By_My-$elf's journal

[By_My-elf]

Yeah it was a pretty good book

I got stuck to it right away

[Sygy]

hello darling,

how be u today?

i ran out of hash T.T

 

errrr

[By_My-elf]

LOl Me I'm just tired and a bit pissed off right now -_-

so yeah I feel asleep and woke up after with everyone being so fucking loud

causeing me to have a big headache eeerrrrrrrr...My dad really had to pound

on my door the asshole

[Shadowed Heart]

o.0 seeing as my mind doesn't have the capasity to read all that, how are you Shaun?

 

EDIT: ok, ok, I read your LAST post. I'm sorry *hug*

[By_My-elf]

yeah it's okay I just feel a bit pissed right now

so yeah I have a head ache too -_- god my head hurts

why was I the one to have such a loud Fam eeerrrr....

[Greyfoxx]

i feel ya, i have the same problem....people being WAY too loud sucks

[Shadowed Heart]

*whacks Shaun's family*

[By_My-elf]

aaahhhh I feel a bit better now cause everyone left

Thankk god, Now I could sit around and get ready for work in piece

yeah and I'm thirsty and still have a headache

[By_My-elf]

Well yesterday was good

Oh yeah almost forgot UPDATE!!! ^^;;;

Well yesterday good I didn't feel like going to work or even seein my friends

but out of all days when I wanna be all By My Self

they have to come over here >_<

I felt d IDK I just want to be alone and ?I still feel like that

Well I have a lonely Nature can't blame my-self

I'm just a shadow to everyone I know -_-

nothing more I'm so sick of like I'm going insane i

and I don't know why I feel happy but

at the same time a hint of insanity I could feel

It's overwhelming I feel it slowly grasping on me

but oh well I knew this day was commin soon

So I'm not suprised and th day I do go insane I won't be suprised

oh well yesterday my friends came to pull me out

I didn't want to go but I just went out for them

didn't want to though.....

Well can't really make much of a update right now

I'm just feelin lost right now....hopefully I'll go back to normal soon

I hope ..........

[Jeezy]

Oh...poor Shaun....man...you gotta keep your head up and don't be so negative...

[By_My-elf]

LOL Thanks I usually Am happpy

I was yesterday but all of a sudden

I felt so shitty at the same time IDK

can't explain it -_-

oh well I'm okay a biut now

I feel like i usually do.

so this is as good as it gets for me...

[Jeezy]

Yeah...I know that feelings...sometimes it can be kinda hard but someday it's gonna be better again...

[By_My-elf]

O.o Me I just feel really happy nothing bugs me

and at the same time somthing bugs me

but I never show it to anyone

no-one knows when I fake it not even my closest cousin

[Jeezy]

Yeah...I know some people that are realy good at hidding their feelings...

[Phranka]

yea I can get emotional but mostly I'm good at that too..

[By_My-elf]

I love hiding my feelings

I kee[p it locked up all inside

and somehow I just turned out fine

I'm not suicidal (Last year doesn't count XP)

and I'm happy and sad inside at the same time

 

But my some of the people I work with call me a walking mystery

Cause they don't know if I'm mad sad or happy

like I looked happy but I was mad and I was happy but I looked mad

I was acting retarded and ppl thought I was a nutcase (XD I know I'am though )

[Jeezy]

Sometimes people that hide their feelings can suddenly explode and become murder or go amok or something like that...

[Phranka]

haha no one knows anything about me at school.. even my friends know little..

 

ya i'm not suicidal either.. some people think I'm depressed and suicidal.. :S

[By_My-elf]

O.o I wonder if I would ever do that O.O

Sometimes I explode a doctor called me and my cousin walking time bombs

At first I didn't get it I asked her what it meant

(This was when i was depressed)

she said it's when someones depressed and they could just go off any moment

and either: Go crazy and kill ppl or just kill them selves anywhere

Then I just stared at her blankly after that -_-

and she said your such an asshole

I like doin that to my friends when they go and sday things like that to mee

[Phranka]

haha lol I'd never kill someone.. I'm too sweet

[Jeezy]

hahaha...Shaun is the Natural Born Killer...haha...just kiddin

[Phranka]

sooo.. Shaun I like your sig.. your getting better and better :thumbsup:

[By_My-elf]

LOL kool man I'm gonna go weiner (however you spell it -_-;;...) roasting tonight

*Does Happy dance* and also

We're going throughn these trails in the woods where we're gonna go

and we usually see somthing their

[Shadowed Heart]

Hello Sweetheart How are you today?

[Phranka]

wtf.. tall black figure