lpp's journal

[woodyloveslinkin]

http://www.linkinparkforums.com/showthread.php?p=207854#post207854

[uwantme2b]

umm.. i think we stopped posting a long time ago.. thank you and leave US alone:)

 

Misery posted yesterday in this journal.

And all I was doing is very politely requesting that you stop picking on Lpp. This is her journal, nobody asked you to come in here. In no way was I rude to you, so please don't be so confrontational.

 

Hey Lpp, how you doing?

[shahfire]

well there is this guy in my teen poetry night group who i like like and i told him and like yea and its so kewl cause he is so random just like ME and i know for fact that me and him will make a great couple..............and he is like umm how do i put this with out sounding racist black but i don't care .....he is kewl and he brings out my happy side lmao its so fun being around him and stuff and if we do start dating i don't care what others say about us since i am white and he is black who give a flying rats ass i have the rights to love anyone of and color.

GREAT!!!!!!! IM SO HAPPY 4 YOU!! i mean it, really. these few days, you have been down alot, so this event will definately make you happy, at least a lil bit. but what i wanna know, lpp, is that i thought you were going for a girl and not a guy....but that is none of my business, as you said, you have the right to love anyone you like. :thumbsup:

[lpp]

shahfire-i still want a gurl but first i am going to try it out with this guy to see if i feel mor comfertable with a guy and i feel weird being with him them i guess i would perfer a gurl better and he said he doesn't mind dating someone who is bi and use to be a cutter which is good and i also promised him i wouldn't start cutting again

 

becks-hey gurl sup man me nothing much you already know i am HAPPY so yup i am one happy bitch today lmao so Ello

 

update well just read my reply to Shahfire lmao

 

but yup i talked to my uncle Aaron last night he travles alot cause of his job and can't wait till he gets back from where he is .....i miss him alot and i am pretty close to him also so yup.

[uwantme2b]

I'm happy that you're happy lol

[lpp]

Becks-thnks gurl lmao *~* hugs you *~*

 

i am bored

[uwantme2b]

*hugs lpp back*

 

you're bored? you could... read some fanfic or something... or write a poem

[lpp]

Funny story time oh this story is true

one i fell asleep in the car in the front sit and i felt like was falling and then i flippin fucking like spazed in my sleep that was funny then it scared my mom lmao but yup the end it over

 

LMAO

i had one of those dreams where you feel like your falling but you oh i forgot to say i hit the window with my right hand lmao

[uwantme2b]

lol... thats funny

i always feel like i'm falling when i go in to a theatre for some reason... im such a weirdo

[lpp]

Star Wars Kicks Ass

[keza]

heylo lpp..je tres bored so coming round peoples journals, hope u dont mind...hmmm...star wars is gd, store wars is too...lol

well hope all is well in the fairy land that is ur home...bubi...*waves*

luv u!!!

[lpp]

i am FAIRY yea ohh hheeh stilll bored

[Heart_LP]

hey lpp! ^^

glad to know you feel good!

*hugs*

ttyl

[lpp]

samira-Ello thnks for stoppping by and YUP i do

[lpp]

Fireballthefairy [11:44 A.M.]: Ello

WingGal2003 [11:44 A.M.]: umm

WingGal2003 [11:44 A.M.]: hi

Fireballthefairy [11:45 A.M.]: GOOD NEWS I BRING YOU

Fireballthefairy [11:45 A.M.]: i

Fireballthefairy [11:45 A.M.]: AM

Fireballthefairy [11:45 A.M.]: HAPPY

WingGal2003 [11:45 A.M.]: REALLY ?

Fireballthefairy [11:45 A.M.]: yup

WingGal2003 [11:45 A.M.]: y?

Fireballthefairy [11:46 A.M.]: CAUSE READ MY JOURNA ON LPF

Fireballthefairy [11:48 A.M.]: how are yup

WingGal2003 [11:48 A.M.]: im fine

Fireballthefairy [11:48 A.M.]: As You Know i am Happy

WingGal2003 [11:48 A.M.]: ...

Fireballthefairy [11:48 A.M.]: yesh?

WingGal2003 [11:49 A.M.]: nuthin...reading stuff

Fireballthefairy [11:49 A.M.]: oh kewl

Fireballthefairy [11:50 A.M.]: i bored

WingGal2003 [11:50 A.M.]: erm

WingGal2003 [11:50 A.M.]: ok me too

Fireballthefairy [11:50 A.M.]: i hate walls

WingGal2003 [11:51 A.M.]: huh?

Fireballthefairy [11:51 A.M.]: i hate walls

WingGal2003 [11:52 A.M.]: y?...oh, plz chage the background color...i cant read it very well

Fireballthefairy [11:52 A.M.]: why don't you like black

WingGal2003 [11:52 A.M.]: i LOVE black, but i cant reald the red print

Fireballthefairy [11:52 A.M.]: oh sowwie

Fireballthefairy [11:52 A.M.]: it was curlz

WingGal2003 [11:53 A.M.]: i can read that better

Fireballthefairy [11:53 A.M.]: i know

WingGal2003 [11:54 A.M.]: yup!

