u278 (6:52:31 PM): yes she told me Brizzad413 (6:52:37 PM): oh Brizzad413 (6:52:43 PM): well is she upset? way2sweet4u278 (6:52:51 PM): haa no Brizzad413 (6:53:00 PM): so she doesn't care? way2sweet4u278 (6:53:34 PM): she cares that you keep saying you are going to stop or do something and then you don't Brizzad413 (6:54:01 PM): Well I mean...I want to get over her....if you know what I mean....but I can't not be friends with her Brizzad413 (6:54:05 PM): if that makes sense Brizzad413 (6:54:14 PM): I mean....this is really hard for me Brizzad413 (6:54:37 PM): I still love her, and I think I always will....but I'm trying to get rid of that feeling and just be her friend way2sweet4u278 (6:54:54 PM): well do it then biznotch Brizzad413 (6:55:02 PM): I've tried way2sweet4u278 (6:55:06 PM): ok well i g2g way2sweet4u278 (6:55:09 PM): cya Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
lpp Posted February 23, 2005 Posted February 23, 2005 *cries uncontrollably* I think maybe Abby doesn't care at all.... This is a convo with me and Abby's best friend: Brizzad413 (6:50:35 PM): hey way2sweet4u278 (6:50:39 PM): hey Brizzad413 (6:50:54 PM): let me guess..abby's over? way2sweet4u278 (6:51:03 PM): no way2sweet4u278 (6:51:07 PM): she left already Brizzad413 (6:51:10 PM): oh... way2sweet4u278 (6:51:14 PM): yeah Brizzad413 (6:51:52 PM): I was gonna ask to talk to her but nvm Brizzad413 (6:51:52 PM): lol Auto response from way2sweet4u278 (6:51:53 PM): ********make a wish******** :-) Brizzad413 (6:52:04 PM): did she tell you? way2sweet4u278 (6:52:31 PM): yes she told me Brizzad413 (6:52:37 PM): oh Brizzad413 (6:52:43 PM): well is she upset? way2sweet4u278 (6:52:51 PM): haa no Brizzad413 (6:53:00 PM): so she doesn't care? way2sweet4u278 (6:53:34 PM): she cares that you keep saying you are going to stop or do something and then you don't Brizzad413 (6:54:01 PM): Well I mean...I want to get over her....if you know what I mean....but I can't not be friends with her Brizzad413 (6:54:05 PM): if that makes sense Brizzad413 (6:54:14 PM): I mean....this is really hard for me Brizzad413 (6:54:37 PM): I still love her, and I think I always will....but I'm trying to get rid of that feeling and just be her friend way2sweet4u278 (6:54:54 PM): well do it then biznotch Brizzad413 (6:55:02 PM): I've tried way2sweet4u278 (6:55:06 PM): ok well i g2g way2sweet4u278 (6:55:09 PM): cya ohh poor ds. *hugs hugs hugs you* Quote
DarkShadow Posted February 24, 2005 Author Posted February 24, 2005 ok enough hugging me....perhaps you should actually try to give me some advice instead of hugging me like a maniac... Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
DarkShadow Posted February 24, 2005 Author Posted February 24, 2005 This is a convo with my "friend" Adam....I needed Kalie's phone number to talk to her about Abby....here's the convo: Brizzad413 (6:58:06 PM): do you know Kalie's cell number? foofighters2552 (6:58:11 PM): no Brizzad413 (6:58:21 PM): oh...nvm then foofighters2552 (6:58:49 PM): so whos this chick your tryin to go out wirth Brizzad413 (6:59:08 PM): im not tryin to go out with any chick Brizzad413 (6:59:13 PM): im just having problems foofighters2552 (6:59:26 PM): everyone has problems Brizzad413 (6:59:56 PM): not like this... foofighters2552 (7:00:05 PM): i bet6 i have worse Auto response from Brizzad413 (7:00:05 PM): brb Brizzad413 (7:02:04 PM): i doubt it foofighters2552 (7:02:16 PM): tell me Brizzad413 (7:03:17 PM): why? so you can tell everyone els\e Brizzad413 (7:03:20 PM): else* foofighters2552 (7:03:37 PM): if you made me promise i wouldnt tell Brizzad413 (7:04:03 PM): i dont trust you Brizzad413 (7:04:16 PM): if you dont tell anyone then you'll make fun of me for it