Hyper's [JouRnaL] v2

[Hyper]

And now I'll need to actually be able to talk to her lol. She's always surrounded by friends. Why is it the ones that are hardest to talk to are the ones you start to fall for hardest?

[Hyper]

Okay, no real stressful situations from today.

 

I got to go over to my brother's apartment for a while. My mother forced me to come home because of some unifinished homework. On a Sunday. When Monday is a Holiday.

 

I don't have to work tomorrow, so I'll be able to sleep in.

 

My, oh my. What kind of journal entry would this be if it didn't involve a girl?

 

Okay, so one of the girls I've been growing closer to, Erica (the lesbian), has been increasingly talking to me. Ever since I professed my interest in Sam.

 

All I've been able to think of recently is Sam. Thanks to Erica. Now, I'm not saying it's a bad thing, but I don't know if it's a good thing.

 

Sam seems like an awesome girl, but, just the way that I can't get her out of my head is a bad omen. In my opinion at least. What to do, oh what to do.

 

Yeah, so I pretty much hate being single with a passion.

 

I dread wakig up and going to school. Even though a relationship is the only thing I can complain about, it's the only thing that really matters.

 

So on top of that stressful state of mind, I've decided I'm going to buy a car. I have to somehow talk my parents into either matching me or coughing up a good chunk of change that I'll end up repaying. I'm sick of not being completely self dependent. I have a job for the money, but I don't have a sure-fire way to get to work.

 

So yeah, dilemma's dilemma's dilemma's.

 

This concludes my journal entry.

 

--Isaac

[misery]

Meh, depends how everything turns out if it's a good thing or a bad thing, lol. (always thinking of Sam, that is.) If you're letting it get in the way of other stuff, then yea, it's probably a bad thing. But if you end up getting together with her, then it's not a problem, lol.

 

Well, good luck getting your car :thumbsup: Take care.

[Hyper]

Yeah, the problem is "Isaac + Sam = ???" I'm pretty sure things won't work out in my favor. It's normal. But it sucks, like always.

 

And I was so caught up in my female issues, I forgot to mention >> I'm revitalizing the forums I had that failed a while back. This time I'll keep up with them lol.

[misery]

Ooo, I think I remember that. You mean the ones with the Gamerenders skin and stuff?

[Hyper]

Yeah that one. But this one has a diff skin. Eventually I'll re-skin it. Or have Hudson do it.

[misery]

Sweet, looking forward to it re-opening

[Hyper]

Yeah, all I'm doing now is working on setting everything up. Not sure when the 'Grand Re-Opening' will be

[stupidsoul1]

Congrats on the forums.

I think you need to sit down and think what you want.

 

I mean it is all well and good for us to read what is on your mind and then tell you what we think.

But on reading woody's journal i realised that half the things in there is just a perception of what she thinks has happened (in reference to the fight we had)no offence to her but it is the truth.

 

We don't know any of the three girls so no matter what we say that could some how influence your thoughts in the end it is you that has to deeply think not just about their personalities or how they look not even long term things that you could end up doing with them.

 

Just think about what you want and then go for it, if their friends are always talking to them just go in the middle of the conversation and ask her if she would like to hang out with you sometime...or go out with her friends with your friends or something.

As long as you get to hang out with her,even if there is a whole bunch of people there atleast you can see what she is like not just in that school type situation.

[Hyper]

Eh, how about another journal entry. I should do headers, like I used to, and like Matt does, but, IDK, lol.

 

 

Anyways, I can't seem to shake relationships from my mind. It seems everywhere I look I convert what I see into a relationship. My mouse and keyboard. My shoes and socks. My money and wallet. All the soda cans around my room are in pairs. I look at the wall, light and dark.

 

IDK, I think I'm a little.. stressed right now. I finally finished downloading Rammstein - Rosenrot. Good album. I can't understand a thing they say, which I like, because it shows that I actually like the music. Not the words.

 

I don't know if I've already posted this part, but..

 

I've decided I'm saving my money up, not for a computer like I had planned, but for a car. I need to be more self dependant. I can drive, yes, but what use is being an expert marksman, if all you have as a weapon is a knife?

