Is there suicide in you?

[Lyson]

The way I see it is that way to many teens seem to think that suicide is the answer to getting away, but I dont get it because for all the shit thats gone on in my life , I've never had any urges to end my life, only to make it better.

So like, do you guys feel the suicide thing? What kind of frame of mind does someone have to be in to consider taking their own life? And besides, whats actually worth taking ur life over?

[allieking]

i've thought about it a couple of times when i was younger but i never would have done it. i've had some nasty things happen to me in my life and i was also in a mentally abusive relationship for ten years and it was pretty depressing. my life is now a million times better and i have a loving finacee and 3 gorgeous kids, if i would have ended it all when i wanted to i would have never have experianced any of that, so i'm glad i didn't.

 

next time any of you fell like ending your life stop and think because something good is always round the corner :0

[twilightcrimson7]

I had a phase where I would think about it.

But that's over.

I'm scared of dying.

In a sense, I never want to die. But that would be scary too, never being able to die...

Life is great, whether it sucks right now or not.

[LPGotLinkinPark]

I've thought about it before, but I don't think I could ever attempt.

I can feel like shit but I know killing myself won't solve that.

Cause all I want is a good life, not no life at all.

[Victim]

I think about it everyonce in awhile when my parents yell at me.. and when I have had a bad day.. Ima not scared to die.. But I know I could never kill myself..

[Ravynlee]

I had a phase where I would think about it.

But that's over.

I'm scared of dying.

In a sense, I never want to die. But that would be scary too, never being able to die...

Life is great, whether it sucks right now or not.

Couldn't have put it better myself.

Years ago when I was younger I felt really screwed up. I hated myself to the point where I was drunk, stoned, slashing myself, starving myself, locking myself away in my room all the time just waiting to die...

I used to think 'I'm in charge of my life, I'm in control of my death too.'

No.

 

Now that I'm a little older I've come to change my way of thinking and I'm actually starting to fear my own mortality. I don't want to die. But there are times when I still get that impulse that I should just end it all. It's always with me, I've always been under the cloud of depression. Most days are good these days - some days aren't. On days like that I need to stop and take note of that voice telling me to just end it and try and see some sense with it.

But I think it's definately still in me. I'll live with it all my life. I just don't want to be the one to end it prematurely.

0_0

[twilightcrimson7]

Yes, I feel the same way

But I'm one of the lucky ones.

I haven't had to deal with a fraction of the shit some people have to.

Sure there were times when the situation seemed unbearable. There are still some of those times. Like Rav said, I have to live with them. Their shadow is ever lingering. You know you can't be happy forever. But then again, you can't be constantly miserable either.

I kind of slapped myself in the face.

And it worked.

I love my life now, I love the beauty of life, and I love what I am able to have and enjoy. I'm still my usual melancholy, depressive self, but I know what happiness is, and I won't let depression consume me day in and day out. I have comforts.

I'm never going to be one of those preppy happy-go-lucky preachers going around denouncing bad feelings, but I'm not going wallow in self-pity either.

Emotions shape my personalitly, and vise versa.

I love feeling, I love seeing, And I love the beauty of life. You're probably sick of hearing me say that, but I cannot say it enough

And I feel truly sorry and piteous of those who cannot see that beauty and embrace it.

[LPGotLinkinPark]

^I'm sorta like that too, but I go in & out of those phases. Sometimes I'll be like wow I love life & everything in it with a few exceptions. Othertimes I'm just like fuck it I don't really care......Well actually that'd just be my bipolar shit but still, when you're not depressed it's really great cause you see how wonderful life really if & know that you won't always be depressed. At least for me. Having felt happiness after a loooong dose of depression always keeps me living.

[Clogz]

Sometimes I think about it, especially when I'm fighting to keep my depression in check. But, for the most part I don't really have these thoughts. I really love life and would never take my own, ever.

[Fort_Underground]

Occasionally, whenever I'm really depressed. I hardly think about it now, but about 2 years ago, it was pretty bad. But I have no fear of death. I think it just releases us from this world to another, in a never ending cycle. I quote Marting Luther King Jr. here "A man who wont die for something isn't fit to live."

[Reflectionist]

I've been thinking about it a lot, lately... I don't want to sound emo and annoying, but I can seriously just sit and list problems in my life. And I don't have small problems.

 

I've been through a lot of shit. And it seems that everywhere I go, people are turning their backs on me. Which, that, in itself wouldn't be a problem, I'm usually pretty independant. But I have more health problems and stuff that I can't help myself with.

 

I suppose that's why I'm a Christian. I'm just a horrible one. So that hasn't helped me either. That's my own fault.

 

I used to see a psychologist, but he hasn't come to see me since before I had my kidney not transplant. (went to hospital, got dug around in for four hours. came out with no new kidney. really sucked)

 

I don't usually think about it unless I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. And right now, I feel so hopeless, and filled with hatred at my very own existance. I get sick to my stomach when I think of who I am, and the road I'm going down. I can't stand to look in the mirror.

 

I hate myself. And I'm the first person to admit what a loser I am. Seriously.

[By_My-elf]

Well lately I've been thinking about but I know that

that isn't the answer so I don't really try to think about it

but latelt having urges is so bad I hate the way I feel

cause I've been thinking about my whole life

and it isn't happy like everyone I know

but I know their is some ppl like that besides me.

