Sygy's Journal

[Sygy]

ewww you guys are nasty. well on the subject on nudity i do go around topless quite a lot when im at home, but i have to check that Rolf/builders are in first. Our garden in our new house is completely surrounded by trees so you can be naked in the garden if you want. OMG naked gardening sounds great. the only problem wihich nudity is that my dog looks at me funny and also say if your nudey and you sit down on grass you could get grass up your bottom!!!

[Sygy]

hello elena (alexandrovna), can you pls stop viewing my journal. IF u plan on internet stalking me please at least do it under a name that i dont imediatly reconize.

 

thanks!!

 

xx

[GraDoN]

hello elena (alexandrovna), can you pls stop viewing my journal. IF u plan on internet stalking me please at least do it under a name that i dont imediatly reconize.

 

thanks!!

 

xx

lol?

you must have internet sygy!!!!!!!! we cant live without you :\

[Sygy]

of course i have internet now, illegal internet, must get caught! and thats thats so kind! REP if allowed.

[Jeezy]

of course i have internet now, illegal internet, must get caught! and thats thats so kind! REP if allowed.

 

how are you girl?

[Sygy]

omg! hey sorry about those texts last night i was actually slightly drunk :'(! im fine, actually looking forward to school and meeting people.

 

 

gah, that bitch has be viewing my journal for an hour now!

[Jeezy]

gah, that bitch has be viewing my journal for an hour now!

 

I thought you were friends

[Sygy]

haha, we use to be best friends untill she told the whole school that i had Aids because i didnt want to talk to her bc she kept on hitting me for jokes, which i got fed up of. then she posted all these lies about me on my schools internal email system, then she and some get called Liz Aldephi hacked onto my myspace and posted all these really nasty comments on loads of peoples myspaces so that it looked like i had done it! :X! -.- then her bf (james hahahaha) dumped her bc of what she did to me so she told the whole school that i stole him. *sigh*

[allieking]

hey sygy hun, how are yoo and hows the dog?

[Sygy]

dogs getting along fine actually, shes being pumped through with loads of pills so shes happier.. and today we actually managed a walk!!

[ElenaRosemary]

Wow. Somehow, I find grudges so silly.

Btw, I'm the Elena she speaks of.

I'm SO glad I've forgiven, moved on &gotten on with life.

Which, mind you, is well beyond amazing.

I've got SO many friends now &am about to go to college.

So -I don't see what's with all this "hating"..

About all the juvenile things I did 2 years ago &stuff.

I mean..we ALL do shit to each other.

Just lingering upon it and not accepting is just..boring.

I accept it, I was a total bitch and screwed up back then.

About the 'stalker stuff'.

I DID check by and was going to comment then my internet freaked out.

((kicks it))

Anyways -I got a new name..

Because being the silly twat that I can be,

I misspelled "alexandrova"..xD

When I made the account in 2005 or whenever it was.

&ElenaRosemary just sounds far better than that name..xD

[allieking]

please don't fight with sygy. me and her used to argue on here all the time but i've grown to love her, shes like the lil sis i never had!!!!

[ElenaRosemary]

allieking;;

Don't worry. I don't intend on fighting or anything.

I've grown out of fighting, keeping grudges &stuff.

I used to go to school with her ^_^

But, me being me, only remembers the fun times.

&just wondered how Sygy has been after all this time=]

[allieking]

sygy is a lovely girl with a huge heart. i've kinda took the role of big sister to her and i think alot of her.

[ElenaRosemary]

sygy is a lovely girl with a huge heart. i've kinda took the role of big sister to her and i think alot of her.

 

That's awesome=]

My friends &I are a lot like that with each other.

It's well great having friends you can consider like family!

Before Sygy and I fell out,

She was great fun to talk &laugh with=]

Personally, she was really enjoyable &I loved spending time with her!

 

EDIT: ^^^btw, they have "testimonies" on things like Friendster..

So, there's my testimony to Sygy=]

[diana]

Heh, Elena, I don't really think Sygy is likely to forgive you or somethin...just a thought I had to share...

