Phranka/Franka's Journal

[Greyfoxx]

lmao, A new vic eh???? look around and u shall get one eventually

[Phranka]

haha enough.. yeah.. but I must find a slightly better one than the ones before..

 

And he will kick me down haha.. I'm looking so forward to tihs ¬¬

[Greyfoxx]

lol, yes, at least u have something to look foreword to

[Phranka]

haha sorry I'm being sarcastic ¬¬

 

Or I want dominic to freakin fall in love with me again..

or I need a new victim.. who I will force to love me ¬¬

 

"It'll blow you away, You're gonna fall for me, You're gonna fall for me"

[Greyfoxx]

id try to get him to like u agian.

[Phranka]

mwell I've tried talking to him on msn.. he just ignores me.. well why don't you throw me out of your list if you like me..

 

And mostly I'm just sitting in the bus, hoping he would somehow take that bus and see me..

 

or if I go to my friend's I hope I'll see him on the way..

 

me naive, I think.. If he could have loved me once, then why wouldn't he ever again..

If he asked me now I would have said Yes instantly.. not because I know what my friend would say.. but because I'm not so shy anymore..

 

and I don't wanna change what happend 2 years ago.. I'd rather have him now..

 

though jeroen took me off him.. loving no one got me back on him..

[Greyfoxx]

hmmmm thats interesting, I think that he is stupid....

 

*just had a thought*

 

how do u know that he has stopped loving you?

[Phranka]

Well I asked him after the incidents.. he just said yes...

but not so believeable..

haven't asked him now cause that would be weird after 2 years..

like.. remember me I'm that girl you loved 2 years a go.. is there I chance you still love me?

[Greyfoxx]

lol, your right, that would be a bit odd/ desperate. and u dont wanna seem desperate.

[Phranka]

I talked to a boy yesterday, though he was drunk and horny(lol he knew how to control himself though)

 

this is the talk, translated reallly bad I guess, maybe it can be unclear

or maybe you think he's talking bull

 

Franka: I have nothing positive to tell about myself

and I get the opposite from everyone else

Franka: Hm well, I only get I from people on the internet

and Thát's not where I want to hear it from

LBR: geheheh

LBR: Don't you have friends?

LBR: xD

Franka: Yeah they say enough positive

stuff about me, but they are all girls

LBR: lol

LBR: Don't you have boy-friends?

Franka: No boys don't seem to find me interesting

LBR: maybe you have to work on your self-image, you should be satisfied on how you think

like, you should think you are attractive to guys

Franka: maybe I thought like that some time,

but I thought it doesn't make no sense anymore

Franka: I don't talk much

LBR: Do you feel like you're with the people?

Franka: ehmm..

LBR: or do you have the feeling you are different and you stay quiet for that

Franka: well, I hang out with people but I don't feel

I mean much to them

LBR: you have a lack of confidence

LBR: You think boy's don't like you?

Franka: yes, but I don't really

express myself from the inside, and how can they like my personality

If I never talk

LBR: You can see some even if you don't speak

but no they don't really know your personality

if you don't talk

LBR: It's not the way you look, you are a good looking girl

LBR: Your clothing tells that you like rock a little

Franka: nah, no one actually knows about that

LBR: you can see it a little though

Franka: yeah maybe at home..

Franka: I don't try to be gothic or any other kind..

but I don't always wanna be displayed as the innocent girl

LBR: but really, you are a good looking girl

that's not the problem

you should open up more I guess, against boys

Franka: I try to be myself

cause I know other people don't see me in skater/gothic clothes

and I don't need to be.. but people see me as the innocent girl and sometimes

I do the opposite unconsiusly

LBR: I think people dress that way

cause they still need to find themselves

and they think they are themselves if they dress that way

but underneath all that there is a sweet girl

with normal thoughts

you shouldn't let your music control your life

when you are young.

your youth is the base of your life, just be yourself

try to think against the "steriotypes"

then you can see things differently

and you'll be the real you

Franka: Yes, I do that..

Franka: though I don't really know who I am

LBR: shy ness changes on it's own into being spontanious

LBR: you change on your own, don't try to do it yourself

LBR: your life is like it gets.. you shouldn't try

and try to live it like you want it

LBR: well, I'm going to sleep

LBR: just be yourself

LBR: I'll see ya... goodnight (K)xxx

Franka: bye

 

Hm I guess everything he said was true, what do you think?

[Black_Angel]

I have the same situation with a guy who I don't talk to at school but always talk to online.. its so frustrating because I'm too shy to go up and talk to him at school, and so is he. He asked me out.. like 2 years ago and I said no becuase I didn't really know him that well, I regret it now because I've grown to really like him. Everyone says that its obvious he likes me but I just can't believe them because I'm so afraid of making a fool of myself if I tell him how I feel and he actually doesn't :s

 

I'm always the quiet, shy girl in the corner... I have a close group of friends but thats about it.. no boyfriends.. guys don't really talk to me much.

 

My advice is to go for it, get chatting to him and ask him about what happened. Get onto a general conversation about love, relationships etc. Don't be like me, seize your chance before it goes away =]

[Phranka]

haha no It's a long time since i've talked to Dominic, and Jeroen..

1,5 years ago Jeroen was just like me for some reason.. but now he's changed.. he has a life now..

lol I remember at parties when he was drunk.. that's when he was nice to me for some reason..

 

I even have conversations left on my computer with him.. everytime I read it, I'm laughing because he was so funny and nice..

 

But this is mainly about Dominic, I don't love Jeroen anymore

[Black_Angel]

Oooh I get it now.. was a little confused :s

 

I'm really bad at advice giving, but I guess you should just attempt to talk to him again, even though it will be quite hard... heh I dunno, I just keep contradicting myself haha.

 

Ignore me :o

[Phranka]

haha I'm not so good with advice myself.. I guess many people will tell me to just talk to him huh..

 

pics:

1st one: Dominic :/

2st one: My group c: I'm the one with the black sweater and blue jeans..

3st one: Jeroen. At the turntables ¦D He wants to be a DJ

4st one: My mentor daddy, class-teacher.. Ackie (Mr.Ackermans)

 

haha D and J aren't hot I know... O.o

[Charmish]

cute boys, franka ^^

and big class :O you look good on the group photo

[Phranka]

haha.. now well I love dominic's green eyes c':

 

What do you guys thinkk?

Of that what happend 2 years agon on the previous page..

Or that talk ^

Or the pics ¦D

[By_My-elf]

hey phranka what are you talking aboot now

you talking about your other problem's now?

[Phranka]

yeah see this post..

 

http://www.linkinparkforums.com/showpost.php?p=307498&postcount=92

[By_My-elf]

oh yeah that's too bad

well why did oyu even care?

just askin not too sound mean

[Phranka]

Well.. Cause I was so lucky being loved by someone for once.. And it went all wrong ¬¬

[By_My-elf]

aaawww that's too bad how did it even start?

on the internet

[Phranka]

yeah, it did.. there weren't even love feelings back then.. but I guess he really liked me..

[By_My-elf]

oh yeah who neglected who?

[Phranka]

Well, When I finally gave in (the same day he asked me to be his girlfriend)

and said I loved him to.. he turned back again.. because.. when I saw him the next time after that.. He was like nothing ever happend..

[By_My-elf]

whoa man that is one bad thing too do

and sorry that happened too you

hope it didn't scar you