Twilight's *gasp* Journal! Read at your own risk

[By_My-elf]

oh that is cool I would make one but

I stopped drawing long ago XD

cause I stopped feeling pain O.O

[twilightcrimson7]

why are you so poetic?

lol

Well that's curious. I know what you mean though. I stopped drawing for a long time....

[By_My-elf]

why are you so poetic?

lol

Well that's curious. I know what you mean though. I stopped drawing for a long time....

 

LMAO I don't know I just write what's in mind sometimes XD

I know that I quit cause I noticed I wasn't good anymore

and I was depressed when I drew good

[twilightcrimson7]

I know.

I suck too, but I'm going to try now

[By_My-elf]

I know.

I suck too, but I'm going to try now

 

I Should try to draw and sketch again XD

I use to love to sketch

[twilightcrimson7]

if you love it, then do it

[By_My-elf]

I know I have this big sketch book but never touched it since last year XD

I wanna use it but I'm to sucky to sketch so I never used it

[twilightcrimson7]

I don't even know how many sketchbooks I have >.>

well I'm dangerously tired.

Good night <3

[By_My-elf]

well have a nice night and till later C'ya Twi

and take care

[stupidsoul1]

<33333 your hair

 

I love drawing and sketching too.

[Girl_with_a_Guitarx]

Nice to meet you Twi. Thanks, I like your journal too.

& yeah, Alex is my boyfriend.

So...what's up?

 

-Rosie

[twilightcrimson7]

Thanks Shaun and Fi ^^

Thanks for stopping by.. um, may I call you Rosie? ^^;;

 

Well I guess I'll update. We got our treadmill this morning. The delivery guys Showed up at like 9:30 and rung the doorbell. I was laying in bed. After lik 5 minutes, they rung the bell again, and I was like "no one answered the door yet????" so I got up and went to mom's room, but she came out, and I was like "There's someone at the door o.O" so yeah.

Then I got up and got ready. My mouth hurt because I put rubberbands in last night. They weren't the right rubber bands either, so my mouth hurt extra bad >.< but I think that moved my teeth enough for me to lie and say I had my rubber bands in all the time lol. Which I of course didn't. I drove to the ortho. I wasn't really sad or anything, but when I spoke to the orthodontist and the girl helper, I sounded really sad o.O it was weird. so that kind of made me sad. I think it's because the helper girl was really nice when I met her and now she's kind of flippant and uncaring. I dunno, I used to like her.

They did something different when they tightened them today, so it really hurts! >.>

Yeah.

Well I had to get my back pack from dad's house before I went home. I was pissed because I thought I missed a turn, but I really didn't, so I turned around for nothing. Then I missed the OTHER turn, and I basically wasted like 10 minutes UGH.

Nothing much happened. I had breakfast and watched Spongebob. Now I'm going to go do homework.

[Girl_with_a_Guitarx]

Yeah, just call me Rosie...wow, sounds like you had a tough morning...

[By_My-elf]

Hey Twi you had such a rough start for the morning I would hate to wake up at 9:30 O.o

I'm usually up that time cause I stay up all night and sleep after school then go to work and do the same thing over XD

but ouch tightening teeth that gotta hurt man >.<

[twilightcrimson7]

aw thanks guys, it wan't so bad

 

This was me yesterday:

 

I just bought some more Nine Inch Nails stuff. yeahhhh It's fucking my already twisted mind up more, and I love it.

that's my only comfort right now anyway.

I ordered chinese by myself and i was proud. I liked the delivery guy.

Frickin huge amound of food, looked like I didn't even touch it, but It felt like I ate too much.

I went on the treadmill.

When I got off I was sickly pale and usually I'm tomato red. I almost threw up, and then I had to go mouth-wash the vomit taste out of the acid-attacked throat.

Chopin's music makes me feel like I'm in a different time. It also reminds me of FmA.

I still feel slightly faint.

I'm in a self-hating mood. but it's slowly fading into apathy. I'm sick of worrying about things. but I get distracted entirely too much. Why can't I work hard, like other people. I'm digging my own grave.

