Shadowed Heart Posted July 14, 2005 Posted July 14, 2005 I LOVE U IF U READ THIS!!(It may answer sm Q's 2.) If any of you want to now why I'm ever deppressed or why I "burn", here ya go. I couldn't decide to put this in the dark room, or writers courner (and too long to put in my journal) but I put it in here. I wrote this yesterday, and am cutting out a lil' bit, but here goes- I was never really "popular" growing up. When I was small I never realy smiled or laughed much. When I got older, I didn't truely belong to any of the "groups" either. But, eventually, I did- the "geeks". I gained a sense of humor also and made my few friends laugh. As the last wekk of fifth grade came all the next years classes were being posted on the office doors. One day my best friend ran up to me and told me- "RISS!! WE'RE GONNA BE IN THE SAME CLASS AGAIN!!" I was happy and worried at the same time. I feared that I would be in, from what I'd heard, the meanest and stricktest teacher of all- Ms. Holtcamp. But guess what... I was... My mom picked me up from school and I sighed to get her attention. When she asked me what was wrong, I told her. After dinner my family decided that I was going to my cousins school for sixth grade. I was trilled. That summer seemed to last forever, I told myself that I couldn't go on without Alex (my crush). On the first day of sixth grade we had to choose where to sit. I quickley sat down. And it still makes me sad that no one would sit next to me. Heather was late and sat across from me. She was also my first friend at my new school. At recess I was me again. We all hated sports and so did my cousin and her friends. We watched the boys play basket-ball and I saw a really cute guy and was so dazed that I didn't see it comeing. *THUNK* a basketball hit me on the head. Chelsea S. picked up the ball and said (as I sat dumbly on the ground) "What do you want Aaron?" I looked up and saw a total nerd looking down on me. "My ball" he replied. I took the ball and threw it at him. I ended up sitting next to him when my teacher assinghed seats. We got along okay and I began to like him, alot. Sara Muniz became my best friend, she was loyal and loveing. When the last month of school came I knew I was looseing sm things, like recess. Then the last couple days I knew I was looseing more, I was going to loose people. I cried all the last day of school for a long time dureing school and after. The last day of school was the last time I spoke to Sara. I don't love Aaron anymore, but I still kepp in touch with him and he is a great friend. I will be attending school with my old classmates again. But I know I made more friends and gained a wonderful experiance! Any question, I may have left out quite a bit. Srry. (Gotta pee!!) Quote {Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.} http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/2f43bfab2b64268a8552c7de93432ec4.jpg Write "Love" On Your Arm. MIH Photography. Myspace. Facebook.
Pyro_Storm Posted July 14, 2005 Posted July 14, 2005 wow im really sorry, it sounds like it sucked, im sure it will get better, my friend once told me everything will get better you just have to look past the bad, i still hold that to him. Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/5d41cad541cb99e851cc86e189b31b53.gifhttp://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/760db76fa57a9e3c2a63d299d03c32c7.gifhttp://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/c420507aea37de91fb9a2b6b73a6e595.jpg
Shadowed Heart Posted July 14, 2005 Author Posted July 14, 2005 OMG!!! Thank you! I thought no-one would actually read it 'cause it's long! You rock!!! Quote {Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.} http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/2f43bfab2b64268a8552c7de93432ec4.jpg Write "Love" On Your Arm. MIH Photography. Myspace. Facebook.
killerfishy Posted July 14, 2005 Posted July 14, 2005 wow riss, why didn't you talk about this with mom dad or me? i'm sorry about that... you can talk to me whenever you want. Quote girl that's crushin' on a fish email obsessed, just waiting for the fishy...
Vash_the_Stampede Posted July 14, 2005 Posted July 14, 2005 Wow. I just read it, If you need to talk, feel free to talk to me. Quote Good bye, auf wiedersehen, adiós, sayonara Gone
Shadowed Heart Posted July 14, 2005 Author Posted July 14, 2005 Bret- Srry, but I just can't talk to mom or dad about this. I never talked to you 'cause you always seem to be in a bad mood. Vash- Thanks, I'm glad you read and'll let me talk to you. Quote {Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.} http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/2f43bfab2b64268a8552c7de93432ec4.jpg Write "Love" On Your Arm. MIH Photography. Myspace. Facebook.
uwantme2b Posted July 14, 2005 Posted July 14, 2005 Sorry about your experiences. I know how hard it is to make friends and find somewhere where you truly fit in. Like always, you can come talk to me anytime you want. Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/9b54002b9ea728de39c3770316d52169.jpg Shark picture by Graham Lambert Rep me please :-)
Sygy Posted July 14, 2005 Posted July 14, 2005 im so sorry that happened to you. Quote iam mors sola fuga est [broken External Image]:http://img409.imageshack.us/img409/9977/n76430001741552817731hb2.jpg
Pheonix791989 Posted July 14, 2005 Posted July 14, 2005 if it helps I went through some of the same stuff. but I turned out alright (i think) Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/905b4d5028c3e3d1ceb11b9069165e4b.jpg "You can't please everyone and trying to do so is the kiss of death."- criss angel
Shadow_Serpent Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 I'm switching schools too this year, starting high school >.> I still keep in touch with meh GF, but its just not the same. Anyone go to bellarmine college prep, by any chance? San jose, CA, i think? Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/6d904e9fab4dcd2e39de1caf6a339f56.gif Official Fort Minor Foot Soldier OFFICIAL FORT MINOR MILITIA MEMBER!
