Hybrid's Journal

[JammerG]

Hey Hybrid soldier. just went onto fort Major site!!! Wow it was an insite thank you!!! Hope all is well. I don't get to catch up with everyone here much anymore so tonight my first night off work and i am just dropping in to say Hi and Bye!!! take care and hope all goes well with the site!!!

[Hybrid Soldier]

Yeah, the site is kinda hard for me to manage, but it will get easier soon(i hope).

 

Well, I just got back from a vacation to boston and maine, I'll post more in the morning(when I wake up that is).

[Hybrid Soldier]

Well, i have so much to say about my trip, but ill hold off and say stuff about it later, if i feel liike it

 

now, ill tell you whats gone down in the past few hours:

 

well, my bro and his friend came home from the movies and my bros friend was staying over. and my bros friend had his gf's paul frank jacket on with no shirt under it. well, they decided they wanted to make eggs, so we went to the next door neighbor and asked him for eggs(it was like 11), and he seriously said "im not sure, ill check my car" wehn he went inside we were like "wtf? his cars outside, and you wouldnt have eggs in your car", and then he came out and said "sorry, we dont have any eggs" and when he went back inside i said "ofcourse he didnt have any eggs, he thought wed egg him". so then we go back home and decide to go up to ralphs(grocery stor) and buy some eggs, and i was the only one with money, so i looked for my wallet and realized i left it in my moms car and i was at my dads. so, i run outside because theyre outside, and i say "howd you like to steal some eggs?" and theyre like "hell yeah". oh yeah, i forgot to mention that we dressed all weird, i worse a size small shirt, i sagged really low with my basketball shorts and i had a beanie on(i usually wear a 3x shirt), mky bro had basically normal clothes but he had a pink boa, and his friend had his gfs paul frank jacket, with no shirt under it, and he had my dodgers hat and my tupac chain(it was weird cuz hes like a skater), and he had my shorts on and was saggin lowww. so, we walk up there(its just half a mile), and get there and by then i had asked them "you seriously dont have any money?" and my bros friend said "i got pleanty of money", so we decide to buy the eggd, we walk into ralphs, and noones in there, but the employees were staring at us, and we grab a 12 pack of eggs and buy them and leave, and we were acting really weird the whole time. then we decide to walk through th jack in the box drive through, but noone answered the thingy, but we knew someone was in there, so we walk up to the pickup window, and knock on the window, but she just was motioning to us like "go away!" so, we leave, then walk home(while were walking home im grabbing anything strange i see and throwing it into the road). and we get home and make 12 fried eggs in like half and hour, and they were the best damn eggs ive ever had.

 

sorry if it doesnt amke any sense, but im tired.

[stupidsoul1]

LMAO congrats it sounds pretty interesting

[Hybrid Soldier]

yeah, we were beeing so weird too, and we were all dressed weird(well, i wasnt dressed as weird as them, but i was compared to what i usually wear), it was just awesome. i think me and my friend are gonna do like the same thing monday night, but were gonna buy tp instead, so we can get back on the kids who tped him.

[starr]

your trip sounded fun...sounds like something my friends would do....namely my friend sean....he's odd like that lol and most of my friends are more..gothy.....

[Hybrid Soldier]

lol, we even decided that i was a wannabe cholo, my bro was a gay guy, and my bros friend was a cholo, that was just such an awesome night

[Hybrid Soldier]

nothings going right.........

[Hybrid Soldier]

well, as you can tell im back to green, just they way i like it, well theres more to post on, but w/e ill post it all later

[Hybrid Soldier]

Well, theres alot to post on, but theres one thing that I think needs to be said:

Yesterday was an awesome day, first my old best friend david found me on myspace and imed me, then this girl named christina(who i would love to go out with), came back after us not talking for months because he comps been broken. Now, let me elaborate on the fact that i would love to go out with her and the reason that im not going out with her, the word is Brittany. Brittany is one of the best friends someone could ask for, shes the person I come to for all my girl problems. But the thing is, I met Katrina through Brittany, and they are pretty good friends. Brittany isnt the kind of friend that I would want to go out with, shes more of a friend type. Now, here comes the reason I havent asked Katrina out: I dont want to know Brittany's reaction. Brittany isnt the kind of girl who would really be able to take 2 of her best friends going out when she practically loves one of them. So far this will be the only girl problem ever I havent went to Brittany for. What would yall do?

