Twilight's *gasp* Journal! Read at your own risk

[Heart_LP]

omg are you kiddin me? 11 mins for a mile!?! and you think you suck?!?!

I ran 2,4 kms in 16 mins XD and I thought that was pretty good for a fatty like me XDD

but oh well...you should pat youself in the back *does it for you*

there you go!

[twilightcrimson7]

..........[CONTINUTED FROM ABOVE]

 

Saturday starded off slow and painful, akin to torture.

I woke up early to go to the orthodontist, and my braces were tightened so that they rendered me unable to chew, pretty much. I have to use my very very back teeth, and very slowly. Good news is that I don't have to wear rubberbands. Bad news is that I have to go back in two weeks.

I basically chored around the house, waiting. Me and dad and the Bahenas were supposed to go bike riding, but dad's tire broke and had to replace the rim or something. We went to Target to get a new tire, and I needed clothes, so I picked some up while I was there.

I got a pair of khaki capris, a greyish skirt, a tank top, and like three shirts. I still need more spring pants though.

I was kind of depressed when I had nothing to do. It felt so worthless to be conscious. By the time it was fixed, we wanted to go to dinner. I invited alex and sus padres to come with us, be declined.

Dad says I ride fast. (We rode to Tree Guys)

I ordered salad and pasta and garlic bread, none of which I was able to eat well or gracefully. The food was sooo good though.

*burp*

So then when we got back home, Alex came over to my house. We philosophized for a while, and hung out. Then we watched TV. It was nice, we made fun of the super annoying shows. Such as random superheroes and the half-demonpussy and monk punch possessed women til the puked salamanders. ;; no.

Ummm yeah. Then we had the brilliant idea of watching all the old and GOOD movies of our childhood. No sarcasm intended. It was a brilliant idea. So me and alex, with the help of dad, uncovered the secret location of Aunt Michele's videos. I procured "Once Upon a Meadow" (or something to that effect), "Fern Gully", the FANTASIAS, "The Swan Princess", and "The Emperor's New Groove".

We made a nest on the floor and watched once upon a meadow, which was nostalgic for me, it was lame but awesome! Especially the Arm with a Beer Can driving a Truck full of POISON GAS. lmao.

Then we watched Fern Gully which was extremely good. I mean, they don't make good movies like that anymore. Batty was SO COOL though. I had forgotten about him. "All our cosmetics are non-carcinogenic"

We then burried ourselves under masses of blankets and pillows and went to sleep at 2 in the AM.

Dad woke us up for breakfast, which was nice of him. He made eggs and bacey. hard to eat though >.<;;

We watched the Emperor's New Groove. KRONK is so coool! It's funny to think that the voice actor does Brock Samson from Venture Brothers too lmao! that's awesome though. XD

Alex had to go, but Nikhil came over with the movie before she left. But then she did. (weird construction, sorry guys)

So yeah I had a lot of fun with her <3<3<5. MUAHAH.

^^;;

me and nikhil started the movie, which is pretty good, Empire of the Sun.

Then we took an involuntary break which lasted forever. But we just talked about stuff, and it was very relaxing.

Nikhil: "It's like, you have to be 80% smarter than all the other poor people..." lmao. I guess you had to be there. Me and Nikhil pissed ourselves. Yeah. Then we were sent on a hot dog mission for lunch. We went to shorty's in Wooddale but it was closed for Greek Easter. *rolleyes*

So we went to Portillos.

When we were finished eating, we watched about eight more scenes then called it a day.

I drove nikhil home, and now I'm here, reflecting. It was a nice weekend.

I've been looking forward lately, in general.

*shrug* nothing much to say, other than that. Shcool tomorrow. I hope it's interesting.

 

 

 

Today [Monday] was an okay day. I felt pretty good all day, and I had fun/was content.

After school me and dad rode our bikes, played catch, and grilled dinner/made toasted marshmellos. I am like the son he never had XD.

