Twilight's *gasp* Journal! Read at your own risk

[Dark Angel]

Hi Twi!

Chronicles of Narnia? Read the books, but I didn't care for them. Kinda overexagerating...

Whoa, sounds like you had a fun day.

Oh, pics! lol, I can imagine where you were on the second one because we were near there.

Well, take care Twi and later!

[twilightcrimson7]

hey thanks guys *hugs and cookies to all*

things are brutally insanely busy right now, I'm afraid I'll be on rarely for a while, if at all. So take care of yourselves without your maid Twi! <3

[Friðbjörn]

we'll miss ya while you're busy

<3

[twilightcrimson7]

why thank you fribby ^_^

FIRST DAY OF FINALS IS OVER!!

guess what guys? for honors English I got An A on my take home essay final, and A- on my in class essay final, and I took the scantron part and i think I did pretty good :D:D

I'm happy

ayayaya

and ...keyboarding meh *shrug*

now I got the whole weekend to study for driver's ed, chem, and global cultures.

[Friðbjörn]

that's great

good for you ^^

 

sounds like the weekend won't be much fun though

[twilightcrimson7]

well it won't be all studying I'll do fun stuff too... I don't know what tho XD

is there any good movies out??

[Friðbjörn]

that's good to hear

 

and well I wouldn't know...the movies out in the US don't come here until February or something lol

[Greyfoxx]

there arent anything good out unless u want to see Cronicals of Narnia (sp?) thats about it

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

OHH!! (talking about that math riddle)

 

Wow. I can't believe I couldn't figure that out. 545+5=550

 

er.. yeah, that was almost 2 weeks ago, lol.

[twilightcrimson7]

ahaha ,okay thanks anyways fibby....

Yeah, true Grey, I already saw it though

lmao @ ryan, i know, iwas like, 'why am i so retarded?' haha A valiant effort though ^_^

 

Okay so I haven't updated in a while. two reasons, one, finals, two, drama.

there was this big thing that went down between me and some friends... meh, its alright now I guess, I went through some changes in myself... yeah, lotsa shit like that.

In other Heather news, I been reading and sleeping. lmao such a wonderful life!

Today was the last of the finals, I got A's in all my classes cept keyboarding... -_- don't get me started.. but meh whatever. I performed proverbial lyposuction on my backpack, so to speak, hehe, and it felt great to throw all those unwanted papers out ^_^

My plans for the next few days: relax, get christmas presents, (I can't believe x-mas is in 5 days already!!) and on the 27th I have my road test .

yep, life is good right now.

take care my speshul people!

[Greyfoxx]

sweet! i wish my school was out! i still have to goto school untill FRIDAY!!! can u belive that?! its so not fair....anyways, good luck on the driving test, and good luck opening ur gifts...(dont get a papercut on christmas...hurts like hell and u feel bad afterwards)

[Friðbjörn]

lol okay drama as in the subject drama, or dramatic events in your life?

[Phranka]

Oohw.. Hi twi..

Too bad on the finals and the drama..

lol proverbial lyposuction.. I have to do that to my stuff sometimes..

Can't wait for christmas 8o 8D

[twilightcrimson7]

Aww thanks Grey ^_^ aww man, that sucks, you get out a DAY before x-mas eveo_O what's wrong with those people??

hehe Fribb-dramatic events in my life... yeah, its all good though ^_^

Hiii Phranka, haha yeah, you feel all fresh and clean afterwards

I can't wait either, hope you get lots of presents

 

so yesterday was okay. Let's see, I cleaned, read, and went out to eat with my father

Then later, I was reading (btw, I'm reading a reaaaly good booked called Mélusine by Sarah Monette) and then I fell asleep at 9ish

I woke up at 7 coz of my stupid alarm, but then i went back to sleep and had some preeety weird and freaky dreams, but overall I enjoyed them

then the stupid construction guys right across the street woke me up again so I buried my self under pillows and blankets until it sounded far away, it was still annoying though. So I got my sleepy ass out of bed, and I heard my aunt yelling at a baby for shitting in his diaper or something... someone tell me if i'm mistakin' or not, but I'm pretty sure that's what babies are supposed to do. T_T anyyyway, mom picked me up about 20 minutes after I woke up (11:40 ish or so) heheheheh I felt really good after all that sleep.

