acdcrules04 journal

[acdcrules04]

i'm gunna start a new journal, because i never kept up my old one.

 

Yeah, i almost got in a fight today, even though i didnt' want to. yeah, all of the girls at my school think i'm a slutt, because all of my friends are guys, yeah so this chick comes up to my and is all like 'why are you hanging on my bf' mind you , i was friends with him before she was going out w/ him so i told her that we were just friends, and she made this huge deal out of him just coming up and puting his arm around me. all of my guy friends are very pretective of me. and so she was trying to get my to hit her and everything, but i dont' get into petty fights over guys. thats just stupid, so i totally blew her off and she was screaming at me as i walked off. it was actully quite funny. god petty people bug me, there is so many fight at my school and 99% of them are between girls and they are about guys, jesus. omg i actully have good news, i'm offically in the band. woohoo we are called the goody two shoes, aparently its an inside joke that i dont' even get. yeah, i play keyboard, i sing and i work w/ beats, lol kinda like mike, hehe , i gotta go to sleep now, cuz right after track i went to play tennis and i didnt' have proper shoes so i played tennis in flip-flops and a skirt (not a tennis one mind you) yeah so i hurt.... omg that got me started on another thing (not big i promise) this chick was wearing the same skirt as me, god i hate her too, it was embaressing, because she looked so much better in it than i do. i'm not fat or anything but she is like anorexic looking, so her lags looked better, oh well, ok i g2g really, lol

 

ttyl

Taylor

[acdcrules04]

god, i'm so depressed right now, i just rejected by another guy, it hurts a lot, exspecally (sp) when i hang out with all of these people that always have boyfriends and i thought for sure that brian would be different, but he told me that he just didn' think of me as a girlfriend, but just as a friend (just like every other guy on the planet) and he was so nice about it, it just made it worst, i cried myself to sleep last night, i wish the house would have been quieter, but my little brother and sister were here so they were making an assload of noise and its really hard to sleep with them here, god, i mean my 14th birthday is in 2 days and here i am all depressed, and my friend adele is probably gunna be mad at me because she was planning a bar-b-q for my birthday, but if i went no one would have a good time at all, so i'm gunna tell her to cancle it, i know thats very selfish of me, but i really dont' feel like doing anything but laying in bed for the rest of my teenage years, god and they have just begun. my fingers hurt, bye

acdcrules04

[stupidsoul1]

*hugs* no dont cancel it!!

 

dude u are 14...im nearly 16 and i can tell you life is a crap load of fun without worrying about some guy.

trust me, growing up too early is silly because when you are older you cant go back.

[Hyper]

don't know if you read the letter to my ex. but the whole thing with her fucked me up. it's been what, a day, and i can't think straight. relationships aren't that great, it's temporary happines. but then everything sux.

 

about your party.. if no one has fun it's their own damn fault. as long as you enjoy yourself the other people can just fuck off lol.

[acdcrules04]

yeah i did read ur letter, i'm so sorry man, but yes life really sux, i'm still don' tknow what to do about the party, i think i will go, just so she won't get mad.

[Hyper]

yeah i did read ur letter' date=' i'm so sorry man, but yes life really sux, i'm still don' tknow what to do about the party, i think i will go, just so she won't get mad.[/quote']

 

don't go so she wont get mad. go to have fun.

[acdcrules04]

i'll try to have fun its just that right now, i feel like climbing in bed and staying there

[Hyper]

i'll try to have fun its just that right now' date=' i feel like climbing in bed and staying there

 

that wont solve anything. i'm between a rock and a hard spot right now. i can't talk to anyone, because jackie.. yeah, i only talked to her and brandon. brandon's spending the weekend at his ex gf's.. long story lol.

 

just have fun because you want to. things should get better. :thumbsup:

[stupidsoul1]

dont worry about it *hugs* im sure it will turn out fine

[acdcrules04]

thanks you guys,

 

i actully feel a lot better because i made my dad go get me reese last night (my comfort food) and also i talk to derek one of my best friends and he always knows how to cheer me up, so i feel a lot better , the parties today so i'll tell you how it goes.

[misery]

Glad to see you're feeling better.

Hope you have fun at the party, see ya later

[Hyper]

thanks you guys,

 

i actully feel a lot better because i made my dad go get me reese last night (my comfort food) and also i talk to derek one of my best friends and he always knows how to cheer me up, so i feel a lot better , the parties today so i'll tell you how it goes.

 

yay! glhf.

[shahfire]

just because u hang out with guys, pple think u r a slut? how pathetic of them. anyway i hope u have a good time in the party.

[Heart_LP]

Hey!

