Twilight's *gasp* Journal! Read at your own risk

[Victim]

Well, I'm sure you've left already..But.. Have fun at Art Camp. See you when you get back!

[Friðbjörn]

Have fun twi ^_^

[twilightcrimson7]

needless to say, I'm back.

Art camp was awesome.

So was our party. I have tons of pictures of both on this photobucket site

But a few days after, mom and me got in a huge fight. I broke dad's phone when I threw it out of fury (from a fight) and so we all got new phones. I love my new phone. Her name is Astrid ^_^

my ringtone is "If you talk too much my head will explode" by people in planes. I've never had an actual ringtone before!

Aaand, it has a recorder, and I recorded a lot of stuff XD

I babysitted with Alex. Sal's kids (4) a 11 year old who thought he was a big boy, a hyper and weird 9 year old child, a DS addicted 7 year old, and a very cute 4 year old. All of them were sweet in their own way.

I didn't think I'd have fun babysitting. Alex corrupted them with CHARLIEEE and didn't even censor her Sailor's mouth.

We got paid 40 bucks each. *$<3*

Yesterday we (me, dad, Lucy, Alex, Marco and Franco) went to Navy Pier. Chicago is awesome. I love it. One day I'm going to live there. Inside the city. Not in the dingy suburbs....

Nobody could agree on anything to do. I was fine to do anything except go on top of the Sears Tower. That's too much.

I went on the ferris wheel though. Got a little sick, but it was awesome to see the city from Lake Michigan... again.

We didn't even stay for the fireworks. All in all, I was dissapointed by our 'vacation', but it was still fun.

I had the best, coma-like sleep ever.

I went to mom's today. We ate chinese and played videogames. It was fun.

 

and it's the first time I've had DSL in about a month.

so that's what's been separating me from here. and you

I miss you all.

but alas I leave tomorrow. and who knows when I'll be back.

 

When school starts, hopefully I'll have a lap top. Then I'm getting a car.

Then we're moving. Oh lord.

School will be busy. Intense. I'm taking a prep course for the SATs and I'm going to be driving to school. West campus will be so different from EAst

and all this will happen in two weeks.

Tomorrow dad and auntie will get the money from the house. half a million baby.

 

 

 

I leave you now, with hope. Wish me luck

 

<3 *hugs and love*

[misery]

Sucks that you got in a fight with your mom, but oddly enough it seemed to turn out pretty good, rofl.

 

$40 for babysitting? Wow, that's pretty decent, rofl.

 

Good luck with everything Take care.

 

Edit: Err, as was just pointed out down there v, I rofl'd twice. My bad XD

[twilightcrimson7]

wow, two rofls! I'm honored XD

Thanks for stopping by Matt ^^

Yeah, mom can be vicious when she's threatened, but it all turned out fine in the end. For now anyways.

Yeah, Sal's loaded. shoulda seen his house XD

[Victim]

Looks like art camp was fun!

And I know what its like to get in to fights with the parents.. Though I never threw I cell phone, though I probably shoulda, might got mine alittle earlier.

Also sounds like you had a better experience with babysitting, lol.. and you got payed more then I did.

its good to see you back, but it sucks you are leaving again.

[twilightcrimson7]

I can remember few times where I ever got that upset in my life. It made me appreciate my situation more. I mean, I always hear of kids punching walls, and that sort of thing. I never thought I'd get so sad and angry that I'd throw a cell phone to it's death. It was a horrible conversation. I'm glad I did do it though. God it felt good to smash something. Dad said it was cool, but I felt bad for breaking his phone.

 

Meh, I usually deplore babysitting, but it was okay. that's why I was shocked.

 

Thanks for the concern Victim, and I hope to see you around on my next visit ^_^

[misery]

There's something very therapeutic about breaking stuff when you're angry. I don't know what it is. Depending on what you break, you might even laugh about it later Unless it's like.. your fist, or something.

[Victim]

Yea, I have been trying to get my parents to let me hang a punching bag up somewhere.. Because for some reason, when I get really pissed off, punchin shit is the only stuff that calms me down..

 

And its scary of strong your anger makes you.. I won't go into any details.. but angry is something mighty powerful, and you should be glad it was only a cell phone that broke.. because somethings, its alot worse. But it seems like you have your angry on lock for the most part.

[woodyloveslinkin]

I've missed you soooo much !!

[twilightcrimson7]

Lol misery.... yeah it is healing... its like YES all those little peices spilling on the floor. Utter annihilation... ahhhh.

 

I usually have control over my temper, but like you Victim, I just want to punch something. And I tend to seethe over small things... stupid things, in most people's opinions. So they consider me weird when I get mad over something that bugs me, but that only makes me angrier. I hate it when people tell you to calm down, even though they're right, there's something so IRRITATING when people say it to you...

Sometimes I slide my jaw, and I want it to break, cause that's my anger coming out. It depends what kind of anger it is though. Sometimes I'm content to just let it fester. Sometimes I want to punch the bed or something. But when neither is the option, shit goes down, because you can't vent. so you're right. I was lucky it was a cell phone, and that I had an outlet. It could have been worse.

 

 

Gah, where is this talkitive-ness coming from?'

 

 

[edit]

Aww woody I've missed you too, love

[Victim]

Wow, its scary, I also get pissed off at what people think are stupid things.. Most of the time, I can just let some stuff go. But if its like some stupid stuff, well stupid in other peoples perspective, I get like all worked up over it.. and they have no idea why I am so mad... and then they are all like clam down.. and thats when I wish they were a punching bag, lol.

 

And I dunno, I am like very talkative tonight too.. weird

[twilightcrimson7]

guess I'm not the only one then ^^;;

Yah... and it always made me feel bad too, for being upset over a trivial thing. But I've come to accept it as normal in me. and if they don't like it, too bad

[keza]

heya twi...havent been to uoor jounral in ages and havent seen muhclies of yoo?

<3 missed yoo lotsly sweetie *huggles*

[Friðbjörn]

woah you're a busy gal

I think it's safe to say we all missed you on here

 

hope everything's going good...

[Heart_LP]

Hey sis!

have'nt heard from you for ages!

hope everything is fine love <3

miss you loads!

*shmuggles*

[twilightcrimson7]

My longest absence yet.

I've missed you all, really. I've been busy with my altered lifestyle

School posesses most of my life, as does the PSAT, SAT, and other test preps.

 

Things you should know about me... since... wow, a month ago? that's it? I can't keep track of what's happened. Do you guys know I have a laptop now? Named Miffy. She's an Inspiron e1505. She's lovely. Absolutly lovely.

 

I've moved, into a rental house with dad. It's a great house for the price we payed. I painted my room an odd shade of purple/pink accented with blue and white. I love it. I'll have pictures.

 

I don't know if I've told you about my ear peircing... I got my cartalige peirced. And my hair has red and blond in it now. I have glasses that I wear to see far away. Not all the time, but sometimes. Not necessary. I suppose I'll post a picture of my new visage o.o subtle, but changed

 

I've been trying to keep up with music and such, and I recently got the Hush Sound's CD. Its different, and nice. I've also been missing the music I used to listen to around when I started here on LPF. I used to listen to that genre on a certain radio station that was cancelled last year. I love the radio station I listen to now, but I've been lacking those certain sounds and songs I used to hear. I need to find my roots, so to speak Exploring and evolving your taste is nice, but there are some things that never change...

 

Today, I have to pick up my NEW CAR from the mechanic. It's name is BOBO and its a black Grand Am. Used. But I can tell we'll be best buddies, and I'll take SUCH good care of it.

 

I've been more independant lately.

 

I love school, but it drives me insane sometimes. All the work, it posseses most of my life.

I love my History Teacher, Mr. Roll, and my English Teacher Mr. Salter. They're great.

 

So I'm trying to find order, in chaos right now.

I deciced to update here, and tell you all I'm still alive, and hopefully I can come to visit more often, once things are more settled.

 

I can't wait for fall, can you?

[twilightcrimson7]

Six more days until my two year anniversary here.

But I think I'm done here.

Why you ask?

Pretty much everyone I've cared about on here has left or haven't came on in a very long time, like myself.

When I first joined in November of 2004 I really loved this place and I had the best time chatting for hours with some of you. As of 2006, I feel like I hardly know anyone, and posting is either an obligation, or an attempt to keep myself in the loop, and it winds up being more stressful than fun. It simply isn't worth it to me.

I regret to say I haven't taken notice to too many people's MSN s/ns or the like, so I haven't a way to communicate to the ones I actually care about.

Another reason for my departure is the constant fighting and animosity here. It was never this bad in the old days. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I don't get a long with anyone now a days.

And the final reason is RL.

School and the RL have bogged me down, but at the same time have contented me. Maybe I've grown out of the forums.

Don't think for a minute that this doesn't make me sad. I am loath to leave this place, and it hurts to think I'm leaving behind all those things and people I used to love. But my presence here is, on a whole, unwanted, and strained. Staying here would give no one any benefit.

So alas, I take my final bow

Goodbye,

Twi.

[Sygy]

gone forever?

bai bai twi twi T.T

[twilightcrimson7]

HI GUYS. wow this is weird. JUNIOR YEAR IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

 

Oh man that was so totally intense. over six months since I've been here... I'm not entirely sure if I should come back. I don't know most of the new guys.... and I doubt a whole lot of people remember me or even like me

 

I bought Minutes to Midnight though.... I'm still tasting it.... but so far I really enjoy it.... all the new sounds and vocals.... I should stop using elipses and end my sentences right.!?