I drove us to Portillos and I bought myself a hotdog... there was this cute emo boy in front of me, but then the stupid lady called my number, but my slushie wasn't ready yet. so I had to wait, and I couldn't look at the pretty emo boy anymore, Lol. then I met up with my mom and we sat down and I couldn't see the emo boy :'( anyway we ate and talked and then we left for home. Now I'm here, and I'm pretty content... Its just gunna be me myself and I lately cuz, alex isn't online anymore and Nikhil went on vacation to the Dominican Republic. o.o

yeah, well Christmas is soon, so I won't be lonely

I'm happy right now, so whatever ^_^ gunna go buy some songs off of iTunes now, any suggestions?? ^_^

[ForgottenKid]

HEEEEEEEYYYYY TWII. Nope i got none.. haha yeah im not good at thinking when i come home from school. O wow long time...hehe. I'm reading the book in english class... i dont know if its good or not, i keep falling asleep .

[twilightcrimson7]

HEYYY!^_^

whoa, you're reading Mélusine in school???? that's so... cool! I never thought a school would let you guys read that o__O lmao taht's awesome tho!! falling asleep?? how can you? its so good

[ForgottenKid]

The schools not actually letting us read it, our english teacher loved it so much that she had us reading it as a class but shh the pricipal doesnt know..lmao.

Meh english class is like last so its always the class i walk in half way, and fall asleep. And why wouldnt I? Their not letting us out till the 23rd...so wouldnt i be bored out of my mind .

[twilightcrimson7]

ahh

I won't tell don't worry

It is really a good book though.. and who can't love all the swearing and fucking XD ahh yes ^_^

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well, I gots me a buncha new songs

I talked to alex today and it was fun

tomorrow I'm going to do whatever and then Friday dad and I are going shopping, then I'm going to see Memoirs of a Geisha with Alex.

life is good, except I heard Eleanor is in the hospital, she's like a grandma to me... this kind of shit always happens at x-mas. I hope we won't have to spend another holiday at a hospital.

Friday—

Okay well not too good of stuff has been happening.. the fucking doctors are being assholes again, so we’re just going to keep Eleanor at our place again.

My grandma in Kentucky just lost her house because she’s giving all her money to my crack-head half cousin… so she ended up in a salvation army shelter. Mom wants to get her out of there and make her live with us, but we tried that once and it didn’t work out so well… so meh.

Today me and dad went x-mas shopping… last minute, everybody is out shopping and its fuckin’ insane. Driving was insane *sigh* Happy fuckin’ holidays.

When we got home, I mad the last of the cookies… Berlinkerkanser… its Norwegian

Aunt michele went to pick up Eleanor, and I’m supposed to be going to a movie with alex in about 15 minutes, and I hope she’s on time. :s.

Well, I hope everyone has a great time opening presents, eating, and having fun ^_^

Goodbye

--it's meeeeeeeee again!---- edit for x-mas eve

I cannot explain the night anymore than that I felt like I was being disected, by them and myself.

When me and dad arrived at mom's house,and grandma was sitting there like a sack of weathered bones. I was nervous all day about meeting her agian, but I missed her and it was good to have her back.

Dad stayed over for a while for some stories and some beer. Then Sarah, Jeremy, Chris, and Katrina came over, and Chris and Katrina brought Asher (he got bigger!) And their new dog, abbey ^_^ she's so little and black ^_^

and it was cute how they'd play with each other, but not cute how I'd be the one to make sure they didn't eat the poisonous pointsettia that was casually set on the floor, and I did, I had to take the fukin leaf out of abbey's mouth... or to make sure they didn't eat the ornaments, or to meke sure they didn't use the carpet as a bathroom, which they did several times. and what made me mad they most is that tim or mom didn't say anything to chris or katrina about it, they just told them it was okay. well its not they they're bad people, i even think katrina is a sweetie, but all they could do was apologise... lets hope they learn to train them ...>.> anyway, they were cute regardless.. especailly when abbey fell asleep in my lap <

So then there would be awkward times after dad left where me and grandma would just be sitting in a room together.

but it was nice none the less. but she'd always have these looks of pure torment on her face, and I knew there really wasn't much I could do about it.

she choked on a shrimp and i was spooky to hear her say "i'm dyin'' whether she thought she was, or was just bieng mellowdramatic... I'm not even sure which it was.

