The COS- The Church of Shinoda

[andrea]

Sorry about double posting:

 

[LPShinodaFM]

*Bows to andrea for the pictures*

 

The second one you just posted was sexeh ;]

[littleblackstone]

He is tha sex..

[Usiel]

I just wonder if all men were like him..... holy world!!!! XD

[SakuraUchiha]

I just wonder if all men were like him..... holy world!!!! XD

 

One can only wish that were true, my dear Usiel.:'(

[Usiel]

Oh c'mun, Sakura...can I call you just "Sakura"... it isnt because I'm lazy or something like this (well, I've recognize than now I'm a little bit lazzy but I've my reasons, sure... Faculty doesnt want I know what is to feel 30 years old in your body) I ask for your permission to call you "Sakura" 'cos it's sound more closed, more sweet... with more confidence. Well, you choose

 

About your post, well, dont be sad. if you look at it, I think it's better if there is only one Mike Shinoda. Listen. We're special, all us are special 'cos we're unique. So if we had one Mike for each one, it wouldnt be special, it wouldnt be a illusion. nowadays you've the illusion one day you can meet him, but if we had Mike everyday next to us... at the end, illusion would die. I'm sure. Humans are unsatisfied of nature... so, Its's better to live with this illusion than without anything... and without illusion COS die... and I wont let it. I WONT LET THAT ILLUSION DIES IN MY ANGELS!! Usiel means "God's power" and If I've to use it for something, I dont have a doubt I'll use for keep all your hopes up :clap: :clap:

[SakuraUchiha]

Oh c'mun, Sakura...can I call you just "Sakura"... it isnt because I'm lazy or something like this (well, I've recognize than now I'm a little bit lazzy but I've my reasons, sure... Faculty doesnt want I know what is to feel 30 years old in your body) I ask for your permission to call you "Sakura" 'cos it's sound more closed, more sweet... with more confidence. Well, you choose

 

About your post, well, dont be sad. if you look at it, I think it's better if there is only one Mike Shinoda. Listen. We're special, all us are special 'cos we're unique. So if we had one Mike for each one, it wouldnt be special, it wouldnt be a illusion. nowadays you've the illusion one day you can meet him, but if we had Mike everyday next to us... at the end, illusion would die. I'm sure. Humans are unsatisfied of nature... so, Its's better to live with this illusion than without anything... and without illusion COS die... and I wont let it. I WONT LET THAT ILLUSION DIES IN MY ANGELS!! Usiel means "God's power" and If I've to use it for something, I dont have a doubt I'll use for keep all your hopes up :clap: :clap:

 

Yes you may call me Sakura. Thank you for those kind words, btw as shitty as my life has turned out to be I think illusions are all I have left anymore. * we need more smilies around here* sighs and shrugs*

[andrea]

New photos from The Joint in Las Vegas!

 

 

L.A Show:

[LPShinodaFM]

Ah... first thing I see when I logged on to LPF? That cuteass face of that Shinoda. <3 I like his black shirt. It's nice.

 

 

Now there's gotta be something going on there. You know, for once in my life, I wish I was Brad.

[Usiel]

Oh, nice pics... All them are amazing!!! Although I'm still saying Mike is too weird with this look, from my point of view.... XD, look at him!! he still keeps a baby face ( a baby with beard!!! )... so, That's what I think, maybe I prefer the Mike we have some years ago, but I wouldnt care if he one day, we'd meet him and he'd ask me: Hey, baby, whould you like to have a romantic dinner with me? Just you and me??

I suppose you can guess the answer: weeell, maybe, but you should something, sir. I only go out with interested boys. My presence has a high price!!!

 

(Oh, you Know, I've make myself the interesting one, as If I wouldnt give importance to the fact... although inside me, my conciencie should be shouting: YESSSSSS!!!!

 

 

Yes you may call me Sakura. Thank you for those kind words, btw as shitty as my life has turned out to be I think illusions are all I have left anymore. * we need more smilies around here* sighs and shrugs*

 

Well, I've the solution for your "shitty" life (although I dont think this can be as horrible as you say, mostly 'cos everything in this life has a solution, what's a problem? something that has a solution, more or less difficult for getting it, but still has it!!) So, if you think your life isnt as good as you would like, change it, clean it. It's your life. it's the only present life gave it to you and it's only yours.. we arent inmortal, so dont spend more time and try to make it as you really like and live it 'cos we only have one. just one, not more.

