the cutting thread

[Heart_LP]

ok, so I cut myself again and something I reall feared happened!

My family know about this now and it´s really freaky! yesterday I had to sit untill 1 in the night and explain about it....very scary..it still is.

Now they blame it all on LP!! I´m so fuckin mad at it! I could´nt take the insults for LP anymore so I took down the posters of LP cause they threaten to tear in pices! that day I´ll cut myself infront of them and they´ll see how it is! I´m soo scared cause my dad does´nt know about this yet..he is in Iran right now and when he comes back, he´ll know...Idk how he´ll react so I´m really scares..idk what to do

[uwantme2b]

i'm scared as well, so i know how you feel.

sit down with your mum and explain to her that LP actually helps you and not the other way around, or write her a letter if it's too hard to say. It's natural for parents to freak hun.

[Marizka]

Im scared too, i know how u feel H_LP, im trying to hide it but it's so hard, my parents are blaming my behaviour lately on LP too!! i seriously started crying when we had the discussion!! Cuz im pretty depressed lately, and LP actually helps me!!

I hadnt cut myself for a while, I started writing everytime i felt like cutiing, or i read this poem a friend of me made about cutting. but yesterday i cut myself again! I couldnt control myself, i didnt even feel that bad, i just had an unexplainable tension in my body. Im mad at myself for doing it again, cuz i was doing so good lately.

[Heart_LP]

Yes I understand and I´m sorry you had to cut yourself again.

My mom understands now but still she does´nt like the idea of me listening to LP but serioulsy and very honestly, I dont care!

I mean, LP is...wow! I would be a freakin..idk what if LP had´nt helped out os much..ya know..

It´s their lyrics and its like they know what it´s like!

My mom hates Chesters screaming specielly in faint and by myself and actually those are the songs I can relate to mostly. Only if she knew what LP is...and how much they´ve done..

I get this unexplainable tension too sometimes and I dont know what to do so I just listen to LP and then I know what it is. I´ve even cut myself so many times for that but now it has been 2 days since I´ve not cut myself and I hope it countinous this way..´cause I dont have the scares on my wrists..I´m so sick of ppl asking me all the times what it is and as my parents and specielly mom hates LP so much I have a huge "LP" scare on my wrist.I just felt like doing it *sigh*

Marizka, Whenever you feel like you wanna talk it all out, feel free to Pm me..anytime! and I know that you can tell it here in this thread too if you want to.

Feel better!

[Marizka]

Tnx, i appreciate it..Im doing pretty bad lately, depressed, cutting a lot, i shouldnt, cutting too deep, i shouldnt..but idk, every thing seems to go wrong lately.

My mom hates LP, especially the songs i most love and most relate to, she hates the most..i dont understand she doesnt realise there must be A REASON i like them.

the scars are getting harder and harder to hide and im afraid my best friend is suspecting something, i just dont know what to tell her when she would ask me, but i guess it would be better if she knew, so som1 that is close to me i can talk to..

[Heart_LP]

man that sux!

I have depressed today because of the fuckin school.

If she asks and if she is the kind of person that cares then I suggest that you talk to her about this...atleast you will have somone to talk too.

[uwantme2b]

I have been depressed again lately. Only nobody actually cares... even my best friend ignores it

[Heart_LP]

I know my freinds do that too, first I thought it was my fault but no it´s not! that is who I am damn it, except it or not.

dont say nobody!

I care!

*hugs*

[uwantme2b]

Awww thx honey, I care about you too

Yea I know, it's good that you see it that way... I hate it that people are really prejudiced against it and like... turn against you when they find out... do they really think that'll HELP someone's who's depressed? People are so horrible sometimes...

[Heart_LP]

oh I know!

and thank hon

Like for instance there´s this girl in my class and she thinks she can "help" me cause once she accidently saw my scars.

So today I was really depressed at school and she kept on asking me..it´s nica and all but whenever she meets her freinds again and is not alone, she just does´nt give a shit anymore..

I get so damn pissed on ppl like that

[uwantme2b]

Yeah, me too... they should have a little respect *hugs*

[Marizka]

I have no idea how she'd react, that's the problem, idk how she would react..were vey good friends so i dont think she'll turn on me, but maybe she gets scared or something idk..it's hard..