[Hybrid Soldier]

wow, havent updated in a while, heres just a bit ive missed on:

Working on an album

Working on alot of AWm stuff

have like a million web deisng projects

working on a personal website

 

okay, for todays update:

me and some hommies went to the beach, but instead of getting a ride, we decided to take the train. that shit was awesome, we were skatboarding down the aisle, doing tricks in the train, and a bunch of shit, it was tight. then we got to the beach, and all i can say is: DAMN! the hunnies were pleantiful. here was an example of one of our conversations:

friend: you see that wave?

me: yeah, that was pretty big

friend: damn, i wanan ride that wave long and hard

me: haha! oh, get away! its my wave!

friend: im gonna go slap that wave

 

then he ran upt o her, slapped her ass, and ran really really fast, it was hilarious.

on the way back, the train was alot more crowded, and we got a little section to ourselves(same as before), and there was this old chick staring at me, so i had a staring competition with her, i won, then she won, then i rod through he aisle on a skateboard screaming twirling my shirt above my head, my my friend behind me screaming "you idiot! your gonna get kicked off! get back here!"

 

really, really good day, despite the sunburns

 

-Hy

[Friðbjörn]

lol sounds like tons of fun

 

reminds of a time when my football team went to Portugal, and then when we went to London, pretty similar things goin on.

[Hybrid Soldier]

i think were gonna go clohes shopping this week, and were taking the train. and also, sometime before school starts, im gonna take the train to la, to suru(joes shop), and apperantly theres like a 95% chance of meeting him there.

[stupidsoul1]

LMAO THATS AMAZING!!

 

i love the beach

 

oh wow!! i hope you get too see joe =)

 

you can tell him about awm

[Hybrid Soldier]

im also gonna get an autograph for hahninator

[Hybrid Soldier]

Have you eve realized that over half of the people you considered friends werent actually your friends?

 

Well, lately I've realized that. I mean, when I wass offering stuff, like cds and allt aht shit, I had alot more firnewds. Now someof the popel I hung with the most only ever talk to me to ask "hey wheres my...." acting like I owe them shit. Truth is, I don't owe anyone anything.

 

Good thing I realized before it was too late. I realized today when yesterday my friend IMEd me saying "gimme a porno mag, or else!" and today, I brought it, and tonight i get an im from him "that mag was gay, give me a new one, no white chicks, by tommorrow" so i say "you give me $8". He went on haggling, but I just blocked him.

 

Its like shit, everyone wants shit, but from now on, noone gets shit. I am aware this means I dont get the money, but fuck it. This is a major deal for me, hopefully my next big move is to be on the computer alot less.

 

Oh, how good that would be.....

 

_hy

[Hybrid Soldier]

Well, I'm going to outlline my weekend from Friday after school till now:

 

FRIDAY

Well, I had practice, I went home. Friday was the homecomming game, so the cross country team held a spaghetti dinner, because we always have spaghetti dinenrs the day before races. However, this one was different, tiw as at the school, and it was open to everyone, it was a fundraiser, the team and some parents had to work it and it cost $5 for people to get in. We chose this day because itr was before the homecomming game, meaning alot of people would want to come. It was pretrty fun, but nothing big to report, so I'm gonna move on to the game, which was right after.

 

Well, Garrett musta been really horny, because he was really on the search to get laid. It was funny watching him, and it seemed liek the girls didnt get how obvious it was. He tried it on Marie, but found out she had a boyfriend and didn't want to cheat on him. So, then he moved onto Aurora, she had a boyfriend, but I guess she was horny too, so we saw them walk away together, and I yelled out "STD!" well, about 10 minutes later Garrett walks back alone and explains "We were so close, and then her mom called and she had to go home." He tried getitng another girl, but she tolds him to try one of her friends, and they walked away to gether, and he waslked back about 5 minutes later and said "Damnit, twice!" So then he gave up(we forced him to). Fun night, I bought some Demerol too(nice painkiller).

 

SATURDAY

Race day, woke up at 5 AM. Got to the school before 6, got on the bus at 6. The bus was leaving the parking lot, and then we stopped and our coach walks in and starts talking to the bus driver. After a bit he announces "The race was cancelled, were going to Hunnington Beach." Of course we thought this would be fun. So, we got there, and then started our workout after a bit. Have you ever tried running in beach sand? No? Lucky. Well, he run down what coach said was 1.15 miles0this part is on cement) , and take a left and start running on the sand. We run by our coach and he says "You guys can do this, youve ran farther." Then we pass him and I say "Yeah, but not on sand!" Then I find out we need to do 2 more of those loops. 6.75 miles. ell, wer get back and rest while waiting for the others to get back. 15 minutes later we find out we need to do relays. Well, we get otu group togther and walk up to the coach and hes like "Well, you guys are obviously energetic, run down to the peir and back. 1.15 miles. Some of us stop half way and decide to wait for the others to pass us to run back. They run past us and say "The coach si down there, you better get there." So we sprint over there and decide our excuse is "Greg threw up." Well, the coach has already went back by the time we got down there, so we went back. We got back and found otu we were gonna leave when the bus got there, so we didnt have to do relays. Fun bus ride back. Average day afterwards.

