Another one bites the dust

[jomama10691]

Nothing can go right for an extended amount of time

 

i guess its better that im dealing with regular teenage girl drama

 

instead of law and order drama

 

but fuck im sobbing right now

 

I've been going out with Dan for a while now

He helped me through a lot

with the being arrested

and suspended

and domestic violence in the household

 

hes always there

 

we argue a lot but we've been working on it

 

he tells me he loves me and he wants to marry me or atleast be engaged until i turn old enough to get married one day

 

its a big decision, but i must admit i love the idea

 

for me i dont know why, but marriage doesnt seem like that huge of a deal anymore. i dont know how i feel but in present time, i adore it.

 

last night he calls and tells me he went to this party like thing

 

but he wasnt drinking or doing anything

 

and these 2 girls, the ones i actually got arrested with, nicole and marina, were drinking and taking pills and all this shit. it got me kind of jealous that they got to hang out with him but i live far away and only see him when im in school. so whatever. but then he tells me that marina starts hitting on him, and he said he was about to slap that bitch. so then i sent her a message on myspace:

 

 

 

----------------- Original Message -----------------

From: Average Joe

Date: Dec 26, 2005 2:46 PM

 

so i heard you were touching my man

 

whats up with that shit

 

why would you do that to me?

 

 

 

 

----------------- Original Message -----------------

 

RE: No Subject

Body: wat?!?!?!?!?

he was hitting on me

he tried taking off my shirt

he unzipped my pants

he was touching both of us

he tried fucking Nicole

 

 

----------------- Original Message -----------------

From: Average Joe

Date: Dec 26, 2005 4:16 PM

 

are you serious?

 

tell me more

 

----------------- Original Message -----------------

 

I'd rather not

just forget about Dan

dont say I told u

 

 

 

 

 

I cant believe he would do this to me and i punched a motherfucking hole in my wall and im so incredibly upset and disappointed with a sprained fucking hand now

 

and the only urge i have

 

is to break it

 

and bash someones fucking head in

 

no i do not have anger management issues

 

yet

 

i dont know who to believe

 

and im getting really fucking sick and tired of having to fight this battle

 

who is telling the truth

common sense leads me to this conclusion

but why would this happen?

why would they say that?

im doubting myself

and theres nothing else i can motherfucking do

[Hyper]

so you believed the one chick right away? over "your man"? looks like you aren't into him as much as you think. and the fact that he actually called and told you what happened says a lot. if he really did that stuff, he wouldn't have been the one to put the whole party into your mine.

 

sorry to say, but i honestly dislike girls like you.. that believe something anyone says about their boyfriend.. without even talking to the guy.

[stupidsoul1]

No offence but dont believe her.

A member of this forum told me over the phone that my boyfriend asked her out, it made me feel like shit but after all that it wasn't true.

 

If you have been through so much together,why believe one stupid message?

[Pheonix791989]

you shouldnt believe what you hear with out going directly to the source.

[jomama10691]

so you believed the one chick right away? over "your man"? looks like you aren't into him as much as you think. and the fact that he actually called and told you what happened says a lot. if he really did that stuff, he wouldn't have been the one to put the whole party into your mine.

 

sorry to say, but i honestly dislike girls like you.. that believe something anyone says about their boyfriend.. without even talking to the guy.

 

trust me dude for the past hour and a half, ive been calling every single person that hangs out with him because he doesnt have a goddamn cellphone and lives 2 fucking hours away from me

 

you dont think i tried calling him first thing first?

 

i want nothing more then to hear him tell me that that chick is about to be put in check, and shit WILL hit the fan, and rain on her. but i NEED to hear it from him, before i dismiss this.

 

a distraught female will always call the guy first, but if that fails, a place to vent is quite necessary so you are the one jumping to conclusions.

 

and after every single person in my phone doesnt answer, or has there phone off, or is to busy to talk to me, typing my feelings was the next option.

 

so im sorry if you dislike me

 

but the last pathetic thing i need is an internet persona, who means nothing to me but a screen name and location, telling me to chill the fuck out.

 

all this goes to what all of you guys said

 

i am desperatly trying to reach him

 

this only happened like a little fucking while ago

 

this hasnt had a day to play itself out

[Hyper]

trust me dude for the past hour and a half, ive been calling every single person that hangs out with him because he doesnt have a goddamn cellphone and lives 2 fucking hours away from me

 

you dont think i tried calling him first thing first?

 

i want nothing more then to hear him tell me that that chick is about to be put in check, and shit WILL hit the fan, and rain on her. but i NEED to hear it from him, before i dismiss this.

 

a distraught female will always call the guy first, but if that fails, a place to vent is quite necessary so you are the one jumping to conclusions.

 

and after every single person in my phone doesnt answer, or has there phone off, or is to busy to talk to me, typing my feelings was the next option.

 

so im sorry if you dislike me

 

but the last pathetic thing i need is an internet persona, who means nothing to me but a screen name and location, telling me to chill the fuck out.

 

all this goes to what all of you guys said

 

i am desperatly trying to reach him

 

this only happened like a little fucking while ago

 

this hasnt had a day to play itself out

 

mm, this is why when venting you need to tell the *entire* story. no one jumped to conclusions. just going off what you said. you neglected to say that you tried contacting him. however, you still believed that girl without talking to him. so no one here has jumped to conclusions.

 

you even said that you need him to tell you that before you dismiss this. so you're going with guilty until proven innocent. don't believe me? that's fine, cuz you're still doing it.

 

if i, or anyone else here is nothing but an internet persona, screen name, and location, why tell us any of this? yes, i know we're supposed to help you, and i'm trying to, but you've already lashed out at a half witted opinion.

[jomama10691]

alright man i dont want this i love these forums

 

and although my stubborness tells me to lash out on everyone and everything i see, i should really fucking focus on whats happening

 

i just dont see why either of them would lie to me

 

and ive been backstabbed so many times in the past, its fucked up my emotions pretty bad, and im so tired of it. i just want someone i can trust or i swear im going to go fucking mad and start talking to my hand.....

 

again

 

and im QUITE familiar with the innocent until proven guilty

[stupidsoul1]

hehe my emotions are fucked too.

 

well you said it hasn't had a day to pass over yet.

since it is night time over where you are go lie down and think, instead of just lashing out.

make a plan, it probably won't work but it will give you a better feel of the playing field.

hopefully someone will tell him you tried to call and he will call you...

let yourself chill a bit seriously lol, the other day i was going to go to a member of this forums house and make her chew her teeth.

lucky i didn't.

 

so what i am trying to say is try to calm yourself down because the last thing you need is to end up back in the court rooms

[jomama10691]

you chewed teeth? what? lol

 

I should calm down but those are some pretty harsh accusations and its tearing my up inside not being able to talk to him

 

it sucks balls

 

i wish i could lay down or take a nap but im pretty much an insomniac

[stupidsoul1]

You know like punch them in the mouth and make them eat their teeth.

 

Take a walk?

 

oh hmm..i guess this must feel worse then the fight i had with woody.

hopefully you can get into contact with him soon

do you know if she liked him or anything?

[jomama10691]

i get it

 

um yeah i got to talk to him

 

i still feel incomplete

 

like ill never know the truth

 

so im just going to let it go

 

i dont think he would do that to me

 

i dont know if she liked him

i know she was downing pills and drinking a shitload

i know that shes a ho

who had a boyfriend

she cheated on him too

[stupidsoul1]

Maybe she confused him for another guy especially if intoxicated.

*hugs* sorry to hear that =(