the keza journal

[Friðbjörn]

yeah I'm pretty sure she left before you joined

[By_My-elf]

oh yeah but her name sounds familiar her user name I prolly saw her when i was just a guest all the time before i decided to join

[keza]

yeah she probably did leave before you came, she left yonks ago>.<

 

well im going to the cinema tomorrow and ive just found out this girlC *shivers just thinking about her* is coming too

 

 

 

 

please no

[Brkng_Th_Hbt]

What movie are ya going to see? Sucks that you have to go with someone you don't like that much.

 

I remember Becks! She was really cool... and she left because no one would give her rep? That's pretty sad. I hope she comes back.

[keza]

i cant remember the name, u seen the adverts of this guy with a women chewing on his lip and another...well not chewing it lol...that one^^

 

yeah shes really scary she stares alot, one of those people that when u turn around...SHE THERE! *cough*

 

ya miss becks...hence the sig thingy

 

thanks for coming in <3 u

[Spike_1412]

i cant remember the name....

Song off The Rising Tied! Go buy it!

 

*looks around* Hmmm...this place has changed. I don't remember that picture being here before. OOO! I like the fiery/burning curtain effect that you've got over there. *points to burning curtains*

Sooo, talk to you later, possibly....maybe.

[keza]

JUST FRIENDS! thats it lol

and u set my curtain on fire ¬.¬

*throws spike into it* lol

[azemkamikaze03]

ive just found out this girlC *shivers just thinking about her* is coming too

 

please no

 

 

I feel for you. I hate when That sort of stuff happens. That's usually why I don't go to hang out wiht my friend Sam. SHe's cool but her friend Kayla and I dont click so I dont go just to avoid akwardness.

[Heart_LP]

Hi Kezi!

I see no update so um..just dropping by I guess ...hehe

It's sad that Becky left, I hope she comes back soon..

anyways, Hope everything is fine w/ you

ttyl

*hugs and smooches*

[By_My-elf]

aawww ppooorr keza has a stalker jking

so what's soo bad about her/him whatever

but seriously what's wrong between you to?

[keza]

azem~yeah, i met her when i first moved to my new school and she kinda took a liking to me, a big liking, she'd make me follow her to the toilet and to her locker etc etc...i dunno she just really annoys me

 

sammi~heya sweetie, yeah my updates dont really mean much cuz theyre all pretty similar lol *hugs* thanks for coming round...ttyl^^

 

shaun~she's too anti social to be a stalker lol

i dunno theres something about her that i dont get along with, like for instance, she chews with he mouth open and tlks to u so all her food goes EVERYWHERE, i know its a stupid reason but when it happens three times a day it does get annoying

ah well lol

hope ur good <3

[Ravynlee]

Heya there Keza, just coming to say hello and tackle hug you, as one does.

*takes a run up and tackles keza*

That's fun. Always fun until someone loses an eye or something. Hmm. But on a more serious note just wanted to see how things were and see how things have progressed with your stalker *smirk*

Hope all's well - on both fronts really.

Well, that's all I have at the moment. Just saying hi. Now I'll go again I suppose.

Take care and TTYL,

-Rav

[Friðbjörn]

wait...my wife has a stalker???

 

*steams come out of head*

must...kill...stalker...

*passes out*

[Ravynlee]

*bursts out laughing*

Nice visual there Frib.

Her name is girlC aparently. Go make an example of her - stand up for your honor, like! *points*

XD

Man, is it just me or has the LPF syndrome worsened over the last few hours? *feels forehead* Nope, probably just me then.

[keza]

awww rav ur so cute lol and do not smirk having a stalker is no smirking matter lol...its damn well scary and ahhhhhhh *squeeses rav in hug*

ahhh well doesnt matter^^ lol, thanks for coming by sweetie <3 u!!!

 

fribby~*fans u till u wake up*

haha dont be too angry, in 2 years i wont need to see her again...thats ages

=(

*huggles fribby*

 

update

a lot happened today so im sorry if i rabbit on lol...

talked to my mum today, we alwasy have these random, REALLY long conversations every now and then, at the time i was standing in the doorway holding a hairdryer(a big ass one) straightners (of normal size) and this spray-ing stuff to make your hair look pretty lol...so i was really uncomfortable;)

anywho, she told me all this stuff about my dad i never knew and i told her some stuff(he hasnt contacted us in 3 yrs) lol, it was like a sharing moment^^

 

she said about how she'd gone to this person (dont ask me who i have no idea^^) and he told talked to her about her marriage, and it turns out my dads been mentally abusing her for 16yrs, slowly chipping away at her self confidence and esteem

once she'd told me this i knew that finally i really dont want him back, its weird how you can detatched urself, but meh, after all he did and said i guess u have to^^ but yeah...>.<

 

anywho, dont wanna be too depressing so moving on, i went to the cinema to see just friends which wasnt as predictable and boring as i thought it would be lol...but we met one of our friends who was supp to be coming (and who totally dumped us to be with her new friends she met in work) and she deliberatly went into a different theatre, at a later time than us, even on a different side of the room to us, so she wouldnt have to go with us

call me dumb but im getting the vibe she didnt want to see the movie with us rofl

 

ah well, cant be negitive...even though atm i want to be *smiles*

thats all^^

[Friðbjörn]

thank you kez

and lol rav if I only knew where she was...

