[Hybrid Heart's Journal]

[Hybrid-Heart]

Fribby - yeah.. i wonder if there is life after death.. hmm..

i wonder lol

lol yeah maybe next time i will take a picture of her XD

owh you don't have a mp3 player?.. *shares mp3 player with you*

there .. ow From the Inside is on! XD

anyway take care! *hugs*

 

Jammer - Jammer! ^____^

i saw that you were back.. *i saw it a little late -_-*

i hope you're doing fine =)

take care and thnx for stopping by

*hugs*

 

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about thursday.. or yesterday..

eh.. i don't think that there is something interesting enough to tell you..

well school was ok..cause we had art .. and we had to make a letter out of things that we drew.. little hard..

but it was fun though..

that was the only good thing about school..

after school i did my homework.. which wasn't that much..

after that i played ToS again..

then after dinner nick came to pick me up..

we were going to the city with kim and mnoe..

it was fun =).. but the rain ruined it a bit.. lol

i got soaked =_=.. my hair was sticking on my face.. damnit

and my eyeliner wasn't on the place were it should be

but we had fun.. and we also went to McDonald's

 

that was a short entry of yesterday..

today *which is friday YAY* school started with Dutch..

with our hunchback teacher XD

after that we had ANW *physics*.. we had to search for some information on computers..

and i got a compliment of the "sluts" 0_o//

i drew Zelos on my ring binder.. and they said that it was great 0_o..

ahh.. eh.. thnx.. i said

after ANW we had CKV.. *art thingies*

then we had our first and last break of the day

followed by an hour off.. =)

so we sat in the aula.. and made some homework..

when that hour was over we had biology

which was pretty cool

 

when i got home i did my homework.. although i didn't had much 8D

so now i'm updating my journal................lol

this afternoon i'm going to the market and in the evening horse-riding

so i won't be online tonight.. =(

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anyway.. thnx for reading.. and take care!

*hugs*

[Friðbjörn]

Yeah don't have one, that's why I'm getting one XD

 

you got soaked? I've heard that before lol

 

won't be online? well just have fun at the market :thumbsup:

[Heart_LP]

oh getting soaked is so much fun! lol

and if my mascara gets on my face then I make black line down my cheek like goths ppl are like o.o'

I think it's weird too when someone that I dont like gives me a compliment o.O

like sice when did they get...normal?

well ttyl sis!

love ya

*hugs and kisses*

[FadedBlue]

Hey Hybi! I hope you are doing well,hon.

Take care.^^

[Hybrid-Heart]

thnx guys...

i wish i was doing fine right now..

but.. i don't//

this morning.. i dunno.. i felt so happy..

i thought that nothing could go wrong...

but then after we went to the market.. mnoe smsed

*she was on a holiday*

we already knew that my fave horse Costello *the one i rode on*

was leaving the riding-school.. cause he was ill..

but then mnoe said that he was already gone..

i was.. i felt sad when i heard that.. cause i couldn't say goodbye to him..

so when i got on the riding school.. there was a new horse in Costello's stable..

and.. i couldn't.. by seeing a new horse.. in costello's stable..

i think something just.. i collapsed.. i started crying..

and i thought that he was away for ever.. but kim said that maybe i could visit him.. if i knew where he was..

so after i rode.. i asked Louis.. he said that he was in Belgium..

i started to cry again.. i didn't want to.. but the thought that i wouldn't see Costello again.. made me depressive..

i loved that horse so much!..

Louis saw that i was crying.. and he said that i could have Costello's name plate.. *that was on the stable*

i was happy that i could have it.. but it didn't ease the pain..

when i wanted to go home.. Yvonne called me..

she said taht she felt sorry for me.. and she tried to comfort me..

but then she told me something i didn't know.. she told me that...

Costello wasn't alive anymore.. but that it was better.. cause in that way he didn't feel any pain..

at that moment.. it felt like i got stuck in a deep black hole..

Costello... was dead.. i.. i couldn't believe it..

the way back home i tried to stop the tears.. but they kept flowing..

and they didn't stopped while i was home..