[Jeezy]

Heh, Elena, I don't really think Sygy is likely to forgive you or somethin...just a thought I had to share...

 

I honestly think the same

 

she probably doesn't even want you to post in her journal

[allieking]

i dont think she will forgive. sygy being sygy

[ElenaRosemary]

i dont think she will forgive. sygy being sygy

 

Aww. Bless.

[ElenaRosemary]

Heh, Elena, I don't really think Sygy is likely to forgive you or somethin...just a thought I had to share...

 

I'm not asking for forgiveness.

Either it comes or it doesn't. I let it be.

If it doesn't, then it's not my loss.=]

But thanks for noting me that.

[diana]

she probably doesn't even want you to post in her journal

I agree...

 

Elena, you're only making her pissed probably...sooo...you know what to do, I hope...

[Sygy]

sigh, this is going to be long.

 

Dear Elena,

 

firstly i dont even understand why after not talking to your for over a year you come back on here on and start to message me havnt you taken the hint all already that i dont really want anything to do with you. As for holding grudges i never, EVER held a grudge against you, i didnt do out of my way to bitch about you behind your back i didnt tell every one personal details of your life, i write graffiti about you on desk and call you a 'fat whore' and a 'fat bitch' and all the hurtful stuff which you said and did to me, which i could have dont seeing as i held absolutly zero repest for you. I just simply think that you have some a bit off with you that makes you keep on comming back to me when ive clearly shut you out. Take last september, we feel out arounf April last year and i didnt want anything to do with you and i hadnt spoken to you for the rest of the term, them the summer holidays came and i still didnt talk to you, then smack bang first day of term you say 'hello' to me which i returned and then i asked you how your summer was and we had a cool convosation without getting into to much detail about things in general. then i get home and you call me asking is things 'were ok'. I said, 'no'. Because u simply couldnt forgive the things you had done to me. Why not from that convo did you not understand?

 

The things that you did to me we beyond the pail. You told the whole school that i had AIDs and made up a whole load of other crap which im not even going to post here, its so awful and gross! Then you and that Liz Aldelphi girl hacked onto my myspace and posted all thses insults on my friends' pages under my name. Eventhough you then latter state that you didnt do it your self but that you 'gave out' my password to random people on your myspace. The latter statement of yours i dot believe but however if the latter statement was true than its worst than the former seeing as breeched confidence and did that, Even if we werent friends you dont do that to people no matter what.

 

Then there was James, whos fine if your wondering. Doesnt it strike you as odd that your own boyfriend is going to side with me, a friend that he has only had for a month or so, then you started all this stuff with me? Because, arnt Boyfriends meant to side with their girlfriends no matter what? Well in this case he didnt bc he knew and so did others, Lizzie, Simone, harry, Nozomi and Sinead. Because you were so blatently in the wrong!!! Also you had shown yourself up in front off them anyways, by consistantly being rude to them and jacking Harry's bag and later offered him a blowjob. haha, really now!!!

 

Also, the stuff you did at school, getting me so much trouble in maths because you were the one who was always argueing with Mr. Rostrom. Sure that man was mean and really unfair on the student and not really what good a teacher but still you took it too far!! And on Parnets evening i had to sit there with my mum hearing out how its 'mainly the other one' but still i was i bad student. And you laughing at my 'B' grade in Maths coursework when you got a "A*' and when i tried so hard for it, was really cruel!!

 

I just simply cant even bear to have you in my life any more!! ok? Gah, you posting in my journal really crosses the line. I dont care if its my loss for not wanted contact with you, or wahtever. but, im sorry but for what you did there is nothing.

 

I know i can be horrid, with Allie as my witness to that, but have no where reached the levels of malice, and disrepest that you have for other people!

 

I really do hope that you have a fun time at college and good luck with your up comming GCSEs results. But im happy at the moment, i have a BF which i love dearly and mylife is in a state of stability.

 

bye!

[ElenaRosemary]

sigh, this is going to be long.

