MrRandomGuy's Journal

[MrRandomGuy]

I haven't made a journal before, guess I'll start from a few days ago

 

May 4th

 

I had no idea why, but I had absolutely no emotion when I woke up in the morning. The whole day it was like I was sad, I thought it was because of a friend backing out on me at prom (she didn't do that) but then I realized that it wasn't it, that something more was making me feel so crappy and sad and other weird emotions that I had never felt before, I learned later it was because of my now ex friend Amy.

 

May 5th 2005

 

it was senior skip day, so I skipped school and had fun doing absolutely nothing. Found out that I got an 18 in biology 2, mostly because I haven't turned anything in. One of my friends on the Good Charlotte board was leaving. Amy was a good friend, I had told her things that no one else knows and will ever know, and she did the same. Well, I posted that she should at least talk to me on msn because earlier she had deleted herself from my message board. She said that she's leaving and it's my fault, that her parents found msn conversations, she felt used, and "I'm done with you."

 

it was then that I found out that she wasn't really a friend, but a slut. I realized her "stages" first it was "I have a problem" then "I'm going emo" then "Fuck off Paul" then "oh I'm sorry" then she would try to seduce me by cyber. She knew I have a gf, but she still tried it. I kept telling her to stop and that I won't do it. I didn't realize how she was.

 

so I replied back, saying "You only brought it upon youself."

 

the ironic thing is she was so paranoid about being used that she used me and others herself.

 

which makes me very very pissed. So whenever she comes back, I'm ready to give her so much hell, I will not treat her as bad as she did me, but I will make her see what kind of a person she is, that she is a whore and a liar and not a true friend.

 

so I went to bed angry and upset that night

 

May 6th

went back to school, and I was just so tore up and sad that I actually thought about driving on the right side of the lane and crashing into a truck. I almost did, but something stopped me, I thought of my girlfriend and then thought "No, I can't do that, she would be sad, my friends would be sad" so I didn't do it. Amy replied in her thread, a bunch of bull shit about how msn is monitered and that they contacted her parents because they were worried about her, contradicting what she had said before. I replied saying what I had just said, and then went to bed, bitter and depressed.

[atreyu]

wow sounds like fun. rock on good charlotte! \m/(><)\m/

[woodyloveslinkin]

eww good charlotte ! anywho..hey u have a journal. koolies

[shahfire]

its a good thing u didnt crash into the truck. i congratulate u on thinking abt yr loved ones coz pple dont usually do that when they wanna kill or hurt themselves. im sorry abt amy. though it is sad to say, there are such stupid pple in the world.

[MrRandomGuy]

May 7th

 

well, it was another day of waking up depressed, but prom was that day, so I couldn't just mope about. I did the usual saturday chores and then at 7 30 went to prom. The DJ sucked, he only played country and cumbias (spanish dances) and very little rock and only one rap song. I left after two hours, but it was fun. I posted the pics in the prom time thread here

 

then I saw that amy was on msn. I always sign in on msn as appear offline so if my parents are on, no one talks to them. Well, I decided to expirement, I blocked her and went online, then I went offline and unblocked her, then got back online then offline, she went off-on. So I got back on and she got offline.

 

then it was bed time, I went to bed early because I knew my girlfriend who lives in virginia would call me at 11 30. we talked for a while and then my battery on my cell was almost dead, so we said goodbye.

 

May 8th

 

Amy was on msn again, I followed the same pattern and the same thing happened

 

I posted in her thread "what's the matter amy, too scared of the truth?"

 

then i started to feel shitty again, and someone pmd me and said to not think about it, she's 14 and you're 18, she's just a kid and kids do stupid things, if you continue to drag it out, it will wear you down to nothing

so I followed Samantha's advice and slowly let it go.

[MrRandomGuy]

eww good charlotte ! anywho..hey u have a journal. koolies

 

i guess so, but it's kinda hard to keep up with it

[woodyloveslinkin]

i guess so' date=' but it's kinda hard to keep up with it[/quote']

 

yeah im trying to keep up with mine.

[MrRandomGuy]

today was an ok day. nothing special at all. I got a good grade on my memorization project for Hamlet, not a 100, just enough to get an A.

 

and another boring day after

 

no one is on the GC board much anymore, it's getting boring.

[MrRandomGuy]

today was about the same, I don't have to worry about any of my classes except Biology 2, which I still have an 18 for, but as long as I turn in a 2 page essay, then I'll pass.

[MrRandomGuy]

today I had the start of lifeguard training.

 

I still had a year left for my certification to expire, but it counted as college credit so it was a good idea to take it.

 

I'm very tired, but I feel really good, I was able to swim 500 yards non stop and do everything that is so far required of us.

[Lin05x]

Wat r u on about wen u said da thing about amy bein online and u went offline and den back on and all dis ota stufff i dnt get u??!!?

[MrRandomGuy]

Wat r u on about wen u said da thing about amy bein online and u went offline and den back on and all dis ota stufff i dnt get u??!!?