Fireballthefairy [11:54 A.M.]: i know lol

WingGal2003 [11:55 A.M.]: :-D

Fireballthefairy [11:55 A.M.]: fhjhkhdsfjkdshfk

WingGal2003 [11:56 A.M.]: wtf

Fireballthefairy [11:56 A.M.]: don't aks

Fireballthefairy [11:56 A.M.]: ask*

WingGal2003 [11:56 A.M.]: ok, i wont

Fireballthefairy [11:56 A.M.]: BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

WingGal2003 [11:56 A.M.]: nope

WingGal2003 [12:00 P.M.]: BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo

Fireballthefairy [12:00 P.M.]: NOPE

WingGal2003 [12:00 P.M.]: >??????????

WingGal2003 [12:01 P.M.]: damnhit

Fireballthefairy [12:01 P.M.]: i know

WingGal2003 [12:01 P.M.]: >:o

Fireballthefairy [12:02 P.M.]: what

WingGal2003 [12:02 P.M.]: idk

WingGal2003 [12:02 P.M.]: im talking to my evil dad

Fireballthefairy [12:02 P.M.]: you can never scare me

WingGal2003 [12:03 P.M.]: pfft

Fireballthefairy [12:04 P.M.]: yesh

WingGal2003 [12:04 P.M.]: nuthin

Fireballthefairy [12:07 P.M.]: really *~* LOOKS UP *~*

WingGal2003 [12:07 P.M.]: OMG

WingGal2003 [12:07 P.M.]: Idk

Fireballthefairy [12:07 P.M.]: really

WingGal2003 [12:07 P.M.]: yup

Fireballthefairy [12:08 P.M.]: OMFG

WingGal2003 [12:08 P.M.]: im stupid atm

Fireballthefairy [12:08 P.M.]: OMFg

WingGal2003 [12:08 P.M.]: WHAT

Fireballthefairy [12:08 P.M.]: no urges finally *~* Looks Evil *~*

WingGal2003 [12:08 P.M.]: GRATS

Fireballthefairy [12:08 P.M.]: YUP

Fireballthefairy [12:11 P.M.]: fine don't talk

WingGal2003 [12:11 P.M.]: HIYA!

WingGal2003 [12:11 P.M.]: YACK

 

WingGal2003 [12:11 P.M.]: YACK

WingGal2003 [12:11 P.M.]: YACK

WingGal2003 [12:11 P.M.]: blah

Fireballthefairy [12:11 P.M.]: good gurl

WingGal2003 [12:11 P.M.]: *hisses and growls*

Fireballthefairy [12:12 P.M.]: NO BAD GURL

WingGal2003 [12:12 P.M.]: *SNAPS HER TEETH*

Fireballthefairy [12:12 P.M.]: *~* smacks nose *~*

WingGal2003 [12:12 P.M.]: *wines*

Fireballthefairy [12:12 P.M.]: No be nice to me

WingGal2003 [12:13 P.M.]: *wines some more

Fireballthefairy [12:13 P.M.]: *~* pets your head *~*

Fireballthefairy [12:13 P.M.]: This is going in my journal

WingGal2003 [12:13 P.M.]: *snaps at ur hand*

WingGal2003 [12:14 P.M.]: WHAT

WingGal2003 [12:14 P.M.]: !!!!

Fireballthefairy [12:14 P.M.]: yea on lpf its is going in my journal

WingGal2003 [12:14 P.M.]: on lpf?

Fireballthefairy [12:14 P.M.]: LinkinParkForums

WingGal2003 [12:14 P.M.]: DAMN U

WingGal2003 [12:14 P.M.]: im not a frickin dog!

Fireballthefairy [12:15 P.M.]: yes you re

WingGal2003 [12:15 P.M.]: NO IM NOT

WingGal2003 [12:15 P.M.]: Grrrrrrrr

Fireballthefairy [12:15 P.M.]: lmao you so cute when you mad

WingGal2003 [12:16 P.M.]: WTF

Fireballthefairy [12:16 P.M.]: nvm

WingGal2003 [12:16 P.M.]: grrrr

Fireballthefairy [12:16 P.M.]: yesh

WingGal2003 [12:16 P.M.]: U POST THIS?

Fireballthefairy [12:16 P.M.]: not yet

WingGal2003 [12:17 P.M.]: good

Fireballthefairy [12:17 P.M.]: y

WingGal2003 [12:17 P.M.]: cause, ur gonna make me out to be a goddman pet!

Fireballthefairy [12:17 P.M.]: lmao

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WingGal2003 [12:19 P.M.]: wtf

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WingGal2003 [12:20 P.M.]: wtf!

Fireballthefairy [12:20 P.M.]: 1..............*~* drum roll*~*

Fireballthefairy [12:20 P.M.]: *~* goes to Journal *~*

[Greyfoxx]

Wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[lpp]

greyfoxx-don't worry lmy little wild fox

[Greyfoxx]

Im Not Ur Fuckin Pet!!!

[lpp]

shhhhhhhhh

[Greyfoxx]

Shhhhhhhh????????????????????