[Ravynlee]

Awww *hugs back* Feel loved. And sorry about the stalker thing... Just, don't feel special I guess. No one's ever stalked me *frowns* No, wait, that's a good thing isn't it? *laughs*

Anyways...

 

I didn't know that about your family - not having contact with your dad in all that time. Wow. At the risk of sounding patronising (hope not) my dad sounds a lot like yours. He stopped caring ages ago. After 13 years of drinking himself silly and beating the snot out of my Mum he took off... I don't have much to do with him now. I guess what I'm aluding to is in a way I sorta have an idea what that's like, though I can't say with any certainty I know exactly how you feel. No one can. I know it sucks though, even if he is an ego-maniac who psycholgically abuses his family as he seems to. At least you and your mum still communicate, that's a pretty cool thing.

 

Oh, and your friend ditching you at the cinemas? Skank. *chuckles* So not nice, but anyway... she's still a friend so maybe you should ask her what her prob is next time you see her? Just a thought.

On a lighter note - what movie did you go see?

[keza]

lol, yes little mad one it is a good thing to not have had a stalker! lol, well at least shes not a realt stalker that would just be beyond words, seeing as she freaks me out enough as it is^^

 

aww im sorry about ur dad and mummi, thats horrible!!! my dad never laid a hand on us but he was scary when he shouted, when he shouted u knew not to push him any further lol i just dont think he should have had kids, dont get me wrong im glad i was born but he should really have had his man hood removed at birth...^^

*hugs rav* sorry about ur shite father<3

 

yeah my friend was mean but i felt more sorry for the girl we were trying to cheer up, the reaosn we went out was to cheer up the dumpee and she was ditched by a mate lol...not good^^

 

we went to see just friends, about the fat guy fancying his childhoos sweetheart, it was actually not that bad

but id drunk so much juice i needed the loo so bad>.< and someone i knew who was sitting behind me kept flicking my hair and nipping my neck>.< yeylol

 

thanks sweetheart<3 u

[Friðbjörn]

wow you guys, I feel really sorry about your family things...

I can't say I have the simplest idea what you've gone through though

it's a sad world where people have to go through this

[By_My-elf]

aaawww man keza i hate ppl like that to pisses me off

I just say why don't you just chew with your mouth closed man FU**ING Shit

[Heart_LP]

*hugs*

honey, you're so strong!! I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. I know how ti feels *hugs tightly*

I hate it freinds do that! That's just mean and if they dont wanna be with you then they can just tell instead of being a chicken and hidding somewhere else. ugh ><

Sorry to hear about this.

*hugs and smooches*

you know I <3 you and dont forget that

*hugs again*

I'm in a hug mood damn it! ><

[keza]

lmfao shaun yeah i should say that to her but i dont understand how she doesnt realise that its annoying, its like second nature to mose people to shut their mouth or not tlk while eating...yuecky anyway thanks for coming by lol

 

sammi~awww look at all the hugs! thanks sweetie, and i love you too >.< *feels all loved and happy now* and im really not strong, i mean ive done a lot of stupid things along the way but idk i just try not to think about it lol^^

*huggles and kisses for sammi* thankyou my lovely thats one of the nicest things to be told lol <3<3

 

update

its school tomorrow >.< i dont want to go im really dreading it...man do i hate school, i cant wait for next year i'll be in 6th form then and it really wont be so bad^^ yey

but that still means i have tons of exams to do...ah well life goes on^^ lol

and my friends coming up from england to stay with me im so happy^^

however my other mate i told off for being anorexic now isnt really tlking to me i told her she had to eat and she got all sullen i dunno, it had to be said but i just feel bad she took it so hard...

[Friðbjörn]

kez it's not your fault she took it so bad

love you

[keza]

aww thankyou sweetheart *hugs* love you too

and congratulations to the buddah for starting a convo on msn today!!!

*claps for fribby*

<3

[Friðbjörn]

haha thank you

XD

 

aren't you proud of me?

 

love you more