 

 

i'm.. so sorry for this depressive entry..

but.. i feel so depressed right now.. i can't stop thinking about Costello..

he was such a nice horse.. he was cute.. and..

he was like a friend to me..

i know this sounds weird.. but he really was..

 

 

i'm sorry if i bored you.. thnx for reading anyway..

 

<3 Costello R.I.P

[Heart_LP]

omg I'm so sry honey! *hugs tightly*

look, try to think this way, that Costello does not feel the pain anymore.

I cant even imagine how hard it must be so I'm soo sorry.

I'm sure costello must be an awsome horse!

*hugs tightly*

I hope you feel better hon!

[Friðbjörn]

I'm so sorry about that Maud.

I can't imagine how you must be feeling right now, but we're here for you, just remember that.

 

But I guess it's better that he doesn't have to live in pain.

[4everLP_Shinoda]

Hey Hybi!I´m sorry to hear that you horse is dead:(,least he won´t suffer the pain any more like you said.

If I was in your place I´d feel the same way.

I hope you feel better Hybi*hugs*

Take care and cya l8rz.

Take care ^^.

Byez

[Hybrid-Heart]

thnx guys for all your comments =')

i feel better already =)

 

 

Sis Sammi - thnx sis =).. i know that it's better this way..

but i still can't believe that he's not here anymore

Costello sure was an awsome horse.. almost the fastes of them all..

*hugs back* thnx

 

Fribby - thank you too Fri =)..

i'm happy to hear that.. i know that you are therefor me.

yes, you're right.. it's better this was =')

*hugs* thnx

Vero - thank you =).. i know that it's better this way..

and i'm so happy that everyone here cares about it.

it makes me feel better

thnx *hugs* take care too

 

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i'm so thankful.. that you all understand my feelings.. and that you're there for me..

today my mom asked me what was wrong.. cause she felt that i was down..

she wasn't at home yesterday evening.. so she didn't know what happened..

when i showed here the name plate of Costello's stable.. she knew what was wrong..

She hugged me very tightly and said that it was better this way..

i was emo again.. so i cried..

i love my mom.. my dad didn't know that to do.. but i knew that he felt sorry for me too

we sat for a while on my bed and talked..

mom and dad were about to leave.. cause they were going on a small holiday..

mom didn't liked the idea of me being down while she was away..

i said that i will be better.. i will get over it..

she hugged me again.. and then they left..

i knew that she didn't liked it,, cause she kept staring at me when she drove away..

after that i cleaned the canteen again.. it was boring..

my grandparents heard the news already and felt sorry for me too...

i didn't wanted them to feel sorry for me..

i also ate there.. and this afternoon we're going to the city..

to get my mind of Costello..

i hope it works..

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so take care.. and thnx for reading (:

*hugs*

[Friðbjörn]

Of course we're here

 

and your parents are good I hear, that should help too :thumbsup:

 

hope you're feeling better

[Heart_LP]

Hi sis!

I'm sure it must be really hard for you but as Fri said, we're here for you.

I hope you have fun in city..try not to think about Costello and if you do, then think of the good moments you shared with him

*hugs tightly*

Hope you feel better soon.

[4everLP_Shinoda]

I hope you feel good to,try to have fun in the city.

 

*hugs u*

 

Cya Hybi.

[Hybrid-Heart]

Fribby - that's good to know =)

yeah my parents can be annoying sometimes.. but they are there for me when i need them..

thnx and i feel better already

take care *hugs*

 

Sis - thank you too sis =)

i still thought about costello.. but i thought about him like you said..

only the good moments.. and also some bad.. but i felt better after going to the city with my grandma..

thnx =) *hugs back tightly*

 

Vero - thnx =) i already feel better

take care hun *hugs*

 

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so yesterday i went to the city.. and my bro went along too =_=

but it was fun though.. we first went to the vibe..

i bought a new vest.. *from vans *

it's black with light blue things on it..

and i got a bracelet too.. =)

i told my grandma that i would pay her back but she was like: no no! don't pay me back.. i don't want you to.. this is from me..

i was like: =_=..

ahh well. then my bro had to look for some games..

and then we went home again..

i was very thankful for what my grandma did.. i don't know that i had to do without her..

but she still refuses to take the money from me =_=

 

in the evening kim, nick and jroen came to me to watch a movie..

we watched Dodgeball XD.. that movie was so great!

we laughed our asses off

at 12 o'clock everybody left.. so i was home alone..

well with my bro.. my mom and dad were still away.

they'll get back today..