 

can't explain it any further than I already did

[i_love_mike_shinoda2]

Wow! You must be a really good swimmer!!!

[stupidsoul1]

oooo excitement!!!

[o0SugaxNxSpice0o]

Hey Random guy. Just thought I'll stop by your journal.

 

Whoa by the looks of it, you sound a lot more sad than you make out to be on your posts. I'm so sorry to hear about what Amy did. Maybe she's a skitzo. Anyway try not to get too depressed with thinking about it. She's not worth it and it's better to ignore whatever she does or say.

 

And that truck thing! don't ever do that again. It's not the way out, trust me.

 

And lifeguarding sounds good. I can just abouts do the doggy paddle Have a good day!

[MrRandomGuy]

Hey Random guy. Just thought I'll stop by your journal.

 

Whoa by the looks of it, you sound a lot more sad than you make out to be on your posts. I'm so sorry to hear about what Amy did. Maybe she's a skitzo. Anyway try not to get too depressed with thinking about it. She's not worth it and it's better to ignore whatever she does or say.

 

And that truck thing! don't ever do that again. It's not the way out, trust me.

 

And lifeguarding sounds good. I can just abouts do the doggy paddle Have a good day!

 

I'm actually over the whole "amy thing." she is sometimes on msn, but once I sign in she just goes back offline. Today she was online for...about 20 minutes, but we didn't say anything, although I thought about it.

 

I won't ever do the truck thing, that's something that went out of control.

 

lifeguarding was fun, tiring afterwards, but fun

[MrRandomGuy]

so hard to keep up with this, anyway

 

yesterday I almost finished my lab notebook in biology 2, and if I can olny get enough info needed for the plant essay, then I would have nothing to worry about for the end of the year. (thanks to whoever gave me the websites )

 

after school, I went to lifeguard training, afterwards I felt great, so I stayed up a little bit later than normal and woke up sore and tired.

[MrRandomGuy]

today we had a party during one of my classes, fun but I ate way too much. And I found out that I get an academic award, too bad I won't be there (I'm actually glad because I know that it will be boring as hell) because of lifeguard training

[MrRandomGuy]

update:

 

someone hacked into my photobucket. They had a pic in that said "hey random fag, how does it feel to be the most hated person ever? The YCMB"

 

so I am fucking pissed, and ask a friend to create an account on behalf of me so I can fuck with them.

 

She does, and the screen name is Jesus. I told the person to stop being a pussy and fess up, I knew it was either Dom or Turkey.

 

They first think it's me, but then they wonder if it was someone else, which I played off for a while until I had to leave for lifeguard training.

 

what an interesting day.

 

At lifeguard training, I got nausea and felt really bad, he let me get out of the water for the last 30 minutes, which was good because now i don't feel it anymore, just a little bloated.

[MrRandomGuy]

today i felt better, and couldn't put my contacts in because of swimming so much. I had to wear my glasses for a little bit today, which reminded me why they were such a bother.

 

Star Wars opens today, yet I won't be able to see it because of the last band concert of the year, ah well I can see it tomorrow.

[MrRandomGuy]

band concert went way to long and was completely rediculous.

 

We were in uniforms from 6-10, too long and we didn't really need to watch the other bands, stupid band directors

 

when I get home, I find that all my pics are deleted in photobucket. Damn YCMB members. If someone could seriously create a hotmail account, create a screen name on the YC board, then I would love you very much.

 

edit:

 

heh, 69 views

[MrRandomGuy]

last friday of the school year, kinda felt wierd. Well, nothing at all happened today to report, just a regular boing day.

[MrRandomGuy]

update: saw star wars episode 3 today, I liked it and it was very good.

 

I made a new screen name on the YC board and looked through my msn conversations for links to a virus. I posted a thread with the link on there. The link was disguised as a news story about something that I can't remember.

 

After like 5 or 10 minutes, the thread was deleted. Don't know who got the virus, but whoever did will not be on the internet for a few days *evil laugh*

[MrRandomGuy]

well, I went swimming today to make up lifeguard training that I missed Thursday (because of band concert) and I got sunburned. bad.

 

I was sitting at the computer and felt my shoulders getting warmer and hotter, I thought... damn, i'm burned.

 

so I had to mow the yard, and I walked outside. It was still hot and i thought... this is going to suck, but I had a cd player, and I'll give you 3 guesses at what, but you're only going to need one That's right LP.

 

but as I kept mowing the lawn, I grew more tired, hot, and thirsty. I was about done and just felt like I was about to collapse, now because of my training as a lifeguard, I knew that I had heat exhaustion, but I was almost done so I had to finish it. When I got in I literally collapsed on the floor in exhaustion. My parents were really worried, but I told them that I would be alright, to just take me into an air conditioned room and give me water. Thankfully we didn't have to call for emergency personell and I got a little better. I'm still feeling hot and tired, but I know to drink lots of water and I'll be fine

[i_love_mike_shinoda2]

Aw dude! I hope you feel better! *hugs*