 

So now I'm on the prowl for a car. Hopefully a Honda. A manual Honda. I can't stand automatics, so I don't think driving one as my primary car is going to go over well with my likings.

 

But yeah, I've fallen back into the emo state of mind. Nothing cheers me up. I played Counter-Strike for three hours, not a one happy feeling. I talked to Cassie, the girl I can talk to about anything, without being judged. Nothing. No, I don't have feelings for Cassie. That ship has already sailed.

 

IDK, the more and more I talk to Erica about Sam. The less and less I believe anything can happen. Whenever someone tries to cheer me up, and give me all these great things to look forward to, nothing ends up working out.

 

I can picture Sam's face right now. Her smile. Her eyes. Her hair. And it just kinda seems too distant. She doesn't even know that I'm interested. I don't think I've told you guys that part. All Sam sees me as, to the best of my knowledge, is the soccer manager.

 

Okay, well I'm gonna go sulk.

 

This concludes my journal entry.

 

--Isaac

[misery]

Ooo, my Honda Civic is manual I don't like automatics either, not enough driver involvement. Manuals are just more fun.

 

Wow, your situation with Sam reminds me an awful lot about how my situation with Jolynne was. Haha, from how you describe her, they seem to have similar appearances too. This probably isn't helping at all, given how it turned out with me and her though.. that by no way means that you and Sam can never happen though. I know I've said this before, but GOOD LUCK :thumbsup: And hope you feel better.

[Hyper]

Ooo' date=' my Honda Civic is manual I don't like automatics either, not enough driver involvement. Manuals are just more fun.[/color']

 

Wow, your situation with Sam reminds me an awful lot about how my situation with Jolynne was. Haha, from how you describe her, they seem to have similar appearances too. This probably isn't helping at all, given how it turned out with me and her though.. that by no way means that you and Sam can never happen though. I know I've said this before, but GOOD LUCK :thumbsup: And hope you feel better.

 

the bold white underlined text is why i hate automatics, verbatim.

 

With Sam.. eh, I know I don't really have a fighting chance. Which is what's keeping me from doing something stupid when that conjecture is confirmed tomorrow.

[Hyper]

Okay, so it looks like lady luck wants to get into my pants. Things with Sam are starting to look up. When I told Erica that I had an interest in Sam, I also told her my weakness -- not being able to actually talk to girls. Gorgeous ones, like Sam, at that.

 

So in my head a well design plan hatched. To have Erica tell Sam how I felt, acting like I didn't know. It was brilliant.

 

I talked to Erica, "Anything to help out an awesome guy like you." she said. Today was the day of reckoning and judgement.

 

She told her at lunch. The reply, that I was informed of anyways, was something along the lines of "Aww."

 

Now, doesn't seem like it's gonna work out from that now does it?

 

Well, at the game, which we won 5-0 FUCK YES! I got to converse with Sam. She's a Freshman, in all the normal classes as well. So I seem so freakin smart to her. I also found out that smart guys are a turn-on for her.

 

SCORE: Isaac - 1; No Sam - 0

 

Nothing, too complicated came up. Just random bullshitting. She kept staring into my eyes. Even when we weren't talking. Now, normally if a girl were to stare back at me, I'd divert my eyes to something else. But I didn't this time, and I felt so wonderful. That sounds fruity, I know, but hey, it's the truth.

 

She laughed at everything I said. No matter how stupid, silly, dumb, whatever it was. That's got to be a good sign. Laughter is always a sign of being comfortable.

 

SCORE: Isaac - 2; No Sam - 0

 

So yeah, now I'm home. I had some food. I'm about to go sack out. I had a wonderful day. Nothing was really out of the ordinary. Except for the fact that I actually talked to Sam. Which, I guess holds the power to make or break my day.

 

We'll see what happens next time Sam and I talk, which will probably be on Friday, at the next soccer game. I see her at school, at lunch anyways. But I've started going off campus for lunch (yes, we're allowed to do that, open campus lunch ROCKS). So I don't get to see her. Which isn't a plus, but I mean, don't want to come on too strong.