foofighters2552 (7:04:17 PM): i keep my word ask anyone Brizzad413 (7:04:34 PM): i dont care....i dont trust anyone besides Kalie with this Brizzad413 (7:04:39 PM): and she's not going to tell you foofighters2552 (7:04:49 PM): i didnt think she would Brizzad413 (7:05:00 PM): dont even try to get her to tell you either foofighters2552 (7:05:07 PM): if its chick promblems brad none is worse than mine Brizzad413 (7:05:18 PM): then tell me yours Brizzad413 (7:05:36 PM): mine has gotten to life or death situation before foofighters2552 (7:06:28 PM): dont even go to life or death wiith me foofighters2552 (7:07:35 PM): and with this life or death thing what are you going todo kill yourself Brizzad413 (7:07:50 PM): no...its not life or death right now Brizzad413 (7:08:09 PM): but it around the time I got sent home Brizzad413 (7:08:23 PM): dude...don't think you know everything about me foofighters2552 (7:08:42 PM): i dont think i do Brizzad413 (7:09:02 PM): well don't judge me, don't tell me what i think or w/e foofighters2552 (7:09:04 PM): dont let your past get in your way' Brizzad413 (7:09:18 PM): im not....my future is whats in my way...as well as my present foofighters2552 (7:09:22 PM): hell if i did id be in an asylum Brizzad413 (7:09:30 PM): I would too Brizzad413 (7:10:02 PM): If anyone knew what all I went through while I was gone.....ooh you wouldn't be trying to piss me off foofighters2552 (7:10:04 PM): brad there is no such thing as the future there is only present Brizzad413 (7:10:27 PM): dude....you dont know what is going on with me so just forget it foofighters2552 (7:10:29 PM): who said i was brad and is that a threat Brizzad413 (7:10:42 PM): no its not a threat.... Brizzad413 (7:10:57 PM): its a suggestion Brizzad413 (7:11:17 PM): just leave me alone man....this really isnt the time foofighters2552 (7:11:24 PM): and what would happen if i didnt take your advice Brizzad413 (7:12:07 PM): i would get pissed...but i wouldnt do anything about it because that would just make my problems worse foofighters2552 (7:12:40 PM): forget your problems Brizzad413 (7:12:51 PM): fuck you! foofighters2552 (7:13:04 PM): just a suggestion Brizzad413 (7:13:22 PM): how can i forget problems when theyre staring me in the face? Brizzad413 (7:13:33 PM): dude you don't even know what's going on with me so just shut the fuck up foofighters2552 (7:14:00 PM): your right i dont but dont tell me to shut up Brizzad413 (7:14:07 PM): shut up Brizzad413 (7:14:13 PM): oooohhh what are you gonna do? foofighters2552 (7:14:22 PM): what will you do if i dont Brizzad413 (7:14:58 PM): well I personally would prefer not to get physical, as I would get sent home again.....so I'd just block you foofighters2552 (7:15:18 PM): i thought you might and brad you wouldnt toch me Brizzad413 (7:17:17 PM): What makes you so sure about that? foofighters2552 (7:17:30 PM): id be too quick for you Brizzad413 (7:17:40 PM): you're just too short Brizzad413 (7:17:49 PM): and I have a broken arm foofighters2552 (7:17:52 PM): to my advantage foofighters2552 (7:18:08 PM): if you didnt have a broken arm you still wouldnt tough me Brizzad413 (7:18:31 PM): how do you know that/ Brizzad413 (7:18:36 PM): have you ever seen me fight? foofighters2552 (7:18:55 PM): have you ever seen mee ive taken down bigger guys than youy Brizzad413 (7:19:32 PM): well isn't that special? foofighters2552 (7:19:49 PM): no not realy Brizzad413 (7:21:28 PM): dude just leave me alone foofighters2552 (7:21:39 PM): you keep talking Brizzad413 (7:21:51 PM): w/e Brizzad413 (7:21:52 PM): goodbye foofighters2552 (7:21:58 PM): ok Quote :ok: Mmm...good stuff. :clap: http://www.myspace.com/bsinger1017
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