I just dropped and wanted to say

HAPPY B`DAY!

lol I was just watching who´s b´day is it today and well you were in the list so yeaahh

well have a great day! :thumbsup:

[acdcrules04]

shahfire- i know, it is very pathitic, i feel sorry for people that are so judgemental

 

Heart_lp- thanks, its been i pretty good day so far

 

ok i went to the party, it was really cool, because adele invited all these kids from a different school, so now i have friends outside of my gay school , it was fun and the moment i got there i completly forgot about the whole brian thing, i'm glad i listened to you guys :thumbsup:

 

 

it my birthday, woOt, yes lets celabrate the day i came out of my mother vagina, lol (i'm so negative), anyways, i had a really good day the only thing that was bad, is that brian came to school today and acted like nothing had happened, and i know the whole thing didnt' really mean much to him, but it really hurt, me and its not just him, btu every single guy that i like, just thinks of me as a friend, and this time it really hurt because truth be told i've had a crush on him since, like, 6th grade, kinda weird liking someone that long and even more hurtful when they reject you , yeah and my bestest friend(sam) is acting like she really doesn't care, because she told me that he probably didnt' like me, because of the way he acted around me, and if i follow that logic, its my falt that he didn't like me, which really doesn't make sense to me at all, my dads always tellign me that guys are really simple but it doesnt' seem like it lately, jesus they seem more complicated than girls, (yeah , w/e girls are the most complex creatures on the earth, I would know, seeing as i am one, well my fingers kinda hurt, yes i know i'm weak, lol

 

ttyl

Taylor

[Vash_the_Stampede]

Well,

First, Happy Birthday!

Second, i am sorry to hear him actin' like nothing happened. (althought I really don't keep up on journals, other than mine, lol, I really don't know what was going on. XD)

[Hyper]

guys truly are simple.. unless.. there's somethin wrong with em lmao.. you just have to.. start fresh with a new one, that doesn't already think of you as a friend. yeah it's good to get to know em first, but if you wait too long.. you're the sister, and not the girlfriend..

[acdcrules04]

*dies* i wish someonw would have told me that a long time ago, god damn it, but right now i don't feel like starting over fresh, i don't even feel like starting over, god damn i'm a pecimist *shakes head*

[Hyper]

*dies* i wish someonw would have told me that a long time ago' date=' god damn it, but right now i don't feel like starting over fresh, i don't even feel like starting over, god damn i'm a pecimist *shakes head*[/quote']

 

lol i'm sorry. i'm almost at the point where i'm gonna have to start over fresh.. my ex says we can get back together.. but she's prolly moving in two months

[acdcrules04]

that sucks, so why did you to break up if she wants to get toghter again? i dont' get people sometimes, but i guess thats a good thing, good luck :thumbsup:

[Hyper]

oh yeah, i posted everything else in the elite lounge lol..

 

her mom.. hates me. she wants her daughter to date.. a preppy christian boy.. and i'm the.. skater punk that she never wanted her daughter to even meet.

[acdcrules04]

i'm sorry that sucks, i wish people weren't so sterotypical, people are gay that way, hey that rhymed, sweetness

[stupidsoul1]

nice work on the rhyme

[acdcrules04]

i'm so confused right now, ok yesterday we had a track meet, and brian was with me like the whole time, josh had a camera and brian kept pulling me off to take pictures and he had his arm around me the whole time, ok i'll post more later because i'm wasting my lucnh period right now,

[acdcrules04]

whoa, havent' writen anything for a while, nothings really happened though, oh i thought of my next movie (i'm kinda the offical director of my friends, and i'm the only one with a video camera) it going to be a war movie spoof, i'm gunna have the guys in a battle scene, with paintball guns, it'll be great, yeah we are starting next month, i havent' writen the script yet, i need to get on that, i just noticed something, i use commas a lot, instead to periods, i guess thats wierd, omg i saw star wars 3 it was flippin sweet, i went with derek and sam and wade, o derek and wade are twins, lol, i kinda like both of 'em, its really wierd, i'm really confusing i dont' even get myself sometimes, well actully all of the time, my counsiler (sp?) says its just hormones and teenage angst, whatever, omg i was talking to this totally hot guy on my friends webcam and i spilt soda all over myself, it was so embarresing, he laughed but it was a good laugh (i think) so i borrowed one of his (my friends) shirt, it was a system of a down shirt so i felt all special, omg i totally have to get the new cd, i'm get money this week from my mom so that is soooooo what i'm getting, o and some new foundation, i bought this stuff like a week ago and it totally dryed out my skin, it looks really gross!!!! hey i didnt' use a comma, ok there i did. yeah i'm really bored right now, i'm waiting on yousendit to upload this like 2 second vid (dont' ask) and seriously it has taken like and hour, because i have shitty dial-up, poop on dial up, i'm gunna try to convinse my dad to get it when we move, ahhhhhh i have totally been procrastinating about my braces, i need to make an apointment, but it doesnt' make any sense to get them on until we move, so i really have to make the apointment as soon as we get to texas, holy poop, it takes sooooo long to drive from washington to texas (i'm moving to san antonio in septmember) yeah it takes like a week, FOREVER!!!!!!!!!, god that reminded me of sandlot, that was the best movie ever, i used to watch it all the time, omg you know when they always said 'bitchen', as a little kid i alway thought they were saying 'pitchin' ok it is a baseball movie, god i'm a nerd, i'm hungry, ttyl

 

Taylor