misery's Journal v2.0

[diana]

Well, first thing...you don't know why she didn't call you back.

Second...I'll say that again...you are bothering too much about it, really...try to relax...

I think that you should wait for like 1 or 2 days then you can call her, if she's not gonna do that...And I think it's time that you tell her about your feelings or else you'll get insane cuz of all that worrying...

That's what I think...Oh, and I think that she's just waiting for you to do the step forward...but she won't wait forever...Just go for it!

[Jeezy]

Yeah....I think you should call her again....most of the times the girls like it when the guy does the first move...so...just call her...

[diana]

Yeah....I think you should call her again....most of the times the girls like it when the guy does the first move...so...just call her...

But not to quick! Wait for 2 days and than call her...this could be better move...that way she won't feel like you're obsessed with her...you know what I mean...and she will probably be thinking about you...yeah...

[Jeezy]

But not to quick! Wait for 2 days and than call her...this could be better move...that way she won't feel like you're obsessed with her...you know what I mean...and she will probably be thinking about you...yeah...

^^

Diana is right with that... :thumbsup:

[diana]

^^

Diana is right with that... :thumbsup:

I know I am... I know what I'm talking about...I'm a girl, remember?

[Phranka]

hehe okay I agree with di.

[misery]

Monday, July 24th

Entry #9

Mood - Good, for now.

 

Yea, it's technically Tuesday the 25th, but w/e.

 

Okay. Good news and bad. I'll start with the bad..

 

So I called Emily again yesterday. She was at work, unfortunately. I didn't leave a message this time, but she would've seen the missed call from me.. well, she didn't call back. Again. I saw her on MSN and she was acting like everything was normal and nothing had happened, and I was pissed off, so after she said 'Hey, hows it going?' I quickly replied with, 'I'm just checking my email before bed,' and then hit appear offline. I don't know what the hell I was thinking.. I pretty much blew her off.. a girl who I'm trying to get together with and who I'm starting to have less and less of a shot with it seems, and I act like a jackass like that? Fuck I'm stupid sometimes.

 

So today was damage control. I had her blocked while I was online, since I didn't want her to mention the phone call or anything and ask why I called, since I really didn't want to ask her to a movie on MSN. I finally got the bright idea that I should maybe talk to her and get our relationship back to what we had, lol. Even though it was just an MSN conversation, it felt a little tense for the first while, but we're cool now, lol. So back to square one.

 

As for the good news.. well, I don't have to worry about Austin any more. Em and I were joking about how much of a wanna-be player he is. She laughed about how he's taking all of these girls out, and how he thinks he's a pimp. So that's one less thing to worry about, and it couldn't have come at a better time, since it's coming down to it.

 

I was planning on phoning Emily tomorrow for one last try. After all, it's 3 strikes and you're out.. I'm on strike 2. Unfortunately and fortunately, she starts work at Staples tomorrow, 1:30-9:30, just like me. I probably won't see her much though, she's going to have to do orientation and all that jazz. I warned her about Brayden, in a joking manner of course. I'm starting to wonder if I should have, since if he makes a really good impression then I might have a bit of competition here. So I have two solutions to this: make Brayden look bad behind his back, and ask Emily out before Brayden has a chance to do anything. I already did a bit of the first part, lol.. just saying that Brayden is one of the "playa's" around Staples (I know for a fact that she doesn't like players). So, hopefully all goes well.. I'm not sure when or how I'm going to ask her out though. Now I sort of have an oppurtunity in person, but I don't know.. I guess when I have the oppurtunity, I'll go for it.

[Jeezy]

I wish you a lot of luck with this girl...hopefully it works out

[Phranka]

interesting story again.. hope it works out >.<

[diana]

I really hope that you'll ask Emily out succesfully...and that everything is gonna work out good for you...I wish you good luck!

[woodyloveslinkin]

yeah it takes me a lot of nerves to ask someone out. Good luck !

[misery]

Monday, July 31st

Entry #10

Mood - Good

 

I'm going to catch a movie with Emily tonight. Wish me luck

[Vash_the_Stampede]

Good luck Matteh.

Report back. Haha

[Victim]

Have fun at the movies!

[Phranka]

good luck hun! I wish you the best

[misery]

Tuesday, August 1st

Entry #11

Mood - Good

 

Okay. So the date went pretty much as planned. Standard first date stuff. I went and picked her up from her house a few minutes earlier than we agreed on. Oddly enough, we both seemed kind of nervous. My voice was a tiny bit wavy for a tiny bit (which I'm sure she noticed) and she was talking awfully quiet. This felt kind of weird, since we talk so openly normally, as friends. We both seemed a little bit out of our comfort zone. It was okay though, on the drive to the theatre we broke the tension.. all it takes is a couple of jokes, lol. We talked, but not really like we normally do.. it was more like an actual first date. We learned things about each other that we didn't know before, which is nice. It's cool that we kind of opened up to each other like that.

