Phranka/Franka's Journal

[By_My-elf]

Hey Phranka whats up?

Been a while....Well

just lettin you know miss ya bud.

 

Hope your Therapy goes well...I got over that shy crap their =p

All I done was didnt care xD

 

Well seriously though...Glad to see you here again.

[Phranka]

Haha for once I'm on lpf at school!

anyways.. I dunno why I'm shy.. I just am

 

and I dunno how long it'll be, I know though that I'm prolly improving faster than the rest of my group.. hopefully I'll be outta there before summer

[Friðbjörn]

that's good to hear ^^

[MrsBennington-Delson]

yeah! good luck!

[Phranka]

Sooo what's new with me.

 

I'm doing pretty good at the group. doing my best to get out of there as soon as possible >.<

*cries* my best groupmate is leaving in a few weeks that sucks.

 

I'm going to Pinkpop WHOOHOO! can't wait

[MrsBennington-Delson]

Sooo what's new with me.

 

I'm doing pretty good at the group. doing my best to get out of there as soon as possible >.<

*cries* my best groupmate is leaving in a few weeks that sucks.

 

I'm going to Pinkpop WHOOHOO! can't wait

good to hear that ur doin fine...

 

have fun at Pinkpop :thumbsup:

[Friðbjörn]

is it Kevin that's leavin?

[Phranka]

Yup, it is.. Kevin is my buddy, I have the most fun with him.

He's going to Pinkpop too actually, which is cool ^^

[Friðbjörn]

ooh maybe you'll see him ^^

[Jeezy]

Great that you go to Pinkpop...have fun there...

[Phranka]

Soooo let's tell something new.

 

Well progress is always going on with me so that's not much of a problem..

A thing that is on my mind is that my favorite groupmember, I will not type his full name. is leaving next week

it hurts me really bad, when I'm with him I don't show it.. but the minute he leaves I start getting emotional.

I think I might have feelings for him.

 

Another groupmember of mine. Has told me something that really confused me..

Me: "It's really boring without him"

She: "Yea, he réálly liked you, you know.. I being serious.. no jokes, I heard it somewhere :/"

 

and I don't know if I should believe and trust her cause:

-She's queen gossip & rumours when it comes to topics like: couples, love, matchmaking, boys, boyfriends.

-I doubt he'd ever tell HER that

-And if it's true, why hasn't he taken action?

 

well aside from that I'm really gonna miss him so I'm writing him a personal goodbye message that goes like this:

Dear .......,

Without you everything at the group is incomplete..

Who will keep order between the two seperate tables at diner?

Who will keep the groupleaders busy with useless questions?

Who will make me laugh everyday?

Who am I supposed to tease?

Am I the only one now who has never wandered the hallways at night?

I am really gonna miss you,

Your hiccup laugh,

and even your bouncing golf balls on your floor.

so I hope you know, and never forget me.

Good luck..

Greets

Xxx Franka

 

I'll see what happeneds along the week.. I'll keep you up (hopefully)

[Friðbjörn]

I love that you still have that quote lol

 

but yeah...it's a tricky situation

hope for the best when he gets the goodbye

[Phranka]

haha yea it was a great effing quote xD even though no one here would understand

 

thanks for reply.. you've already helped me by listening to me talking about him all the time on msn.. (:

[Friðbjörn]

haha

that's true unfortunately...well I personally though also like having something only me and you know what's about lol

 

 

 

that's what friends are for ^_^ glad to help

[Phranka]

and I can't believe you still have that sig that I made for you haha.

o yea I love inside jokes with just anyone.. they're evil but yea.. they're a guilty pleasure : D

 

 

I don't think I've ever been in such big denial about being in love with a person haha.. talking about my groupmember again.

[Friðbjörn]

very it's a sig I really love

I did shelve it for a really long time though...

 

guilty pleasures haha

[Phranka]

yea that word is like.. a guilty pleasure to me haha just kidding.. it's a word I seem to be using quite alot lately o.O

[Friðbjörn]

lmfao

is there something I should know about?

[Phranka]

no.. there is not m'dear

[Friðbjörn]

lol

well...I tried

[Phranka]

Man could I go more crazy.. yesterday I broke down crying.. just now at home.. >.<

[Phranka]

So. it was his goodbye-evening.. at first I was going at it the humor/frustrating way.. making jokes and showing how shit I feel in the new group.

I almost (for fun) kicked a couple of tables over. people were shocked : o haha

the whole group went for a walk to get an icecream.. in the middle of it I started crying cause of Kevin.

somewhere after that I was still crying so he came to me and threw an arm around me and I was kinda pressed into his body xD (god that felt good).

we went for a walk around the place just the two of us. I gave him my goodbye message that went like this:

 

Dear Kevin

Without you everything at the group is incomplete..

Who will keep order between the two seperate tables at diner?

Who will keep the groupleaders busy with useless questions?

Who will make me laugh everyday?

Who am I supposed to tease?

Am I the only one now who has never wandered the hallways at night?

I am really gonna miss you,

Your hiccup laugh,

and even your bouncing golf balls on your floor.

so I hope you know, and won'tforget me.

Good luck..

Greets

Xxx Franka

 

with quotes and funny things around it that just describes us two.

he liked it and said: "if I ever feel bad I'll read this ^^"

we hugged a couple of times before he left and he promised me that if I ever need him I can call him or email him anytime. ^^.

god I love him

[Friðbjörn]

really bittersweet moment...

[Phranka]

it did end a sad chapter of my life.. I feel relieved (:

[Friðbjörn]

so when you back home for good?

 

god I miss summer night chats...