No rly, me and dad are getting our asses into shape. And how can you not spend time outside when it's THIS nice out??? (60-70ish F, and NO BUGS) woot. ^^;;

Well yeahhhh, not much else to say, I guess. I'll continute on with my week.

 

 

I hope all my internet lovers are well *cyber hugs* I LOVE YOU ALL

[twilightcrimson7]

My journal entry was too long to fit on one message. So I had to chop it up. The second half will preceed this.....

Guess that's what happens when you're not here in a while........ lol

 

 

Thank you Fibby and Sammi you two are the most beautiful things I've ever seen

No rly. Thanks for boosting my confidence on my mile time I'm sure I can get better. *super mega hugs for both of you* <3

 

I know I haven't been here in a few days. Its one of those "I don't like the internet" phases. Well it's not that I don't like it, it's that I got bored of it I guess. Well I have an update for my weekend 'cause I actually did stuff.

 

 

Sooo.....

 

 

 

This weekend was pretty damn fun.

Me and Nikhil had a conversation about literature that was quite engaging.

 

 

Nikhil]: heatherrrrrrr

the_twilight_shadow: yeahhhhhhhhh?

Nikhil]: whats 2 +2

the_twilight_shadow: 5

Nikhil]: damn u

the_twilight_shadow: lol

Nikhil]: i wanted u to say 4

Nikhil]: so i could prove u wrong

the_twilight_shadow: how would you have proven me wrong?

Nikhil]: idk...

the_twilight_shadow: by being o brien?

Nikhil]: torture

the_twilight_shadow: I think O'Brien was Big brother.....

the_twilight_shadow: and charrington

Nikhil]: charrington?

Nikhil]: he was like mentioned rarely

Nikhil]: i dont believe big brother was a real person

Nikhil]: just a figure

Nikhil]: of intimidation

the_twilight_shadow: neither was o'brien

Nikhil]: neither what?

the_twilight_shadow: an actual human

the_twilight_shadow: what did you like better, 1984, or BNW?

Nikhil]: yea he was

Nikhil]: 184

the_twilight_shadow: nu uh

Nikhil]: 1984

the_twilight_shadow: me too

[Nikhil]: BNW, was kinda awkward

Nikhil]: i mean, i expected Bernard to make some kinda breakthrough, but he didnt

[Nikhil]: cuz the beggining of the book foreshadow that bernard would rebel instead of john

the_twilight_shadow: I dunno....... BNW was nice and everything, but 1984 impacted me more. It was more organized and complex... intricate. BNW was witty, and metaphorical, but it was all over the place, and the plot was significantly weaker. In 1984 I thought the characters were impersonal, yet identifiable and strong. In BNW, I hated almost every character. Except Helmholtz. I loved him.

the_twilight_shadow: I know what you mean

Nikhil]: i know exactly what u mean

Nikhil]: bnw was just too awkward

Nikhil]: the whole conditioning thing seemed off

the_twilight_shadow: No I don't think it was awkward

Nikhil]: dude we should have more of these intricate discussions

Nikhil: anyways

the_twilight_shadow: I liked the conditioning thing.

the_twilight_shadow: It was the truest aspect of the book

Nikhil]: I mean i thought it was very impressive

the_twilight_shadow: lol we should post this convo in the webboard

[Nikhil]: I really liked how john was the only one who showed the bad side to the society

Nikhil]: of the society*

the_twilight_shadow: I hated John

[Nikhil]: i liked him

the_twilight_shadow: I hated Bernard

Nikhil]: i just didnt like how he liked lenina at first

the_twilight_shadow: I don't get why everyone liked John so much

Nikhil]: I was afraid of Linda

Nikhil]: i didnt like bernard either

Nikhil]: he was sucha wimp

Nikhil]: i thought bernard would have been the byronic hero

Nikhil]: but he failed meh

the_twilight_shadow: Tactically, he's supposed to be the "favorite" chara from the book.

the_twilight_shadow: lol

the_twilight_shadow: I liked bernard more than john though

Nikhil]: i hated bernard the most

Nikhil]: musTAFA

[Nikhil]: thats a kool name

Nikhil]: i loved the shakespeare references

the_twilight_shadow: At least bernard was human. A regular human with emotions we all have and feel. However unadmirable. He was the most realistic character

the_twilight_shadow: lol

the_twilight_shadow: that was nice

Nikhil]: true true

the_twilight_shadow: I hate the name mustapha mond

Nikhil]: Lenina pissed me off

the_twilight_shadow: we have a lot of contrasting likes and dislikes lol

the_twilight_shadow: yeah me too

Nikhil]: should should have been held hostage at the reservation

Nikhil]: she*

the_twilight_shadow: haha

the_twilight_shadow: yeah

Nikhil]: and have been raped by Pope

the_twilight_shadow: XD

Nikhil]: gawd he was soo disgusting

Nikhil]: it was disgusting to imagine him and linda

Nikhil]: ewwww

the_twilight_shadow: Another thing I liked about BNW was the satirical feel from Huxley. He was very comical. 1984 wasn't very comical.

Nikhil]: yeah

Nikhil]: 1984 was strctly straight forward and no sattire anywhere

the_twilight_shadow: pretty much, yeah

the_twilight_shadow: Most of all, I didn't like the atmosphere of BNW. It was just less interesting and more ...baren and annoying

the_twilight_shadow: 1984's ambiance was much more realistic and descriptive

the_twilight_shadow: I could imagine what everything would look like

Nikhil]: yea

[stupidsoul1]

LMAO sounds fun =)

[Friðbjörn]

I know what you mean, I get tired of the internet occasionally too, just like, sick of it.

 

 

This made me laugh though, kinda:

 

We philosophized for a while

now I have not heard that before

haha

[Sygy]

umm roasted shit is the sex!

 

well you seem to having the time of your life!

 

lol

xxx

[twilightcrimson7]

Thank you guys! *hugs*

Yesterday was good, then horrible.

Half day, so I hung out with friends

but later, mom demanded to see my myspace profile, and I denied her. I mean she'd overreact to SO many things.... so she told me to go to my room and that I was grounded. So I deleted my account, and called dad. Dad rationallized with me, then me and mom talked. I deleted it, yes, because I didn't want mom to see it, but at the same time they did have a point. It is studpid. Random people looking stuff up about you, the stupid groups and bullitens. I mean, I post something other than the stupid chain mail/stories/surveys, and no one even cares. The only reason I liked it was because I could EASILY communicate with my friends.

Anyway, me and mom both agreed to trust each other more. I don't know, I thought I could avoid all confrentation with her by just hiding everything. But it just exploded in my face. *sigh* I'm not even that mad, except at myself. I was so stupid.

I got too confident.

I started to watch Rent before going to bed.

IN the morning, Tim felt bad for even bringing myspace up, but I told him it was inevitable.

I felt horrible the whole day.

I can't figure anything out. Plus I was ridiculously tired.

I don't know if I can come on here as much.

Maybe once and a while

<3

[Sygy]

no more twi twi on myspazz? NOOOOOOO

[4everLP_Shinoda]

Hey Twi!!!Just thought I´d drop by to thank you for the rep you gave me,I think I didn´t deserved though but still I wanted to thank you.

Hope you are doing good.

Cya

[Ravynlee]

Hi - I just wanted to drop in and say hi too, it's been a while and sometimes I just get lazy...

awww

Oh well, HI! How ya' doing? Hope all's well with you.

Y'all look after yourself. Yeah. I don't really know what else to say, sorry.

0_0

 

*hugs Twi then runs off again in some random direction*

 

-Rav

[By_My-elf]

Twi is barely going to be on here O.o

oh NO! but other than that

take care and I know what you mean by can't figure things out

I was like that not too long ago

and hope everything works out soon O.O

[SpikeMinoda14]

Twi..and..no...myspace???

But,what is the world coming to???

 

Well i'm really really really really really sorry to hear that.

**sigh**

Well i hope all is well now buddy,**huge hug**

I'll catch ya laterz.

 

~Keli~

[Friðbjörn]

Darn...

Well, I can't say I blame you, but I'll definately miss you if can't be on much.

For whatever it's really worth, you're a good internet friend.

[twilightcrimson7]

aww sygy

Hi Vero!!! ^^;;; how are you woman ?? XD haven't talked to you in a while.

*tackles rav* Hii Thanks for stopping by, especially since I hardly stop by you anymoreeeee. I completely understand laziness.

hugs for Shaun thanks

*huggles keli* it's okay, I'll catch you on here or msn sometimes I'll miss your profile though ^^;;

And thanks Fribb, you're a really great internet friend too, and I appreciate you

 

To all my friends on lpf I love youuuu! <3

You guys are so nice to me, andI really appreciate all the kindness you give me,

and I want you guys to know, I will TRY and check up on you guys too! but I might be busier lately. and I'm laying low now too,sooo more confidentiality.

 

Well I just came here to reply to you sweet people, because you're all awesome ^_^

I'm doing good lately, no worries

<3333

later days,

 

Twi

[Heart_LP]

Hi sis!

sorry to hear that you wont be able to come here much.

You will defintely be missed..alot!!

and you should know that <3 <3

but hopefully, we'll be able to see you. We'll just pretend that yuo are on a vacation in...LONDON! ^^ >.>

love ya loads hon =*

*shmuggles*

[twilightcrimson7]

*hugs sis* ^_^ thanks

Mutual loveage hurr.

I'm so bored in computer apps. Plah!

Omg I've been thinking about England a lot. I can't wait to go!!

[Heart_LP]

haha that sounds so funny

me too but I've got this assigment to do so I'm quite busy with that =/

what a boring busyness -.-

me 2 and me 2 o.0

*huggles*

toodles

[woodyloveslinkin]

yo twi! what's been up?

missin u heaps!

[twilightcrimson7]

*hug sammi*

 

WOODY *tackle* how are you?

 

It's all good hurr guys. Nothin' new.

[Friðbjörn]

sounds like my life....lol

[Mikes_Shadow]

Twiiii!!

I haven't talked to you in ages?

ToT Where did your myspace goooooo?

 

anehway<3loveyou

 

WHOA new sig

never thought I'd see the day

[twilightcrimson7]

GEMMA

 

I miss you too

I deleted my ms.

Details below

 

 

----update --- cautro de mayo----

 

Hmmm what to say. Wednesday was okay. Afterschool me and Alexis went to study with Mr O, but he went away for fifteen minutes.

So we decided to roam around, and we hear suddenly, Mrs. Puzak accusing us of slacking. Which is true, but hey, chem comes before the earth.

So we recycled for fifteen minutes, and then went to class. After figuring out what we did wrong, we ate Richie's trail mix.

Later, I had the best orange chicken from the TL's.

 

Today went alright. Chemistry was the best today. Alexis wore the same Alice in Chains shirt as me, so it caused confusion. Mr O: "It's like, I kinda know there's two people there, but I see one!" Smart ass. I was Alice two. Anyway, fun today. I rhymed.

 

Spanish was fun. ^^;; Crazy stuff there.

 

Geo I actually got an A on my quiz! ZOMG. I was expecting bad.

 

I went to Art club, even though I didn't really want to stay. but I did. I really just talked a little and did English h/w.

Me and Alex exchanged slanderous accusations on the bus.

 

When I got home, I had to go to the library, to renew my card and book. I rode my bike cause I'm cool like that. I got home in time for mom to pick me up. I remembered the FIESTA food too. Fiestas son MAGNIFICOS.

 

I walked to the store in bartlett to get Sangria and salsa though.

 

NOW I'M HERE. Listening to My new NIN downloads.

 

 

and as always there's AWESOME lyrics to relate to.