[Jeezy]

I never really thought about it. But I think there's nothing what would make me kill myself.

[Xero_]

No,there's no suicide in me,cause this means to give up and run away.That's the biggest mistake a human could make-to run away,no matter how (alkohol,drugs etc). As a whole the suicide is not an answer, a solution.If someone ain't able to get it alone he should seek help not death.

The people who commit a suicide are total cowards,there just too weak emotionally and because of the damn pride don't ask for help...everyone's got pride but some need help and ask 'bout it..only the stupid ones don't..

all of the above means Suicide=stupid.

Life may not be good at times,but there comes a moment when all payd out,and life ain't fucked up no more...all is needed is patience,strength comes with time.

If any of you thinks bout killin yourself think bout what all of us said,and please seek help.Most of here will help you if you let them.

think that's it..

[Lyson]

Right, so everyone has a different problem and view, but seriously, I think there's a thread on mental problems? well if there is a name for it, i dont know, but i got this thing about pain, both me and my brother, hence the reason we have so many piercings. He has tried suicide, many times. But me, I just like...like cutting myself, and the thought of having any kind of surgery makes me want to feel the pain afterwards. I 'm only telling you people this cuz u'll never know me...

[Stenners]

I have felt pretty terrible in my time but never considerd self harm or suicide

[Sygy]

i think about suicide all the time, i atempted it so many times and have been to hospital about three times. i went on anti-depressants for while but that just awful i just found myself laughing at random shit which wasnt even funny, then i just refused to take them anymore. My mum was on anti-depresants for ages but then she quit taking them to, my aunt hung herself so i guess that depression must run in my family or something. i have been selfharming for about 2 years and my wrists just look repulsive. i wish i didnt think like this that i didnt contemplate suicide as much as i do, but i know at the end of day i will probably just do it. kinda depressing.

[diana]

Well, in my depressed period, my thoughts went to self-harming and suicide... I never did anything in that way cuz I'm such a big coward! I hated myself and I wanted to harm myself but I just couldn't! Horrible feeling...it's almost as horrible as the feeling of hate. But, however, this thoughts are gone (on the surface)...bad times turned into good...I found out that there are some ppl out there that love me...I just felt loved again...and still feel like that...It's wonderful! That's the only thing that I needed and still need... And of course I'm sure that every bad feeling that I felt back then it's safely kept in my head...and it'll go out if something similar would happen to me...

 

But, anyway, I can't agree with Xero about some things...OK, maybe suicide really means "to run away" but...How the fuck do you know what's inside their heads!?! You don't know how bad their lives are! And I bet that you don't know what is the reason of them doing something bad to themselves! And I think that this shit: "Suicide=stupid" is really not appropriate...Who are you to judge who is stupid and who's not?!?...

 

I better stop before it's too late...but that's my opinion...sorry if I've offended anybody...

[Phranka]

No I've never thought that, I pretty much think suicide is wrong..

..

Few days ago at school there was going around that a boy in the 9th grade left a note which said:

"If you read this I'm probably gone"

 

Girls and boys (who probably weren't even his friends) cried that day.

 

I've heard it turned out not to be true, but I think you should never believe that no one loves you or no one would care.

[stupidsoul1]

Personally, sometimes i get to the point where i'm like ahhhhhhhh!! so i'd try to cut myself or something.

 

I wouldn't try to kill myself because i know atleast one person cares about me and that is just really cruel to them.

[allieking]

everytime i've thought about ending it i went into my kids rooms and looked at them, that made me think that they needed me too much. the only ppl who suffer from suicide are the ones left behind, so before you do it think about your family and how they will be when your gone, how they will feel, how it will leave an empty space in their lives.

[diana]

Yeah, but if you're so desperate that you want to commit a suicide, I don't think that you're gonna think bout other people's feelings...or maybe yes, but...I don't know...I think I wouldn't care bout my family back then...cuz I really felt no love and stuff...it's funny, though...how times and things change...I think I'm glad that I haven't done anything to myself...

But this thoughts that were in your head back then...they just made you stronger and that's good side of them...I don't regret that I was depressed...

[Cloud]

Yea!

 

easily because through my illness i can only live up to an average of 50-70. So I think whats the point of me working getting a gd job wen i cant even retire. Why dont i just end it?

 

I think this every day and yet do it cuz i know i can still enjoy my life! And i know i have to do it at the max for the life i have!

[meteora500]

I used to think about suicide once in a while during hard times, but never, ever would I actually go through with it.

[Shadowed Heart]

lol, I think about it quite often, and get real close too; but I doubt I'll ever get very far now, I mean, the conspirisy about the world being hit by a huge meteor or sumin' on '07 or '10, I have a slight beliefe in that, and used to want to end my own life rather than have some peice of rock do it for me, but I realize now... that there is a lot to live for, people that need you, this is kinda weird, but true, I'm like a second (or third... or fourth... or fifth) mother for a lot of friends, or a consiler or w/e/ >.< I guess being nosey is smtimes helpful..... -.- but I wouldn't kill my self, I mean.. after a lot of the shyt I've ALREADY delt with, and I'm not even 13, I figure things can only get better, and anything bad can't be anything I can't handle. :thumbsup: