xLMiRoChezPx05 Posted January 22, 2006 Posted January 22, 2006 I say that suicide isnt the way to go, but I do have friends, no matter how hard I try and talk to them; they wont listen. I understand that life is like going through thorns and unpretty painted pictures. I myslef have cut myself just to get rid of the pain. I realized that the pain is still there. People inflict pain on themselves to numb themselves from the pain and problems. I have learned that life is beautiful, you just have find it. I had to wait for it for 6 years. I thought it was unbearable, now that I am conscienece of my being again, I am glad that I did not kill myself. For those who feel like life is unbearbale, hang on even tho your on a thin piece of thread. HELP is on the way, hang in there, and LIFE itself will become better over time. I am also always here to listen, if anything comes about and you would like to talk, come here or email me at vampsex666@hotmail.com. There are better things on the horizon. Also, people who think that we're crazy for considering suicide probably have nvr been thru it. So dont judge ppl, bcuz they cant handle there problems! They will get HELP some way some how. I know life is very tough these days, just HANG IN THERE!!! *HUGS to all that are in NEEDEVERY SINGLE F*IN DAY* I CARE FOR YOU ALL, EEVEN IF I DONT KNOW YOU! What ever you do, HANG IN THERE Quote [broken External Image]:http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b192/x_Fire_at_Will_x/Linkin%20Park/lmiro5xe.png Thank you By_My-$elf!!! Rob Bourdon = <big>♥<big/>
Mr Mack Posted January 23, 2006 Posted January 23, 2006 i was seriously thinking about suicide a few weeks back. 2nd time ever. first time was a few weeks before that (and it wasnt all that serious anyway). im 19 and am free from my parents, so why would i be thinking about it at this supposedly brilliant time of life?? luck, or really the pure lack of it. in 50-50 situations i will ALWAYS get the wrong end of the deal 90% of the time. in situations where i get to meet people somethin will usually happen that will prevent me from meeting the right people, and if i do meet the right people theres usually a catch to it. i am quite badly effected by the indirect actions of others. and hundreds of other little things which really do add up unfortunately i am a believer in astrology and karma. well not karma anymore after a karma report said somethin like "cos you abused your power in a past life, you will sometimes come across opposition in normal situations" this 'prophecy' has some truth unfortunately doesnt that go AGAINST the teachings of karma? what did i do to deserve that legacy? so anyway, what set me off about thinkin bout suicide was that if the same pattern of events that have happened, will continue to happen, then i dont want any part of it. also i had just talked to someone i hadnt talked to in a year (and we were half-arsed involved with eachother which i just had to break off cos it was just more of a mothering and role model role than anything) and in that time she had gotten a long term boyfriend and had significantly improved her status at work. if this duller-than-dishwater person could accomplish that then what on earth is goin on with me? how many curses or whatever am i being affected by. im not enjoyin life, and dont wanna occupy some opportunity someone else might enjoy a lot better. im my case its not that life is crap now, its that it wont get all that much better in the next 40 years so not really much point in hanging in there Quote Even if all posibility includes actuality as a posibility, one might inquire as to why posibilities would be actualized rather than just remaining posibilities of actuals.