 

I've been gone so long I can't tell what's old news and new news. Ummm I've had a hard-on for Year Zero for the past few months.

I went to Anime Central and actually cosplayed. Tales of the Abyss... anyone? no one? Too bad.

 

Can't think of much at the moment. Anyone, feel free to drop me a line in here. I kinda miss this place... but I'm afraid once I explore it won't feel the same. Mostly I'm afraid my tastes and humor have morphed so much I won't even like it here. I have changed you guys. More than I probably realize. I'll take it for a spin though. I can't be as trivial as I was before though.

 

-Twi

[Jeezy]

Good to see you back!

 

Year Zero huh?

 

That's a nice album

[Friðbjörn]

nice to see you on here ^_^

lpf could use some more twi

[twilightcrimson7]

thank you *hugs both*

 

 

Here's my MINUTES TO MIDNIGHT review

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People have said it's a fluke, it's shitty, it's an "DECEPTION" but I really like it. IT'S WONDERFUL. Screw all the naysayers. They probably listened to the first few seconds, decided it wasn't like the stuff they knew, and bad-talked it. Not cool. Sure, you have to adjust to the fact that they sound a lot different, but in the end (no pun intended) it's so refreshing and new, but you still love the familiarity.

The artwork in the book is really nice. Its colorfulness contrasts with the monochromatic cover. Dissapointed that there wasn't a whole lot of Mike or Joe's art, but they acknowledged that.

So, song by song:

 

Wake:== I was amazed at the plethora of sounds this short intro had. It definately had a Nine Inch Nails sound to it. It gave me the feeling that I was slowly uncovering something huge, which coincides nicely with their intentions.

 

Given Up:== I like this a lot. At first glance at the lyrics, they seemed a little emo, but the song is far from it. Its powerful and energetic, a little angry. *gasp* SWEARING. I think I like that. A very nice tune. Chester seems to be exploring his voice capabilities. The bridge has a very screamo sound to it, which is something new, brief and powerful. I like it a lot. Nice long scream in there, wow.

 

Leave out all the Rest:== Wow, Chester's voice is so sweet in the beginning. The whole song is very nice, dreamy, and hopeful. Nice contrast to Given Up. Has a nice hip hop background to it, to keep it interesting. The guitars during the chorus add power to it. The lyrics aren't amazing but everything else compensates.

 

Bleed it Out:== okay folks. I LOVE this song. Mike's versus are very CATCHY and witty, and just, UGH. <3 The chorus is so... nice, just to sing along. Prolly one of my favorite songs. I like everything about it.

 

Shadow of the Day:== the first FOUR seconds I immediately thought "Closer".... but then it changed. xD; This really wasn't my favorite song... prolly lower on my list. The chorus doesn't sound right to me. Not something I'll listen to a lot. It's sweet, though

 

What I've Done:== Well, I've had PLENTY of time to digest this one I really like it. Gives me goosepimples. I like the video a lot too. Don't have much analysis on it though. Nice to sing along to. It has the same sort of feeling as Wake, in some parts. Like something bigger than all of us.

 

Hands Held High:== very fort minor sound. I really like the churchish sound, but not being religious. It has a really nice diversity with instruments and sounds... I love it. Mike's verses are nice, as always. Serious tone. soldiers and what not. Makes me feel like he's telling me a story, like "Kenji". <3 "ocean opens up to swallow you"=love. the imagery at the end is beautiful :'O

 

No More Sorrow:== Another favorite. I positively love the intro. OH MY GOSH. a;lkfjaldfjadkf <3 headbangin' goodness. another powerful song. I just... ah, I can't explain myself. Just so much love. Convicting tone, harsh, combating, no self pity, just seems like, self-empowering... wow, babbling. Just, I love it *shuts up now x)*

 

Valentine's Day:== has a very distinct beginning, with an unfamiliar tone from Chester. It picks up, kind of sad, but not downing. More reflective. I like layering of sounds... Very unique song.

 

In Between:== Another song I love. I was really shocked to hear Mike singing like that. After the shock, my heart filled up with love and happiness. Its sooo pretty. I can't tell, is chester in the background?

 

In Pieces:== Kind of an emo song, but I like it. sounds like a lot of things. Not one of my faves, but I like it.

 

The Little Things you Give Away:== I really like this song, calming, nice, peaceful, but meaningful. Lovely sounds.

I love all the abrupt endings. They're...cool xD

that's it, i think.

[Jeezy]

Coll review

 

and yes Chester is in the background of "In Between"

[LÎnkinPärkExtreme]

Yeah I agree ^^ Good review