diana's journal

[Jeezy]

Hehe...for sure...you're gonna be my underwear advisor...

 

ok..we'll do that

[diana]

ok..we'll do that

Nice...^^

 

 

Update:

 

 

I just got home...well, not home home...I'm staying in Maribor this weekend...

I took that theory exam at Data Bases and...khm...it wasn't really easy...and there's no way I could pass it...blah, it's so whatever...I just hope they'll let me take that exam again...nothing worse than theory...

But yeah, anyway...the rest of the day is time to relax...play a comp game and shit...hah, probably that's gonna be the case the whole weekend...I should start with studying though...we'll see...

[Friðbjörn]

yeah theoretical sucks =_=

[GraDoN]

Nice...^^

 

 

Update:

 

 

I just got home...well, not home home...I'm staying in Maribor this weekend...

I took that theory exam at Data Bases and...khm...it wasn't really easy...and there's no way I could pass it...blah, it's so whatever...I just hope they'll let me take that exam again...nothing worse than theory...

But yeah, anyway...the rest of the day is time to relax...play a comp game and shit...hah, probably that's gonna be the case the whole weekend...I should start with studying though...we'll see...

lol yeah im also writing exams now, so much harder than school. And studying is such a drag XD

good luck *hugs*

[diana]

yeah theoretical sucks =_=

So true...>_>

 

lol yeah im also writing exams now, so much harder than school. And studying is such a drag XD

good luck *hugs*

Thank you...and good luck to you too!

*hugs back*

[diana]

Update:

 

 

Uhm...I think it was Saturday night...I had an emotional breakdown...

The situation was something like that:

Mitja started the chat with me on msn...and when I talk to him I still feel kinda bad...so I did once again...and then a song "Hate Me" from Blue October came up on my winamp cuz I had it on shuffle...I love that song...it's so fuckin great...if you don't know it, listen to it...

However...I really listened to it...and then suddenly the whole thing made me burst into tears...I was just so sad and Idk...I could relate to the song so much and it also made me realise that I'm not even close to getting over Mitja...I miss our relationship...miss him...it was simply too much to get it over just like that...

So...I talked to Mitja...told him I'm crying...he asked me: "You still haven't got over us, right?"...I answered: "I guess that really not..."...and then I told him I still feel bad when we talk...or when I come in touch with anything relating to him...he said that he felt that and that that's why he haven't been clicking me on msn a lot...

Then I told him what's really been killing me all that time...that is the fact that he always seemed like he's totally got over me and felt nothing towards me...he told me that he kinda got a bit over me before he even left me...naturally, he had more time...plus, he wasn't shocked like I was...BUT...no, he's still not completelly got over us and stuff...he explained me a lot...I felt much better knowing he still has some feelings for me...even though that seems a bit selfish but hey, it's how I feel...plus I don't feel so weird anymore...questioning myself what's in his head and stuff...

At the end...he said he's going to sleep cuz it was too much...he felt bad too...and I actually apologized to him...for bringing it up, I guess...

Oh yeah, and we kinda got to a conclusion that maybe for some time it would be better if we wouldn't talk...it would be easier for us...and really, I haven't seen him online on msn for 2 days now...I'm just afraid that we're gonna part too much and therefore never be friends anymore...I don't want to lose a person like he is...even though he broke my heart...he's still a good person and friend...

Meh...I better stop with that shit...only making myself to feel bad again...

 

However, for the last week, I haven't been sleeping really well...have been waking up early...and the last few days having troubles with getting asleep (even at fuckin' 2am)...I don't really know why, though...I guess the whole thing right now has an effect on me...

 

Uni is doing okay...for now...today we had this little exam at Programming...I think I did fairly well...but we'll see...

On Friday and then the next week we're having the 3rd/last round of part exams...if all go well, I'll finish all of the subjects...so wish me luck with that...but there's a big possibility I'm gonna fail at Discreet Structures...but even that's not gonna be a disaster...I mean, having only one subject left for the summer to pass is great actually...most of the students have a lot of work left for the summer...

 

Oh, and one more thing...Cavalera Conspiracy are comming to Maribor to that club we usually go to dance and stuff on 12th June...and at 1st we were all like: "We have to go!" but I'm afraid the ticket is a bit too expensive for us right now...27€...I know it would be awesome to see Max and shit but...I'd be broke then...again...so Nina and me kinda decided today that we're not going...