Before we even ate, we opened presents...

I got way too much, I mean, I felt bad... most of it was from mom and tim... in fact...all of it was I think... my step siblings are broke, and so is my uncle and grandma, but I told them it was fine, which it truely is, I don't want a lot of stuff.

but I did get the usual shaving cream (cfc), hair ties, clothes (two sweaters and some PJ's), a video game, this frilly little pink bag with cherries on it... kethe know what for... , a gift card for 150 dollars (which i totally was shocked about... wow...)ummm lets see...that's about it... I'm grateful she didn't put the socks and underwear in the actual present this year XD

so then we waited a long time for dinner,which was okay... i s'pose. But before we ate tim decided "we'd better say a small grace" and I was thinkin' fuck...

so mom practically grabbed my arm and held it, and I figured it was best to comply and not make a scene, but kethe i hated it... and I was more nauseated by the fact that they didn't give a flyin fuck more than the prayer itself.

so once dinner was over, I ligered around doin notheing... watching people eat my cookies which they dubuiously complimented on... and I was kind of annoyed how following a recipe will get you that much attention.

I was reluctantly gracious enought to share my sparklin grape juice with chris and Katrina... hehe that stuff kicks ass.

Sooooo towards the end of the night mom was getting really plastered and she gets like really really lovey dovey in that state... and its really annoying... T_T and so they basically talked about me and my future like I was some kind of character in their game. just nod and smile heather... I tried to focus on other things instead of hearing moms drunken babble of what she thinks is a motivational speech. so finally I just bid farewell to Sarah and Jeremy (let me take a minute to describe him.. he's one of those pretty boys, you know, blue eyes, lean, perfect smile, made me sick when I first met him... but he's not so bad...he's a nice kid *shrug*) the tim, and then to the maxsons, and retreated into my room and I was so fucking releived...

so I read Mélusine and then I just went to bed cuz i felt kind of sick... but not before locking the door once everyone was setteld at about 12ish.... i don't know why, but itmade me feel a fuckload better with it locked...

so then I sleeped about 8 hours... I don't know what my dreams were like... I started reading again... my stomach growled but i was fucked if i was gunna suffer more human contact...so I stayed in my room... but when I finally went to brush my teeth, tim noticed and he asked me a question.. and i don't think I was ever mad at tim before this, and I was suprised... but i answered him, but not patronizing smile this time, just a blank stare and closed door... I don't even feel bad... maybe that's me being a bitch... ( i have to stop using elipses).(ha!)

So then I came here, to write to you, to me... whoever... but them mom comes in so I decide I'll just go eat something now... so I had a waffle and some mandarin orange segments

Losing my appetite... dunno why.

Grammy went with uncle mickey to see someone else..meh, dad should be picking me up soon.

hey, don't get me wrong I had a nice time, but that was some of the stuff i was and am feelin'. yep.

Now, I'm about 20 pages to the end of Mélusine, and I'm afraid if I finish it, I will be pissed or something and then I'll have to wait anxiously and tortourously for the next book in 6 months. >.<

Well, I'll be going... I wish you all happiness today <3

[Heart_LP]

HIYA!!

How are you hon?!

Long update..

I hope Eleanor is doing fine

*hugs and smooches*

ttys

[keza]

wow very long reply as already said lol

*HUGS U REALLY TIGHT*

i havent talked to you in ages!!! i hope youre ok, missed you loads <3<3<3<3 <~~lots of love

[twilightcrimson7]

Thank you both *hugs my special friends* ^_^ glad to see both of you here

looks like things are looking up already for 2006, Keza, Sammi, and Victim have all returned! what more could I ask for!? (actually... becky, hybi, tsoi... etc. )

 

Well the reason I'm here, is for my reflection of 2005... I've looked back on one year worth of journal entries in various places, and remembered many things...:

 

Hi, well, inspired by Alex nice quilt of organized thoughts and events of 2005, Here is my similar entry. I was going to haphazardly put some memoirish thing together, but... I shouldn't ^_^;;

 

Lets start with last new year:

 

Alex as Ruin-chan "I also have a weird feeling about this year, like something in it will happen. Something BIG. Changing, maybe. I'm not sure if it's good or bad... but it makes me a lil' nervous o.o'"

 

Seems not so distant, eh?

