By_My-$elf's journal

[Sygy]

your exciting life!!! you blaze the whole time UNFAIR!!!

ps ive just posted a pic of myself go go tell me im pretty so i feel good about myself...PLWEASE!!! xxx

[crazy robster]

Hehe...Shaun dear! I envy you!! You and your exciting life!! Honest, I'm not kidding you, OK? Also....Incredible signature!!! Love it love it love it!!! *hugs*

[Shadowed Heart]

I haven't talked to you forever Shaun. ='( *huglesnuggle* How've you been without me.

 

XD I love you Shaun, ttyl.

[Jeezy]

Sounds realy exciting....I like your new sig...it's cool

[By_My-elf]

JOJO-HA Thanks I don't find it all that exitintg don't know why probably cause I do it everyday -.-;

Riss-Hey Riss I've been fine thanks for dropping by it has been a while o.o

Sygy-HEY I'll check it right away

Jeezy-LOL thanks my new sig O.o? Oh okay LOL almost forgot I had a new one -.-

but yeah I ws fooling around on psp9 yesterday and thats how it came out

[Sygy]

hey shaun thanx for calling me hot! lol

[By_My-elf]

Hey it's NP and I'm not kidding

And that comment wasn't cause you told me to

[Sygy]

er thanks..O.o

 

how was ur day? did you get high...again?

[By_My-elf]

LMAO nope the Day is just beggining -.-;

It's only 12:00 Here So

I still have all day to get high

Cause I only get high during the night o.o

[Sygy]

hahah when i use to get high i did it first thing in the morning lol..only 12? it 6 om here wow!!! major time difference!!! smexy!!!

[By_My-elf]

Whoa that is a big diffrence OoO I'm still tired too -.-;

but I better get goin soon I have to Clean up again o.o;

I'm just suprised I"m up this early for a few weeks already

I've been waking up at strange times too...

[Sygy]

its all the drugs cuming back to get you!!!!!

[By_My-elf]

It could be o.o;

IDK I've been trying to quit lately.

And Also I've been doin it to long that I Can't stay away from it..

[Sygy]

shit, sounds like you have a bit of an addiction going on!!!

[By_My-elf]

I Know it's an addiction

I Realised that 5 years ago.......

...I mean everyday I try to find ways to get it...

Sometimes I amaze my-self that I manage to get some..

[Sygy]

you deserve a slap for that! im ashamed of you, you realized you have but you still keep on smoking it!!!! *SLAP*

[By_My-elf]

Yeah I guess I deserve that

I don't know how many times I told my-self I was going to quit

My longest is *Drum rolls* A WEEK

 

 

(Atleast I tried -.-

[Sygy]

im going to get harsh now *advanced warning*

 

sometimes even when you try your hardest its still not good enough! addiction isnt phyical its all emotion. if you lie to yourself over and over again telling ur self that u cant quit then believe me you wont be able to. perhaps if you got ur self into a more positive mind set u would be able to quit,

[By_My-elf]

Yeah I almost did before when I tried that

but I just was too Cynicall and thansk I'll keep it in mind

I have to go now....C'ya

[Sygy]

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[By_My-elf]

EEererrr So Tired -.-;

Okay went to bed aorund 4:30am and woke up around 10am than again at 2pm

Well yesterday just walked aorund played basketball with my friends

we all just walked aorund after that talking away

Well not me I wasn't in the mood to tlak to my friends

I just felt like telling them to Fuck off......

Than just wentr home some asked to come told'em to fuck off

didn't do much yesterday just Slept early

Oh and got high....=\ see ntohign special

[crazy robster]

Hey, Shaun!!! Well it seems we're both going through a period of boredom cause I don't do anything special these days either...The most exciting thing I do is chatting with my buddies from LPF! Love your sig and you know what? The text is unbelievable!!! The best you have made so far!! *hugs* Jojo

[By_My-elf]

Yeah thanks I do alotta things more exiting than LPF

but I just try to drp by for a few hours a day atleast =\

and My Sig I was just fooling around with PSP9 I wasn't going to use it

Than next thing you know outta foolin around I made this -.-;

[stupidsoul1]

You say im always on the go, you seem to have quite alot to do yourself.

 

Sometimes i would rather go off and get high then doing half the stuff i do now, most of it is just responsibility, i know when im older and i want to play bass for a living or photograph stuff i need to put the work in now...but sometimes i would give the world just to play basketball and get high then go to work when everyone else is at a party just to pay for art equipment and bass lessons.

[By_My-elf]

Wghoa yeah you are right well

me I'm on the go but with alotta free time

I have fun and everything it's just that

my lonely nature causes me from having fun with friends

but I still try to bring out laughter and show'em I'm havin fun

when I tell'em off they know that I wanna be alone and just leave me alone

they don't think anyhtign of it like he's such an asshole (they do but not really)

I'm glad they know I need my space and need to be alond -.-;