Possibly you don't know about that band cuz it's fairly new...they released their 1st album this year...check it out...there're like the Cavalera brothers, the guitarist from Soulfly...and one another guy...I think...w/e...I'm not really that familiar with that scene too much actually...

 

 

Anyway, that was a pretty long update...sorry for it...if you read it all, you're awesome...=)

I'm off to bed now...it's 1am...hope I'll fall asleep soon...'night!

[MrsBennington-Delson]

aaww Di *hugs* I know how you feel and I think you decided good by saying you're like not contacting each other for a while its better...

Plus if it might help I'd give you the advice to do more with your friends or something that like can't make you think of him and if there might come up a thought like "omg... he left me..." or something like that and when you start feeling bad then just push yourself up and think to yourself "shit its not my fault plus I'm way too good for him anyways!!" and like that you should be able to cheer yourself up and make you stronger

 

and good like with your last exams!

[diana]

Thank you, Jossy... ^^ *hugs back*

It's hard for me to think like that since I'm not a very egoistic person...so I'm not dealing with it like that...but yeah, thanks for an advice anyway...

 

 

Update:

 

I was at uni for the while day today...from 9am till 8pm...not cuz I would have to...but cuz some of us gathered together and were doing homework and studying Discreet structures for tomorrow's exam...oh yeah, it was exhausting...I still have to go through some theory though...and then studying again tomorrow morning from 8am till the exam which is at 2pm...

Oh well, wish me luck for that one...I'm really really gonna need it...

[woodyloveslinkin]

*wishes Di luck*

[diana]

*wishes Di luck*

Thank you...^^

 

 

Update:

 

 

Well...actually, it went pretty well...the exam wasn't so hard...so there's still hope for me...and I'm in a good mood...^^

Plus, I'm going home to Celje today...Idk why, but I'm sick of Maribor right now...=P

[diana]

Update:

 

 

Today we got the results of the Friday's exam...I got it 40/90 points...

Now, the sum of the everything at this subject is 118 points...it's a bit complicated so I'm not gonna explain to you everything...but the main thing is that tomorrow morning I'm going to see the professor and ask him if I can participate in the theory exam next week...if not...well, then I'm gonna have to take the whole exam over again and shit and I don't want that at all...so I hope all goes well...

 

 

The weekend was pretty much interesting...

On Saturday I went to the riding club where I used to ride all those years...I helped with the preparations for the competition which took place here on Sunday...I was really tired...I mean, I'm not used to working like that anymore...but it's okay...gotta start with that again, hehe...

So on Sunday (yesterday) I went to that competiton to help around but I ended up helping Urban (my former trainer and the owner of the horses I was riding for about 5 years...) and one girl with the horses Urban is riding now...like 3 of them, lol...it was actually nice to be in touch with him again since we haven't seen eachother for quite a while...and we used to be very close back then...ah, the good times...

 

However, it ended like that that we came up with the idea that I could ride there as well...the thing is that this 60-year-old man (Darko) has a lot of horses...8 of them are for riding...and only 4 riders...and horses aren't so bad at all...

So yeah, I'm gonna start riding there...hopefully next week...the club is located around 15-20 km from my home...it's not too far but still...it is worth it, though...after all, I'll be riding for free (at least I think so, lol)...

I can't wait!^^

 

 

Oh, and now to the most shocking thing that happened to me this weekend...

Yesterday I got this message on my cell phone from a guy I know...who is also my neighbour kinda...the message was something like that:

 

"Hei! I just wanted to tell you I like you and stuff...and I want to know if you'd be with me "

 

After I read that I was just like wtf and then just like started laughing my ass off!! I mean, I still can't believe he sent me this...who on earth is still writing shit like that at the age of 20?!? It's just so hardcore directly written and Idk...

Okay, I must admit, I was suspecting he might be starting to like me so it was not such a surprise but anyway...blah...x)

I wrote him back that I can't say anything right now and that we should talk about it and stuff...

The thing is that right now I'm not ready for any kind of real relationship...cuz of Mitja, of course...I mean, what happened with Mitja was just too much...actually I'm kinda scared to get into a close relationship (emotionally) cuz I feel like I'm not in a state when I could trust and believe to someone...it's just like that...

