misery's Journal v2.0

[Phranka]

hehe aw.. you're not a loser.. you obviously like her very much..

 

as always.. I hope it all goes well with her XD

[Victim]

Its normal for you to miss someone, even if they are only gone for acouple days..Your not a loser

[diana]

He he...you're not a loser...it's okay that you miss her...if you didn't you'd be a loser...

However, hold on there, buddy...and good luck!

[Jeezy]

Oh, come on...you are not a loser...it's normal that you miss her...it just shows that you really like her...

[Phranka]

How is Matt today XD?

[misery]

lol, you sparked an update

 

Tuesday, August 15th

Entry #14

Mood - Not too bad.

 

Okay, there has been alot going on here at LPF. I'm not going to discuss it though, since this journal is about my life outside of LPF And plus, I'm pretty opinionated when it comes to this, and the entry would be far too long, etc.

 

ANYWAYS.

 

Wow, it's been a while. Umm, I did end up texting Emily when she was gone. I asked her what day she got back, and said we should do something when she does. She said she was going to be back Monday (last Monday already, not the one we just had) but she already had plans with her friends. Okay, that had me fearing rejection, lol. It also caused me to kind of withdraw a bit, even though I know she really did have plans with a friend.

 

There was a little period in between then and now where, for some reason, there was quite a bit of tension between the two of us. I'll admit that it was mostly my fault.. I was kind of unhappy about how things were going, lol. We're back to normal, talking every day, etc. now though, so it's all good. Unfortunately, it now feels like I'm asking for that first date again, rofl. I have no idea how I'm going to do it, or when. I work with her the next 3 days though, so that'll give me some time to kiss her ass a bit before I make another move, rofl. I dunno, I'll maybe just end up phoning her this weekend and seeing if she wants to go grab something to eat later.

 

Oh, and I've given myself a deadline to seal the deal. 2 weeks. Why, you may ask? Well, simply put, Brayden is gone for 2 weeks. He's having troubles making a move, it seems, which is good for me. He said he was going to on Thursday, but it never happened.. but I'm assuming he's going to make one when he gets back from vacation, so that's why I made my little 2 week plan

 

Yea, that's about it. It's been a while, but it's good to be back in the old routine. I'll remember to keep posting

 

Edit: Holy hell, long post Bet you weren't expecting that when you asked that simple little question, huh Franka? lol

[Phranka]

heh that took a while..

(I was like.. *clicks profile "Replying to thread misery's journal etc." and again and again..*)

 

haha hm.. friends go first I guess >_<

myea maybe that's good..

 

well haha you and your life.. just so (much more) interesting (than mine).

seems much easier with you than it would be for me though..

I mean you can do it.. you're a good friend of hers..

I'm interested in how this is gonna turn out,

I'd love it if it'd work out.

 

lmao the brayden thing.. so evil.. made me laugh out loud

man I suck at journal replies and advice and stuff ^^'

so.. Just a reply of showing I care

[misery]

Ehh, you're better at journal replies and stuff than you think

My little Brayden plan.. yea, now that I think about it, it is kind of evil. Especially since he has no clue as to how I feel about Emily, rofl. He's completely oblivious..

 

Wow. That is evil. You're opening my eyes, lol.

 

Although I'm not going to change my plans, of course XD

[Phranka]

lmao.. nothing's wrong with a little evil.. when it comes to being in love.. lol

 

and yea.. i NEVER tell people when I like someone.. my friend told us about her crush.. and it got out about a week after.. without much success

 

my little secrets ^_^

 

thanks btw. :o

[diana]

He he...well...I missed your posts here...I was wondering what's going on between you guys...

However...damn, you're again bothering too much about askin her out again, lol...but that plan is what I like...even though is evil...you have to be evil sometimes....

I hope everything turns out well..Good luck! :thumbsup:

[misery]

Monday, August 21st

Entry #15

Mood - Confused.

 

Okay. So much for the plan. Here's why.

 

Work.

 

She worked Friday and Saturday at her other job. Sunday she worked until 7 at Staples, so that would've been the only day.. I work until 10 every night from Monday to Thursday.. she works Friday and Saturday at her other job til around 10, 10.30. UGH.

 

Notice how I said "would've" when talking about Sunday. Well, I called her on Friday after work (which was the only time I could) and she was at work at her other job.. and she didn't effing call back. I wasn't very happy. At that point (and all of yesterday) I decided to cut my losses and just give up. Unfortunately, she is acting like nothing happened or is going on. She's talking to me like normal. It's really confusing.. maybe she doesn't realize what's going on? Or maybe.. ugh, I don't know. There are so many questions running through my mind, and I've been through this all before.