 

And I just realized how much this is starting to seem like the Jolynne effects from Matt's life. A girl, close-ish friend, talks of being hooked up with a gorgeous girl. WHATEVER, different outcome. I hope.

 

Anyways, time for bed.

 

This concludes my journal entry.

 

--Isaac

[misery]

Well, glad things are starting to look up for you and Sam About the eyes, yes, definately a good sign. About the laughter, yes, definately a good sign. Sounds like you guys are already quite comfortable with eachother, which is awesome.

 

And, yes, it does still sound like my situation with Jolynne before. But I really hope, and think, that it will turn out differently.

 

Good luck Sounds like things are working out pretty good

[Hyper]

Date: January 18, 2006

Entry Number: Eleven (11)

Mood: Happy

Listening to: Rammstein - Hilf Mir

 

Okay, so I caved. Back to the numberin n datin and moodin. Haha. Okay, so here's what happened today.

 

This morning: I woke up at 6:30 am. A nice start for my day. I never wake up this early. Seeing as how I had so much extra time, I decided to hop in the shower. Wow, it was the most relaxing event that's happened to me in a while. Not taking the shower, more like the thoughts that ran through my head, and the steam, oh, it was beautiful.

 

So I got out of the shower. Got dressed. Soon as I got my shoes on, my ride showed up. Talk about perfect timing. So we went to school. Nothing exciting happened on the ride there.

 

School: So we got to school around 7:15 am. Conference hour (half hour given to students to go get help from teachers. Or, as my friends and I use it, just to hang out.) was about fifteen minutes from starting. So my crew, yes, crew, and I, went to our hallway.

 

The story behind the hallway: Last year we got kicked out of the cafeteria. My friend Will was throwing a napkin at me. We were playing catch. He got nailed for throwing it. He got kicked out. Which, in essence, meant the whole group got kicked out.

 

So we sought out a new place to hang out. Which is when we stumbled upon our hallway. We've been there since Early October, Sophomore year (2004).

 

Conference Hour: Conference hour started at 7:35 am. Nothing real eventful happened. Just a lot of lazy teenage kids doin what they do best, chillax.

 

Second Hour (first hour of the day, but second hour of the full schedule, today was block): The bell rang at 8:00 am sharp. So I trudged my ass down the hall to my English class. We had homework due today that I didn't know about. You can imagine my surprise. So we went over that. Did some freewrite stuff. Then we played trashketball to review for our vocab test.

 

The last question in trashketball was up for grabs for my team. So I stood up to go take the shot and answer the question, when some stupid ass black kid shoves me back into my desk. My teacher saw that, and was like "Mikhail, no. Isaac gets the question." So this fool turns around, rolls up his sleeves and starts tryin to be a hard ass to me. So I stand up. Now imagine this, a 6'4" hawaiian kid, towering over a 5'8" black kid. I had his ass. Game, set, match.

 

Needless to say, the whole class laughed at him. He fuckin took three steps back and said I could have it. So I answer the question right, and then my shot. This fuckin, I'll refrain from the racist terms, kid, slaps me in the forehead. Everyone starts roarin with laughter. They thought it was funny. I didn't. I stood up, Mikhail turned around, and I gave him the hardest shove I've given anyone in a while. He left the ground. He went flying into the wall. Nailed the wall, cracked it with his head (it was the crappy plywood but harder substance). The class stopped laughing. Mikhail ran out of the class.

 

Fourth Hour: The bell rang for fourth hour at 9:52 am. I was still pissed off from second hour. My History teacher knew it. He spared me his ritualistic "Hello there Mr. Kauwe, don't we look mighty peachy today!"

 

Anyways, I had a test in there. I aced it, which surprised me, seeing as how pissed off I was. The class went by relatively fast. I learned how to read the stock market a hell of a lot better than I knew. I also learned key investment tips that I'll definately benefit from. Thanks Mr. Nardi.

 

Lunch: The lunch bell rang at 11:37 am. I went and found Will and Jeff. It was only going to be us three going out to lunch today. We went to Jack in the Box (a burger joint) and got some burgers. While we were there, I got hit on by some chick. It was the funniest thing ever. All the dorky want-to-be-suave things you can imagine guys doing, she did. Needless to say, I ended up walking out of there with her number. She forced it on me.

