From the closets of her mind

[LPpinkfreak821]

i wrote this a week or two when i was feeling really really down. its kinda long *cough* but it explains a few of things that i've been going through and how well i can hide it.. so if you like thats cool and if you don't like... oh well. here it is:

 

Her pain seems to seep from her mind as if it were blood spilling from a small yet new wound. It begins to slowly turn to words as she begins to lose control. Many of her thoughts clash as if they were a series of head on collisions yet through all this she keeps a smile on her face.

Far from the breaking point she carves the letters H E L P into her soul, allowing it to be barley visible to the surrounding souls. She lightly spills her blood from a place she has successfully hidden with few colors. When she closes her eyes she becomes so peaceful, yet when she reopens them she feels as if she is doomed to live in the darkness.

Mistakes that she has made in the past, taunt her to this day. She deep in mind hopes that everything will be ok, but she secretly knows it won’t ever be the same. She hides from the world, closed behind locked doors. Her feelings scream from the radio for her. She may not know the people revealing her feelings but she does not care. As long as she can still keep to herself, she is happy.

She sinks down into her own, hoping the music never stops. She has written on a wall in her mind that she will run away. As far as she can get from this place. She included that she does not want to just run from home, but from the world and everything in it. She wrote and signed this promise in her own blood that she had drawn from her tears.

All though it may seem she is asking for help, she really just wants everyone to go away. She isn’t looking for sympathy nor is she wanting them to stare. Don’t bother to reach your hand out to help her. She will just push it away and act if it will never change. She just wants the world to go away.

She sits deep down in her mind as her thoughts burst on to paper and she begins screaming again. Her tears try to keep her quiet but the pain is just to real. Her tears won’t stream down, they don’t bother to show. Her verbal parts are asking for more. She screams how she feels hoping this moment isn’t real.

She crawls deep down into her own as she replays her dreams of being able to fly. She soon finds herself staring at death in the eyes and then in an instant she realizes that it isn’t death. It is her own reflection that stares back at her.

She begins to cry at the sight of her own inner self. Carved words lay upon the outer layer along with wounds open and still bleeding. Bruises cover the body that stands in front of her. She instantly closes her eyes hoping the torn figure will disappear yet it decides to stay.

It sits and waits like the boogeyman itself hiding in the closet of her mind. It waits for the next defenseless thought to stroll on by. It stays forever consuming her mind, waiting for her to break down and lose control. Until that very moment it awaits, she will continue living life and smiling. Hoping that one day everything about her will fade away.

 

(/)Kris(/)

[keza]

wow, that amazing..i like it all

but the bit that i really like is...Far from the breaking point she carves the letters H E L P into her soul, allowing it to be barley visible to the surrounding souls

yeah that bit....

 

wow amazing!!!!

[LPpinkfreak821]

thanks.. im really glad that you like it...

[lpp]

i just couldn't read any farther

 

but from what i have it sounds good

[Zeus LP]

I like how you don't reveal the title until the end.