 

Maybe, I dont know it, your problem isnt easy, but you've all my support and I'm sure all COS's support. But you should know something: you've all our support, but the last step is yours, so be brave 'cos if you really want it, you will get it :thumbsup:

[X...Re-Arranged...X]

Haven't said hello in awhile. Love the new pics Andrea dear!

 

Andrea... I think I'm a plague towards technology... my Quizilla account is being a jerk. :[

[andrea]

Aww...I miss you too!

 

Thanks, I'm glad you like that I posted those pictures!

[SakuraUchiha]

Well, I've the solution for your "shitty" life (although I dont think this can be as horrible as you say, mostly 'cos everything in this life has a solution, what's a problem? something that has a solution, more or less difficult for getting it, but still has it!!) So, if you think your life isnt as good as you would like, change it, clean it. It's your life. it's the only present life gave it to you and it's only yours.. we arent immortal, so dont spend more time and try to make it as you really like and live it 'cos we only have one. just one, not more.

 

Maybe, I dont know it, your problem isnt easy, but you've all my support and I'm sure all COS's support. But you should know something: you've all our support, but the last step is yours, so be brave 'cos if you really want it, you will get it :thumbsup:

 

Well..trust me, it is. But you are right I have to make a change and soon, seeing as I am becoming more and more angry the longer I am here ( my parents house). It is bad enough that I am a cold, cocky, at times down right cruel person and that is just b/c of how many times I have been hurt in my life. ( not to mention I am pretty arrogant as well) Not to scare you or anything but I genuinely do care about people, especially the ones that I can get attached to. I care about everybody in the COS and I really do appreciate the support, but living w/my parents I have to pretend that I am the same person I was before I grew up and realized that even my own mother, sister and sometimes my grandmother ( GOD rest her soul) all treated me the same way and I really hate it. That is only scratching the surface of my wounds, which never seem to heal for some reason.

 

Anyway, I did come to an ephiany the other day. For a long time I could never understand my deep emotional connection to LP's music and I finally figured it out.*yea me* Sorry for going on for so long, I think I am a masochist as well.:o

[LPShinodaFM]

^ *massive hug*

 

Once the shittiness are over, life shines more than ever. Once you're outta the house you'll be free! Then, you will meet people in life who will genuinely care for you. :]

[Usiel]

^ *massive hug*

 

Once the shittiness are over, life shines more than ever. Once you're outta the house you'll be free! Then, you will meet people in life who will genuinely care for you. :]

 

 

And I add (with your permission, dear) when you'll be free and you will meet new people who will be very important for you, you will understand, dear SakuraUchiha, that nothing else matters and something that seems horrible and without solution, it's something useful that make you stronger and with an opened mind for guessing that it doesnt deserve to be angry or sad when you have more than a way for choose a better life.

 

be brave, cos at the end, the brave are who get the glory.

[X...Re-Arranged...X]

*huggles*

[Usiel]

*huggles*

 

ohhh, nobody cannot say this place hasnt love!!!:friends: I think we should open a doctor's office for people who feel sad or they're living a bad moments in their lifes... something like "Find your real partner" but with another sense "Find your magic yourself into your amazing and unique world"... Oh, that's seem to be the plot of an romantic movie, the kind of movie you need a pack of tissues if you dont want to find your sweater full of.... well, you know it...

 

You see? that's life!! A great adventure where you have to find the funny sense to the hard things. You have to change a possible nightmare in a Lauren & Hardy's episode. I know it isnt easy, but nobody says that things you really want, havent a high price for getting them. the fact is if you really want to get them... and the answer is inside us...

[SakuraUchiha]

Thanks guys I really appreciate it. Let me pose this question to you guys: How do you learn a lesson when you have nothing to lose? Especially when that lesson is a much more difficult one than if you actually had something to lose?

[Usiel]

Oh, God, I'm sorry dear. Maybe tonight is mind is as fresh as it should be, but I cant understand you, and believe me, I looked at it in all ways, trying to understand it and to find a solution for helping you... 'cos I know, I'm so sure there is a answer (if not, it cant be a question XD) but I cant get it... How do you learn a lesson when you have nothing to lose? Well, if you dont have nothing to lose, why do you wait?? Do it, learn it... if you're sure that it deserve it, of course.... especially when the lesson is much more difficult than if you had something to lose.... burfff, what a intricate mind you have!!! This sentence has made me feel as if I had drunk two litres of rum... with the difference that in this case, I'm still alive... could you explain it again but without any philosophical sense?

[SakuraUchiha]

Where have you been,lol? I will try and explain myself better, no promises though. What do you when you have no one that really understands you or that you can talk to w/o them thinking that you are crazy and then treat you like the plague b/c of it? I have my family but they would rather have nothing to do with me and discount what I feel and why I have become something other than the person they used to know, they rather just chalk it up to the fact that I used to have depression problems and they want me to go see someone just so I can stay medicated. All b/c they are " uncomfortable" with the truths I try to tell them about myself so you see I am, for all intents and purposes, a very lonely person. I have to wear a mask of sorts everyday and it is becoming very tiresome indeed. Oh and I hate taking medicationg for anything other than a cold.

 

I hope this helps you out and I tried not bring philosophy into it, I am sorry about that btw. *embarrassed look*

That is also why I love LP's music so much, it helps me to deal with my isolation, but other than that isolated feeling I get sometimes I have no other symptoms of being depressed at all.

[Usiel]

Where have you been,lol? I will try and explain myself better, no promises though. What do you when you have no one that really understands you or that you can talk to w/o them thinking that you are crazy and then treat you like the plague b/c of it? I have my family but they would rather have nothing to do with me and discount what I feel and why I have become something other than the person they used to know, they rather just chalk it up to the fact that I used to have depression problems and they want me to go see someone just so I can stay medicated. All b/c they are " uncomfortable" with the truths I try to tell them about myself so you see I am, for all intents and purposes, a very lonely person. I have to wear a mask of sorts everyday and it is becoming very tiresome indeed. Oh and I hate taking medicationg for anything other than a cold.

 

I hope this helps you out and I tried not bring philosophy into it, I am sorry about that btw. *embarrassed look*

That is also why I love LP's music so much, it helps me to deal with my isolation, but other than that isolated feeling I get sometimes I have no other symptoms of being depressed at all.

 

I'm sure one day they will understand you... why dont you talk with someone quite closed to you? What about your mum?? Take her one day and in the intimate, have a chat with her and try to explain all you feel. I think she can understand you. Mothers are the best for understanding what their children think. But, if I were you I wouldnt try to close myself into my own world, 'cos I know it and I lived it: it's hard to leave this world to another one where there is more people for sharing your thoughts.

It's good you enjoy listening LP, but believe me, LP isnt everything in this world. There is more things, more people, more opportunities that they are waiting for you . Dont lose them, dont lose the opportunity.

And forget all words who has a relation with depression or something like this. You're a strong girl, so c'mun, let me see the force you have inside you. I know it you have it... so, use it. Use it!!!:clap:

[LPShinodaFM]

^That is true, mothers have that innate instinct to love their children. However, in some sad cases that might not be true. But yes, do try to communicate with your mother from a calm level. It is depressing when mothers do not understand their children and begin setting up walls and putting up excuses for the distance that's come between them. Try to break that wall, and try to let them understand why you are lonely and depressed, and that it's because of their isolation that you are this way.

 

However, if things do not work out, you don't have to only seek comfort from them. I'm sure there are people out there who will be willing to take you out of that loneliness. Like Usiel said, there are so many things waiting for you out there in the world. Indulge yourself in the life that you were given, and take this chance and make your life something enjoyable. Find something you are truly passionate about. Life gets better when you have something to hold on to. And we're here for support until you do find the life you were meant to live :]

[Usiel]

what a holy tongue you have my dearest LP~Shinoda~FM !!! I totally agree with you. The world is quite big, dear Sakurauchiha and life is sooo beautiful, the most beautiful present you can even receive, so take advantage of it!! I know there are many interesting people who are excited for meeting you, so, please dont lose this opportunity. Dont let that a bad luck closes your eyes. Dont let it. And after all, I think you arent lucky with your family... let them the opportunity to meet you. tell them how you really are. You start with your mum, and dont be worry 'cos you arent alone. With you there are many people who are supporting you. LP~Shinoda~FM said it before, and I will repeat it again:

 

And we're here for support until you do find the life you were meant to live

[SakuraUchiha]

Thanks guys but I have tried talking to them on more than one occassion and they still haven't got it. I doubt very much if they ever will, I have lived in my own isolated world for as long as I can remember. At the very least I can still count the LORD to listen to me and love no matter what.

[littleblackstone]

ohh man, how i miss my home *walks in* can i join u?

i'm sure i can, cause CoS is nothing but a piece of Heaven with lots of peace and love

 

i missed u so much my lovely sisters *hugs*

 

and SakuraUchiha..

you're not the only one at the same situation..

i'm feeling very deep down lately (other sort of reasons, but still it is frustrating..)

 

but most important thing: u'r not alone.

 

That's all i can say by now

 

 

i promise i'll be back more often..

 

kisses to everyone.