Twilight's *gasp* Journal! Read at your own risk

[o0SugaxNxSpice0o]

Your watercolour paintings are going to be wonderful! I think watercolour is one of the few mediums of art that I can control lol. You can just do so much tone and colour with a small palette and a bit of water heh! Watermelon!! *drools*. I better moan at my mum to get some! All we have are apples at the moment

 

Yeah I did read it all haha ^.^ I was sat eating my hot n spicy noodle whilst going through your journal haha! It kept me intrigued and reading because well... I didn't realise the soup from the noodle was SO spicey and by the time I finished reading, my tongue was burning and my face was like really hot haha!

 

Oh, that thing with Lpp.... meh it pissed me off that she had to bring in so many nice people that didn't even do crap to her. I thought she was alright as well but bleh... she sure did show her true colours in the thread and I really wish I could've saw that from the beginning instead of being nice to her all this time >.< What a waste of valuable time and typing!!! And I still can't believe she brought you up! She said something about your password... like wtf. Anyway so long to her xD! Hopefully she won't come back. And yeah, the thread seems to be gone. I was looking for it too lol.

[twilightcrimson7]

yeah, I haven't had a lot of practice in watercolors but I like using them

LOL I can't handle spicey things ;;;;

*sigh* yeah she can rot for all I care now u_U

[keza]

part of me hopes she does read this, she has such a high friggin opinion of herself

'i am so much better than all of these people..' its like wtf...NO UR NOT U MAGGOT PIE! *breathes* anyway

please post ur drawings thatd be soooooooooooo cool!

im crap at watercolours..its the one type of art i hate...i end up making a messy puddle that lks like someone walked through it on a rainy day...

[twilightcrimson7]

lol lets forget about her

lmao awww thats funny though... o.o

[4everLP_Shinoda]

The less we all think about lpp,the better:).

Anyways,just dropping by to say hi and see if you were ok,and please post those draws^_^.

G2g now,ttyl=).

[twilightcrimson7]

Hi Vero! thanks I will post them soon ttyl *hug*

[uwantme2b]

Wow... I'm lost for words about Lpp... but that's a good thing, since you're right, we should just forget about her. I'm shutting up now

 

I want to see your drawings too, Twi.

[twilightcrimson7]

nooo don't shut up, I like talking to you

[uwantme2b]

I just meant I was shutting up about Lpp... but I'm glad that you like talking to me. I like talking to you

[twilightcrimson7]

oh lol okay yay!

[Hybrid-Heart]

lol huge convo here.. sorry to interrupt you guys *cough*

i really really want to see the drawing! ^___^

i'm so curious lol.. i already heard some things about it

and now i'm even more curious.. lol

 

cool you went for a swim? lol i'd love to swim.. but i can't

i'm to shy and my body isn't perfect. so i'm afraid of what people think of me..

i know this is stupid but mheh,, friends tell me to get over it but i can't

 

well hope you're doing fine sis

take care *BIG HUGS*

[twilightcrimson7]

you're not interrupting!!! *hugs*

lol gosh peeps ill have it posted soon

I know I'm so embarrased over my body but it was okay becuase I got over after a while, you should too...becuase it doesn't matter what ppl, think...they prolly dont even care...and if they do they're retards.... its only yourself you have to convince... I knw becuase I think that about myself all the time but I get confidence

*BIG HUGS back* gotta eat my windows...lpf is like taking all my attention, lmao MUST EAT!

[stupidsoul1]

hehe yay!!!!

 

*sneeze*

 

lmao am i the only one that missed what lpps thread was about 0__o

[twilightcrimson7]

lmao no I missed it too...