 

If anybody is actually reading this.. what do you think? What should I do? What the hell is going through her mind? I'm coming to you guys for advice, because I have absolutely no idea.

 

Although I won't get many replies.. thank you.

[linkinpark-1]

It sucks when you don't know how a person you like feels about you. The confusion can drive you insane!

 

I can tell you that from my experiences...she is either totally oblivious to how you feel about her...or she is feeling the exact same way and she is just as confused as you are. My advice would be to flirt a little more and to make it more obvious that you like her.

[diana]

Well, maybe now it got to the point when you should just tell her what you feel...just like that...when you get to talk to her, try to tell her that you like her more than just a friend...Cuz, you know, this is not leading anywhere. You're stuck in the same place...you're friends and stuff...maybe she still don't know what's going on, maybe she do but...if she do know, she's being nasty to you. That's what I think...

Here you got my advice...hope it helped...and i hope you'll find the way to get through this... Be aware of the fact that I'm with you...I wish you the best!

[Phranka]

I agree with them.. I think it's been long enough now ^^;

Just tell her how much you like her.. You're her friend I'm sure she'll take it well..

[Jeezy]

I also think you should tell her how much you really like her...it's the only way to find out if she has those feelings, too...I hope it works out good for you...don't let it get you down...

[misery]

Wednesday, August 23rd

Entry #16

Mood - Surprisingly good.

 

Today was the one of the worst days of work I've ever had.

 

Apparently one of my managers thinks I get my stock out too slow. (I'm a stockboy, by the way..) That would be fine and dandy.. but it's her fault. Any time I work on getting the stock out, she gets me to do other stuff and says not to worry about the stock. And then she later bitches me out about the stock not being done. So with an hour an a half left in my shift, she tells me I need to get 5 hours worth of work done before I'm off. Ridiculous. I was extremely pissed off for the rest of the night. That's the shortened version of my story. I don't want to get into everything.

 

I talked to Emily a bit tonight. She went to a movie with Austin earlier. Of course I assume it's a bit of a date, since.. well, I'm a little paranoid. Well, at first, I was pretty upset, but we continued talking and we really seemed to open up to each other and actually have a meaningful conversation.. alot better than the shallow conversations we've been having of late. It was like before, when whatever we had between us started reaching it's high point. Not only that, but she actually wanted to hear what I had to say and listen to why I was upset over work. I don't know why it meant so much to me, but it did.. I told her if she ever needed to let anything out, I'm always here to listen.

 

Heh, it's amazing how the most amazingly shitty day can all turn around with one conversation.

[acdcrules04]

That sucks about your managers, I hate managers. That's why I'm selfemployed [a.k.a. unemployed]. That's really cool that you can have deep conersations with Emily, she seems pretty nice. You should definitly hang on to her. [i've read your whole jounal BTW... I'm not just making this up from one entry.]

[Phranka]

haha nice about the convo.. I hope you'll have more of those kinda convos cause they must be really helpful

 

would be really cool to see in this journal one day that it all worked out and moving on to girlfriend/boyfriend stories instead of crushbased stories lmao

[Jeezy]

Cool that you can have a nice conversation with her again....and I think Phranka is right...it would be cool to hear some girlfriend/boyfriend stories someday...

[Victim]

Managers can be a pain in the ass. They just like to bitch at someone..

 

I am glad things are going well with you and Emily right now.. Hopefully it will stay like this, and you won't have anyset backs.. Best of luck!

[diana]

This really sounds nice...I know how these deep conversations can beautify a day...I too appreciate all these stuff...it's just awesome! I'm happy for you and I hope you two will get together one day...I really do...

As for the work...Idk...I hope it will get better...hold on... :thumbsup:*hugs*

[Phranka]

Oh yeah deep convos really make my... night

[misery]

Friday, August 25th

Entry #17

Mood - Not too shabby.

 

Yesterday was pretty good. Emily and I ended up going on all of our breaks at work together (even though she started and finished 2 hours before me), so we just kind of talked, hung out, etc. We hardly ever get a chance to talk or hang out at work just because our schedules are always off by a couple of hours, but she ended up going like 4 hours without a break just to go with me, so that's gotta mean something.. right?! lol, probably not, but at least it doesn't mean anything negative.

 

So it's Em's birthday on the 2nd of September. I think I've figured out what I'm going to do.. nothing to drastic or anything, lol. I'm thinking I'll just send her flowers.. that'll get the point across. And hey, who doesn't like getting stuff on their birthday? It should work pretty well.

 

Even though I don't want to wait that long..

[Jeezy]

Sounds like you get along pretty well...and the flowers always work...give her a nice card with it...

[diana]

Well, this sounds good...it has to mean something, taht's for sure...something positive... Niiice...

Yeah, that bd gift sounds cool... :thumbsup: Good luck!