 

 

Yeah. Feelings like that come once and a while.

Today it was rather subdued.

I spent 9/10ths of my day reading 1984. I got 100 pages down. It's funny how It takes like 7hours to read 100 pages (with marginalia and highlighting) and it takes 3 hours to read 100 pages of Anne Rice books. Which are slightly larger pages.

 

yeah, it's not like I had anything better to do with my life.

I ran on the treadmil for thirty minutes today and now I can barely walk.

that's how out of shape I am ;;; I like the feeling though. muahah.

well off to read some more and eat my noodles before bed

tomorrow's school.

I'm slightly releived.

then tuesday's the SOX game ^^

[Friðbjörn]

lol reminds me of my bad shape

tried and jogged for like 15 minutes, started feeling like a hippo attempting polevault lmao

 

and 1984, hm, haven't read that one. it's by George Orwell though, right?

[By_My-elf]

LMAO buy new nin stuff I know how that feels when you get something new from your fav band XD I felt so happy to get some stuff from LP before k nomore blabbing XD

and sounds like it was a great day that time

[twilightcrimson7]

tried and jogged for like 15 minutes, started feeling like a hippo attempting polevault lmao

 

lmao!!! Don't make me laugh in class XD

Yeah I know what you mean though, I was sweating in the shower too XDD

Yes, it's by George Orwell and it's an awesome book

 

edit::: omg shaun, you sneaky one!!! lol Yeah its exciting <3

muahah well you can blab all you want, here XD

ttyl!

 

well today is the first day back from school. Its not so bad. English was great. Mrs. Dwyer was quite animated and exciting lol.

Gym was good, everyone was like, quiet. really quiet. Like, out of 40 kids, me and wakana were the only ones talking lol. Then we played six space and at first it was like, almost silent. We had the whole friggen gym and it was silent. creeeepy. At first we were losing, and then we made a great comeback and I was one base away from scoring, and the ball was near, but I just ran like hell and I felt the ball whizz behind me but it didn't touch me and I made it! it was exhillerating

So yeah, it was a good game, but I was really sweaty.

When I walked to Computer class, I usually go in the sliding doors, but I stood in front of them for a couple seconds and I didn't even read the sign that said "use the other doors in room 175" lmao and there was two people like, watching me. It must be great fun for them XDDDD

Anyway, I'm suprised at how much people suck at graphics in this class! o.o

Well lunch is soon,

[Ravynlee]

Hello there Twi!

*tackle hugs*

That whole standing in front of the sliding doors and not opening kind thing cracked me up. Think everyone can relate to something like that. Reminds me of a funny add I saw on TV once where the handle fell off a sliding glass door and this guy picks it up, puts it against the glass and slides it across the glass like he's opening it (but he's not, its still closed) and these people walk face first into it! It's hysterical. You'd have to see it. Lotto add I think. *shrugs* It's American. That's all I know.

XD still thinking about it.

 

Anyway, sounds like you be having 'fun' at class. Eerie silent gym. Things must have changes considerably since I was in school cause gym was usually filled with the sound of unfit kids like me huffing and puffing to get our fat butts around the oval once - let alone three or however many times they'd tell us. *frown* God I hated gym. Hated sport. I was the tubby lard @$$ sitting on the bleachers squeaking with another asthma attack and writing lines about being a tubby lard @$$ who needed to be less of a whiny snot and more of an active participant. *snubs nose at past gym teachers*

Yeah. Life's like that even now.

 

But anyway. Oh no, ranting has taken over. Time for first good morning cuppa. Time to wake up now. *groan*

Take care. *tackle hugs* Talk to ya later! Have fun - be good.

