Arrested

[jomama10691]

Yesterday I was arrested. freshman in highschool. yep yep. Yesterday i ditched. i drank alcohol and i took a pill. i didnt know what it was i was fucking drunk this girl told me it was like ibuprofen or something. ive never been high before ive drinkin a couple of times. i have never ditched. i have never been tardy. i have never been absent. i have all A's and B's. it was a super bad judgement on my account. so we get to this girl cassies house and they bring out whiskey and vodka and pills and cigarettes and weed. everyone was FUCKED up. i have really low tolerance so i cant have that much. there was sex there was barfing there was passing out there was a lot of me making out with girls. then i sobered up and i had to take care of a lot of people. then we had to book it because cassies mom was coming home and shes fucking psycho. but if your caught out of school thats a ticket right there. with fucking under the influence teens.....fuck. so everyones throwing up im trying to slap people straight and we just run. burbank police are whitewashed and have NOTHING better to do then to look for kids that ditch. we all get seperated. my friends eddie and patrick get away. i think they left the city. cassie and brianna get caught. so its just me nicole and marina, hiding out at the fucking 99 cent store. cassies mom called the cops so there seriously looking for us and nicole is passed out on the floor of the bathroom at the store. we dont really realize what shit we're in and we leave the store and go to the park. we plan to hide out in the bathroom and right then the police come. they tell us to sit on the bench. fuck i dont fucking remember. so then they take us down to the station and they say that if we cooperate theyll let us go. but then brianna LIES and says nicole took 10 ecstasy pills with whiskey and vodka. i understand her ratting us out but lying??? so then nicole just loses it and she starts sobbing and all 3 of us are in the cell again and she starts saying shes going to kill herself when she gets home. that her mom is going to beat her and try to put her away and theyre going to see the cuts on her arms. i was trying to calm her down because the police where really close to lockin us up for good. so then i was called in for questioning and brianna said that i took 15 ecstasy pills!!!!!! so because of this girls LIES i had to go to the hospital and get my stomach pumped. i fuckin lost it. nicole and i were sobbing and shes really flexible and tried to kill herself in the cell. i felt so helpless. like i was going to watch this girl kill herself . i was handcuffed, shoved in the back of the car, thrown against a wall, forced to stand facing a wall for an hour and a half, then get my urine tested and blood tested. THEN i got my stomach pumped. worst. fucking. experience. so my makeup is all over my face and the cop says i look like good charlotte. my urine and blood samples come back completly clean. completly negative. whereas cassie= 60% alcohol, nicole= 96% alcohol. they even tested me for tylenol. also negative. so my court date is december 20th. but now im dealing with even more shit.

 

i might get kicked out of my school.

 

i seriously want to fucking die.

 

i dont live in burbank but my mom works there and she bought an apartment there but detectives found out and now that im a juvenile theres a really good chance that im gone.

 

today at school, this girl bri that lied about everything causes even more shit. she said that she got raped by nick. and that i was sexually involved with 3 boys. ALL FUCKING LIES. she said i was raped. i think i would remember if i was fucking raped. she told the teachers that ive been sexually active with my boyfriend dan. dan wasnt even fucking involved. i havent had sex with him but its none of her fucking business. and at school she comes up to us, i was already sobbing, saying my goodbyes to people "YOU GUYS ARE GETTING ARRESTED THE COPS ARE HERE RIGHT NOW I TOLD THEM THAT YOUR ON DRUGS RIGHT NOW" .what the fucking fuck.

 

my really good friend nick that i have a major crush on takes care of me. he takes me to my counseler because he didnt like seeing me like that. he was so caring and i love him so much. of course i just found out that hes going out with my best friend. as of today. haha. funny. anyways. but he took care of me. and because i went down on my own, all i had to do was write a statement and i got to go back to class while the other girles talked to the pigs.

 

NOW cassie is a major fuck up. she got kicked out and right now shes sleeping in an alley possibly pregnant with drugs still in her system. if she dies, im going to get charges for manslaughter. she took 27 pills. after school cassie jumped bri because of me because bris trying to get me expelled. i kept telling her not to. i told her to fucking stay away and she fucking did it anyway and now im going to get in trouble. i dont know what to do i feel so alone and pitiful. like ive been disgraced to another worthless delinquent that doesnt amount to anything in life and ends up as a fucking bum. if i get kicked out of this school i will have nothing. my dad doesnt know because if my mom tells him, he'll fuckin beat me. i cant go on feeling like this. ive hated myself for so long and ive bottled it up. this is just. its to much.

 

there is nothing any of you can say that i havent heard 1000 times from cops, counselers, paramedics, friends, teachers, and nurses. so keep your comments about my sheer stupidity to yourself. i know what i did was fucking stupid. "omg joelle mixing alcohol and pills your such a stupid fucking dumbass you could have died" yeah no shit i fucking know that. all my other friends have turned on me. they wont even talk to me right now.

 

but i will not shed one more FUCKING tear for the pigs. Unlike the people i was with im not fucking proud of what i did im fucking ashamed and i want to die. it was not fucking cool its not going to happen again im not going to fucking brag about it. FUCK PEER PRESSURE i chose to do it myself FUCK LIES i told nothing but the truth to those pigs.