 

So that put me in a good mood. Being hit on is always great. Even tho, it never really happened to me until I got my haircut this year haha. So we're going back to school. We get there. I'm walkin across the campus to go get a soda from the vending machine, and guess who I happen to walk by. Mikhail. Him and his pack of black friends.

 

One of his buddies starts hoppin around, and hops into me. Now, I'm still in a somewhat good mood, but I wasn't in the mood to take crap. So I shoved his ass off of me hard. Needless to say, the kid biffs it. Lands on his back and slides a good three feet. I kept walking. Will caught up to me and told me that the dude jumped up ready to fight. But one of the other guys said to him "Yo dude that's the nig*** that shoved Mikhail. Don't mess with him."

 

That right there made me laugh. People are afraid of me. I guess it's just a thing where you actually need to know me to not be afraid of me. Because even my brother, one of the biggest hard asses that I know, said that if he didn't know me, he'd be intimidated.

 

Sixth Hour: So I get to sixth hour. Physics. Not the kinda class you want to be in when you're in an angered mood. Regardless, I was there we were going to discuss the lab we did on Friday. So we do that, discuss discuss discuss, no realy big events there.

 

School got out at 2:00 pm.

 

Will drove me home. I got ready for work. My brother took me to work.

 

I get to work at 3:00 pm. Granted, it took about a half hour for me to get home. So I had an hour to kill before I could clock in. So I whipped out my iPod and listened to some Rammstein.

 

OH! My iSkin came today. So now my iPod looks so sexy.

 

Back on topic. I was listening to some Rammstein when, yes, you guessed it, a girl came up and started talking to me. Now, if a girl starts talking to you when it's obvious you're listening to music, is that hitting on you? I think it is.

 

So I talked to her for a while. Shot the shit for about forty five minutes. I gave her my number. She asked. I obliged.

 

I started work at 4:00 pm. I had carts right away. So that killed an hour. Nothing too eventful happened. Except for the fact that I was in an incredibly happy mood. I think it's because Sam and I talked yesterday. Yes, I'm still into her, the girls from today are only going to be friends. If that. Because, I mean, what if they only want to talk to me beacuse of my sexy bod HAHA as if.

 

So yeah, I got off work at 10:00 pm. Got home around 10:10 pm. Took a shower and here I am.

 

I've been thinking again. Thinking about how I can end up with Sam. I need to actually talk to her. Have an involved conversation so she can get to know me. I've had a lesbian chick tell me that if she wasn't gay, she'd want to date me, because of my personality. She said I almost turned her straight because of who I am. That's really heart warming, in that whole, OMG you're gay, kind of way.

 

So yeah, I'm quite content right now. That'll change soon I bet.

 

This concludes my journal entry.

 

--Isaac

[misery]

Well, after reading your not-so-subtle post in my graphics thread, I figured I'd swing by here Haha.

Eventful day today, wow. First off, trashketball is an awesome word.

As for Mikhail, wow. What an asshole, to say the least. I don't know what I would've done in that situation, probably something that would've gotten me suspended. At least you didn't flip, you took it just far enough to scare the piss out of him and make him back the hell off. Which is perfect, and exactly what one would want to do in that situation And yes, judging by your pics in the member pic thread, and the fact that you're 6'4", and you were pissed off, I'd say you'd be pretty intimidating, lol.

As for those girls who you exchanged #s with, yea, like you said, better off to just keep them as friends, because of your whole situation with Sam. For one, it probably wouldn't work out with them too well if you always have Sam on the mind, lol. And if you do end up liking one of those girls, then it's going to complicate the situation a whole hell of a lot more than it already is, which is already probably alot to handle, lol.

Well, it's great to see you in a good mood, lol Good luck with Sam.

 

Oh, and PS, Jack in the Box rules. Too bad there's none in Canada.. but whenever I travel to the states, I mow down on that shit, lmao

[Hyper]

Date: January 23, 2006

Entry Number: Twelve (12)

Mood: Content

Listening to: Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue

 

Okay, so any chance with Sam has officially gone down the drain. Not sure why, but she's all of a sudden pissed off at me. We had plans to go to MORP together. But, she cancelled those today. Not quite sure why. Oh well, I was losing interest anyways, she's kinda snobby.