 

-Rav

[twilightcrimson7]

I'm honored by your visit

Can't say I've seen the commercial though, sounds like a typical american commercial XD

 

 

gym was usually filled with the sound of unfit kids like me huffing and puffing to get our fat butts around the oval once - let alone three or however many times they'd tell us. *frown* God I hated gym. Hated sport. I was the tubby lard @$$ sitting on the bleachers squeaking with another asthma attack and writing lines about being a tubby lard @$$ who needed to be less of a whiny snot and more of an active participant. *snubs nose at past gym teachers*

Yeah. Life's like that even now.

 

Wow, that basically describes most of my gym life.

Let me say, gratefully, this year's gym has been VASTLY, vastly better this year than previous years! I actually have --dare I say it--fun! It's not something I'm quite used to. Like your description I was usually out of shape, huffing and barely tolerating the excrutiating torment that was running or playing a sport. I would sulk in my pathetic attempt at a sport, and listen and see the frustration of my self-pitying team mates who were sorry enough to have me on their team. Unless it was baseball or hocky, I deplored gym, I loathed it. I hated almost every aspect of it's stupid teachings and practices, and every minute was torture. Ugh.

I too have asthma, and it gets stifiling sometimes, just because of sheer effort, and it seems as though you're never rewarded. They gym teachers look at you with pity, almost as bad as contempt. *shrug* I stopped taking asthma medicine though. It never helped. I only take my inhaler when I need it. It seems to have gotten better

In any case, yes, gym is fun this year, I actually made friends with most of the people in my class. and It is a bigger and more fun class than all the years before it. my teacher is nice and he is lax. We play fun games and activities. We don't run a whole lot, and if the sport is not fun, we make it fun .

And what's more, I don't suck as much as I used to. Like I said, I scored a run today, and almost five people high fived me. I'm probably just lame, but that made me feel speshul And one was even a dude from my middle school. I was suprised, because I was not a popular kid in middle school, and I was positive most of my peers hated or just plain stayed away from me. But I think we all change during high school and I found out this year, that that was truth. (most of the people in my spanish class is from my middle school) so at first I held most of them in contempt, but as I observed, they had changed, they treated me kindlier, and their personalities were better. I consider them as sort of siblings now. Not really liking them, but tolerating them, and getting along with them. Because let's face it, I spent most of my life with most of these people. Don't get me wrong, there are some people I still hate....

Wow look who's ranting now. ;;;

Well I wont be bothered with telling you about the rest of my school day. It's not important, it was reutine.

I finished 1984 a few minutes ago. GREAT book. wow, depressing though.

I seriously can't find anything wrong with it ^^

well gotta go

TOMORROW'S THE BASEBALL GAME!

[By_My-elf]

edit::: omg shaun, you sneaky one!!! lol Yeah its exciting <3

muahah well you can blab all you want, here XD

ttyl!

 

LMAO okay I'll do that than XD and

How was I sneaky O.o?? I'm confused

*Falls over too much for brain*

[Friðbjörn]

Your life (at least school life) seems to be heading in a good direction twi

That's always good of course

[keza]

gym eww hate guy, not that we do much, 'table tennis' mostly, where we kinda fling our arms around a bit until the teacher moves on haha

anyhow, how is the twily?

o0o0o0o baseball, never seen that...by the caps im gaging some excitment, maybe? 0_o lol

well hope alls well

i'll be offskis...<3333

[stupidsoul1]

haha i used to hate gym until i actually participated, actually quite fun.

 

anywaysss just popping in to say hellu!~

[twilightcrimson7]

Hi guys ^_^ thanks for the comments.

 

Well I guess I should update this thing.

Tuesday was my baseball game. It was mucho fun ^_^

 

The ring ceremony started while I was still in line for my hot chocolate, omg it was torture. I was like HURRY UPPPP! But I got to see it ^_^

Then The Love Hammers preformed! I didn't know that before hand I like the Love Hammers. They sung "Trees" <3 it was great

 

And there was a really good home run in the fourth inning, but the Sox lost, 8 to 2 *emo tear* yeah. I still had fun. On the way home, we just drove through Chicago, and we all talked. Then we had ice cream. woot. Lucy invited me and dad to dinner friday night.