 

I love this:

 

"I Do Not Want This"-NIN

 

I want to know everything

I want to be everywhere

I want to fuck everyone in the world

And .. I want to do something that matters

 

"Eraser"

 

need you

dream you

find you

taste you

fuck you

use you

scar you

break you

lose me

hate me

smash me

erase me

 

 

 

----CINCO DE MAYO----

 

Hola fools.

 

Started the day with oblivion. I didn't know like, anything that happened in the Train to Rhodesia. All I could recall were the first couple columns.

But I lucked out on it, because 'chocolate' was a question, and I specifically remember how someone threw the chocolate to the dogs, and the chickens ate it, and I remember thinking how odd it was for chickens to eat chocolate.

So I lucked out.

gotta read closer next time. I can't afford to lose any points.

 

I was freakishly tired after that africa presentation, but DAMN I want to go to Africa!

We had to "Walk" the mile in gym. So me, Paige, Carina, Jessica, Wakana, and Laruen walked together. On the third lap, everyone that was in front of us for the whole time, cheated and stopped there. But our group decided to be honest and walk the last lap. Our goal was under 16 minutes. so we figured out a way to do that. It was leaning forward and shuffling. I made it just in time.

 

Mr Matas was the sub for computer class! I was on the computer, and I instantly identified that voice. Well just ended up workking on my hero site. I'm doing V. It's frustrating work though.

 

Lunch was annoying. I had to go in three different lines. We found out that they CANCELED vitamin water, and they now have ice cream. o.o!

 

In chem, Gina decided to not retake. I know I answered the ones I got wrong right, but what if I messed up on the ones I had right before? lol. *shrug* We saw jessie wave at the door, and I waved with two hands, quite enthusiastically and retardedly ^^

We had the worst sub today. He like, attacked Matt and Emily, two of the more smarter people in class. It was funny. But I seriously hated him. Bitch. When me and Alexis finished, we passed notes to gina. and The turtles were hugging/laying on each other. Aww.

 

business was boring. Stupid accounting.

I obtained a blunt and throbbing headache.

 

Fiesta! It was pretty cool. Lotsa food. Klebo was depressed over something Jeff Hanson did. I mean c'mon. And then Randy is so obnoxious. If only she knew what Randy's like in Business. Anyone for that matter. I mean, she think she's influencing everyone to be a "LEON". Fuck no. Everyone is just laughing along, and pretending. An Irony of sorts. It's cool being something your not. Okay, end rant. I just thought that observation was interesting. Evan's video wasn't THAT funny. I mean, Randy was like, ROFLing all over the place. the end was pretty funny, but.. yeah. I thought Ernie's video was just as funny, though not as professionally done as Evin's. I wonder what program he used.........

 

Geometry was alright. *shrug* nothing special. Mr. Zizzo is the most pompous and arrogant bitch teacher ever. I hate his fucking personality. Like "Oh, you all should KNOW this by now, It's so totally FUCKING obvious, it doesn't GET any easier" and how he always makes it publically aware what he thinks so and so's grade is going to be like. Or how he assumes certain people care about their testing abilities. I mean, sure we all laugh at his jokes, but is that something a teacher should do? I expect that more from a substandard adolescent with nothing better to do. Is it really going to promote thier working harder, or promote their low and comical acheivment so that they might receive more attention in the future. agian, JUST observing.

 

People were throwing shit on the bus today. Errr.

and then those freaks in the back were making loud obnoxious throaty calls. I'm glad I got off the bus right after they started.

 

Lilacs are so nice. Can you believe Nikhil didn't know what they were?

 

-heath

[twilightcrimson7]

I'm really beginning to hate LPF.

I don't know why I come here, It's a habit.

I guess it's the people I love here. But even that's not enough incentive anymore...

[Friðbjörn]

You are? Why's that?

[twilightcrimson7]

It's just been so frustrating to be here. I don't enjoy it anymore. It's becoming a chore.