 

the cherry on top

 

cassie is killing herself

 

i dont know what to do

[brokenangel]

i don't have any magic words that'll make it all better and go away...i can't really say anything, and i don't think you want anyone to feel sorry for you, but i'm sorry..i do. everyone goes through shit and you're going through way too much. i support you. i'm not judging you. it's good that you didn't lie and are trying to help that girl from killing herself...just take it easy. take care of yourself.

[Hybrid Soldier]

all mistakes i have made, just never in that big of a scale. Well, what you gotta do is keep your distance from brianna, and tell nothing but the truth, and dont show any violence toward brianna when your near the cops. But seriously, no lies, at all, it wont help.

[UnhingedMouse0]

WOW IM IN SHOCK RIGHT NOW...............

 

But...

"my urine and blood samples come back completly clean. completly negative. whereas cassie= 60% alcohol, nicole= 96% alcohol. they even tested me for tylenol. also negative."

Why the hell are you still getting in trouble then? They have no proof you did anything wrong other than skip school. They didnt even catch you at the house.

 

Just make sure to always tell the truth, if you dont, it can only get worse. And they should know that this bri person has some extreme issues and they shouldent believe her lies.

 

So, I wish you the best of luck.

[Dark Angel]

OMG! I can't say anything to comfort you, just... hang in there man and glad to hear that you're trying to help Cassie. Oh, and don't lie and don't do anything to give the cops another reason to give you a ticket, OK? But I'm agreeing with Mouse, they have no proof you drank alcohol, so why are you still going to court?

[jomama10691]

i don't have any magic words that'll make it all better and go away...i can't really say anything' date=' and i don't think you want anyone to feel sorry for you, but i'm sorry..i do. everyone goes through shit and you're going through way too much. i support you. i'm not judging you. it's good that you didn't lie and are trying to help that girl from killing herself...just take it easy. take care of yourself.[/quote']

 

Everyone is trying to keep me away from her but they dont even know whats going on and when shes dead theyre going to go to me and im going to have to live with that.

 

all mistakes i have made' date=' just never in that big of a scale. Well, what you gotta do is keep your distance from brianna, and tell nothing but the truth, and dont show any violence toward brianna when your near the cops. But seriously, no lies, at all, it wont help.[/quote']

 

i was the one telling cassie to back the fuck off. that it wasn't worth it and she was going to go to jail. I havent lied once. not one time. im not going to either. it might get me expelled but theres no fucking way im stooping to that whores level.

 

WOW IM IN SHOCK RIGHT NOW...............

 

But...

"my urine and blood samples come back completly clean. completly negative. whereas cassie= 60% alcohol, nicole= 96% alcohol. they even tested me for tylenol. also negative."

Why the hell are you still getting in trouble then? They have no proof you did anything wrong other than skip school. They didnt even catch you at the house.

 

Just make sure to always tell the truth, if you dont, it can only get worse. And they should know that this bri person has some extreme issues and they shouldent believe her lies.

 

So, I wish you the best of luck.

 

when they found us they said my pupils were dialated. I know i was sober i was taking care of the other girls. but cassies mom said that we were drinking. i could have taken a chance and lied, but the cops know i took a pill and drank. right now the problem is i dont live in the district. they dont want to deal with me and they dont have to.

[azemkamikaze03]

UMO guilty by association maybe? I never been caught by the cops. Im scared to. Im sorry man.

[jomama10691]

OMG! I can't say anything to comfort you' date=' just... hang in there man and glad to hear that you're trying to help Cassie. Oh, and don't lie and don't do anything to give the cops another reason to give you a ticket, OK? But I'm agreeing with Mouse, they have no proof you drank alcohol, so why are you still going to court?[/quote']

 

cause cassies mom ratted us all out and i admitted to having whiskey. this was before i was tested.

[Friðbjörn]

Wow, I hope you get through this...

 

all I can say is...wow...and that Brianna's a bitch

[UnhingedMouse0]

Well, just keep on being honest then and hopefully things wont be too bad.

[jomama10691]

I want to give up so badly

[azemkamikaze03]

Yo just hang in there. Dont let em break your spirit. If you really want to get out of it look to God. I did. Before when I used to like not care about him when i used to like think my mom was a retard for being a catholic thats when my life was really fucked up. Just dont give up. Hang tight. You'll be fine. Might just be some community service hours, or a few days in juvi. Just dont let yourself get down.

[ImTheOneThatFalls]

Wow just wow. And then my mom wants to put me away just cause i dont take shit from anyone.

[stupidsoul1]

*gives joelle a slap across the face*

 

give up?? what the fuck is wrong with you woman

 

after all you went through you are just giving up?

 

if you wanna talk about anything u can talk to me on msn, but dont give up now.

[Hyper]

meh, i know this isnt' anything soothing.. but you can't get manslaughter. nothing that happens to any of the girls is your fault. you gotta understand that. everyone did what they did of their own will, you didn't have to talk someone into doing something, or force them to take stuff did you?