 

Me and dad went out for dinner afterwards.

The next morning, I had to go in early to make up an English test that I missed the previous day. Mrs. Dwyer, along with two other women, were there, talking.

 

One lady: "you know what's coming up..."

Other lady: "nooo...."

Mrs. Dwyer: "sounds like ass"

she never guessed, it ended up being the golf master's tournament. lol it was weird.

lady: "wow, your students actually come in to make up tests... you don't have to hunt them down like..."

Mrs. Dwyer: "like vermin"

lol

 

So, the quiz was a powerpoint, and it showed 10 images that I had to elaborate on in 1984. There was two I couldn't guess. But after Mrs. Dwyer complained a little, and hinted, I finished it sucessfully

Mrs. Dwyer: *reading my quiz*

Me: *nervous* ;;;;

MD: "That's much better"

 

Immense releif

 

Then the rest of the day continued on as usual. it sucked.

 

Today was sucky too. Not much to say. In English we talked about 1984, and complained about the government and the school lol.

 

In gym I played tennis! omg I never played tennis before XD

I played with Wakana against Paige and Lauren. It was fun, even though we all sucked XDI couldn't help making loud noises when the ball actually got served correctly to me XD. I can serve alright, but I can't parry.

 

In comp apps, I worked on my forum, and then set up another meeting with my group.

 

Lunch was alright. food and friends

 

Chem was boring as fuck. at least gina and alexis were there. lol. We did do an experiment, where a pipet blew up, hehe. but that was only momentary excitement.

 

Me and Eva talked before we went to business. In class, mr. Jones talked about our field trip. It sounds so fun. We get to go to Chicago, to the Merchantile exchange, the Fed, and other places ^^;;

buuuuut, we have to dress fancy. and we're walking a lot in the city. So it's like, you can't wear gym shoes, but you have to walk like 10 blocks that day. That's going to suck. Then we go to lunch, and the go back to school. Why oh why do I have to have Geometry SEVENTH period???? it's the only class I come back to when I have a field trip. ANY other class than that -_-

 

Spanish was kinda fun. Me and nikhil played a slapping game (too bad we couldn't slap each other) XD. We used pens because we're cool like that So when there was one picture left, Mrs. Klebosits, was about to read the clue, but me and nikhil knew it had to be the only picture that was left.... so we already had our pens on the picture, and Mrs. K looks over and says "What are you guys doing! I didn't say anything yet..." lol I think she called us psychotic or something. XD stupid woman.

 

Geometry was alright. Me and Nick worked on the warm up. which turned out to be fun, because we get so into it when we can't figure it out, we just start a heated-theorem debate XD. Then Sushit played the "penis game" when mr. zizzo left the room.

 

"penis..."

 

 

"penis"

 

 

"penis!!"

 

 

"PENIS"

 

 

"PENISSSS!!!"

 

Mr. Zizzo waks into the room.

 

Sush: "Oh man, I love those peanuts... especially the roasted ones..."

 

lmao!! so funny.

 

I didn't want to go to art club, because... because I didn't want to. lol. I had a lot of homework anyway. >.>

 

Me and mom and tim went to dinner. Mom had a dream of me being a lesbian lmao.

Then me and mom had a heated debate about sheets. I deplore sheets, i HATE sheets. they're worthless pieces of fabric!!! and she keeps telling me things like "I used to think that too, untilll...." "Wait til you get to be my age, then you'll change..."

I refussssssssse!

Yeah. Mom seems to be getting more bitchy lately. I mean, she's just getting more snotty. It's quite annoying.

Well yeah.

I ran for 12 minutes. *shrug*

I have a cold! omg I didn't even tell you. Last night I though my sore throat was a cause of a Polish sausage I ate (Rav knows what I'm talking about XD) but I actually have a cold. which sucks. I've been drinking water NON-STOP. it's like, why not just strap that water-bottle to my face. My throat never feels moist. it's the most annoying thing.

Well i have to work on my business project and/or my english assignment. g'night folks

I love you!