[lpp]

but see when i use to be in public school i was teaseed everyday

the kids would be like ewww rebecca grems or like other shit

and you know what i did NOTHING i just put up with the emotional abuse for years i didn't care got use to it and look at my now this angry kid who can't trust people cause you know why cause i am afraid i might get hurt and i just block people out and don't let hardly anyone in and if i do your lucky but still you think i wanted people to tease me NO i wanted to have friends to hang with to talk with and to have sleep overs but no i didn't have very many friends only one but she left me in the 7th grade then through middle school i had only one friend but she stopped talking to me to i guess people hate me bigt fucking deal i am use to emotional abuse cause i put up with from kindergarten-7th grade till the middle of 7th grade then i my mom decide to homeschool me but in 6th grade some fat chick called me a slut but hey i didn't know what it meant i looke dit up and found out it meant sleeping with lots of guys i was like that is not me and i told the teachter damn stupid bitch told the teachter that she didn't call me that and she got away with it but in 7th grade i got her back by calling her a hoe and it felt great my only friends i mostly had were teachers wow teachers some shocker huh me and the art teacher were close but student teacher friends its was fun then i moved to az it fucking sucks here and bad enough i have to go through emotional abuse again with people saying dumb shit behind my back i know people are i even still deal with cause my older brother does it me all the he calles me fat stupid dumb and other shit.....so look i maybe use to it but do you think i want to keep dealing with it ...No so please letting you all know i am sick of tired of it and i want people to get to know me better before they judge me and shit cause i am really really tired of it and shit all my poems are about anger,depression,pain,hate,death and other shit..

 

and thnks for listening to this

 

 

 

ps:god damn that felt good to get of my chest

 

and i hope people can learn from what i did in the past by not telling someone

i never went home and cried i just bottled everything up inside and never talked about it or never let it out till it got too much but in the end when i turned 12 i started cutting but i would when i shaved my legs but then mar 6th 05 11:somethin at night i started cutting all the time but may scars you still see and shit then mat 30th 05 i tried to kill my self i over doed on wellburtin xl i took 7 pill hoping it would end my life and shit. but no it was failed attempt so i told my mom she took me to the er to get better so then april 4th 05 i got home knew there had to a be a razor some where so i found one tried to break into it to cut my wrist got my thum on accident got 4 stitchs and got put on a psyc hospital and i am better now but i still play those memories in my head once in awhile.

 

thnks for reading this

 

lpp

[keza]

wow, thats alot...!

good it hasnt got u down now and u know how to get it off of ur chest..!

[lpp]

keza- i guess you can put it that way

[Ravynlee]

Hey LPP! *Huge cyber hugs* Man, I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!! That's a very couragous thing to do; spilling your guts to virtual strangers like that. In your case I think it's a very brave step and exactly what you need. I can tell you from experience that it sucks growing up old and alone... You don't want to end up bitter, trust me. But reaching out to ppl like you're doing here, even though it hurts, is an excellent thing, trully.

 

Wow... I'm speechless. Don't know what to say! Just... I'm proud of you for giving us, well, me, a glimpse into the real you. Yeah you've got problems but so have I, so have all of us. I just hope things keep getting better for you. And remember, even though you're having a good day now (bloody excellent!) that when the bad days do (and will) come back that they don't knock you back down again... try and focus on what makes YOU happy, bugger everyone else.

BTW, glad Star Wars was good. Haven't seen it. Maybe when it comes out at the video store... *grins*

 

*great big comforting cyber hugs* (if you don't have an issue with intamacy here, do you? Just wondering) Look after yourself!

TC & TTYL,

-Rav

aka Rob's Gurl

 

(Edit: Glad too that you have someone else in your family, be it an uncle (Aaron, was it?) whom you feel close to. That's great to hear. Glad to hear you stay in touch too, good thing. You said he travels for work, what does he do?? Anyway... cool!)

[lpp]

Hey LPP! *Huge cyber hugs* Man' date=' [b']I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!![/b] That's a very couragous thing to do; spilling your guts to virtual strangers like that. In your case I think it's a very brave step and exactly what you need. I can tell you from experience that it sucks growing up old and alone... You don't want to end up bitter, trust me. But reaching out to ppl like you're doing here, even though it hurts, is an excellent thing, trully.

 

Wow... I'm speechless. Don't know what to say! Just... I'm proud of you for giving us, well, me, a glimpse into the real you. Yeah you've got problems but so have I, so have all of us. I just hope things keep getting better for you. And remember, even though you're having a good day now (bloody excellent!) that when the bad days do (and will) come back that they don't knock you back down again... try and focus on what makes YOU happy, bugger everyone else.

BTW, glad Star Wars was good. Haven't seen it. Maybe when it comes out at the video store... *grins*

 

*great big comforting cyber hugs* (if you don't have an issue with intamacy here, do you? Just wondering) Look after yourself!

TC & TTYL,

-Rav

aka Rob's Gurl

 

(Edit: Glad too that you have someone else in your family, be it an uncle (Aaron, was it?) whom you feel close to. That's great to hear. Glad to hear you stay in touch too, good thing. You said he travels for work, what does he do?? Anyway... cool!)

 

yay i like what ya said Rob's Gurl