Plus, there are quite some other things about that guy...1st he's smoking and I find that gross (I mean kissing and shit...yuck...)...2nd he's very calm...and I feel like I need a more lively guy beside me...3rd he's my neighbour and not sure that's so good, lol...blah blah...

Whatever, I just know I'm not able to be with him...at least not right now...

 

 

Oh, and I went to see Randi and her foal yesterday! I saw her after almost a year! It was a very emotional time for me...at one point I just felt like crying but I hold myself back...awww, she's such a sweetheart...of course she's not as beautiful as she used to be cuz noone is grooming her and stuff but I'm sure she's enjoying her retirement...=) And her little baby...he's so cute...<3 Awww, it really was nice...^^ I hope it was not the last time I saw her...

 

 

Anyway, that's enough for now...be good...

[GraDoN]

bah i also hate smoking, even though it seems that 90% of the people at my varsity smoke... and yeah dont rush into things, and best of luck on the talk with the prof. i myself am waiting for some exam results that i think i might fail.. o well rewrites for the win -.-

 

and horse riding is very fun, i did it until my riding partner started to hit the horse with a whip and the horse took off with us 2 on him, took a sharp turn throwing us off... i landed on him, something im happy about since he angered the horse. lol i had but a scratch XD

[diana]

bah i also hate smoking, even though it seems that 90% of the people at my varsity smoke... and yeah dont rush into things, and best of luck on the talk with the prof. i myself am waiting for some exam results that i think i might fail.. o well rewrites for the win -.-

 

and horse riding is very fun, i did it until my riding partner started to hit the horse with a whip and the horse took off with us 2 on him, took a sharp turn throwing us off... i landed on him, something im happy about since he angered the horse. lol i had but a scratch XD

Well, I generally don't really mind if someone is smoking...since I was also kinda smoking back then...but I would pretty much mind if my bf smoked...

Yeah, thanks...=)

I'm also still waiting for results of that theory exam I'm failing, lol...w/e...

 

Oh, you were horse riding? Didn't know that...nice...

[GraDoN]

yeah most of my friends smoke so ive made peace with it... and i love that feeling of knowing im gonne fail. lol just such a "too bad" feeling xD

[diana]

yeah most of my friends smoke so ive made peace with it... and i love that feeling of knowing im gonne fail. lol just such a "too bad" feeling xD

Haha...yeah, it's just like you're not nervous and shit...=)

[diana]

Update:

 

Well...a short one...just some basics of my life right now...there's a lot of stuff to tell...a lot...but I'm too fuckin lazy...o.0

 

So...I was being a good girl and passed 10 out of 11 subjects till now...^^ The one I still have to pass is Discreet structures...I'm having an exam on Friday...but haven't really studied that much till now...it's so fucking hot these days that it's almost impossible to think/study properly... I also can't really motivate myself enough...it sucks so bad...and of course at the end of the day I feel bad about it...fuck...

 

Another thing are the horses...

I really got into them and riding again...I went riding on Sunday and it was nice...I was jumping after like 8 months and now I really am convinced that I want to train and compete again...I talked to the owner of those horses...and he said that if I want to go to the competition I'll have to ride and train a lot...so now I just have to think all through if I'm gonna have the time and everything for it...and I think I will...^^ I plan this summer to be dedicated to the horses...I've neglected them for too long (even though it was only 8 months...)...

 

I also hope I'm gonna get that job I applied for...some extra money would not hurt me...actually, it would be nice to have some money...to afford something after quite some time...and I need a cell phone...>_> Still got that borrowed one from my ex (Klemen) since March, lol...

 

Anyway, that's it for now...gonna go to sleep soon...take care...

[diana]

Update:

 

Once again...I got lots of stuff to tell...but am not sure I'm gonna do so, hehe...

 

The main news is that I kinda got a new bf...o.0 So, to tell you bout that...

His name is Jure, he's (again) younger than me...but I think he is 19...(lol @ not knowing how old he is...o.0 I just know he's '89...gonna ask him about his bd...) He's from around there where Mitja lives...they were school-mates and kinda are buddies...though Jure is avoiding Mitja...

