Twilight's *gasp* Journal! Read at your own risk

[twilightcrimson7]

Woody-Thanks, I'll try, but i took a nap! Meh, that's what my dad said

Frib-Thanks, it just came out poetic, I guess.

[Heart_LP]

haha I thought it was a poem too.

It would be good if you catch some Z's *shummgles*

take care sis

[numbStruck]

Hi twi...static eh? lol feel better and less groggy soon okay ma'am.

[twilightcrimson7]

Thank you Sissy and nS *hugs and cookies for both* <3

 

I went to bed at like 10:30 last night; I was emo, man u_u.

I had a sad dream about something. It makes me mad that I forgot already and I just got up 15 minutes ago.

Well, I'm sure in a bit, I will wake up. First, I need something to eat.

[Heart_LP]

well maybe you dreamed in the early night, that can be hard to remember then.

And it may feel that you woke up from it but you actually are just seeing parts of it..sometimes again and again *nods*

sorry about that tho.

sad dreams makes the whole day seem sad =/

*shummgles* =*

wav ya!

[twilightcrimson7]

I know what you mean.

Thanks Sammi *hugs*

<3

 

Update

the "---" means an edit at a certain point of the day.

 

I was watching the video for "Cash Machine" and it reminded me of this Chimney sweep that came to our house once when I was really little, and he gave me a penny and told me to keep it for him, until the next time he came back. So I put it on my windowsill and it fell inside, and I couldn't get it out, and I felt really bad for losing it, but he never came back.

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Live: NINE INCH NAILS: All That Could Have Been

is fucking awesome.

 

There's three main themes to their preformance

 

Anger

Melancholy

Fucking

 

<3

 

Italian Ice rocks hard, too.

Well I suppose I should read Portrait. After a bath

 

----

 

FUCK EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED

I got a 70/60 on my TESSELATION because it made top ten :D:D

THAT'S AN A++++ woooo ^_^ <3 I have an A in geo now *squee*

*ridiculously happy*

 

 

----

*ridiculously gloomy*

I'm going to bed before I can think anymore.

My soul is tired

 

goodnight

[Heart_LP]

congrats on your grade hon! ^^

ok now you can count geo in one of the "imp" subjects

 

the penny thing sounds where mysteriuos o.o

I wanna find out what happened to him ><

one day curiosity is gonna kill me =_=

 

anyways *smuggles*

wuv ya =*

[twilightcrimson7]

haha, I was so depressed about it, it's funny now, but it wasn't then lol

love ya *hugs*

 

Okay I've seriously been too emo these past days, for my own good.

I'm sick of it. It feels like my soul is going to explode, but can't.

I want to do all these things, but I just sit around and think about things.

 

Plus I bought "Pretty Hate Machine"

and it's REALLY nostalgic. I mean, wow. There's so much to think about it these songs, and the electronic music is so... enchanting and creepy. It makes me feel things I haven't in a very long time. It was made the same year I was born. Sixteen years old. Dammnit, why couldn't I love Nine Inch Nails when I was a toddler XD

Yeah, *sigh*

I really really should get working, but I can't.

I'm such a loser.

I'm wondering if I should stay up late and wake up early. *ponders*

Maybe I'll feel better. It's kind of risky though, it's like fifty/fifty. I'll either miraculously feel good, or feel like shit. and tomorrow I'm planning on going to the weight room and later I have to go to the Roselle library to work on the project with Paige. then after taht I have to attend a family dinner.

Maybe I'll feel better after I get out of the house. T_T.

I'll feel bad if I didn't get anything done, and Paige did. -_-

wow, I wrote more than I thought. Prolly bore you guys to death with my ranting.

jut writing down thoughts though, it makes me sane.

u_u well good night, for real <3

[Heart_LP]

that's really shitty when you wanna just get out of all the emo-ness and then you just cant. Makes me more frustrated atleast =_=

eek dont wanna remember the feeling ><

anyways..*cough*

staying late up and getting up early never helps o.0

makes you even more tired..right? >.>

well, atleast try to think about good things like your geo grade

you know I wuv ya

*shmuggles*

[twilightcrimson7]

Sorry for reminding you

Well this one time I got like 3 hours of sleep and I felt incredible the next morning lmao.