 

My outlook: "Okay. whoop dee doo. another year to suffer thru. Lol, well, at least I can drive this year wheeeeee!!! I also can feel alot of bad stuff will happen. A premonition. But good stuff will definatly happen too. I just have a feeling this will be an IMPORTANT year. In all seriousness. I taste change. alot of change. sometimes I'm afraid of change, ya know?

 

"later I got picked up by dad and we went shopping for crab legs and my artificial champagne. ^.^ It tastes likr it but its not! its soooooooooooo good. afterwards, we went home and me and dad were sooo imatient when It came to cooking. we were like watching the pot of water, waiting for it to boil. but you know what they say......

 

"anyway, Iw atched TV till like 1:30 then I went to bed, but I was reading till like 2. I woke up at like 1:30 today X_X"

 

ahh, it's coming back to me

 

January

 

Lingering emo thoughts from December haunted me. Mostly me being pathetic and poetic.

Sleeping promblems and anger at everything.

Dimebag died, R.I.P.

Grandpa went to the hospital for his angeogram.

My first experience in LP gym.

Liked my English class and me and Alex worked on the ads for Into the Woods.

First experience with Hard Drive.

More hardcore emo-ness.

Got my infamous LP HOOODIE

My feet started to disintegrate

Alex talked about ass butter

Started attaching picutes to my journal.

Leo gets tackled by Matt

Didn't know how to spell Mercutio.

 

February

 

Became a rebel and skipped school.

More rants of anger and hate.

Many Many quizzes and weird dreams

Kim and Katie annoy the fuck out of me and Kasia

Tajima thinks I am making penis pants.

Fun labs in bio with Jessica, Sabeen, Eva, and Natalie

Grandpa had to have surgery

Rena was petrified when Vito pushed a straw through a peircing in his ear.

Jessica's valentine's day card:

Alex and I were asked to move to Honor's english next year

Vito blows up a balloon at our table and the whole lunchroom goes silent.

found a lover for valentine's day "Jessica: "Happy v-day. Heather, esppecially after that wonderful nigth we shared together"-"

I steal everyone's DNA

Slept for 17 hours

Tried failingly to play volleyball with a stoned Steve.

Mr. Matas kicked our proverbial ceramic ass because of the retards in the class.

A sub called Mr. Mike with a cup brandishing "EXTREME GULP"

Seems to be the month of the most headaches.

 

 

March

 

Michelle gets eye surgery

I went to the Fishbowl Coffeehouse for the first time and fell in love, but was violently ill that everything was amplified then dulled.

Read Me Talk Pretty One Day: "2:48 AM: eyelash discovered by sink. Moth"

Inspiration from Mr Heibal to make my bizziare jar.

 

"Well, in ceramics, I worked on my jar again. I cut a sharp hole in the side and made it look kinda rusty…if clay can be rusty…lol. Oh, Peter and Tajima were flicking these paper squares across the room at each other. And I was going to be pissed if one hit me. The cool part was when one came racing towards Joe and he merely shifted in his seat while the offending object whizzed past by a couple inches. OMG, it looked so fucking awesome!"

 

senior takeover day appeared.

Dyed my hair black

Formulated an unusual crush

Saw Mr. Travis at Jewel.

Spent Easter in the hospital.

 

April

 

Became a wheel thrower

"The Walking Dead" and "With Teeth"

Grandpa died

 

March

 

Got a xanga

To Kill a Mockingbird and ACT's

Grandpa's memorial

Katie

Drunkeness

Chased around the mall by a dummie.

Petted a boa constrictor

Raku firing field trip.

