Riss'z Journal

[Sponge]

I was.....being serious......

 

spongies can be ugly..if you have a lot of oily grease on the dishes ewww

 

but i would go out with you Rissa if i had the balls and wasn't oogly!!!!!

[Shadowed Heart]

Lol. I would go out with you if you lived anywhere near me. XD

[woodyloveslinkin]

And I was being serious about you not being ugly.

 

Rissa, dear, I was in a 9 month abusive relationship last year and I've been used and used in various relationships basically half my life. I wouldn't like to see you get hurt darl.

[Shadowed Heart]

Lol. A little late to not get hurt.

 

Also. I'm not being too damaged. Afterall (as my friends tell me) he's not even my boyfriend until he can act like one.

 

And it's not abusive. Just... inactive and annoying.

[woodyloveslinkin]

And he's taking advantage of you. That's abuse.

[Sponge]

....well she does have a point. But still you really shouldnt't be with this guy if he doesn't care of the relationship!!!

 

I'm not ugly? That's a first.

[speedthief]

poor thing about you Riss.I think i wanna date with you as long as it's my fave(I better not do that on second thought cause of Crystal)

[woodyloveslinkin]

I would date you if I was a guy XD

[Sponge]

LOL trun into Jack woody and there!!!!

[Shadowed Heart]

Lol. Yeah speed, best remain with the girlfriend.

 

And Sarah, you don't need to be a guy to date me.

 

Lol jk.

[woodyloveslinkin]

I don't want to convert into Jack, I don't want to be married to a bitch named Karen. Lol. Awww, Rissa, I don't think my mother and boyfriend would approve of our relationship, somehow.

[Sponge]

....... ...........somehow I'm not creeped out about it!

[Shadowed Heart]

No? Just turned on? Lol.

 

So. We broke up last night...

 

Ugh.

[Sponge]

u....did!?!??!?!?!?!?!?.....so then...what now?

[Shadowed Heart]

Idk.

 

When I think about it. He's not worth even crying about. I mean... He cheated on me and I took him back. He's the second person I've done that for. Why? I'm so stupid. He was a shitty boyfriend and he's a shitty friend.

 

I haven't talked to him today. We SORT OF left things unresolved... which sucks because I NEED closure, but I really don't want to talk to him right now.

 

I want to apologize for being so mean though. I meant everything I said, but I could have said it nicer...

[Sponge]

Well in my opinion he shouldn't deserve to be talked to nice or respectively at all.

[Shadowed Heart]

Well. It was all done through text, so I'll just post the conversation, and you can tell me if I was too harsh:

 

Me:I have to ask you something. And actually text me back. Stop ignoring me.

Him: Wat

Me: Why haven't you broken up with me?

Him: Wat do you mean

Me: Why are you still with me?

Him: Idk to make you happy

Me: Lol like you're making me happy.

Him: ok

Me: Are you ashamed of me or something?

Him: no

Me: So what is it about me then?

Him: Idk

Me: Yes you do.

Him: no

Me: Yeah. Because I'm load I'm fat I'm stupid. What is it?

Him: i once dated someone exactly like you

Me: Okay... I could fix the problem if you'd tell me.

Him: No im through im sorry but i dont want people tellin me how to run relationship wen they dont know y im doin anythin ok the girl i dated had the same personality you do and you cant chance a personality

Me: Why you do anything? you DON'T do anything. And WHAT relationship? God. I fucking hate it when people lie to me.

Him: O me hell and this another god damn reason i havent broken up wit you yet cuz when i do you fuckin bitch me out

Me: DO IT IN PERSON YOU FUCKING PUSSY!

Him: so you can bitch me out twice as much and in front of everyone

Me: I wouldn't do that. But you wouldn't know because you don't have any balls and won't say anything to me face.

Him: watever

Me: You know it's true. Shit what is your problem with me?

Him: I just told you

Me: Not really. You told me I'm like someone else. That says nothing to me.

Him: Cuz she just was really outgoing and always wanted to do somethin im not like that

Me: So. You hate me because I ask you to do stuff with me?

Him: Hate you was the hell not hate just not compatible

Me: Whatever.

Him: watever

Me: Why are you such an asshole? Did I do something in particular or is it just me overall that makes you like this?

Him: Ok

Me: What?

*a little later*

Me: How is it that we're not compatible now... But we are whenever there's sex involved?

Him: No and you want to as much as i do so no bull shit like that

Me: I'm not saying I didn't want it. I'm only saying it's bullshit that you would only talk to me when you felt like something relating to sex was going to happen. Why?

Him: not really

Me: Really. What other times did you talk to me JUST because you wanted to talk to me?

Him: Wen i was at school

Me: Only when I would talk to you first, and even then, you would rarely say anything back.

Him: but i still talked

Me: Hardly. What kind of boyfriend are you? Or... Were.

*a little later*

Me: Before you start ignoring me again, can I ask you something?

Him: Wat

Me: Did you even want me?

Him: Wat

Me: Did you want me? Like when you said you wanted to be with me or that you loved me. Did you mean it?

Him: I did

Me: What made you change your mind?

Him: hte more and more you reminded me of my ex

Me: How did I do that?

*a little later*

Me: Oh by the way, were you cheating on me again?

Him: Nevermind

Me: Nevermind?

 

Okay. So. Everyone note. I can't STAND his crappy grammer.

[Sponge]

Ummm wow...you kinda were hard on hime. But he was acting like a dick tho. Sorry this happened to you.

[Shadowed Heart]

Yeah..

 

Should I apologize?

[speedthief]

if you think he's worthy to you,apologise.Or else NO!

[Sponge]

I say no. But that's my opinion.

[speedthief]

i have thought of this for you Riss:slap or fuck your BF?

[Shadowed Heart]

He's not worth it, no.

But he's like... SEVERELY depressed so idk...

[Sponge]

Well..it depends then. Why is he depressed?

[Shadowed Heart]

I don't know.

 

He never tells me.

 

BUT you can bet it made me feel REAL good when one of my friends was like "Yeah. Taylor seemed really happy today. It's probably because you guys broke up."