 

My day was pretty uneventful. Other than the whole thing with Sam, nothing was really different. I had all six of my classes today tho. First time in like a month and a half lol.

 

Okay, so let me hit ch'all with what you've missed these past few days. School. I had school, that's pretty much it. Saturday rocked my cock, I went movie hopping with my buddy.

 

These are the movies we saw:

Hostel

Underworld:Evolution

Glory Road

The Ringer

Fun with Dick and Jane

 

Below are my reviews of these five movies:

Hostel - I give this movie 1 out of 5 stars. It wasn't at all what I thought it was going to be. A lot of boobs and good looking girls. But the over-all gore of it was stuck at the last twenty or so minutes of the movie. Before then it's like, hey, tits, boner, sex, party, sleep, repeat. It's no where near what was expected. My recommendation: Don't see it.

 

Underworld: Evolution - I give this movie 4.5 out of 5 stars. It was an *awesome* movie in my opinion. The only reason it lost that .5 star is because it wasn't what I expected it to be. Sure, seeing Kate Beckinsale in all leather is a turn on, but the overall plot was vague. Although, there is a sex scene, which is totally hot. My recommendation: See it.

 

Glory Road - I give this movie 4 out of 5 stars. Like all the great documentary type movies before it (Remember the Titans; Coach Carter; Friday Night Lights) Glory Road doesn't fail to capture the soul behind this team. It tells an awesome story. It shows what it's like to be a black teen back when black's really didn't have rights. It is, however, a one time only kind of flick. My recommendation: See it.

 

The Ringer - I give this movie a 5 out of 5 stars. It's one of those "I'm a moron" kind of movies. But this movie made me LAUGH MY ASS off! "You picked up my C.D. in broad daylight and scratched it." HAHA. Great movie ya'll. Cheesy plot, gorgeous girl, Johnny Knoxville.. My recommendation: See it.

 

Fun with Dick and Jane - I give this movie a 3.5 out of 5 stars. It's not great, but it definately doesn't suck. There are moments where it's hilarious, but overall, it's just like, eh. My recommendation: See it if you can bear waiting for laughs.

 

Okay, so yeah. Sunday was my buddies birthday, but I had to work an eight hour shift. So I worked and slept. That brings us today, which is uneventful. That's all for now.

 

This concludes my journal entry.

 

--Isaac

[misery]

Well, if you were losing interest in Sam, then it's not that big of deal, lol.

Nice movie reviews Huh, and to think I almost went to see Hostel with Brandi. Kind of glad I didn't, lol. Maybe I'll try taking her to Underworld this weekend though.

 

Oh, and The Ringer r0x I loved that movie. I couldn't stop laughing any time I heard him say he's rigging the special olympics. Awesome movie.

[Hyper]

Yeah, I think I was losing interest in Sam because it was becoming more and more apparent that I was gonna get the shaft. I still can't stop staring at her when I'm around her lol. But that's *beside* the point.

[misery]

lol, if she's as beautiful as you said, I can't blame ya

[stupidsoul1]

Hmm. sounds interesting...

Well good luck in what ever you decide to do and have fun at work.

[Hybrid Soldier]

Quite interesting.....

[Hyper]

Quite interesting.....

 

You fucking whore, I love you. Haha.

[Hyper]

NOT AN UPDATE

 

I need to have the portion of my history test i ahve done accessible online. you can read it if you like.

[Hyper]

Chapter 22

 

1. The lessened demand for products and goods affected farmers and businesses because farmers grew so many crops and raised so much live stock that they couldn’t sell it at a profit. They were over producing because during World War I the demand for crops rose greatly. This caused farmers to take out loans so they could purchase more land and more equipment. However, after the war ended, the demand for crops greatly decreased. Farmers then over produced in hope of selling more crops for profit. This did not help. It ended up causing the price of crops to depreciate nearly 40 percent. Banks ended up losing money as well. Their loans to farmers were eventually foreclosed because farmers could not pay them back. The banks gained control of farms, but were still at a loss. This is because the price of the farms was not nearly that of the loan. The government tried implementing the McNary-Haugen bill. This called for federal price-supports for key products. The government would buy the goods at a fixed price, and then turn around and sell them on the world market. However, President Coolidge vetoed the bill twice, stating “Farmers have never made money. I don’t believe we can do much about it.” Living on credit was not a very beneficial part of the 1920’s. Person after person, family after family fell into debt due to this flawed system.