[keza]

i didnt, but i wish i had

[twilightcrimson7]

yeah ...*nod* I don't need to see it,I can picture it

[keza]

lmao..yeah just need to think about her personality and u can guess the kinda crap she spilled out...^_^

[twilightcrimson7]

ugh I knowwww =_=

k so i went to go eat my ramen and watch TV but my satellite didn't work ...=_= so i went to the guest room and watched it there, but the remote didn't work grrrr... *kicks TV's*

then I spilled my ramen for the secont time upstairs.

remind me never to eat ramen upstairs again.

well I'm gunna focus on painting now...mom's comign home pretty soon... bye peeps

-edit- mom called and SHE TOOK THE JOB!! whoooooo ^^ *is happy* we're going out to dinner to celebrate ^^;;; okay...that's it heheh *goes to paint* oh yeah and I reached my 4000 post mark today ^^ woo go me hehe

[4everLP_Shinoda]

Congrats for reaching 2 many posts Twi:D.

[Vash_the_Stampede]

No, too many would be Fi's thing, lol.

[4everLP_Shinoda]

lol may be she will come the next Fi:p

[twilightcrimson7]

LOL I don't think so guys...

~~~its so depressing inside my head.~~~

EVERYTHING HAS BEEN CHANGING and I've been protecting myself by living this monotounous life

I need to find something about myself

I don't know who I am anymore

I never do anything that I used to

I never talk to my friends

I have too many secrets

I don't know who I am or how to deal with My emotions

Times are sad now

they are rough

they are solitary

but I feel change coming

its coming and wether it be good or bad I'll go with it

becuase I need to know myself

I need poeple there with me

my friends

i need them

they help me find myself

but I've been to lazy

too lazy to open my eyes and see whats happening to me

the lies and the truths are blurry

controdicting thoughts inside my head

never cease

I need the right answer

but I can never find it

I need to change myself

adapt

or lose

lose my life

and become someone who isnt me

I've been protecting myself with neutrality

neutrality and appeasment

bad

bad becuase there's no personality in appeasment

but thats how I survive

but do i want to if that means what I have become?

I'm not like a beast or anything

its just my real personality is hiding...tucked safe away

some sopt where I forgot I put it

and now i have to get my broom

and my gasses and find

where I hid it

and join myself with the world

become me again

stop the passify

stop the order

bring the chaos and the comfort of putting order in the chaos

and chaos in the order

I still do not know how to do this

and I cannot do it alone

and I can't do it here, sitting at my desk

absorbed in the life...my internet life

my book like

my head life

I need to do things that inspire me....

encourage me

motovate me

make me happy

make me intrigues

and things that make me stop doubiting myself

and hating my thoughts

I will start.....slowly...but surely......

------------------------------------------~!!~+!)

okay I'm done ranting... I needed to get that out...

[Hybrid-Heart]

woah

i have those moments too that i have to get some things out of my head..

*hugs*

 

lmao everytime i read: i'm eating my ramen.. a very weird picture is in my head lol

cause you know ramen is dutch for windows XD

congrats that your mother took the job ^^

and congrats on you 4000 posts *big hugs* *although you're already over the 4000 posts *

 

take care sis *hugs*

[shahfire]

for the motivation you wanted, heather, you have to discover it. but once you hit on it, u will feel nore better. but i guess, the motivation is within you. *hug* congratulations on 4000 posts. catch ya later.

[twilightcrimson7]

*hugs everyone*

Hi guys. I played video games last night cuz i couldn't sleep right away

which is stupid

becuase I actaully wanted to

but anyways, I woke up early today *whoot whoot for me*

and I'm still hungry after 2 bowls of ceral o___O whats wrong with me?

ah well I'm thirsty as hell too

and I have a like a stomach ache...

god >__< and I have to go to the oral surgeon again to check my mouth....and then in a couple weeks I'm getting braces, I presume.

 

soooooo I'm waiting til 11:30 rolls around... and then I might see what my friends are doing later....

like I said before..I'm trying to get motovated... and if it wasn't for this damn sickness of mine i would do something now but all i feel like doing is taking some tims and laying down til i feel better T_T

well anyways... I don't know how often I will be on this next week, but I'm gunna try and make it less time....

hopefully I'll see you guys around tho ._.

*hugs to all*