Thanks sammi. I'm feeling better today. It's snowing

and I get to go to Roselle by myself and work on my project with my partner

so yeah

[By_My-elf]

Just dropping by TWI

XD just wanna say Hi cause not much time on here -_-'

[twilightcrimson7]

lol thanks I appreciate the visit *hands a cup of tea*

It's alright, I haven't been visiting many other people's journals as much >.> *guilty*

[Heart_LP]

Sorry for reminding you

Well this one time I got like 3 hours of sleep and I felt incredible the next morning lmao.

Thanks sammi. I'm feeling better today. It's snowing

and I get to go to Roselle by myself and work on my project with my partner

so yeah

idk what that place is but suuuure! why not?! ^^

aww hon, I kinda reminded myself of that feeling o.0. not your fault at all *hugs*

wow ok, if less sleep helps you then..w/e XD

if you like snow, you should move to Sweden =_='

 

*shmuggles*

[twilightcrimson7]

Lol, it's just a small town not far from where I life. XD no big trip or anything.

aww, okay. *hug*

Haha, like I said, only sometimes.

I ended up staying up til one and I don't feel any difference. *shrugs*

Lol I don't like snow that much, but I hate it when it's winter and it never snows (like here) because the whole point of winter for me, is snow.

[keza]

i didnt come say heylo to you here

 

 

 

 

 

so heylo there my little twi *pats you on the head*

hope u enjoy the snow...is it like poncy snow or snow that actually makes the ground white...i hate the poncy snow its like:

 

me~yey its snowing

snow:mwahahaha i will not lay on the ground

me:=( <~~sad face

[twilightcrimson7]

 

me~yey its snowing

snow:mwahahaha i will not lay on the ground

me:=( <~~sad face

 

lmao! omg keza you're so cute XD

The snow's actually sticking to the grass o.O it's wasn't supposed to. *shrug*

It't the big puffy white snowflake kind it's the pretty kind.

Meh, I hope it doesn't make the roads bad though. :\

well guys, I'd better get reading. So I should go now

Love to you all

<3

*super smashing hugs to all*

[Heart_LP]

Lol, it's just a small town not far from where I life. XD no big trip or anything.

aww, okay. *hug*

Haha, like I said, only sometimes.

I ended up staying up til one and I don't feel any difference. *shrugs*

Lol I don't like snow that much, but I hate it when it's winter and it never snows (like here) because the whole point of winter for me, is snow.

 

haha ok theb..well atleast a trip

woah..actaully that sometimes happens to me too. but I prefer sleeping *nods*

aaah agreed. but it's not fun when it's so cold outside that when you go out you feel you yourself will turn into a snowman =_=

[keza]

lol...thankies twi...ur such a sweetie heart^^ lol yey its the awesome snow...take care of urself if the roads are icy!!!

aww bubi...<3333 u twi twi

xxxxx

[twilightcrimson7]

Sammi- Haha, I like sleeping too, but if I sleep too long, I feel bad.

I hate being cold too. But if I'm going to be cold, it might as well be snowing, know what I mean?

<3 love ya sis

 

Keza- *looks out window* yah it looks pretty snowy now o.o

thank you Keza <3 love ya

 

Well yeah, I took a break from reading XD

I'ma watch Madlax, and then leave for Roselle

[twilightcrimson7]

Update for Monday and Tuesday

 

No update yesterday, was vastly busy. I woke up early to go to Itasca. And I read and did geometry before going to lunch with my closest of peers. I drove to Tree Guys, but Nikhil said they were closed. On Cashmere Polaski day. *rolls eyes*

So we waited for Alex and when she got there, we decided on Wendy’s. But Nikhil rode his bike and alex walked, so I had to drive them both, which is against the law, but hey, it’s only a half a mile away, hehe.

So we got there and it was so crowded. Probably because TG wasn’t open XD.

I could not understand any of the people there, but, granted, the manager(s) were out, helping.

So we chatted and ate, and then I had to drop nikhil off by his bike.