[LPGotLinkinPark]

I wouldn't tell her just yet. She'll probably want to go tell parents/school guidence or adminstation. Well, that if she doesn't understand. It really just depends on your friend.

[Heart_LP]

Yeah I agree Backs

*hugs back*

 

and I agree with [LP]GotLinkinPark? too.

It all depends on how she is...are you sure that she will listen to you? Judt one tip...dont have nay expectations...cuase if you do and then it does´nt turn out that way..then it really hurts..

[Marizka]

I havent told her..I guess im too scared myself, maybe she'd run to parent or school, maybe not..it's hard to expect something about this, even with som1 you know very well, this is something you dont really talk about, it never played a part in our lives..I have like so many scenario's in my head how she'll react, good and bad..it's driving me crazy..:-s

[Heart_LP]

Then I´ll say that you should wait if you are not so sure about this...

you can like ask her indirectly for instance ask her like "hey, what do you think of the ppl that cut themselves? would you help one?"

and if she aks why then you can just say that you were just wondering or something like that...

I would do that...

you can give it a shot if you wanna.

[Marizka]

yeah that's actually a pretty good idea..i might try that..but i cant just say when were talking; hey, what do you think about.. cuz shé'll know something is up, i guess she knows me too good for that, maybe ill ask on MSN, a bit unpersonal, but she wouldnt really think about it then..*head starts spinning with ideas* wiew..i wish it wasnt so complicated..

[LPGotLinkinPark]

I would still wait though. I told a friend and she freaked out, but I convinced her not to tell anyone.

[lpp]

i would say to everyone....cutting is not worth it..

 

so if you have someone who loves you and they know you are cutting ..

 

please listen to them...and getting better.........i got better and i and proud of getting the help i needed....

 

so it is better to get help then not..please don't wait to hit rock bottom.....get the help now before it is to late.

 

i am not forcing you to get better i am saying it is better to get the help before you hit rock bottom.

[Heart_LP]

yeaah..I told a freind and she did not care at all and she still doesn´t...hah, what a freind..anyways..

if you are really really wanna ask her then you can ask her on msn as you said but like dont just hop in and ask about...ask it when you think she would be less suspiciuos about it...

like for instance..."I think it´s really bad that ppl cut herself...hmm..I wonder why they do that.." and then you can ask her..

yeaah, I´m used to this so I do this pretty often lol

but not on LPF..

Otherwise...just wait a lill while longer

[Marizka]

I guess im gonna wait.. i just remebered something from biology class: we had to research our own blood type and therefore had to bleed..well everyone did it, but she had the needle in her hand the whole lesson and couldnt do it,..just before the end someone else had to do it while she looked the other way..man, what was i thinking telling her, she'd freak..well i guess this kinda opened my eyes, remembering this

[LPGotLinkinPark]

^That sounds kinda fun.

 

i would say to everyone....cutting is not worth it..

 

so if you have someone who loves you and they know you are cutting ..

 

please listen to them...and getting better.........i got better and i and proud of getting the help i needed....

 

so it is better to get help then not..please don't wait to hit rock bottom.....get the help now before it is to late.

 

i am not forcing you to get better i am saying it is better to get the help before you hit rock bottom.

Wow. Change of heart. I'm glad you see now though.

 

 

I talked to my friend in Georgia that cuts the other day, and I think she stopped for good cause I asked, and she said she hadn't for 5 weeks. But I wouldn't tell your friend Marizka, she sounds like she will freak out.

[Marizka]

yeah, i think so too, but it's really bothering me cuz id rather tell her myself than that shed find out bfore that; not a nice situation..

 

lpp, good you quit, how did you do it? i need to quit, im getting worse..

[uwantme2b]

lpp good on you for quitting hun *hugs*

I hadn't cut for like five months, until yesterday... stupid stupid me. I'm so angry with myself.

[Heart_LP]

Dont be angry at yourself, Backs..otherwise you will feel worse..

Sont worry, dont think about it

*hugs you*

 

I´m so glad lpp that you quit..wow really!

Congrats!