 

We got to the theatre, and of course, I paid. We sat down.. unfortunately, with the exception of a comment or two, we just kind of sat there throughout the whole movie. If I didn't know her so well already I would've asked her to go somewhere else.. like maybe for coffee or something, so we could talk and get to know each other, but I figured that since we already know each other a movie would be fine. Well, it was kind of odd and a little akward just sitting there through the whole movie..

 

After the movie we resumed talking, like normal. It was more just our usual conversation though.. stupid stories about ourselves, etc. It was cool.

 

Now all I have to worry about is getting a second date, lol. At least it won't be as difficult for me to do as the first one.. which in hindsight really shouldn't have been difficult in the first place. Oh well.

[diana]

Oh, I'm so happy that you 2 went on a date...and it sounds like a pretty good one...

Good luck with asking her out on a second one! :thumbsup:

[Jeezy]

Sounds alright...first dates are always a little akward...good luck with that girl...

[Phranka]

whoa sounds like my date.. only mine was worse..

 

Good luck

[Victim]

Sounds like you had a good time, despite the awkward moments which all dates have. I am happy all went well for you. And good luck with the future second date.

[misery]

Tuesday, August 1st

Entry #11

Mood - Good

 

Not sure if I should count this as an entry or not. Ehh, may as well.

 

Well, yea, it went pretty well, although it could have gone better. The reason I was kind of.. well, not treating it so much as a date, was because I wasn't sure if she knew it was a date, and I didn't want to make an ass of myself. It's pretty obvious (to both of us) that it was now, so next time I'm going to have to bring my 'A game', rofl. Nahh.. just flowers, dinner, etc. I'll probably phone her on Thursday, because of the whole '3 days' rule, lol.

 

Oh, and I'm now part of a computer/electronics store that my friend is running. It's called Ostora.. check it out The link is in my sig.

[misery]

Thursday, August 3rd

Entry #12

Mood - Confused, angry.. basically just unhappy.

 

Girls are confusing.

 

Okay, so I called Emily again yesterday, and she didn't answer. Well, she didn't phone back. Again. I don't know what to think now. Maybe from her point of view our little date didn't go good? Or maybe she missed the call because she was at work (at the resteraunt, not at Staples with me). But why didn't she call back? Again, everything was normal when I talked to her at work. In fact, she's going away this weekend to Regina, which kind of sucks since it impedes my progress a little bit. Maybe that's why she didn't call back? Perhaps she figured I'd be asking her if she wanted to do something this weekend and didn't want to tell me that she was going away, since it might look like she didn't want anything to do with me. Yea, that's a little far-fetched. Or maybe my call just didn't show up on her phone, who fucking knows.

 

So now I don't know what to do. I don't know when she leaves. If I don't call her, then she might think I'm not interested anymore. If I do call her, she's going to think I'm a moron since I know she's going to Regina for the weekend. And I won't be able to call her until tomorrow anyways, since it would seem kind of dumb for me to call her tonight after I just worked with her the whole evening, but she might be gone tomorrow.

 

I'm in quite the dilemma.

[Victim]

I hate when people don't return your phone calls, but most of the time there is a good reason. And even when I have a missed call, most of the time, I don't call the person back.. I'm so horrible..

 

And about calling her this weekend, I know when I go out of town, I still like people to call me.. Even if they know where I'll be.. Just call and just talk. Ask how she is doing and if she is having fun..

 

I dunno if I am really that good at giving advice.. but that is just how I would be, if I was out of town, I wouldn't mind someone calling me and asking me what I was up to.. But in the end you just gotta do, what you think is right.. Wherher you think you should call her or not.. Best of luck to you!

[twilightcrimson7]

Aww

Indeed, it is all way too complicated.

Call her tomorrow. If she thinks you lost interest, and thinks ill of you for it, then it's her own damn fault, and she's blind.

Ummm yeah, call her tomorrow, and if she thinks you're a moron, pretend like you called to say goodbye or something....

I dunno o.o

[misery]

Friday, August 4th

Entry #13

Mood - Okay.

 

Thanks for the kind words and advice

 

Alright, I talked to Em on MSN last night. She left for Regina early this morning :/ So I guess I'm just going to text her tomorrow or something and ask when she's coming back and if she wants to get together and do something when she does. That should at least get the point across that I'm still interested.

 

I hope she's not gone too long, lol. As pathetic as it sounds, I'm going to miss her even though it'll only be a few days.. I'm so used to talking to her every day, whether it be at work, on MSN or on the phone. Yea.. I'm a loser, rofl. Oh well.