By_My-$elf's journal

[keza]

hey hey shaun boy *ruffles hair*

how are yew my bessie friend...?

im so bored entertain me^^

luff luff

x x x x

[By_My-elf]

LOL sorry but I was making a sig

glad you dropped by Keza

I'm just being Retarded right now

[By_My-elf]

Today Suck's >.<

First everything was startin off fine I felt

good then of course this is why I can't stay happy

My DAD I hate the fucking asshole!!!! serioulsly

he says he changed everyone in my fam

believes him but I don't see any improvement >:\

he's still the same asshole he was 10 years ago

I told him that I hated him already my whole life I

always update him on that everyyear or month >.<

I'm just gettin sick of his shit everyday

if he see'e me happy he always

tries to do somthing to make me mad at everyone in this

god forbid house well it worked that asshole...

Edit: forgot to add

my whole life he's beaten me down

my teen years he's teared me down

and now he' just being a plaine asshole >_<

sometimes I think We'd be better off without him

I mean my mom was the one who raised us our whole life

he was never their he was only their every month

just to get money and take off again to go drink >.<

and he'd always come home

make us stay ion our rooms even though we're starving

but as I grew older my pain just turned to pue hatred for him

He knows it too,sometimes I think

he just wants me outta his life

I told him that why does he keep doing this

I'm getting sick of it

all he did was stare and took off

the asshole......my mom always asks me

where did I get my act from I just tell her look at dad

and once I told him on the phone your not my dad

your nothing to me just another broke down asshole

you hate me I hate you

We'll never see eye to eye

so just stay away from me and my life

but he still tries to stick his nose where it doesn't belong >.<

[diana]

Damn, I'm so sorry to hear that...*hugs you tightly*

And I can understand how you feel...

It's somethin like that with me & my sis...

Family means nothin to me...

Well, only my mom...I love her...

 

However, hope that you'll feel better again soon... :thumbsup:

[Jeezy]

Poor Shaun I hope it'll be better...

[By_My-elf]

Thanks you too everytime

I go on MSN or Yahoo I'm

always getting cheered up ^^

[crazy robster]

Today Suck's >.<

First everything was startin off fine I felt

good then of course this is why I can't stay happy

My DAD I hate the fucking asshole!!!! serioulsly

he says he changed everyone in my fam

believes him but I don't see any improvement >:\

he's still the same asshole he was 10 years ago

I told him that I hated him already my whole life I

always update him on that everyyear or month >.<

I'm just gettin sick of his shit everyday

if he see'e me happy he always

tries to do somthing to make me mad at everyone in this

god forbid house well it worked that asshole...

Edit: forgot to add

my whole life he's beaten me down

my teen years he's teared me down

and now he' just being a plaine asshole >_<

sometimes I think We'd be better off without him

I mean my mom was the one who raised us our whole life

he was never their he was only their every month

just to get money and take off again to go drink >.<

and he'd always come home

make us stay ion our rooms even though we're starving

but as I grew older my pain just turned to pue hatred for him

He knows it too,sometimes I think

he just wants me outta his life

I told him that why does he keep doing this

I'm getting sick of it

all he did was stare and took off

the asshole......my mom always asks me

where did I get my act from I just tell her look at dad

and once I told him on the phone your not my dad

your nothing to me just another broke down asshole

you hate me I hate you

We'll never see eye to eye

so just stay away from me and my life

but he still tries to stick his nose where it doesn't belong >.<

 

 

OMG I wonder how can anyone treat his own children like this!!! I mean you are always so nice to everyone and really such a wonderful guy, it's such a shame that you have to go through all this shit in your life!!! My darling...at least I'm glad that you find some kind of comfort in chatting with all of us on MSN. We all love you you know that and you can count on us! Take care OK? Love,Jojo :thumbsup:

[By_My-elf]

Thanks alot ^.^ alot better now

and also us two will never get along -.-

trust me I tried both of us never

give eachother a chance

but Of course I'm strong in life and emotions

I mean My mom was strong for us which made me like that in a way

if it wasn't for her I'd givin up onlife long ago ^.^

[By_My-elf]

Heres somemore but this shit sucks ass

XD I was just fucking around

I keep on trying on making Ff sigs

but they don't turn out thye way I want them too.

http://img320.imageshack.us/img320/4369/ff71lw.png

[Vash_the_Stampede]

If I may suggest, try a bigger canvas size. That way everything's not smashed together.

Ya know?

[By_My-elf]

Yeah thanks I'll try that later on

but right now busy my niece's B-day

once it's over I'll try it out

thanks alot

I think I'm to dumb to even realise it XD

[By_My-elf]

LOL today was great ^.^

I had a great time well besides my dad bein an asshole

but thats typical commin from him -.-

and I'm just here quickly I tried updating a few times before

but I ended up doing something -_-;

and today I was just glad didn't really have time to

be pissed off cause it was my nieces B-day w00t

I would never miss it well now anyways

cause she was barely here her whole life -.-

and I just helped out

my friend finally came by when it was almost my nice's B-day

so I just wached advent children quickly with him ^.^

then kicked him out -_-

jk XD he had some food and then took off (No I didn't kick him out -_-; )

and then just ended up staying home cause

I hadve nothing to do and trying to quit smoking up

and now that I mentioned it I feel like having some

but naw not going to do it -_-

it's hard fopr me cause I've been doing it most my life since 9

and since that worsened my brain I have a learning disability to top it off

thats why I act like this and I can except the fact mostt ppl

around me call me retarded

thats Why I call my-self Retarded I can admit it to my-self XD

[Jeezy]

You can stop smoking if you realy set your mind to it...

[By_My-elf]

You can stop smoking if you realy set your mind to it...

 

LOL thanks Alot I hope I can hold up too -_-

but everytime I quit all of a sudden

everyone asks me -_-;;

once I crack and I start again

no-one asks me XD

so I think you get it

[Jeezy]

Maybe you should hang out with some other people...

[By_My-elf]

hhhmmm IDK

I mean like I'm anti-social =\

and my friends are all I got if

It wasn't for them I wouldn't be here right now

heh wouldda gave up on life long ago -.-

[Jeezy]

Yeah...I'm kinda anti-social, too...I started therapy because of it yesterday...Hopefully it will help...

[Phranka]

sorry just came in XD.. therapy? good thinking.. I'm in therapy cause of the contact problem..

[Jeezy]

sorry just came in XD.. therapy? good thinking.. I'm in therapy cause of the contact problem..

 

Does it help?...I really hope it will work out for me...

[Phranka]

well in some ways.. going to france with 15 classmates and few strangers (3 weeks without parents) helped ALOT. :/

[Jeezy]

Wow 3 weeks...that's cool... I'd love to do that...

[By_My-elf]

eerrr Hijacking again Phranka O.o XD jk

well yeah I have an anti-social problem where

I snap at a person when they try to come and talk to me

I trigger it my-self though I'm not all that good

at making friends -.-

but I don't really mind the lonliness in life it does some good

I like being alone all the time I've been alone

for a few days but my friend came over it was good to see him

but I wasn't really in the mood for any of my friends Crap >.<

but I just let him stay

well cause he's a friend....-_-;

[Sygy]

*hugs* poor shaun and dont be so god dam anti-social!!!!!

[By_My-elf]

LOl I can't help ;_;

but Thanks for dropping by Sygy O.o

[Sygy]

O.o< dont give me that look!!!! muhahahaha i dont smoke weed anymore T.T