I met him at the same time at the same party as Mitja last year...and actually I liked him at that time...I had his msn for the whole time but we barely talked...especially since we both don't talk that much in general...but I "clicked" him just a day before one concert we were both going to...so we agreed we're gonna meet there and so we did...there one thing led to another...we were both drunk and so we made out a bit...we kept in contact...

Last weekend there was a little 2-day local festival with camping...I went...and also Jure did...we spent the Friday eve, night and Saturday morning together but then he had to go home...oh, and we almost had sex...but I said it's better for us (since we both said we're not just "another one" to eachother) to take it a bit slow...so we went to sleep...Jure couldn't, though, (cuz of all the noise people were making outside) so he went to his friends who were still up...then it started to rain so he came back in the tent...the thing was he didn't have the sleeping bag so he was lying there...freezing...poor thing...and I didn't know that! I woke up at around 6am, (sleeping only for about an hour) saw him, immediately got out of my bag, squeezed to him and covered both of us...as he got wormed up (of course we couldn't sleep anymore) we just started to cuddle and such...it was so sweet...^^ And then around 9am it got too hot in the tent so we had to get out...shorty after that it was time for him to go...

And talking about that...I gotta say concerts were pretty good...actually I really watched just a couple of them...but okay...it was still a nice weekend...though I couldn't wait to come home, haha...showers weren't working properly, it was hot...blah blah...

 

Sooo...we met yesterday...went for a drink after my work...decided to take it slowly...we got time...and it's better that way so things wouldn't get fucked up (like they did with me and Mitja for example)...if we're looking on a long-term...

Our time spent together yesterday was really nice...surprisingly we had quite some stuff to talk about (my biggest fear for us is that we would have nothing to talk about)...and keeping the physical contact on low is sweet (just like holding hands and some kisses)...he said then in the eve on msn that it's making him just even more horny, hehe...=)

 

 

About uni...well, I passed that exam...with 50%...but w/e...x) Now I'm having my oral exam on 15th July which I really have to pass cuz the next one is then gonna be in early September and that's too long away...which reminds me I gotta slowly start to study...

 

Oh oh, I got that work! I'm actually here right now...don't have lots to do right now...I work in the administration at company called Tuš at the Informatics department...one guy should give me stuff to do including work with computers (like installing windows, programms...) but he's bussy most of the time so right now I'm sitting here and answering phones...I'll probably have to stay at home cuz I got nothing to do here actually...at least till one guy comes from his vocation...*shrugs* I don't know...

I go to work around 7am and am here till 3pm...the work-time is not fixed, though...and I really like it here...people are really nice and all...

 

Also, I'm riding now quite regulary...almost every day...usually 2 horses...jumping and stuff...it's fun...and good to get me back in a shape a bit...

 

Hmmm, well, I think that's it...

[MrsBennington-Delson]

finally an update!

honestly gotta say I've been waitin for that

 

aaww sweet bout you and Jure ^_^

Im happy for ya hope it works out

<3

 

and cool bout that job that you got it! yay!

do you get paid for it if I may ask? =S

[diana]

finally an update!

honestly gotta say I've been waitin for that

 

aaww sweet bout you and Jure ^_^

Im happy for ya hope it works out

<3

 

and cool bout that job that you got it! yay!

do you get paid for it if I may ask? =S

Awww...^^

Yeah, it's pretty hard for me to get my ass to write it...

 

Thank you...that's so sweet of you...<3

*hugs*

 

Of course I get paid...don't know exactly how much, though...about 3-3,5€/hour which is not that bad considering that's Slovenia and it's students work ("legal slavery"...>_>)...

[GraDoN]

lol at legal slavery, we get paid about R10 (1 euro) a hour so we win -.-

 

but sounds like hes a cool guy, and glad your happy. good luck with the studies :>

[Tomer]

what the hell? here we get paid like 9-10euro/hour

[Linkin_lp_park]

^ If you have the right job

 

I work in health care, and I make 9 euro's per hour, and on Sunday 15 per hour, weee

[GraDoN]

WOW thats like a full days pay here.... man, you people get paid well.

[Tomer]

^^ Dunno what you consider a "right" job even a mcdonalds you get over 7 euro's

[diana]

The thing is that life up there is also more expensive...so that's why the salaries are higher, of course...okay, Slovenia is getting more expensive since we're in EU but the salaries didn't really went up...so yeah, fucked up system...

 

Gradon...thank you...^^

*hugs*