 

the whole raped thing.. since you weren't you have nothing to worry about on that matter..

 

and yeah.. the alcohol.. no *huge* trouble can come from it, you might get some priveleges taken away ie. lisence til 18 or 21, but that's a whole lot better than going to prison for life.

[jomama10691]

i dont care about much of it i really hope i dont get kicked out of my school. thats because i dont live in the district. theyre hassling me because i dont live in my apartment 100% even though we pay taxes. shit i dunno.

[immortal89]

ok holy fuck but you goota stick with what you have and wait for the results, have faith in your life and if you do get kicked outt skool, htere are other skools man. We all make mistakes and with whati have been reading, i dont think you should get harassed by the skool

[LPGirl]

omg poor you! that bri is whore and she should fucking die! please dont give hun, im sure is a few months this will of all pasted. dont lose your head now, keep your chin up and you'll get threw it, everybody is here for you.

[jomama10691]

*gives joelle a slap across the face*

 

give up?? what the fuck is wrong with you woman

 

after all you went through you are just giving up?

 

if you wanna talk about anything u can talk to me on msn, but dont give up now.

 

that actually made a lot of sense in a very straight forward blunt way. I dont want to give into the pigs or to bri.

 

ok holy fuck but you goota stick with what you have and wait for the results' date=' have faith in your life and if you do get kicked outt skool, htere are other skools man. We all make mistakes and with whati have been reading, i dont think you should get harassed by the skool[/quote']

 

Its just terrible not knowing. i cant concentrate on anything. i havent eaten or slept since it happend 4 days ago and i have so much homework to catch up on already.

 

omg poor you! that bri is whore and she should fucking die! please dont give hun' date=' im sure is a few months this will of all pasted. dont lose your head now, keep your chin up and you'll get threw it, everybody is here for you.[/quote']

 

im trying to look to the future but its really fuckin hard when i dont even think i have one.

[brokenangel]

you gotta calm down and take it step by step. sounds easier than it is, i know, but just follow the plan...just do what you have to do (the whole court thing and dealing with the suicidal girl). you know you were wrong, which is gonna make the WHOLE fuckin process a hellofa lot easier to deal with.

 

and it's up to you what kind of future you want. don't give up.

[Dark Angel]

Keep going for it. Don't give up, it'll be over and yes, there is a future, whether you see it or not, but remember this:

Your future is what you make of it.

OK? Now hold your head up high and take this problem step by step. It'll be over before you know it.

[Sygy]

hey, you said that Bri lied to the cops! That means that you can prosicute her for slander. That means that Bri, if found out that she was lying, can be in a shitload of trouble....

[jomama10691]

No man bri is kissing ass. shes giving them a shitload of information and the more information you give cops, the less trouble you get in. They've caught her in 2 lies already. She didnt even get a ticket! The cops aren't going to believe that shes lying because cassie has a major record. I think shes had 78 offenses since the 6th grade. Theyre not going to believe anything she says. My word isn't worth much.

 

Dark Angel, i know i have a future. If i get kicked out of this school, my future is fucked and there will be no point.

 

I just wish i could have a second chance.

 

But thanks you guys are helping me a lot. all of my friends have turned their back on me. They call me a stupid fucking dumbass. i think they think that by telling me that everything will get better?..... i dunno. They dont care about the story. they heard "i got arrested" and its "your such an idiot i know your smarter then that blah blah blah your such a huge rebel now whats happened to you" FUCK they dont even care to know that im being accused of so much shit thats not true right now.

[majinkamahl]

Joelle;

 

Your own strength and determination through these trials will be your most valued asset. You need to show your friends that you are not scared about the proceedings. Let the cops know the truth. Remind them of your clean record. No alcohol in your system. Tell the cops you were not raped. There are tests to prove that you were not raped. If you can prove your innocence about the alcohol and the rape, then why would any logical person have reason to disbelieve you? NONE. I wish you the best of luck. As it has been brought up before, I will stress; you are guilty by association. These friends are no good for you. They will only get you in the same situation again and again. Drunk, high, raped and in handcuffs the next day. They are dragging you down with them. Get away from all of it as soon as possible. Find a hobby totally away from the partying/deviant scene. I know what I am talking about.

 

Remember one thing: if this is the worst it has ever been for you, it can ONLY get better. You have much to look forward to. You are a beautiful young woman with a prospectively bright future ahead of you. You know you did wrong, and you know how to do right. You keep yourself on the path of good, and you will reap the rewards. You will grow up to be a successful businesswoman or model or whatever, and those crack addict drunkard friends of yours will be the ones asking you for spare change in the streets.

 

I wish you the best. You have my faith. Joelle, it is in you to transcend this. <3 Take care of yourself.

 

 

~Aaron

 

 

 

xo

 

 

 

 

 

REP ME!!

[brokenangel]

"God doesn't give you more than you can carry"

 

I'm not a christian, but maybe this helps...

I don't know if you believe in God..and even if you don't...whatever higher power you believe in..whoever you think is always watching you..it's taking care of ya.