 

Dear Elena,

 

firstly i dont even understand why after not talking to your for over a year you come back on here on and start to message me havnt you taken the hint all already that i dont really want anything to do with you. As for holding grudges i never, EVER held a grudge against you, i didnt do out of my way to bitch about you behind your back i didnt tell every one personal details of your life, i write graffiti about you on desk and call you a 'fat whore' and a 'fat bitch' and all the hurtful stuff which you said and did to me, which i could have dont seeing as i held absolutly zero repest for you. I just simply think that you have some a bit off with you that makes you keep on comming back to me when ive clearly shut you out. Take last september, we feel out arounf April last year and i didnt want anything to do with you and i hadnt spoken to you for the rest of the term, them the summer holidays came and i still didnt talk to you, then smack bang first day of term you say 'hello' to me which i returned and then i asked you how your summer was and we had a cool convosation without getting into to much detail about things in general. then i get home and you call me asking is things 'were ok'. I said, 'no'. Because u simply couldnt forgive the things you had done to me. Why not from that convo did you not understand?

 

The things that you did to me we beyond the pail. You told the whole school that i had AIDs and made up a whole load of other crap which im not even going to post here, its so awful and gross! Then you and that Liz Aldelphi girl hacked onto my myspace and posted all thses insults on my friends' pages under my name. Eventhough you then latter state that you didnt do it your self but that you 'gave out' my password to random people on your myspace. The latter statement of yours i dot believe but however if the latter statement was true than its worst than the former seeing as breeched confidence and did that, Even if we werent friends you dont do that to people no matter what.

 

Then there was James, whos fine if your wondering. Doesnt it strike you as odd that your own boyfriend is going to side with me, a friend that he has only had for a month or so, then you started all this stuff with me? Because, arnt Boyfriends meant to side with their girlfriends no matter what? Well in this case he didnt bc he knew and so did others, Lizzie, Simone, harry, Nozomi and Sinead. Because you were so blatently in the wrong!!! Also you had shown yourself up in front off them anyways, by consistantly being rude to them and jacking Harry's bag and later offered him a blowjob. haha, really now!!!

 

Also, the stuff you did at school, getting me so much trouble in maths because you were the one who was always argueing with Mr. Rostrom. Sure that man was mean and really unfair on the student and not really what good a teacher but still you took it too far!! And on Parnets evening i had to sit there with my mum hearing out how its 'mainly the other one' but still i was i bad student. And you laughing at my 'B' grade in Maths coursework when you got a "A*' and when i tried so hard for it, was really cruel!!

 

I just simply cant even bear to have you in my life any more!! ok? Gah, you posting in my journal really crosses the line. I dont care if its my loss for not wanted contact with you, or wahtever. but, im sorry but for what you did there is nothing.

 

I know i can be horrid, with Allie as my witness to that, but have no where reached the levels of malice, and disrepest that you have for other people!

 

I really do hope that you have a fun time at college and good luck with your up comming GCSEs results. But im happy at the moment, i have a BF which i love dearly and mylife is in a state of stability.

 

bye!

 

I know you probably don't want me to reply.

But I'm going to nonetheless because when I get a letter,

It's only polite to reply &I'd feel odd if I don't.

 

Nothing I am to say here is intended on offending or bitching.

&could other people PLEASE stay out of this. It's between two.

Thanks ^_^

 

So...here goes.=D

 

I totally respect how you're feeling.

But this all seems to be drama from years back. Okay, maybe a year.

Why not forget about it? That's what I did.

All those things, I vaguely remember.

But I've long forgotten that it seems ancient history to me now.

About that conversation, you said it went cool, mhm?

Then I called out of respect to see how you were.

That's what I do with my friends.

I call them every now &then for a chat.

They never have a problem with it -they do the same to me.

&after about a year of us not talking &stuff,

I just wanted to see how you were &all.

No harm intended. None ever will be.

I mean -take a look -loads of people at my old school..

We didn't like each other back then.

Actually -we spent most of our time arguing &bitching about each other.

Even TO each other, if I may add.

&now -we're well cool, e-mail all the time &all that jazz.

So -I'm not trying to be weird or to upset you.=]

 

Actually -correction -people DO do that to people. Even worse things.

Just, a lot of the time, the other person hasn't got a clue.

I admit -I was a messed up little bitch back then.

Things change. In a year -there's room for MUCH change, actually!

&please don't think you were all that innocent, too.

Because you made up a lot of horrible stuff about me.

So -it was the both of us being 'fesfskfhjkshfjk' to each other.

I'm not going to go into detail listing out the things you did to me.

I've put them aside long ago and just moved on.

If I had continued to linger upon them, I'd find myself miserable.

&not forgiving ANYONE from the past. I wouldn't want that.=/

So -just to remind you; We both have the same price to pay.

With what we have caused each other in the past.

 

Uh..actually, after the break up with James, I never saw those peoples again.

Nozomi and I chatted on the phone about Soho a while ago.

&I *think* James and I might've said 'hi' or something on MySpace.

((I've stopped using MySpace. It just confuses me now=/))

But that was the only time I actually got in touch with any of them.

&to put things short, I said to James, "The end."

He might've told you a different story. They always do.

But I really DON'T mind because I've already got a really good guyfriend.

It's more fun having a guy as a friend, in my opinion. I'm happy being single.

I just don't want to get all the mushy stuff involved..quite yet..

&James and I met at the Subverse gig, remember?

&immediately became a couple -well, it was all too hasty, I am thinking.

Because we hardly even knew each other before we became a couple.

&we both agreed over the phone that we should've known each other better.

Please don't try and get involved with things you don't know about.

You are truly making up the thing about the 'blowjob'.

I don't really mind -because I can sanely say that I never dreamt of such a thing.

Of course -I would've probably laughed about 'blowjobs' in general.

But that's what we did back then, mhm? ^_^

There were a lot of things you made up about me -as I did the same to you.

&if you ARE to state things to me, please keep to the truth.

At least if it's something you THINK happened, then state that you think it did.

 

About the maths, Mr. Rostron actually was a brilliant teacher.

&like I have said before, I was a bitch back then. &I wasn't very happy, either.

I boasted because I was quite good at maths.

&now, I'm getting results in a couple weeks -I've probably failed the subject..

As I did to you in maths, you told me I sucked at English.

&that I couldn't speak the language. Ironic that I was in the top set.

Lol. This just occured to me. Okay.. ((sticks to Russian instead)) xD

 

Actually, might I kindly correct you here..

"malice, and disrepest that you have for other people"

I have a LOT of respect for my friends &my family.

I mean -if I didn't, then I wouldn't even HAVE any friends.

&my family and I would be bitching at each other constantly.

But my family and I get along very well. They're basically my world.

Along with the friends I have.=]

Nor would I be happy if I was inconsiderate and all.

I'd be hating life &would be quite..well..pooped.

 

I 100% agree, I had no respect for people before.

But you must understand that it was mainly because I had no respect for myself.

I was unhappy, had crap self-esteem &confidence &took it out on others.

So, I was plainly a disrespectful bitch to a lot of people.

A lot of people go through phases of unhappines &they get all bitchy.

It's all part of growing up..=/ ..I'm actually glad it's all in the past now!!!

Well -things have definitely lightened up, y'know. People change.

I wouldn't have my amazing friends that I have if I hadn't changed.

&malice? Alright, alright -I may be a little sadistic now.

But that's only for jokes. My friends say I'm really friendly &kind.

But then again -I see them a lot now.. and they're fair to judge me.

You and I haven't really spoken in a looong time.

So, I entirely understand if you're calling me that from when we DID know each other.

Which I take the credit for 110%! =]=]

 

Anyways,

Thanks muchly for wishing me good luck with my GCSE results!

Yes -I'm frightfully nervous but am looking forward to them.

The same with going to college! Seems so odd how time flies! =D

That's really nice about your boyfriend &that you're happy.

Take care &God bless!=]

[Sygy]

Ok, first i wasnt going to reply to this like this, i was going to wish you all the best but i dont like the fact that you lied in your post about me, i dont like lying.

 

'you made up a lot of horrible stuff about me too'.

 

thats a lie, and you know that! what excatly did i make up about you because as far as im concerned i did nothing of the sort and didnt engage with you in your games. I accept not being too innocent but i can say honestly that i made up nothing about you, so dont twist facts please!

 

'We both have the same price to pay'.

 

Correction, NO WE DONT!! You have to more to 'pay' to me. I wasnt the one saying that the other had Aids, i wasnt the one calling the other putrid names! I was surprising courtious to you taking into consideration all the grivances that you gave me! So that statement is void.

 

blowjobs. ok, ok, you didnt say blowjob, let me correct myself after texting Lizzie i have the exact words which you said, and they were ' i give good head'! XD so dont lie here! Lying would actaully be quite lame seeing as its what fat old men use the internet for!

 

'you told me i sucked at english'

 

How dare you even make me sound like a biggot! I never ever said that you know i never said that, i dont say such things! i only encouraged you to do well in English and do your coursework. When people were ever rude about you being russian i ever only defended you!!

 

 

So dont lie!

[ElenaRosemary]

Ok, first i wasnt going to reply to this like this, i was going to wish you all the best but i dont like the fact that you lied in your post about me, i dont like lying.

 

'you made up a lot of horrible stuff about me too'.

 

thats a lie, and you know that! what excatly did i make up about you because as far as im concerned i did nothing of the sort and didnt engage with you in your games. I accept not being too innocent but i can say honestly that i made up nothing about you, so dont twist facts please!

 

'We both have the same price to pay'.

 

Correction, NO WE DONT!! You have to more to 'pay' to me. I wasnt the one saying that the other had Aids, i wasnt the one calling the other putrid names! I was surprising courtious to you taking into consideration all the grivances that you gave me! So that statement is void.

 

blowjobs. ok, ok, you didnt say blowjob, let me correct myself after texting Lizzie i have the exact words which you said, and they were ' i give good head'! XD so dont lie here! Lying would actaully be quite lame seeing as its what fat old men use the internet for!

 

'you told me i sucked at english'

 

How dare you even make me sound like a biggot! I never ever said that you know i never said that, i dont say such things! i only encouraged you to do well in English and do your coursework. When people were ever rude about you being russian i ever only defended you!!

 

 

So dont lie!

 

I lied about you? No -I only stated the absolute truth.

But what about you? I believe you twisted the truth.

Well, when you left, people came up to me with lots of rumours.

They said, apparantly you said we used to lesbian kiss in the bathrooms.

That I had nits ((which I don't, LOL, but thanks)) and MANY other things.

OH yeah..what was that other thing? That I cheated on James?

Uh..huh.. not that I honestly mind anymore.

C'mon, don't deny it.

I'm not denying the things you accused me with.

Except for the things that are blatantly untrue.

You called me a LOT of names, actually.

&I retaliated back then. Things escalated.

So, we both kind of fueled it in each other, mhm?

 

But it all comes down to this in the end.

Even though nobody really cares,

You know deep down in your heart if you're fooling yourself or not.

No matter what you might want other people to believe,

If you want to PWN me to make me look like a liar,

Or if you just want to deny and deny and deny the truth,

You know in your heart. As so do I.

You can push away the truth and make up a believable lie.

But in the end, it's a regret.

You, as well as others that do, are fooling only themselves.

I know in my heart if I'm lying or not.

I know deep down if I need to confess anything else and I don't.

Because I am staying completely and utterly true.

I've put lies far behind me. I've accepted the crap I've caused.

I've accepted to repent and to move on.

Buuut..

If one wishes to call me a liar then they can be my most trusty guest.

Because I know in myself that I, definitely, am not >.<

 

That text is false. Compleeetely false.

C'mon! Anybody, especially online, can make up a good lie.

Look:

"07-Aug-07 9:42 pm

From: Alison

Hey wat time 2moro? X x"

^^Actually, I just copied that from a message in my Inbox.

But for all we know, it could be a lie.

One could twist the words, make it look believable.

&there...a total false text ^_^

Sorry..just some common knowledge!

 

You defended me?

That's now what I heard.

Oh well -then again -people make up many rumours.

One hears MANY interesting things when they keep to themselves.

=]=]

Take care &God bless.