Hahninator Posted January 24, 2006 Posted January 24, 2006 I think of suicide a lot...almost once a month. I get really close sometimes too.. Quote
Fort_Underground Posted January 26, 2006 Posted January 26, 2006 I've thought about it once. I was doing less that average in school (I go t a 69 in a class) And my parents totally freaked over it. My dad yelled at me, My mom just said insults to me, etc. etc. They made me feel like trash and that was the only time I thought about it. Im only 16 but Im so sick of the anger my mom has. If she feels depressed she makes everyone else around her feel the same way, and I usually just swallow it and get on with it. Whenever I do argue with her about it either she A: Yells back and keeps insulting me, or B:Just walks away and tells my father that its incredible that I talk to her like that. Luckily Ive got an older brother and I usually hang out with him, confide with him more. I usually dont tell me parents anything unless they ask about it now. But I'm just waiting 2 years then I can leave and be free from my parents. P.S. I like listening to Enimens song When Im Gone when i feel depressed, it hepls me with it. Quote I am the guy on the forums that your conservative parents warned you about Victory not Vengence
Hahninator Posted January 26, 2006 Posted January 26, 2006 Today...I got in a huge fight with my family and yelled a lot. Someone was like "YOU NEED TO STOP BEING A SMARTASS" and I was like "YOU NEED TO STOP BEING A SMARTASS AND QUIT FUCKING BITCHING TO ME" I felt pretty weird though since I'm always good and never yell like that. It ended up with me packing my bag and leaving....I ran to a friends house 3 miles away and when I was almost there I was found, taken home and then grounded -_- shit it was so cold outside Quote
Sygy Posted January 26, 2006 Posted January 26, 2006 aww, huni bun *hugs hahninator* Quote iam mors sola fuga est [broken External Image]:http://img409.imageshack.us/img409/9977/n76430001741552817731hb2.jpg
LPpinkfreak821 Posted January 26, 2006 Posted January 26, 2006 sometimes it's all i can think about. Like 'it'll just get better if i'm not here'. It's always a thought in the back of my mind. It's not easy to piss me off or make me sad, but when someone does I'll go to my room and the thoughts constantly run. I get as far as cutting or almost cutting. Lately, it's a problem. I've gotten pretty close to going all the way through with it, but i'm still here. i've learned that suicidal thoughts... should stay just thoughts and nothing more. Quote When my time comes, forget what the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind reasons to be missed Don't resent me and when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory [[it isn't an official goodbye, but I'll be gone for long time]]]
Shadowed Heart Posted January 27, 2006 Posted January 27, 2006 hm well, now, more than ever, I feel like ppl don't care, so there is no point in 'thinking over how it will hurt my family and 'friends'', but aaron told me not to kill myself, that put a temperary(sp?) stop from hanging myself. Quote {Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.} http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/2f43bfab2b64268a8552c7de93432ec4.jpg Write "Love" On Your Arm. MIH Photography. Myspace. Facebook.
LP4ever Posted January 29, 2006 Posted January 29, 2006 i have some pills right now sitting on the table with a drink, i read it, and again, and again, and again,my dad blew his brains out, i dont want to do that, going to sleep is much better............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ Quote
Heart_LP Posted January 29, 2006 Posted January 29, 2006 i have some pills right now sitting on the table with a drink' date=' i read it, and again, and again, and again,my dad blew his brains out, i dont want to do that, going to sleep is much better............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................[/quote'] what?! no! are you seriuos!?! plz dont do anything stupid. If you wanna talk, PM me but plz! Quote ♀ fighter ♀
Sygy Posted January 29, 2006 Posted January 29, 2006 I cant see Fort Minor now...... ^oh no. why!!!! Quote iam mors sola fuga est [broken External Image]:http://img409.imageshack.us/img409/9977/n76430001741552817731hb2.jpg
acdcrules04 Posted January 29, 2006 Posted January 29, 2006 He's probably grounded. Quote http://www.sucksbbs.net/data/MetaMirrorCache/bb2dcf01aaef6417df375864d8457158.gif myspace|peta2
LPpinkfreak821 Posted January 30, 2006 Posted January 30, 2006 i have some pills right now sitting on the table with a drink' date=' i read it, and again, and again, and again,my dad blew his brains out, i dont want to do that, going to sleep is much better............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................[/quote'] hey... whoa wtf? are you serious? That isnt something to joke about. if you have a problem PM me or something. just dont do that... Quote When my time comes, forget what the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind reasons to be missed Don't resent me and when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory [[it isn't an official goodbye, but I'll be gone for long time]]]
LP4ever Posted January 30, 2006 Posted January 30, 2006 hey... whoa wtf? are you serious? That isnt something to joke about. if you have a problem PM me or something. just dont do that... Ohhhhhhhhhhhh YES!!!!! im VERY serious...i wouldnt joke about something like this...i couldnt go thru with it...so i put them pills away till next time i try.. :( Quote
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