Shadowed Heart Posted July 15, 2005 Author Posted July 15, 2005 if it helps I went through some of the same stuff. but I turned out alright (i think) Really? Wow that's soo bizzare. But yes, it helps... jk, sorry 'bout you too. Anyways, thanx again ppl! Quote {Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.} http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/2f43bfab2b64268a8552c7de93432ec4.jpg Write "Love" On Your Arm. MIH Photography. Myspace. Facebook.
Pyro_Storm Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 thanx again ppl! did u really think no one would care? we are just a bunch o loving ppl hear. Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/5d41cad541cb99e851cc86e189b31b53.gifhttp://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/760db76fa57a9e3c2a63d299d03c32c7.gifhttp://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/c420507aea37de91fb9a2b6b73a6e595.jpg
LPGotLinkinPark Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 Why don't you try to stay at your cousin's school (or wherever you were in 6th grade). You seem so much happier there. Quote rep me!! | xanga | add me on myspace
rock_my_world Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 Isn't it already summer vacation? After the summer vacation you're suppose to go to Middle School, aren't you? Then the problem's solved. New school, new life. Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/a442684b88f9f4660b71ea11ed6efbcc.jpg My Online Journal
Shadowed Heart Posted July 15, 2005 Author Posted July 15, 2005 the problem's solved. New school' date=' new life.[/quote'] Not really. If you get it in the beginning, I don't have very many friends. I still sorta have Em, but she's saying things behind my back and I don't wanna be friends with ppl like that. Bassically the point is that I miss my real friends and will even more when I can't talk to them because I'm at school. And I will be lonley... Quote {Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.} http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/2f43bfab2b64268a8552c7de93432ec4.jpg Write "Love" On Your Arm. MIH Photography. Myspace. Facebook.
lpfan95 Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 im sorry and i was in sixth grade last year WHY DO YOU ALL GET RECESS??? Quote [broken External Image]:http://img165.imageshack.us/img165/1520/lpfan95sig24ql.png
Shadowed Heart Posted July 15, 2005 Author Posted July 15, 2005 Kintergaten-6thgrade= Elementary school, wich gives us the right of recess 7th-9thgrade= Middle School(Jr. High) No recess 10th-12grade= High School No recess(obviousely). Quote {Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.} http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/2f43bfab2b64268a8552c7de93432ec4.jpg Write "Love" On Your Arm. MIH Photography. Myspace. Facebook.
Pheonix791989 Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 i got recess in middle school. well it wasnt recess but we got to hang out on the football and soccer field the whole school would go out there after lunch spend 30 min out there. its all good and fun. Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/905b4d5028c3e3d1ceb11b9069165e4b.jpg "You can't please everyone and trying to do so is the kiss of death."- criss angel
Shadowed Heart Posted July 15, 2005 Author Posted July 15, 2005 Lucky!!!!! Quote {Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.} http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/2f43bfab2b64268a8552c7de93432ec4.jpg Write "Love" On Your Arm. MIH Photography. Myspace. Facebook.
Pheonix791989 Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 well with my other problem I cant really do Recess any more. its a good thing that I dont have deal with it any more. but its all good. I wouldnt say its lucky though. Its more of a time for me to get my butt kicked by people that dont like me. Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/905b4d5028c3e3d1ceb11b9069165e4b.jpg "You can't please everyone and trying to do so is the kiss of death."- criss angel
Shadowed Heart Posted July 15, 2005 Author Posted July 15, 2005 Well, I'm sorry to hear that. It's actually sad because the school that I fit in at was made of- punks, junkies, and gangsters.... Quote {Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.} http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/2f43bfab2b64268a8552c7de93432ec4.jpg Write "Love" On Your Arm. MIH Photography. Myspace. Facebook.
Pheonix791989 Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 well my little problem has kept me from being part of a crowd for about 2 years now. but hell i dont care. when I had the accident, it showed me who my real friends were. Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/905b4d5028c3e3d1ceb11b9069165e4b.jpg "You can't please everyone and trying to do so is the kiss of death."- criss angel
stupidsoul1 Posted July 17, 2005 Posted July 17, 2005 see...thats my point exactly on why i dont get close to people....they never stay they just come and go every few years im sorry you feel that way, i have spent my whole life feeling some sence of loss and i know it bites so i guess i can kinda relate....but you have to remember, you only live once so live while you can life wasnt meant to be fun, that is why when you feel like you have it all it comes crashing down. but its what you learn when it all falls apart that means the most. Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/25cb22d29f0c2f027cf1acc5b7bf6cf4.png http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/459bb3c6fed65d05781dbdae0319d254.png http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/0dcf45273040e11bc56a99d4601a58d5.png http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/bfdf068f8fa963062b979cec565ff7f7.png Fiona is teh Fionizzle... and we all love her ^^
Shadowed Heart Posted July 17, 2005 Author Posted July 17, 2005 Thanks, I added some to my sig. I thought of it a few days ago, but I guess it's more than words now after thinking about it.... Quote {Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.} http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/2f43bfab2b64268a8552c7de93432ec4.jpg Write "Love" On Your Arm. MIH Photography. Myspace. Facebook.
Shadowed Heart Posted August 17, 2005 Author Posted August 17, 2005 I don't love Aaron anymore' date=' but I still kepp in touch with him and he is a great friend.[/quote']Well that sure blew up in my face^^ Quote {Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.} http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/2f43bfab2b64268a8552c7de93432ec4.jpg Write "Love" On Your Arm. MIH Photography. Myspace. Facebook.
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