I had to make a deposit at the bank, and I was so nervous, cause I never did that by myself before, but dad said it was easy, so I trusted him. Plus, I’d have to do it sooner or later. But man was I worried. And all of a sudden the teller was like, really chatty at the end.

Then me and alex went back to the car and sat and thought about what to do. Because I didn’t want to go home, but I wasn’t in a social mood. I feel bad for always going to her house. Not to mention lame, but meh. Nikhil left his wallet in the car, so we had to drop that off, and then mine fell out of my pocket in the car, and I almost had a heart attack. At least nikhil didn’t have his license, account number, and numerous, numerous gift cards in his wallet -_-. So yeah, I realized that day, it was really handy to have a car.

All me and alex did was eat and watch Madlax. I’m glad I watched it for a third time, because I catch minor details I missed before. It would be great to do filmnotes on it.

When I got home, at 4:40 ish, I was really tired. I read Lestat, and fell asleep, and when I woke up, it was dinner time, ugh. My dream was really cool though. Me and alex were in this downstairs area of like a mansion or something, with Ed. I dunno if one of us were ed, but he was there. About 200 people dressed in black and white were dancing to classical music. All at the same time. It was hypnotising. I woke up in the dream, and alex walked up to me, and I told her I had painted something. I looked down and there was a skeleton of a brown builting, with green vines and pink flowers. I was so stunned, because I haden’t remembered any of it.

Then me and Alex were in this parlor room on a ugly yellow couch, I think I woke up then.

 

So then I worked on the project a little bit, and went to bed.

 

Today was a good day.

I woke up, but couldn’t remember my dreams.

I listened to Pretty Hate Machine on the bus, and when I got to school, I just relaxed as usual.

Great day today in English. I love talking about Portrait, and let me tell you, I’m getting good. I found the epiphany in chapter three, and Dwyer even said “you’re right up there with the James Joyce scholars.” She used my name a lot today, you know, in context and stuff. It kind of made me feel more worthy after the image trace. But I’m sure I’ll feel bad after tomorrow’s over. Oh well. Anyway, I was proud of myself 

Gym was meh today. We played this weird combination of Soccer, basketball, and dodgeball. I didn’t like it, but I had some fun. Joe kicked the ball into the upturned hoop, so they had to knock it down. Once he got the ball again, he whiped it, and it got caught in the iron bars in the ceiling XDD.

Computer apps was alright. I thought we were really in trouble today, because Shirley herded us all into another room. But she just talked about a project we were going to do. We have to make a business site for a teacher here. First, she asked who was in spanish. I raised my hand. Then she asked if those of us in spanish likes their spanish teacher. I put my hand down, ha. But the kid next to me said he’d work with Klebosits, and I figured, I could get stuck with a teacher I didn’t know, or hated more, so whatever. I volunteered for Kleb. Hell, I might get extra credit. And it would be easy to meet with her. The John H. volunteered. So I’m okay with my group.

Benny wanted to join the spanish group, and Shirley asked if he knew spanish, and he said yeah, “como esta, chica?” lol, and then John Pierre told him to say “Yo quiero comer tu hijo” lmao. So yeah, that was all the fun there.

Lunch was alright. *shrug* I told Gina her orange looked nasty, but she, being the defiant person she is, ignored me. Then a couple minutes later, I hear a strangled chewbaka noise, lmao, and then she got her nasty orange on my waterbottle.

In chemistry, we talked a lot. We have to do this nuclear radioactivity project (don’t you love saying that?) and it’s due like the same time as the 19th century project *rips out hair* We also talked about shoving a dry erase marker into your vein, instead of a needle. Hah.

I missed, like all of business class to go to my counselor. I don’t really like Mr. Blasius. He kind of put pressure on my to find a career that I liked. We looked at some topics, but nothing really looked that interesting. I mean, there’s nothing, exact that I want to study. I want to study every thing. Except maybe math. I can live without math. *sigh* I got really spacy on him, and I don’t understand what he was saying sometimes, but he was helpful, at least. I'm convinced those pink slips are for the nevous individual to release their stress, because it was like, in shreds when I walked out of there. He changed my schedule, gave me the AP US Hist. Sheet, talked about college, intrests, blah blah blah, and about scholarships. He said I was like 100 something out of 700 something for class rank, and top 15%, and said I could possibly get a scholarship if I kept it up. What reassured me was that you can change your mind if you don’t like what your major is. That’s good to know. I was afraid everything was final. And In a university, you can move around a lot.

So I was kind of depressed halfway into it, but I felt better when it ended. I left just when the bell rang, and I had to get a pass from mr. Jones. Spanish was retarded. We talked and made our stupid folders for half the class period. Then we just reviewed the rest of it. I don’t feel like going into detail.

Geometry was meh. Mr. Zizzo announced the top ten. Mine came in 9th place with like 70 something votes, I think… yay ^^ I got a B on the quiz today. I never know when we have quizzes. Gah! Test tomorrow. I hope I get a B or better.

Arrgh it was so annoying on the bus! My iPod died, so I had to listen to Andy Ramos’s mexican music with the rest of the bus. It was highly annoying, while trying to read Portrait. Joe wanted to beat someone up today or something, and when he got up the door, he lifted himself up and hit his fat fucking head again. rofl, it never gets old. Me and Leo just sat there laughing XD.

This just in!!!!!!!! YANI JUST ARRESTED FOR DOMESTIC BATTERY lmao. It just keeps getting better.

So right now you’re prolly waiting for me to wrap it up. That is, if any one reads this forsaken thing XD.

Buuut I made a list of goals for this summer. Most of which I am hoping either nikhil or alex or both will join me in.

1. Get a job (preferably at a book store)

2. Get a car

3. Look at colleges

4. Practice ACT’s

5. Get an account at the Health Club

6. Get peircing(s)

7. Get a new hairstyle

8. Decorate room (mural-esque)

[By_My-elf]

Your plans from your listing sound cool I hope you really do it -_-'

and Twi you look kool if you didn't see what i wrotew on another

Thread XD

[twilightcrimson7]

Thanks Shaun ^_^ I appreciate it

 

[today, wednesday]

 

Wednesday's suck.

I cut it close today. From now on, I'm running around the block early in the morning, before the bus comes XD

English was boring.

Gym was hella rad. Played Volleyball, and wakana smashed the ball, so whoever was in the way, had to like, dodge out of the way lmao.

comp apps was okay. worked on my graphics

lunch was meh.

Chemistry was okay. We "worked on a packet" but in reality, me alexis, and gina talked and threw tape at each other. Gina said she hats Avenged Sevenfold *disgust* I love them *sniffle*...

Business was soooo boring. Mr. Jones won't let us switch seats. double you tee eff.

Spanish was agonizingly slow, boring, and stupid. Jessica told me that Ernie ate glue. wow, I have to mention this when Dwyer is within hearing distance in english tomorrow. lol

Geometry sucked. we took a test that I probably did sucky on *sighs*

Montage was fun only me, alexis, fran, jessie, and dave were theere though ;_;

Dave supposedly dyed his hair black. o0;;

Fran and Jessie went on the computer, and we looked at peoples' art on deviantart. I blasted "the only time" in Fran's ear. You know, the part where he sais "while the devil wants to fuck me in the back of his car..." lmao Fran:"that got me interested now" XD he never bothered to listen to NIN before... or a7x... Jessie said she hated A7x too!!! *rips out hair* noooo

then me and dad went home to eat bacon XD

Now I'm here at mom's and I have a lot of work, but I'm very distracted >.>

[Friðbjörn]

okay, wow, about the college/some school stuff thing...

sounds like it's really complicated in america...

 

around here, if you don't want to learn abroad, you can choose between the ONE university in the country, and about 5-7 university colleges lol

a lot easier choice I'd think

 

 

You seem like you have a good chance of getting to do what you want, that is to say when you figure that out

well one thing's school, major's another

[twilightcrimson7]

quite complicated... you can imagine my wariness u.u

wow, well, that sounds good to me, not a big deal or choice. Of couse on the other hand, you're quite limited :\

[Friðbjörn]

yeah

 

 

that's true, but it is a certified some kinda international thingy program, so it's a decent university.

would be nice though to go abroad, just for the culture or something, and study too