Star Wars Three and the Addison Park

Kathy was emo and Alex was prep

Finals

 

June

 

Memorial day parade.

Peter reappears

Kingdom of Heaven

Playing at the Park

Philisophical discussions at McDonalds

More drunk parties

 

july

 

Went to Wisconsin

Missed Itasca fest ecxept for the last day and me and Alex hung out

Pool time

Dancing in the rain, fireworks and insanity, and sleepover like old times. midnight trips to 7-11.

Fishbowl and h20 nights

Gina and Amanda go missing.

Won LPF award

 

august

 

chilling with friends

Renovated room to GREEN

Shopping at Wal-Mart with friends

Worked ass off at cabin, and got braces.

First day of school, fire drill and I broke my backpack

 

"today is deh 23rddddd

remember this, children, for it is the day of 7 feasts"

 

yes.

 

September

 

Ruined my english book

Owls

Library ish

Dwyer chews marijuana

Ale's b-day party and dancing and wine

filmnotes

"Okay, get off the mole..." -Mr. O

Jessica scares me with a plastic mask

National kids day in Bartlett

Earth club and Sunny Acres

 

October

 

Alchemy research

Spoke indirectly with the Reznor

Washington D.C., profound visions and actions

Birthday, iPod, love

PSAT's

Lestat

 

November

 

deconstruction, and reconstruction, and everything good and bad in between

Alot of regrets, a lot of changes

The Last Emperor

Angst

schedules for next year

Fort Minor and planning

Tim's b-day

The Cloud Atlas

 

December

 

Gina's house and all her pets

Gluttony and Greed

funniest thing happened at lunch, James was wearing eyeliner, and this dean dude walked up to our table and he’s like “*stare* you’re wearing …eye stuff” and James says yeah… and they both stare at each other …….. long pause …“what’s the occaision” says the dean, and James replies “its my birthday”

Gulliver's Travels

Jessie and I rocking out in our silver escape to SOAD and Avenged Sevenfold watching the retarded buffalo have seizures.

Aenima

Finals

Reformation

GPA of 4.9

Passed road test; last behind the wheel with Jessie, Chris, and Mr. Anderson </3

Mélusine

Vampire love

Memoirs of a Geisha

Christmas- rescuing the old, reunition, solitude in numbers, puppies, and presents.

Shaumburg in all its glory

Puke-fest

 

 

And now we are left with the grand finale. Over-all it was an average year of changes, happiness and sadness. we live on despite that, and I crave the future more than anything. I want to learn, I want to be amazed, I want to live. On New Year's eve, I read and listened to the radio... "The Hand That Feeds was #2 out of 101 songs of 2005 and I was betting on it being number one... they didn't redeem themselves by playing Mr. Brightside as numero uno, I might've if they played Bat Country, hehe. Me, dad, and Eleanor played dominoe, ate sundaes, watched TV, and drank sparkling grape juice.

Today kind of sucked, in all actuality... I woke up at like 11, pissed. and I kind of remained that way, throughout the day, just being an asshole in general and craving solitude. Meh, guess that's how it goes, sometimes you can't help it. Hopefully tomorrow will be better, and I wonder what I will say to this entry next year.

 

 

 

Let's not forget all the awesome friends and times i've had here, on LPF, all of you have become a second family to me *hugs all*

 

I hope we get high speed soon because I wan't to spend more time on here... but it takes like 2 minutes to load each page =_=;; it's really annoying... well, until then, I'll probably only come on once and a while <=o

 

I have yet to think of any goals for this year

[keza]

aww yey im a special friend lol

wow thats alot of wrting, youre turing into jen!!! lol <3 u

alot of stuff happened this year to you, nice valentines card btw<~~~random comment i know sorry <3

[twilightcrimson7]

lmao, keza I can never top all of Jen's writing XP

lolhaha my friend made that ^_^

[keza]

awww..i dont think many people could lol

tell ur friend really good, tis purty!

[Dark Angel]

Hey Twi! Nice reflection there. Meh... I'm too lazy to write one up for myself... oh well, lol.

Well, nothing else to say really, so hope you had an awesome new year and later.