 

today i woke up late.. like 10.30 am..

i boiled an egg for my bro and i.. and ate sme sandwiches..

then i had to vacuum clean the room.. cause there was crisps all over the place =_=

after that i did my homework and played ToS/

then my grandma called and said that we could eat at their place if we wanted..

so we went to granny's.. lol

got some soup.. and fries ^___^

then we played pool with my uncle.. it was fun.. but i was bad in it lol

 

then i went to my other aunt and uncle.. cause they came back from their holiday yesterday,,

they went to Wales.. and they got me some chocolate

i talked a little about school and stuff with her..

and we talked about their holiday..

 

ehm.. and now i'm home again.. my parents aren't back so i'm still alone with my bro..

yay..

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that was it for today.. well morning an afternoon//

thnx for reading and take care *hugs*

[Heart_LP]

Hiya sis!

sounds like a fun day ^^

yumm...chocolate...yummm

oh I wanna see dodgeball, it seems so funny ^^

I think the lead actor in that movie is so funny

glad to know that you feel better

*hugs and smooches*

[Hybrid-Heart]

hmmmm CHOCOLATE <3

lol i love chocolate..

lol you really should see the movie!

it's so funny!.. we laughed our asses of.. and yeah the lead actor is great!

only when the movie is over. there is a little movie afterwards..

and that one was really.. eh.. disturbing :S

lol

[Heart_LP]

the lead actor is funny but in Mtv european music awards 2004, he said that Frodo and Sam were gay! not funny! ><

other then that, yeah he rox

I loooove chocolate too. *dreams* chocolateland! aaahhhh

[Hybrid-Heart]

hmm.. thats not nice of him =(..

lmao! Chocolateland 0_______________o

hmmmmmmmmmmmm ^______________________^

 

i made some pics of my new hair color..

hmm.. don't meantion me.. i'm as stupid as ever..

ow and i forgot to tell you that i got new earrings..

with stars :o

 

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omg.. 0.o.. i can't look good on any pic =_=

[Heart_LP]

aww you're cute ^^

my cute sis!

nice earings, I looove earings! I dont care anything about clothing stuff but I've got to have matchnig earings lol

 

I know, isn't it lie....heaven *haleluja*

[Hybrid-Heart]

thnx =).. but i'm not that cute.. lol

and you're my pretty little sister! ^^

hhehe.. i'm not that into earrings.. but i liked this ones.. =)

i like stars ^^

 

HALELUJA! hell..wait.. heaven Yeah! it's like heaven

[Heart_LP]

lmao heaven yeah!

 

yes you are cute! >< and except it woman!

hey, do you have blue eyes?

I loove blue eyes. I wish I had it but nooo, I have hazel =_=

[Hybrid-Heart]

lol... except it woman! XDD

 

yep i have blue eyes =).. i love blue eyes.. lol

Mnoe's eyes are so beautiful! they're really REALLY blue..

mine are more gray/blue

Hazel eyes are pretty too =)

[Heart_LP]

lmao I was counting pages in german for my bro and he thought I was just making it up XD but I was'nt o.O

aahhh I fall in love with any guy who has blue eyes lol XP

[Hybrid-Heart]

lol XD.. when i speak french my bro also thinks i'm making it up..

hehe.. yeah i love guys with black hair and blue eyes ^^

[Heart_LP]

XD my bro gets suprised when I tell him that this is my 4rth yr of french!

woot!

she quit after some classes.

me like spikey hair!!

Mike! *_*

[Hybrid-Heart]

me too!... Miiiiiiiiiikkkeeee *drools*