 

SUNDAY

Average day, We usually go to curch with my Grandma on Sunday, but my mom wasnt feeling good, so decided we'd just go to lunch with them afterwards. Saturday was her birthday, so I had made her a cvard(with some images i worked on). Then we ate, and talked, and then i went homeworked on my site(link in my sig) and some images.

 

School tommorrow, not looking forward to it.

 

_hy

[stupidsoul1]

Have you eve realized that over half of the people you considered friends werent actually your friends?

 

Well, lately I've realized that. I mean, when I wass offering stuff, like cds and allt aht shit, I had alot more firnewds. Now someof the popel I hung with the most only ever talk to me to ask "hey wheres my...." acting like I owe them shit. Truth is, I don't owe anyone anything.

 

Good thing I realized before it was too late. I realized today when yesterday my friend IMEd me saying "gimme a porno mag, or else!" and today, I brought it, and tonight i get an im from him "that mag was gay, give me a new one, no white chicks, by tommorrow" so i say "you give me $8". He went on haggling, but I just blocked him.

 

Its like shit, everyone wants shit, but from now on, noone gets shit. I am aware this means I dont get the money, but fuck it. This is a major deal for me, hopefully my next big move is to be on the computer alot less.

 

Oh, how good that would be.....

 

_hy

 

i used to get that...i lost and gained alot of friends because of it

but atleast you get to know who your real friends are

 

but i get it especially from people when you see them on the street and they are with their friends and they are like

 

YO FI!! and introduce you to people and are like this is my friend..can i borrow $5?

 

and im like...who are you?

 

anyways

wow

 

running in the sand bites..

 

yay im sure your grandma would of loved the card

[Hybrid Soldier]

Yeah, runnign in the sand sucks, and running 4 miles in the sand suck even more

[Hybrid Soldier]

Have you ever known something about a person that noone(not even the person in question) knows about?

 

Well, I am alamost 100% sure my brother is bipolar. I haven't said anything to my parents because I wasnt 100% and didnt want them to think I'm paranoid or whatever.

 

Well, as of tonight i felt obligated to tell them. Lately(the last 2 days) my brother has been acting like a PMSing girl. He gets mad a everything and everyone for nothing and everything. Tonight my dad and him got in a fight, my dad made him mad, he started fighting, and I could have heard them psuhing eachother around outside the house. My dad ends up with my brothers cell phone calling his best friend while I hear my brother crying while in pain(sounded like he had a bloody nose too). then my brother walks downstairs, screams some stuff, stuff is screamed back, and he walks outside without his cellphone.

 

I finally told them, and they thought about it, and they thought it was a major possibility, and are going to see about getting him medication.

 

I guess I should have gone more "carpe diem" and actied on the instinct instead of holding out, oh well, its over with now.

 

_hy

[Hybrid Soldier]

Have you ever felt like an island?

 

Isolated from the outside world, moving farther and farther so with every comming day.

 

However, with me it was not been forced, it was been more instictively, I haven't been dooing it, but I've noticed it happening, and I'm doing it too. Its just strange, conciously taking actions without consulting yourself.

 

Intersting concept, doenlt seem plausable I suppose.

 

However it is, its becomming clearer and clearer, I am changing myself, isolating myself, darkening myself, adding hatred, getting rid of character.

 

Creepy shit

 

_hy

 

PS: I have decided this isnt a journal, it is a place to vent, as tha tis what it has became.

[Hybrid Soldier]

Have you ever noticed that white guys can be racist against other white guys?

 

Well.....if racism is what you want to label it as. Technically is isn't, because they are both of the same race, but the concept is still there.

 

Well, on my cross country team, I have noticed there is a group of about 4-5 guys that are racist against blacks. Furthermore, since I am "one of them," they take that out on me.

 

Now, because I don't dress like they do means I'm black? No common sense behind that. I see it as: I want to dress good, and that means dressing differently than most white guys.

 

Also, I find it strange that since I dress how I do, it is thought that I don't listen to rap. I get shit like "you and your black music" and then I stick my headphone into their ear and say "closest thing to 'black' this is is black metal." That's because most of the time I'm listening to slipknot.

 

So, what it comes down to: people hate me because I want to dress good, and people assume that because I want to dress good means I don't like good music.

 

Now, I am highly aware that they see it as me trying to be black and not me trying to dress good.

 

I just don't get why people draw conclusions so easily.

 

_hy

[Vash_the_Stampede]

Socity is fucked these days....

Well, there's nothing you can really do to make them change their minds... Short of, 'dressing rock' if you know what I'm saying.

It's pretty much the same way here, I want to dress good, so I wear nice Dickies pants, & clean button down shirts, & I always get that. But, rather than the Slipknot thing playing, it's almost always J-Rock, or Anime music playing, lol.

[Hybrid Soldier]

Well, our ideas of dressign good are different, as is our music taste, but the concept still stands.

 

(Dressing good to me is baggy pants sagged low with a baggy shirt)

[Vash_the_Stampede]

Well, yeah, lol.