2. October 29, 1929 was the date of the Stock Market crash. Consumers started to unload all their shares, trying to break even before the bottom fell out completely. The crash contributed to the Great Depression by causing more debt. People who had bought stock on credit lost what they had, and fell into debt because not only did they lose their savings that they put in, they also lost money they didn’t have. Banks and businesses had major failures. People panicked and withdrew their money from banks. But some people couldn’t get their money because the banks had invested it in the stock market. By 1033, 11,000 of the nation’s 25,000 banks had failed. People ended up losing their savings, because the government didn’t insure bank accounts. The Great Depression affected other countries as well. As a result of prices dropping, the Hawley-Smoot Tariff act was passed by Congress in 1930. It was meant to protect American farmers and manufacturers from foreign competition. However, it had the opposite effect. Other countries couldn’t earn American currency to purchase American goods. As an act of retaliation many countries raised their own tariffs. World trade had ended up falling more than 40 percent. There are a few common set of factors that are attributed with causing the Great Depression. Among them are: tariffs and war debt policies that cut down the foreign market for American goods, a crisis in the farm sector, the availability of easy credit, and an unequal distribution of income.

3. The Great Depression greatly affected people living in the cities. They lost their jobs and were evicted from their homes. They were left to live on the street and fend for themselves. Numerous shantytowns—little towns of shacks—sprang up in numerous places. Among other people, farmers and people in the rural areas were also hit pretty hard by the Depression. They too lost their homes, but they had one skill that gave them an advantage over city-dwellers. Farmers could grow food for their families. This proved a skill that was very much needed during the depression. The dust bowl was a region that got hit hardest by a drought in the 1930’s. The region consisted of parts of Kansas, Oklahoma, Texas, New Mexico, and Colorado.

4. Men had difficulty coping with unemployment. They were used to working and being able to support their family. Every day they would set out and roam the streets looking for a job. Women also struggled to survive. They worked hard to help their families survive adversity during the Great Depression. Many women canned food and sewed clothing. They worked more than the men did, however they were still paid less. Children also suffered during the 1930’s. They had serious health problems due to lack of money for health care. Many teenagers looked for a way out of the suffering. Hundreds of thousands hopped aboard America’s freight trains to roam the country in search of work, adventure, and an escape from poverty. These hardships didn’t come without psychological and social effects. Americans were forced to accept compromises and make sacrifices that would affect them for the rest of their lives. Adults stopped going to the dentist and doctor. Young people gave up their dreams of a college education. Others decided not to get married and having a family.

5. President Herbert Hoover was reluctant to help people during the depression because he was a logical humanitarian. He was an engineer, he believed that one of the government’s chief functions was to foster cooperation between competing groups and interests in society. His political philosophy caused him to take a cautious approach to the depression. I urged key leaders to work together to find solutions to the nation’s economic issues and act in ways that would not make the situation worse. He asked employers not to cut wages or lay off workers and asked labor leaders not to demand higher wages or go on strike. He also created a special organization to help private charities generate contributions for the poor.

6. The Patman Bill authorized the government to pay a bonus to World War I veterans who had not been compensated adequately for their wartime service. When it failed in the U.S. Senate the Bonus Army was infuriated. They built a shantytown within site of the Capitol. Hoover became nervous and ended up having the 2,000 hopefuls who wanted to meet the president gassed. Hoover used this force because he was nervous. The Bonus Army ended up disbanding; however Hoover took a blow to his image. This treatment of the Bonus Army was the milestone that FDR needed for election.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter 23

 

1. Franklin Delano Roosevelt (FDR) was elected president in 1932. He developed a program designed to alleviate the problems of the Great Depression, called the New Deal. The New Deal had three general goals it hoped to fulfill. These were: